Saturday, October 30, 2004

*ErKK!!*

...hadoii, x tahu lps nih bape lama aku akan terpaksa ajak org teman utk turun bawah mlm2..tido dgn lampu terbukak or awal2 sebelum org lain tido..n lucky skang dah ade roomate or else terpaksa angkut sleeping bag tido bilik lain...n for sure xkan stay kat rumah sorang2 at nite..

..pesal ape? hohoho, aku pegi satu blog nih yg letak cite2 hantu skali ngan gambar2, huwaaa!! menyesalnye aku pegi tgk..kan dah terbayang2...khayalan ke, superimpose ke, tahyul ke...aku akan amik masa nak get over ngan benda2 nih..

...x pecaya? haa, korang dtg dok umah aku n tunggu aku bukak email2 yg ada hantar gambar2 pelik2 tuh..sure jantung korang akan lari2 and telinga korang akan berdengung2...
*End of Med 2042*

...yerp, yesterday was the last day of my on-campus education..will be off to one of the hospitals (havent heard anything about the placement yet *sigh*) starting next year for the clinical years..adoi, time flies! nothing much happened on that day..attended 1st PBL session..well, more to a PBL intro..but i was practically worn out that morning..up for more than 7 hours already, lucky didnt fall asleep :p prior to that, handed in my behaviorial change project report..eheh, blog crap <-- its all about ;) ...

... i'm left with a group photo of 200 (plus some absentees) studs in one of the lecture theatres for this year..great bunch of fellows..challenging year academically and emotionally (huhuhu!)..yet i still find the course is fun (??) ..pray hard that by the end of this 5 years..the spirit is still there :D...

Thursday, October 28, 2004

*La, baca lagi kE?*

...hahahah, meh aku gelakkan korang siap2 :p adoii, hidup aku skang nih asik nak tergelak jeh..rasa nak gelakkan diri sendri pun ade...nak gelakkan org lain pun lagilah ada,hohoho...

...lawak bile ingat balik ape yg aku dah go thru lately....ituhla, kan dah kata toksah , degil nak continue jugak...bilelah aku nak reti blaja cara2 buat org x sakit hati?? pastu dok hok hek sorang2..nak buat keje pun x tenang..padan muka sendri..nih baru org kata buku bertemu ruas...jap eh, apsal mcm kena marah jeh?...

...lawak bile tgk org lain..ape yg dikata x serupa yg dibuat..well, none of my bussiness pun...hohohoh...aku nih boleh tlg dengar je, nak ckp lebih2 pun dah malas :p tapi nak tolong sama2 gelak pun boleh jugak...hahahhaha*adeihh!*...

...dah dah, lepas nih buat cara org normal, dok diam2..toksah ngengada nak buat itu ini..hiee, makan orang baru tahu!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

*Toksah bacA*

...tahap sangap yang amat :p smalam 1st time aku cuba meletupkan perut dlm bulan pose nih dgn food yg berbagai2..adoi! sampe xleh nak tido sbb kenyang sgt...untill 12 am then baru ade hati nak landing kat atas katil...tuh pun lps buat jahat ngan org..alamakk, bilelah aku nih nak srik drpd sakitkan hati org lain....the katil is the very convenient one sebab betul2 menghadap study table aku..bile2 masa jeh aku boleh dive :p jaga kul 3..mekasihla tlg misscall/buzzkan aku....tringat chicken pie yg x rasa lagi smalam, n mee goreng yang x penah puas makan...tuhla sahur aku plus bits of other food as well *burps* adoi, cekang perut nih, nak telan air pun x larat ;)...

...sedar diri next week nak exam n byk lagi x cover, bukakla buku.. sambil2 'belek' pc kat depan mata..hehe..dekat kul 7 trase nak mandi..tp mcm biasa after mandi jadik ngantuk..so sempatla buku tuh baca aku dlm sejam kat atas katil :p bgn2 buat ape yg patut..pastu paksa syu mlayan aku main games...literati...hahah, since dua2 sangap so x pasal2 scrabble pun jadik cam beshh..hohoho..eventho aku tahu riak tuh x elok esp bulan pose, tapi aku nak ckp jugak yg aku beat syu (ayohh, jgn jerit dah syu..telinga aku nih sensitive ;)) alaa...words pun cam budak skola tadika jeh..

