Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Someday I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so I'm afraid to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

couldnt find any other song with stronger emotion than this..

For once

It's just after a week

sms-Yups, enjoying it. so far rasa segar. but today x compliance plak. neway, feel already losing some inch kot'

(since she took it for wellness, i'm sure weight and inches are not her priorities..but more like a bonus!)

and as for me? this will do

to Mrs Siddiq, you might find these sites useful..enjoy it ok!

http://akmal-herbalife.blogspot.com/search/label/herbalife%20tips

http://akmal-herbalife.blogspot.com/search/label/shake%20recipes

Game??

'for number one, it is how u look at urself. ko rasa diri ko cemana. so utk ko, u see urself as fragile, lemah and need to be taken care of. actually, i'm suprised that u didnt say because it's beautiful...or colourful cos aku macam expect that kinda reason for it'

'for number two, it's someone who u'd like to be with. so, yours is rare,susah nak dapat..'

'for number three, it's who u actually are. so, you are a survivor'

Last week's

i walked home exasperated. long hours is not as worst as having to deal with p*g-headed ppl. i'm suprised how much certain malaysians love make other ppl less welcomed and comfortable in their own land. heh, personally i regards u ppl as making fool of urselves and respect is not something u gonna get from me *rolled eyes* what a shallow minded so-called berbudi-bahasa ppl we have here*chuckle*

well, whatever*shrug*

let's move on to something fun, ok. well, for a start i decided to take out my dissapointment, despair and longingness with a few laps every night.it worked really well, i figured. high on endorphins, i'm a bit better to brave another day. it's just that i can be a bit funny. since i choose to have my private moments roughly past maghrib prayer, the pool's abit dark so instead of having a peace of mind under the water, i end up imagining things. u know, that things..syyhhh, i know i know. i must not watch horror movie anymore!!*cover eyes*

Also, i make sure i'm full-on for the weekend.nothing's worse than doing nothing. the weekend before, 1zza came over to our place. during the day, we were at CS and enjoyed girls' time browsing items in the display area. got myself one of need-to-buy stuff. went out for dinner at tunggu sebentars1nggah selalu before heading to danga bay. another girls' time strolling, laughing and acting teens;) i really had good time, i do. we end up with a nice collection of photos that night.

then, i went out with my housemates to pelang1 plaza to enjoy end-of-the-week treat. japanese food tastes nicer with ur friends to share and compliment on the decoration. i'm happy with how my 2 australian friends enjoy their malaysian experiences. from the small thing of trying goreng pisang cicah kicap pedas to massive shopping opportunities..but as malaysian, i'm ashamed of how the taxi driver rip our money off every now and then, worse still to remind them to be careful of pick-pocket's in shopping mall. why cant this country be more safe and enjoyable tourist place? and to my BIGGEST blow, one of them was very upset the other day after being bullied and accused by the so-called medical practitioner. tell me, aint they got enough of making things hard on us, the locals?

and as requested.....*drum roll pls*
HELLO, WIEZA & SERI!!! (and syu;))

to far1na, syu, wieza and seri..thanks so much for coming over and giving us blast of time..we sure had so much fun in singapore, eye-ing the animals and sale-hunting...not to forget food-tasting ( i dare not to mention the name of the meals, kan seri kan???LOL).. tiny weeny funny incidences/conversation we had spice it all up too;)

and to add to the crowd, az1e izza and tote was there for our sunday breakfast. *yippee*

Help me!

I AM SO STRESSED OUT.

like i told esah, my supervisor's a dirty pervert but at the same time, an icon for medicine in malaysia. he's damn good and full of knowledge to give out, but no joking his 'accidental behaviour' and dirty words freaks me out. like, i've never been in this kinda profesional dilemma before where i know i'll learn almost everything from a person but his attitude is way out of norm.

suffice to say, he set up high standard and i am nowhere near to achieve that. yes, be realistic. how much reading can i do when i've got 5 modules to take care of at the same time in 6 weeks? didnt our memory and concentration capacity also deteriorates while we're stress? this M0nash thingy also demands researches but i'm only connected while i'm in hosp. ok, dont get me started about the desperate weirdos on the roads who stops us from thinking about coming home late to finish our job.

i still havent figure out how to finish everything and at the same time, impress THE supervisor.

i tell you, i do have palpitation and cold hands now.

