Tuesday, April 27, 2004

*The CallinG*

heh, at last hari nih aku beli calling card n i was on the phone for more than 2 hours. Puas hati aku dpt ckp ngan sume org kat mesia....memula call umah dpt ckp ngan abah n ma..x sempat ckp lama pun coz diorg nak smayang tp sempat aa nak soksek2 kejap..heheh, its soo therapeutic for me and i laughed a lot listening to their stories n all!!!missing them...

then called my auntie n this akak yg aku kenal mase balik mesia cuti summer arituh b4 dpt ckp ngan my sis. So many things we talked about...how to deal wif insensitive ppl, funny stories bout our lil cousins, her future plans and my life here..

hmmm..actually my mind is pretty hopeless rite now, or should i say post-exam syndrome. Been thinking of doing some reading tonite but seems to end up doing nothing....off to sleep now~!

Monday, April 26, 2004

*CluelesS*

yak yak yeay, midsem exam dah abis, ade one integrated paper (1 1/2 hours) this morning that worth 5 % for my 2nd year final marks..on cardio n respiratory systems. And that's it! My say: heh, so n so lahh, aku buat jeh paper tadi, bile dpt result nanti baru pk balik kan?? tak habis lagi aku happy sbb dah abis exam, dptla pulak brite yg assignment yg patutnye due on this friday dah extend to next week..yahoo!! so xyah aa aku pulun buat b4 jumaat nih..*euphoria*

hmmm, life aku dah jadik normal balik...rasanya mmg bile dah bz n occupied dgn benda2 lain, kite kurang pk psl benda merepek2 nih,ntahla..blur pulak aku mlm nih:p Maybe sbb dah xde benda sgt nak pk terus tershut down..adoi!! papepun aku rasa skang nih dah lama x borak ngan mak n akak aku..been more than 2 weeks already..patutla aku rasa mandom..huhuhu, calling card abis. I need to get a new one b4 this weekend to call my cousin yg nak engange on the May 1st..

Friday, April 23, 2004

*WajiB FardHu AiN*

hahahah, this week everything seems to be much much better (apart from the post office thingy:p) for me. To sum up, everything fall into places, and my mind started to clear out from the 'cloud' that has been bugging me during the hols..Owh, i just feel so good*grin*..cesss, do i sound so soaappyyyy!!???yucksss..

well, this week my fren started to get me into this agreement of....*sshhh*LOL!! maybe sbb dia x puas hati aku x nak jumpe dia time balik summer nanti...hahhahah, she is really something!Siap nak take notes all the things in my list..pergh!! wonder where she will end up..

"semua syarat wajib ke?"
"wajib fardhu ain.."


trust me girl, it isn't that easy!

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

*Catch uP*

hmmm, been a while aight??*frown*
wat to write aa??aiyo, i might bored you with the same lame tales over n over again..seems like i've forgot or simply shuusshhh-ing everything around me:p

wats been happening to me??cant recall that much..The past week of easter holiday was not bad, spending most of the time hibernating in my room til my head ached and my stomach growled:p heh, at least i finished off a few story books, visits some fren's house (which also means FREE LUNCH) and out to the city finding some stuffs...the rest of the days was just another HISTORY*shhh* i dont wanna remember anything n keep my mind out of it..

whats in my head??? 5% exam next week..hahahaha, ppl keep on saying that '5%' thingy to calm you down but still, it freaks me out!!! heh, who wouldn't rite???heaps of things that i need to squeeze into my lil brain that somehow i just lose in the middle of things. EVIDENCE: 2 days ago, i went to the post office to post somehing and just walk out without paying the bill.. my mind wass so occupied and didnt realise about that till the lady called me up outside the office..SHAME ON ME!!! owh, please lah jgn dia ingat aku nih saje jeh buat mcm tuh...:p

hmmm, enough of rambling..peace!

Friday, April 16, 2004

*HOORRAYY!!*

hahahahha, at last after ber si-fu kan farina, aku bejaya posting gambo.....aku rasa dia dah x larat nak tepuk2 dahi dah mase ajar aku tuh sbb a bit BLUR..ala, baru bgn tido aa time tuh..pala weng2 sket:p

p/s...euuwww, aku rasa x sanggup plak nak biar gambo nih kat sini...so aku delete jeh aa eh!!peace..
*CRAP!*

duhh, since smalam doneeh.com nih buat hal, so hafta list all my shout-replies in here..