...haa, kan dah kata toksah baca :p

Monday, October 25, 2004

*GilA*

...hahahahah, this morning was really sumthing..even while doing this entry pun aku rasa nak sengih jehh :p we were both napping (uhuk, at 830 am :p) when someone entered our room and passed a quite big parcel to her...jeng jeng jeng! by then aku dah boleh agak wats going on...tp aku just senyum dlm mamai...and waited for her response...

...but i couldnt hold it any longer and burst out laughing..loud!! this whole thing really tickled me and made me laugh merrily...call me crazy but it is funny :p ...up to a point i hafta cover my face with my duvet and continue giggling..adoi, sakit perutla gelak2 nih :p...

... while sitting on my bed and looking at her expression, i continued grinning but i wouldnt wanna say anything..reckon i've said wayy to much and i told her that. but somehow, they really amuse me (seriously!)...what a good start for the last week of MED 2042...

Friday, October 22, 2004

*The memory laneS*

...my 1st kad raya for this year..from 1zza, my close mate a.k.a partner in crime back in skool..i used to call her with this special nick but wont disclose it here :p dunno y but i cried after reading her words..really hit me well at this moment..all i can say is that among all our acquaintances, very few would actually stick to be our fren *shrug* get what i mean??...

...guess i'm entitled for a break now...till then take care and be good everyone *hugs*

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

*Ini bukan cobaan, ini betul2*

...hehe, missed my sahur today..what happened?? guess i'm too tired by the time i went to bed albeit its 930pm...turned off the alarm clock at 3 am, closed my eyes for a while only to open it again at 4 am...exactly time subuh masuk..adoi !! lazy i was, so continued slumbering for another hour before jumping off the bed...

...i dont mind much about the empty stomach.. if its not the headache i've to bear for the day..it stopped me from doing my work, loadss of it :(( the throbbing pain started as early as 7 am..hafta lied down, sleeping mostly and reading the story book...

..it got better after noon, n suprisingly my stomach hasnt started its concerto, not even now..hehe, its always the headache that worried me n i cant do much about it, coz it'll only cease once i stuffed myself :p glad that i dont have any class for today, n can just stay indoor :p...

..so, anyone care to misscall/buzz me at 3 am, which means at 1 am in mesia tomorrow onwards?? if not then i have to settle with my mate's LOUD (really LOUD!) alarm clock..hahaha, i prohibited her to use it b4 because often had 'racing heart beat' after that...adoi, mmg bingit telinga :p

Monday, October 18, 2004

*Ole-olE*

...ma : serunding daging, keropok, asam (drooling!), ikan bilis junkies :p

...kak sya:tart nenas & almond london (ok oww, drooling again!)

thanks for all these..much appreciated :x
*SurviveD*

...student case presentation this morning..TOUGH but i'm so glad that its finally over ...we presented about type 1 diabetes..well, actually we planned to do it like a news presentation but called it off due to some reason (erk, lazy!lazy!) hehe, we just wanna be nice not to confuse everyone with the jargon and stuff :p had to answer a couple of substantial questions from the audience and facilitate the group discussion...warghh, the tutor was pretty critical i reckon... didnt give us much time to answer or at least to think of the answer *shrug* ...anyhow, it went pretty smooth and i just feel so relieved now that i can proceed with my lagging revision,huhuhu!!

...today, someone declared himself/herself to be mainly muslim but also belive in jewish religion, right under my nose (pls all meddies, no wild guess is needed here!)..and later mentioned that she/he wanted to go to 1srael to practise medicine..just because of his/her obsession towards that country..we were in the middle of the discussion when he brought that up and i couldnt remember how we actually landed to that issues.. self-confession: i was stunned and pissed off but dare not to question/confront...well, i wish i have the gut *sigh* they were also making jokes about terrosist thingy but it didnt really offend me much, not as much as the 'declaration'...

