sweet home...happy-happy! eheh, now we are of 6 ppl in a hse & the new 2 are just great.. sekepala & lets say tukang2 gelak utk lawak ktrg:p ya Allah, had too much laugh in a day, i ended with headache;) we cooked craved food...err not really 'we' coz now i always skip the cooking part,ngeheheh!! karaoked of the oldies & indons( eheh, sib baik x rak-rak-rummm katil tuh)..all the off-tuned & replay,duhh!'ve got new fav 'dialoques' , lil secrets in the hse!! such a wanna-be-actress-but-cant:p

the reality show? its not-so-clear-black-and-white-thingy, iskkkk! sitting 1m away from the monitor, standby with a pillow & hide behind other ppl's back....i'd say 've watched it:p again my eyes were on the pillow or elsewhere but the screen most of the time...still managed to catch some glimpses on the highlighted part...okeh2, xmoh ingat dah:p

so today, i'm off to tasmania...cadbury's & nature,yeayy!!take care ppl;)

surgical unit 3...ward round starts around 730(huwaa, cam budak skola jeh!) till an hour later.. more like doing wake-up call from ward to ward:P..lucky me so far, havent got drilled by the dr's with god-knows-what questions..new generation of medico's, i reckon;) but still struggling with the list of abbreviations used in the patients' report,eheh:p load of paperworks, otherwise nothing much happening in the ward...opss, got the chance to be in the theatre couple of times..obstructed small bowel that dilated a few times bigger, amazed! hmm, scrub's actually a procedures before we enter the green zone. so syu, is it the yellowish-yucky-colour-iodine solution for scrubbing that u are after??:p

two problem-based-learning (PBL) each week..patient's & paper's..presenting sub topic to the group based on the case given,the tricky part is actually to know wats important clinically among the longgg list of causes, symptoms etc...no point in remembering a particular rare syndrome/condition but stuffed up when listing the classical symptoms of heart attack..make sense rite? ehehe, the consultant tutors helps us a lot with that:)

patients' contact? up to us, but of course practise makes perfect...approach the nurse manager or dr's in charge, ask for any patient's with good clinical history, perform either histroy taking or examination...hmmm, will take years to actually master all the skills , n i'm still struggling to memorise all the significant findings n differential diagnosis for the presented problems, erkk!

enjoying my pathology & radiology's classes, cool tutors...supposed to be self-directed learning but being knowledge-insufficient, we need to starts from scratch =( looking on the bright side, its more practical coz got to put things into perspective with on going clinical experiences..appreciate how they teach us to remember key points for the illness, classify! eheh, pray hard that all the jargons stick in my mind for future use;)

okeh, easter break!!

...not the first time had this kinda question..were asked many times before, and i think ppl've got my honest say...i just dunno,let it be..not gonna think about it, better that way...ignorance is a bless...

stuffed up*sigh. thot that my bad rural experience last year would be the last,having to deal with racism watsnot ....somehow these ppl just dont know how to show some respect towards others, feeling superior over the other,huhuhuh... especially this week, particular person keep on pushing others to do thing her/his way...with the pbl thingy, accept any constructive critiques , but when someone starts talking too much & make it sounds as if others are doing crap...thats rude

again with the grup assignment for critical observation...with only 7 students in this hosp, 5 are in the same group=all excluding 2 of us..left with no choice but do it in a group of 2.. annoyed with the whole thing, as if we the international students are nothing but a bunch of idiots who know nothing more than what they know & hopeless in doing stuffs...bitter!! for this year, a lot of things i've sacrificed but these kinda attitudes just put me down..make me wonder how am i going to survive the rest of the year...i dont mind all the workload, fair enough..but when ppl started being nasty & selfish, hell with them...

i'm not a superwoman, never dreams of being one...i wish for someone to be there for me ...to listen to my words & cheer me up...to convince that i'm doing right & goin to be thru with the hardship.someone i can depend on & appreciate me no matter what....sorry, this last para is a bit out of topic:(

5 mins before i'm off to bed..obviously cant write much..later eh;)

quote of the day

"jgn ego sgt..terutama pd diri sendiri"

mixed feeling, honestly...even at this point, i cant say much about it :p..blergh, am i being paranoid ? maybe if this is to happen earlier, i feel happier & sure of what i'm gonna do next...hmmm, life is never easy aite? there'll always be sumthing that stop u ...

the stigma & 'typical' notation...somehow i'm not in favour of getting such remarks from ppl...i find it very intimidating & nasty...thats y i'd rather stay away...*sigh

well, should be posted later, not sooner..