NaD: welkam2, any thot is greatly appreciated..:p

FatmA
: heh, the 'PRS' thingy just miraculously put a big smile on my face!!!hahahha, fatma, u just know how to 'tickle' me...:p

Cousin: haaa, hows the preparation for the 'Labour day'??hehehhe, dun forget to send me some nice pics of urs..miss ya!

FarinA: 1. hohohoho, sedihkan lagu 'januari' tuh???tp mmg masyuk aa bile dgr lagu tuh,giving me a good excuse to space out again:p 2. cehhh, lagi nak kasi aku jeles pasal pegi tgk show..sabar jelah minah nih.."khayalan menjelma...lalallalal" btw, aku dah layan dah lagu tipah tertipu..cukup enak utk jd soundtrack aku n zila for Al* s*t*n~LOL 3.owhh, aku pun x realise psl setting tuh*SHAME* hahah. aku dah tukar dah, hopefully it works out well...:p

p/s...skang tgh gile dgr lagu so7..berhenti berharap n menyelamatkanmu...duhhhh, aku SUKEEERRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

*EnjoY*

ok2..aku dah bejaya upload most of my pics so sesape nak tgk silalah click"pictures"(heh, maapla aku x reti nak link2 kat posting nih terus:p)..hehheh..so enjoyla yer!!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

*WhatS WronG??*

Yesterday, i had dinner by 7 n later minum air milo dlm kul 9..i used to hit the bed around 11 tp since cuti, aku extend aa sket sbb layan intenet..dlm kul 12 lebih aku dah rasa x larat, aku pun siap2 nak tido...hmm, xleh nak tido...rasa sakit perut pastu bile aku tarik nafas jeh, ulu hati aku rasa pedih..ok owww! bdn aku pun dh rasa seram sejuk n x selesa...sejuk yg melampau2 plak...mcm2 cara aku buat tp still x lelap jugak...then aku decided to sapu minyak mestika n pakai my flannel nightie on top of my pyjama...hmm,still mcm tuh jugak. By then aku dah terpk nak pegi jeh tido bilik syaf n syima...tp aku tunggu dulu kot2 sakit tuh akan ilang. hmm, x jugak..pastu aku terpk maybe kena pegi mkn sumthing tp aku TAKUT nak turun downstairs sorang2*kekekke* lama gile aku terbaring atas katil x tahu nak wat per...mcm2 cara aku buat nak lelap...mcm2 posisi tido aku try tp still x ease up jugak...bile aku cek balik jam dah kul 130am..meaning almost 1 hour aku dok mcm tuh....huhuhuhuhuhu..aku pun x sedar bile masa aku lena....*sigh*

p/s..pls dun tell me that its gastric*frown*

Sunday, April 11, 2004

wonder why??

a few days ago, aku agak piss off with one of my close fren..hurm, I guess that i've bored her with the similar dilemma since last yer. If ever i know that i'll end up like that, i swear not to start on that topic,keep everything to myself! I didnt expect much after sharing my story, a few soothing lines will do. Instead, she just cut it off and left me with the tought "hmm, salah ke ape yg aku buat nih??"..waaaaa!!! up to now, aku rasa x ready lg nak msg dia or anything, i need time to heal the wound. Ntahla, aku pun x pahamm...tapi satu jeh yg aku paham: lps nih xyah aaa gatal2 nak cite ur prob kat org lain, maybe they just couldnt be bothered with u yatt!!keep ur mouth shut n use ur fingers for sumthing better!!!Kalu slame nih aku slalu try my best to comfort n listen to her all, this time she really upset me..nahhh, im far from being an angel to just forget everything and be super-duper nice to everyone!! sedihhhhhh.....