...chilling weather..its harder to cope than the fasting :p hehe, its really an effort not to snuggle in my bed early in the morning after sahur (subuh :4am), but i wouldnt feel comfortable to sleep with a filled stomach either ..somehow the weather also made me think twice for any advanced limb movements (brisk walk!) *syhh!*

...alrite, received a parcel full of my fav food :=D thanks ma! adik used to say that she wanted to study abroad because then she'll get the attention from the family,hahahha..that kid!

Sunday, October 17, 2004

*The BeginninG*

...commencing Ramadhan with a new life, well sort of :p

...terawikh kat rumah on the 1st nite..hehe, not something new but i always enjoy it..memasing nak ngelat x nak jadik imam..aku tolak engkau, engkau tolak aku :p tapi usuallynye ktrg alternate..paling kelakar kalu sesape terleka ngadap pc sambil2 tunggu2 isyak, sure sejadah dia dah elok terletak kat tengah2, depan sket drpd org lain..pastu the rest siap2 amik tempat kat tepi,hahahah...ayat favourite "oihh, cepatla smayang..aku x tahan nak ken*ut nih!!"

...activities : alternated between some work, music n internet (getting bored with it :p)..spent the evening brisk walking (chilling spring, duh!) and kitchen therapy with the recipe book ..ahaha, the ayam asam pedas n baked muhsroom smelt soo nice ;) hmm, due to my limited cooking skills, really need the book to vary the meals otherwise will only have either masak sambal, kicap or soup, plus the not-so-green vegies*grin*

...mind : the cloud has gone and welcome back my sun!!hahah, xdelahh, i need to hold onto sumthing or else evrything would go haywire..and now is the best time to 'refresh' myself..let gone be bygone aite? things that arent worth to ponder over coz they'll mess ur brain and heart :p insya Allah, the prayers will be answered...

p/s..i laugh my head off reading this "Kenangan masa Tadarrus, as junior, kena partner2 dengan senior. Kadang2 partner dengan rakan sebaya. Masa ni lah bermacam gelagat tidor boleh dipelajari. Paling femes: Tarik tudung kebawah sikit, tangan tunjuk ke satu ayat, then...tidor. Kengkonon kalau sekali pandang, macam kita khusyuk baca. Macam la tak nampak kepala sengguk2. Hahaha!"

Friday, October 15, 2004

*RamadhaN al MubaraK*

...called ma, she almost couldnt recognise me for my unusually sorrowful voice. my heart ached with homesickness but as always, she'd cheer me up..good laugh over the stories of my adik n kak...background of abah's voice and songs from the radio..told her about the falling drives to study, the monotonous life of mine and lack of spirit for Ramadhan..huhuh! listened to her soothed me a lil bit...reminded me to be strong and go on with life... things happened one after another..'ve been missing my parents so much this year :((

...email from sis-in-law..telling she's already send the requested parcel of kuih raya :p pray hard that i'll leave some for the eid,kekeke..a bit early to say but the house's planning to have the BBQ on the 2nd day of raya..huwaaa!! going to miss this family occasion eventhough we only had it for the 1st time last year...i helped out my brother to organise n buy stuffs..joyful yet tiring! well, togetherness its all that matter :p hmm, will they agree for the idea of another BBQ when i'm back ?? she said they might but i believe everyone will be back to their places by the time i reach home..aiyo!

...called kak, this lady is struggling for her final exams..poor thing!insya Allah, things will be just fine for u ;) this year, wiil only spend her time away in KL just for the 1st week in Ramadhan then home she'll be...uhuk, haven as it sound rite? but the good news, her hols end on the 29th nov, so i'll be exercising my 'whinging and bossy' skills earlier than i thought :p bad lil sis, u bet!