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Yang menanti ku

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Siapakah dulu membina harapan

Dan siapa yang memusnahkan impian

Tanpa sebab dan alasan

Kau mainkan perasaan

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Masa nan silam

Ada ketika terbawa-bawa oleh resah

Mimpi yang tak sudah

eheh, me & my mum's fav....it was the soundtrack of malay series samarinda with j!ns shamsudin & sar!mah in it...happy hour for both of us, it is..

things happened.. for some reason or another...all we need to do is change the angle for a fresh look(blergh, merepek ape nih??) well, sometimes i do hate being a girl..why? the emotional instability that drain much of me...then i'll wish for things not to happen in the 1st place..

err what, a cupid???...oh my god!!*bit my nail & run away*...

eheh, ikut hati nak pegi uk nx year..n travel europe..maybe end of the year after habis 4th year final exam..before enrolling into final year of MBBS..hmm, wanna go there badly now:( it wasnt really in my head till i read about a girl's trip to europe & she wasnt even studying there..hmm, kalu dia boleh aku pun sure boleh..well, as long as i save enough money for this 2 years..get in touch with the frens there & find good company to go along, everything should be ok;) nak pergi, nak pergi!! i'm not picky & have not preference over which countries that i wanna go before anywhere else, it should be easier..

there's a big BUT tho..permission from my parents, hardest part of all..huhuhuh!!

nur,
even though life is so unpredictable
let us just take a day at a time
exist in peace, do we are able
although there's always some mountain to climb

never give up , though hard it may be
once something's achieved, you'll actually see
really the effort has set you heart free

travel the world, do what you can
always remeber GOD has his plan, NEVER give up
let hope never worn
live life to the fullest, always believe
you're in good hand, eyes,
you will achieve, each that you wish for

now is the hour, you need to do
especially those things important to you
otherwise life will be so untrue
-ayah long saidi, 13902-

reading this again just made me feel contented & special=) so to know that there's always someone out there who cares & believes in me.. got this b4 i boarded the plane to down under =)

urghh, i need a ruler..i lost the old one:( cant do my work without .....n weird enough the hospital doesnt have any stationery shop(err, should it??)..eihh,geramnye!

clayton,tuesday??? made my way back after class on monday,Eva gave us a lift that evening..spending a not-too-bad-weekend in franston & i was feeling a bit down, the least i could do was to be h.o.m.e...and i was being persistent! the idea came up during monday lunch hour,"eh, collin russel xde kan esok? jom aa balik clayton..aku x tahan dah nih..nak balik jugak!!"
so here i am, cuddling my pc & enjoying my comfort space:p last nite's dinner was nasi bukhari..i got the rempah from a fren, so none of us really know how it should taste actually...aku pun x berani nak jadik chef..takat pegi dapur nak amik bau jeh :p

before meal
"haa makanla, tapi nasi nih macam rasa berbiji2 sket..x masak sket kot"
"hehehe, xdelaa..nasi bukhari mmg mcm tuh:D"..lol!
after meal
"hmm, berkerak2 la kat bawah nih.."
"hahahha, xperrr..nasi bukhari mmg mcm tuh"

i'm so happy-happy!!

h.i.b.e.r.n.a.t.e.

remember about yesterday? i undid it..clicked the cancel button this morning..why? i just felt sumthing isnt rite...full stop

hmm, would start on the exercise again, rasa sgt2 unfit n lemau dah skarang nih..thinking of doing yoga also...haha,never really tried this before..might need to ask around for the vcd...abisla terbelit2 badan aku lepas nih:p...

blerghh, this getting shorter and shorter..

yeay yeay, tv n internet in the house!!hehe, nap with the tv turned on:p hmmm, a bit dissapointed with the prepaid tho..a bit tembel,duhhhhh!! but of course it better than nothing...

i did sumthing i never thot would do tonite.at least after so long..hahhaha, kamikaze! but have a good feeling that it wont change anything...