Friday, April 09, 2004

*Holiday blueS*

yeayy!!at last dah cuti easter, tho' its just one week. Sumthing that i really look forward after enduring the long hours of classes:p Heh, last week was as hectic as it can be, tapi aku sempat skip 2 evening lectures on complementary medicine last tuesday(heh, put the blame on that nasi briyani eh?!!hahahaha) . Wednesday, aku pegi trip bwk my CPP residents ke melbourne zoo.Last time was 2 yers ago n nothing much has changed..aduihh,penat gak tolak wheelchair keliling zoo tuh tp x kisah aa. BIle lagi nak berbakti kan??tp aku terpk gak, how does it feel going to the familiar places you used to go with ur children a few years back, but this time on a wheelchair n assisted by 'strangers'?? Worse still, bile tgk other ppl yg maybe at the same age of urs but managed to walk here n there with their famili..sedih kan?? tapi actually x sume yg dok nursing home nih 'terbuang', ade yg just xnak nyusahkan anak2 n other family. This time,aku teman makcik nih, Valis. Aku x penah jumpe rasanya b4 nih. She's nice n easy, hadnt had much trouble being with her:=) She loves sun very much that evrytime ktrg berenti, dia soh aku letak dia kat bwh matahari. Tapi bile aku cite aku agak x tahan panas,cepat2 dia soh aku duduk bwh shade. Padahal aku sesaje jeh nak becite kt dia n mase tuh xde aa terik sgt,hehehehe:p Ktrg byk gak aa borak2 n bile dia stat bitau psl 2 of her children dah meninggal coz of breast cancer n heart attack, mata dia dah berair n suara pun dah sebak..Ok oww! Aku pun terkedu time tuh n just be senyap for a few moments. After a while, dia dah ok balik..:=) Balik tuh aku pening kepala n rasa nak demam, cepat2 minum teh madu panas..

Yesterday nite, we watched 'secret window' at Chadstone. Since sampe awal, pegi aa jln2 dulu carik easter eggs yg tgh sale tp aku x beli pun..nak tunggu org kasi??~lol!~nvm...heh, cite tuh ok aa n johnny depp was charming, eventho dlm cite tuh dia jadik org yg sgtla ntah hape2..hurm!xde aa seram mana tp aku ade 'terkejut' mase tgk part dlm umah dia*shame* heh,since aku nih mmg lembab nak pick up clues, sampe habis br aku tahu sape yg culpritnye, eventho diorg nih dok kata dah pretty obvious towards the end of the story sape yg buat sume keje2 tuh..hahahha*double shame*

"hahahha yatt, cemanalahh kalu ko tgk ju-on kat wayang eh??"
"cessssssssssssss!!!hampehh ko!"


n today aku stat baca buku cite 'silent treatment' yg aku beli kat 2nd hand kiosk kat uni last month tp x sempat nak baca..engaging gak aa..

Sunday, April 04, 2004

*ExcursioN TherapieS*

yeayy!! weekend nih aku x dok kat umah sgt. hari sabtu we had the girls outing to the strawberry park at the Sunny Ridge somewhere in Mornington-Peninsula, then luncheon at the beach(cant recall its name now!) with mihun n sambal(spicy!!) before off to the Ashcombe Maze..konvoi ramai2 naik 6 buah keta n i'm in the same car wif zila,cik tun, nenn n shaida..the weather was nice and we had sooo much FUN!!yerp, u can only think of 2 things at the farm:eat and pics!!tetiba trase nak keje plak kat tmpt2 mcm nih:p heheh..later, we managed to get lost in the maze for a while n kept on bumping into each other..hahahhaah!! things went on smoothly that day n sgt2 enjoy this trip coz sume org happy2 n xde nak rushing2..we take our own sweet time n enjoy ourselves (even with the jokes in the car!!humm)..will upload some pics later(i really mean 'later'!!)

today which is sunday, after usrah me n 3 other frens went to the M3lbourn3 Intern8tion8l Flow3r & Gard3n Show dekat city..pheww, berbaloi aa ktrg belari2 nak naik bas kat bus loop:p soo many beautiful flowers and landscape utk garden pun sgtla cun!!heheh, if i am that wealthy, would wanna have one in my house:p heheh, aku end up beli frame gambar yg tgh sale n a few bunga 'palsu' yg aku rasa worth buying. Ade gak a few dance performance kat tgh2 garden tuh..hmm, interesting!! owh, the day was enjoyable, but not the journey back home coz tetiba train kat city jadik 'bengong'..dahla delay satu train, pastu boleh pulak sesuka hati tukar destination..sib baikla ktrg x end up kat Werribee tgh2 mlm..ggrr!!!sib baik aku x amuk sbb tgh sonok dapat beli bunga:p ala2 4 flower girls yg sesat kat tgh2 train station..tapi yg paling klakar mase lari nak kejar last bas kat huntingdale st, sebijik mcm ayam katik dah x dulik dah bunge2 kat tgn tuh cemana..hahahhahaha