... so for this upcoming fasting..'m expecting 2 parcels and a roller-coaster mood (exam!)..regardless, happy fasting to all *still wondering why only victorians gonna start on saturday??*

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

...tak pernah aku rasa homesick mcm nih,huwaaaa!!...
*ShruG*

...heh, what else to say? i'm being unfair and bitter, again...aint life is like that, full of suprises and not-so-nice stories...should have thought about that before but maybe i'm just too dumb...well, the damage is done, n i thank u...

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

*BrokE*

....yerp, went to the flight centre today for my last payment..its sizzling hot but lucky, i'm in the car ;p hohoho, dont ask me how much does it cost to go back this time coz u'll be suprised how 'generous' i am...pray hard that MARA will refund my (??) money if there's BTN during the hols :p well, if its not because of no availability on the 20th, i'll be in msia by that date coz my OSCE exam finished on the 18th:p so i'm going back with S!ngapore Airlines on the 22nd and reach home the next day..past the eid already :((

...excited? yes, i am...lets see whats going to happen over the break : my cousin's big day in Ipoh somewhere in nov..yess! its gonna be fun with all the families get together (hope no one dares to ask for the sourvernir ;p) and do the preparation..ahhh, always love the spirit (i mean of togetherness not the wedding,ahaha!)...

...will be having L!yana back in msia for a month..been more than a year since i met her, cant wait to spend our time together again..this time lets go to the Istana Budaya to watch the theatre and maybe another dugong-trip to sg congkak??hahah...plus her promised treat for my birthday (hey,dont look at me that way... i didnt ask for it :p) yeayy!! n we'll be the same age for about 24 days before her big 2* :p

...insya Allah, my sis' engagement with her man..arghh, cant help giggling remembering how it happen...sorry, i have to keep the story to myself *amanah, fatanah etc* nway before her status changes next year, wanna spend time with her...of course, we are just like the other normal siblings..going out shopping but end up quarreling on our way back,hahah! and guess who's playing the lil devil??
*ProductivE?*

...hahaha, finally i'm over with the critical learning incident reports..my last piece? typed it in one nite..lucky though coz i've drafted the essay during my rural week..thought that it was due this friday so i procrastinated.. sunday morning, sy1ma told me it needed to be submitted the next day..my reflex? keep on procrastinating till that nite coz i've got the book of 'a crack in forever' to read..hehehe...typed it up to 11pm then went to bed..planned to continue after 12pm but no, in bed till 5am..ok oww, thinking of skip a lecture this evening if i couldnt get it done by 8 am..but somehow i managed...

...jeng jeng jeng, that monday morning we also have to present our HPKM project... no rehearsal as planned *syhh!* alhamdulillah it went on smoothly and i'm pretty happy with how the project goes..final report due this friday, duhh! for our last class that day, decided to take the notes and walked home ...oh yeah, sape kata yatt nih budak baik??:p

*ListeN!*

...our last usrah discussed about Islam and nasihat. yelah, org slalu ckp manusia nih mudah terlupa thats why kena selalu diingatkan...

...why do we bother giving some words to the other ppl? are we are good enough to tell them wats right n wats wrong? heh, do we need to go thru the same pain and trouble before saying those 'idealistic' thoughts??...

...bagi aku advice is more than just a reminder...its actually a bonding between two ppl, another way to show that we care and mind about their problem..we are not there to tell them wat to do or give some solutions to their problem, but more to listen and validate their worries..n maybe to an extent try to rationalise things with them..ppl cant think straight at that time and having another person to be by their side is as good as having a bar of choc :p

...what if our real experience is actually near zero? never or almost never? are we the right ones to talk to? then i reckon its a matter of trust and sincerity. trust given by the person to share their problem and sincerity showed by the other parties. yes its easier said that done, so what?? doesnt mean that if we've never been thru that phase of life, we should be considered as ignorant and clueless..well,the senses of look, listen, touch.. they can also teach us sumthing rite?