STEP BY STEP

1. Read about the nutritional facts of herbalife products (refer entry below)

2. Here's for more testimonials about the products

http://akmal-herbalife.blogspot.com/search/label/testimonial

look out for mine in there

3. Order your herbalife now.

- Starter packs (can either choose vanilla, chocholate, tropical fruit or cappucino flavour) consists of Formula 1, Formula 3, Tea mix and spoon=easily last for a month if u take it twice daily
-Shaker= very useful for breakfast if ur running late.

leave ur email here or contact me, i'll give u further details.

4. Snap a lot of pics of urself, body parts and face. Measure ur body parts in inches (arm, waist, bottom, hips) and keep records of them. weigh urself.

5. Once u get ur herbalife, enjoy the shake twice and a normal meal daily , on top of that mix ur mineral water bottle with tea mix.
observe ur energy changes. my advice is dont focus too much on the lost kg's and inches, but observe also ur energy level, skin condition and 'unhealthy cravings'. ehem, we gotta lose some to win some kan?after all, u can still enjoy ur daily doses of fave food, just make sure its moderately taken;)

6. Repeat step 4 after day 3, day 7, day 14. records ur achievements and share with me.

dont worry, i'm not doing door-to-door promotion. i'm writing this for the sake of sharing my experiences and spread it out to those interested. after all, i've got nothing to lose here. i will always stay slim and HEALTHY, no matter what;)

Superwoman;)

i was preparing my breakfast shake when my housemate came to the kitchen

S: so, how long have u been taking this thing? (referring to herbal1fe, what else?;))

Me: hmm, more than a month actually but i havent been consistent before i came here.

S: dont u get sick of it? ( must be tired of seeing me getting my breakfast and dinner done in a blender)

Me: not really. in fact, it helps me with my migraine and gastritis. i dont get it anymore

S: really?

Me: yup. i always get gastritis because i skip and dont really bother about meals ( psstt, when i'm actually lazy to prepare meals),but with this one not anymore cos i make sure i have it.

S: is your migraine really bad?

Me: yup, the one with nausea and vomiting. sometimes, i just forget to drink water so i get headache. so with this one, i make sure i drink 2L of water.

i shuld've added the first reason: I never have enough of shakes**..

let me tell u a story. while i was doing my elective before coming to JB, i woke up barely at 645 and knackered out by 10pm.sometimes even before that. i didnt have to stand for long hours in the hospital, kinda ok days. well, every meddies knows that elective's supposed to be a light rotation.

for this rotation though, it has been very long days. i wake up at 6am so that i could do some work, be in the hospital from 8-5 and stand most of the time or walk up and down the hill, come home and stay awake until past 11pm. i know its nothing new for some of u,no offense. but its eyebrow-lifting for me cos i only have

breakfast: 500ml of shake**.

lunch: normal meal +500ml of teamix*

dinner: 500ml of shake

before sleep: 500ml of teamix

kinda funny with this kind of eating habit, i dont get gastritis which i would've some time ago. kinda funny with this kind of day, i dont suffer from headache.

i must have turned into superwoman.

opss, u mean starved or deprived myself from eating? heh, i still get my daily doses of fave food once a day. moderation is the key;)

**half cup of soymilk +half cup of plain water+half cup of yoghurt drink/apple +2 spoon of Formula 1 Nutritious Mixed Soy Powder Drink +1 spoon of Formula 3 Blended Soy and Whey Protein Powder +ice cubes(occasionally cos i cant tolerate ice) =500ml shake.