Saturday, April 03, 2004

*AnotheR OnE*

Ruff3dg3 fe8t VE- Kh8yalan


1,2,3,4
Tiada apa ku dapat
bersamamu hanya penat
mereka bisa berkata apa
kerana tidak merasa
beban yang terpahat
di dada sungguh menyeksa
terpinga pinga aku
dalam dilema kamu( kamu,kamu,kamu)
terbang mengejar
mimpi kamu(kamu,kamu,kamu)
buat ku sendiri lagi
khayalan menjelma lagi
menghantui diri

versi 1
khayalan menjelma
ketika fikiran
melayang menjauh
mengenangkanmu
suaramu yang mesra
mengalunkan lagu
irama hatimu yang sepi
aku dapat merasa
engkau dalam derita
tentang kasihmu
tinggalkan pergi

versi 2
ku masih terdengar
senandung dugamu
yang kau curahkan
di malam itu
wajahmu terbayang
mengukir senyuman
yang penuh
dengan kepahitan
aku sungguh simpati
atas nasib dirimu
tapi apakah
dayaku ini

chorus

diriku sudah pun berpunya
kasih hati
tak mungkin ku tukar ganti
padamu
yang datang dalam khayalan

khayalan...

(ulang)
carilah pengganti
agar kau gembira lagi
usahlah kau menganggu
wajahmu muncul
dalam khayalan
diriku sudah pun
berpunya kekasih hati
tak mungkin
ku tukar ganti padamu
yang datang dalam khayalan...


kekkeke, lagu nih pun best!!1st time aku dgr mase tgh replay AF time cuti harituh..tapi agak hampeh gak aa lirik dia..pompuan tuh bunian ke aaa???:p
Favourite tuninG

Gl3nn - J8nu8ri K8sihku Ber8khir


Berat beban ku...meninggalkanmu
Separuh nafas jiwaku sirna
Bukan salahmu apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
Tak berpihak pada kita

CHORUS
Kasih ku sampai disini
Kisah kita jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan kerna kita berbeza
Dengarkan...dengarkan lagu
Lagu ini melodi rintihan hati ini
Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku
Pergilah....

*CHORUS

Dengarkan lagu
Lagu ini melodi rintihan hati ini
kisah kita berakhir..berakhir...berakhir...di Januari
Berakhir Di Januari

heh, been hooked to this song now...after listening to it in my fren's car mase awal2 sampe oz this yer. Actually mase kat mesia dah penah dgr tp xde aa plak nak amik tahu ke ape..:p yerp, i love this song eventho agak clueless psl lirik dia..hmm, what happen aa in this 'song'?????

Thursday, April 01, 2004

*enough said*

yesterday, i was in the nursing home for the whole day. Fair bits of sitting exercise, bringing couples of the residents across the street for afternoon coffee and playing botchee(ala2 lawn bowl)..That morning, ade dis lady yg dah tegur aku n later mase tgh main games tuh, dia cam senyum2 kat aku. Aku pun pegi aa dekat dia...then she gave me a big HUG!!owhh, aku suprised gile coz i didnt have any memory of talking to her before..big grin on her face...cheerful and nice lady. I chatted for a while with her. Hmm, she did mention her name yesterday but i couldnt recall it anymore. aiyo!
ok2, this is the best part. With another lady, she asked about my veil thingy n then, we just had a normal chat about her past life n family. Suddenly...

"so, how old are u?coz i cant see that well now"
"hmm, 22"
"and are u married?"

"(ahh, sudah..)hmm, nope"
"haaaa!! ur 22 and ur not married??why??i was married at the age of 16.Tell me, why didnt u get married"
adoiiii!!
"hehehhehe, because im still studying."
"so after ur study, do u plan to get married?"

"(of course!!)yeahh, hope so"
"So, have u found the 'good person'?"
"Hmm(isk2, probing habis makcik nih!)not yet. Maybe later..hahahahhah".....
"i tell u (with a serious face) u might regret later on. When u have someone and then married him, u might think that ohh, i shuld have done it earlier"
"lol!!yeah maybe.."

"So tell me darling, what stops u?is it ur parents?or urself?"
"(gulp)..hmm, myself i think. Its easier to get married after i finish study(bluff!).."

and the conversation goes on n on..hahhaahh, my stomach is aching by then coz penat tahan gelak. Well, never before someone asked me about this thing as thoroughly as this, not even my parents. Bear in mind tho' that she's already 90 sumthing year old..