...i dont normally share my problem with others...bottled up everything and let it rot *shrug* maybe coz i dont feel comfortable talking about myself, and hate to think that i might sound like a sympathy-seeker..used to tell a few but often ended up feeling useless and dismissed.. n now i dont easily trust ppl.. and the only few ppl that i confide my secrets keep on shrinking in number...i dont expect much, just lend ur ears for a while and keep the stories to urselves..safe and sound ;)

...ppl, the sympathy-seeker thingy is maybe my other negative-paranoid thought..so it is never applied to u :p

Monday, October 11, 2004

*CluelesS*

...i guess that's it...

Sunday, October 10, 2004

*YeS??*

...somehow i noticed the differences, but wouldnt say anything...bet everyone need their own space and time and u own them all mate ;)

..something must have been the reason, but whatever it is, i know u are strong enough to go thru it..best wishes and good care of urself alrite??

Friday, October 08, 2004

*BoreD*

...ahahha, dont ask me why coz i'm clueless as well....maybe thats the main reason y recently i could be fast asleep by 9 or 10 pm (hahaha, plus i couldnt stand looking at my roomate nicely tucked in her bed :p tapi at least dia bangun balik after that!!!)

...slalu bile dah tido awal sure akan terjaga awal kan?? tapi aku suke golek2 atas katil dulu, sejam dua after that barulah betul2 bangun and buat kerja..and by that evening, aku dah x sabar2 nak tunggu malam sebab nak tido balik,hahahhah!! sebabnye aku dah bosan :((

...tengok, korang yang baca pun buhsan!! tuh sebab aku malas nak update :p

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

*BreaK*

...why do i need to think hard over a trivial matter???...

...why do i bother about other ppl, how they are doing with life? what are they up to? what would they say if i...?

...why can't i ignore others' attitude and just do anything i wish?...

...when will my mind stop worrying?...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

*MuM KnowS BesT*

"..ohh, dia ada tanya pasal nur ke?"
"haah..pastu ma jawabla.."
"ma jawab ape?"
"ma katalah xde..nak ngaji dulu..tak cerdik pun lagi"
"hahahahha!!"
"haha..tuhla, ma rasa nur nih mcm budak lagi..x nmpk cam dah besar pun..x macam kak..maybe sbb kak tuh panggil kak, rasa dia dah matured je. nur nih sebab man** sgt ngan ma,rasa macam 'kecik' jeh..frankly speaking ma ckp.."

... our last conversation, a long one. Talked about life and love,lalalalala! Nway, told her my points and views, seemed like the philosophy runs in the family ;P..

Owh, i guess that explains why i need to get the earliest ticket back to msia! Never had enough of staying home during the hols. Would send her off to school with "ma, balik awal deh,hehe"..didnt do much before noon..not untill she's home coz then only i can do work :p i would be more than happy to tag along with my parents wherever they go, well almost...with adik staying back watching her all-fav tv shows.

now i really looking forward to see my parents again and HUG them...yes, i miss that here :((
*TessellaR Tulip FestivaL*



...subhanallahh...


...rasa cam nak makan jeh bunga2 nih:p...


...heh, jangan tertipu dgn bunga2 dlm bakul tuh, plastik belaka :p...



...y@tt,!l!,sy!ma,zil@,k!m!...

p/s.end of the spring break...back to the routines,duhh!

Saturday, October 02, 2004

*PAssioN*


...try-out at the monash sports centre..nway, tgh break tuh bukannye mase main betul2(uhuk, boleh shoot ke kalu ade defender kat depan tuh:p)


...one fine game of M@SCA ,VIC vs NSW.Final score:39-5,yeayy!! it was an hour game of 15 mins each quarter.The other team was fairly good, with the basketballers (fast!) and stuff..but we managed to put up a better game :=D with the dodgy court(lines of masking tapes, net-less poll and its actually on the tennis court), we still enjoyed the game and lol over ones' clown-like action ;p heh, running and jumping always make u feel gud rite??


...GO VIC :s@b,far@h,y@tt,su,shit@h,ayun!,kim!(table-tennis),eff!e(captain),akm@l,najiyy@h...


...cheering for VIC basketballers (ehem, plus watching some other players,i mean their skills ,muahaha!)..really enjoy the sports, fast and furious ppl in it:p