*500ml water bottle +a spoon of teamix.

p/s..i know i sound all obsessed and ridiculous about this , never mind that. read what other people say HERE

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sigh

it was a pleasant weekend in ipoh with my aunt and fellow cousins. we potato-couched on friday night with Stranger than F1ction(well, nice movie...but nothing extraordinary), Identity (MUST WATCH, mind-blowing!!) and The Prestige(hmm,not too bad...still worth watching). i know, here's the only place where i can watch movies without falling asleep. kinda impressive,hehe.

next day was the event i went there for. his engagement..and liz, yes it's benz i'm talking about. earlier,i enjoyed u-cant-escape-laughing trivia over breakfast with my aunt and her sons..here's 4 brothers who truly cherish their brotherhood, rare breeds.

so, my brother cousin has tied the knot. part of me is happy for he has found his better half, but half of me is undeniably sad for all the company priviledge i'm gonna miss. heh,whatever...

after that, i went out with my aunt for our girly girly party princess. oh yes,here's for being her princess. she insisted me to choose and happily pay for it.

i shouldnt say no to this, right?


i was back in JB by sunday morning. hmm, out of the blue moon my heart went funny again. said to myself, please dont. i cant ... overwhelmed, i run away. this time, i settled for Mukhs1n. pure innocent love, if u ask me. it beats any of Yasm1n Ahmad's other movie (sorry, i dont dig sepet cos i hardly see love, but lust)..good laugh all along but at the end of it, something got into my eyes..hmm. i like how the story ends itself. familiar.

'the house seems lonely without u all'- sms from my aunt.

mixed-up.i shed. i asked myself, why sunday never go easy on me? why the thought, why the wish?

it was monday. the incident. for once, i am grateful for my white coat. dirty old man BASTARD. very upset and traumatised, SHOCKED. i wrote to Pau1, the australian gentleman who's in charge here, i know he's the only one who can help me go through this. i wish the person not to get away with this, even it means putting my graduation at stakes.

sigh *head down*

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin’ alone
I think of all the friends I’ve known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody’s home

All by myself
Don’t wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don’t wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don’t wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

When I was young
I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

All by myself
Don’t wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don’t wanna live
Oh
Don’t wanna live
By myself, by myself
Anymore
By myself
Anymore
Oh
All by myself
Don’t wanna live
I never, never, never
Needed anyone

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Disclaimer: they're facts. i, by no means wish to go vain or brag.

i've been using herbal1fe for the past month to maintain the lost weight and lose some more. although i havent been able to use it religiously due to event after event in my life,differences are noted.

- i lost 3 kilo's and maintain my weight at it.
- my waist went down from 29 to 25.5 inches, so does other part of my bodies too (need to ask me personally about that)
- a lot of relatives commented that i've shrunk. brothers, cousins, distant families and family friends. even my tailor couldnt recognise me cos she said i was big (ouch ouch ouch!) when we last met.
- my skin gets better.
- i sent all my baju kurung for alteration and have got no jeans to wear cos they are all loose now.i can fit into my sister's S-sized skirt too.
- i feel good about myself.

if u ask me why?

- i dont have to worry about my breakfast and dinner. i'm running busy at the moment, so does i believe most of us. my meals will be formula 1+formula 3+a cup of soymilk+a cup of plain water(u can add up yoghurt, fresh fruits or yoghurt drink...whichever u like to it)+ice cubes..can either blend or use the shaker...in between, i fill in my water bottle with formula 2(tea mix)..it keeps me hydrated and energised for the whole day. i sustain my whole morning with shake, have normal lunch and light dinner with another shake. for me, its a reasonable way of losing weight and keeping me healthy.

-for all i know, i've got all the nutrients and vitamins needed in daily basis. no need for multivitamins tablet, no need for energy drink whatsoever. this actually detox ur body as well.

- once i've established my ideal/wished weight, i'll continue using this. for a health conscious but too lazy to prepare good meals like me, this is the ultimate solution.have it once daily and i'm done for the nutrients requirement.easy peasy.

- i am what i eat.

if i can divide us into 3 categories

-health person who wanna stay healthy= consume this once daily and u'll be nutrionised & energised.

-someone who need to do something with weight= u can lose and gain weight with this product. it's a meal replacement plan. u DONT have to starve urself to lose weight, nor binge into fattening notorious food to gain weight. just DONT.

- suffer from medical problems= i know a friend who uses this for her sinusitis and approved that it works. i've read about ppl having various kind of illnesses(diabetes, high blood pressure, acne etc) who benefits from this as well. it may not cure but helps u control the probs.

i'm here to be ur personal motivator.can either call or email snuryati@gmail.com. otherwise just leave ur email here and i'll write back to u. it doesnt hurt to share good experiences, right?