This is what weekend's all about...

for saturday,

before the match...

during the match...

Msia 8- 0 Tr!nidad & Tobago...C0mm0nwealth Games, Melb0urne 2006

after the match

...and for sunday

binge time at kak sajar's house;) my tummy must've stretched out for that day...hehehe

Elated...

i'm ecstatic about the upcoming events for this weekend. so much so, i feel lost amid the excitement,ngaaaaaa....

Melb0urne 2006

I'm so gonna enjoy this =D

Mumba Festival...


worst thing: i forgot my camera=( i guess, Dory is really my middle name..heheh

'Too Much Pride Can Kill A Man'- Daredev!l

Warm hearted

A: nasib baik la aku ada kawan macam ko ngan To*e..
A: apa korang cakap sangat make sense pada aku
A: thanks a lot yatt...
A: ko tak tau how much it means for me..

sometimes it doesnt take all the sweetest talk to make ppl feel appreciated. this one will do for me...

Little dreams

~> For my final year (insya Allah) it'll be great if i can do my selective block in UK/Eire and then spend my holiday block of 6 weeks to travel and visit my frens.. hmmm, so much for dream comes true =D The only things that make it a bit tricky now is to get permission from my parents and to find someone to be my company, otherwise i'm game.i know, the other tempting destination would be Msia but at the moment i feel like going places ...

~> I'd love to stay in melb for another year or two after the graduation. Its not that i dont miss Msia and the ppl (plus the FOOD) but again, i feel like doing something more over here..work experiences and watsnot. so Nisa, i feel you about making this decision (tho i might be lacking one individual to think/consider about =p)

~>I dont think practising medicine (insya Allah) in East Msia is a bad idea altogether. hehehe, i must've gone crazy to say this but i'd like to have a bit of feel living in sabah/sarawak for some time. its more to prove my survival skills i guess ( as if i havent spend enough time away=p ) and get to know other ppl...could've been influenced by some reading about ppl's adventures as well..

~> this one, i'd like to keep it to myself thank u=)

we'll see how i go about all these. doesnt matter if none comes true, at least i know i've lived to my dreams until then..

=D

wheee, i'm done with the Core Curriculum's notes *sigh in relief*

wheee, i borrowed another 4 storybooks from JM's library.

wheee, i slept for more than 8 hours last nite *gulp in guilt*

wheee, i'm gonna continue on reading Ten Teachers' book.

whee, i bicycled around the neighbourhood this evening.

wheee, i have these dreams i do not wish to let go just yet.

wheee, i'm happy.

=D

12:30 am

and i was wide awake, laughing and joking around with the housemates.

Z: nih apsal tak tido lagi nih..
aku: (tersenyap)
Z: ohhh, patutla dia takde kelas esokk..cett
aku: ohh, cakap dgn aku ke?? hahahaha

Saje-saje...


Down under collections, tho some are specially brought from msia;) but now all are safely kept in the wardrobe..takut habuk nanti;)


these two who often cilok my space to sleep..bak kata L, bear tuh lagi besar dari aku..hahaha, mmg penyibuk pun dua2 nih, penah jugak terfikir 'hmm, sape yg nak tido sebenarnye nih??..' =p



hehe, bunny choc nih aku dapat mase dekat2 easter last year which was around April from a tutor.. tapi aku sayang nak makan so ingat nak simpan dulu..simpan punye simpan, last week baru noticed balik and decided nak makan..so adela dekat setahun dia jadi hiasan kat study table aku..comei!

Suprise suprise!!

yesterday was full of fun. N and i proceed with our plan to watch the very longgggg overdue movie of lion-witch-wardrobe..shessshh, i know it's very very long overdue but does it matter?hehe...anyway, N came up with this idea last weekend so i thought why not. Off we went to The Village together with A,M,Z who had their fair share of shopping spree while we spend the 2 hours fascinated and moved by the story.

Later was the weekly doses of women making waves. with the blistering hot weather for the past 3 days, this one was definitely heaven. Came back home with a pack of grilled Nando's chicken and chips. The household was getting ready for movie time as i started my dinner. Yes, i noticed they were hissing and 'kalut-ing' over God-knows-what but couldnt bother to ask. was about to go downstairs and upon seeing me, they looked pretty 'upset' and 'gelabah', so i simply turn back and said

'sorry, tak kacau..'

all i can guess was that they might be planning on some suprise but again, i kept my nose out of it. they urged me to go to S' room for the movie, came upstairs with food and smiled from ears to ear. Then when they sang the song for me & S, i looked at them blankly and the 1st thing that came out from my mouth:

'tak fahamm... kenapa korang buat nih?'

ok, this was suppose to be a suprise belated birthday for me & S =D they should be thankful for my nature of LPU-lambat pick up that i didnt suspect anything, not even noticed the cake they were about to take out from the oven when i went downstairs earlier. hahahaha.


to Z, M, A,B,I: loads of thanks for this sweet thought..who would've guessed that i'll be having my birthday cake 2 months post the date? the bestest hand-made prune cake ever (courtesy of I) and sushi treat ;)

Continued

I actually read Hani's when i 1st know about the news. i feel so hopeless being at the other end of the world, not knowing what's gonna happen next and how she's doing at the moment. lucky there's this strong circle of sisterhood we managed to keep up despite the distances. sms-ed and IM-ed around to get the updates. a bit relieved to know that she's recovering well.

as far as aneesa's concern, i've always admired her strong will and determination. she's one hell of a tough lass, hardly give up on anything and never put herself down. Girl,i pray for ur speedy recovery and wish to be there for u..*hugs*

Deep scar...

We both agree that no matter how good things are now, the scar will remain there. 'walaupun semua dah ok, parutnye masih ada'. to see how much she's affected by this and how much he has/might have changed devastated me. personally, nothing will ever be the same for me again. pain and anguish lingers, so does the voice at the back of my head. i was also being told about the happenings in my absence, much to my suprise and relief. i'm entitled to be sad and dissapointed over this, but i decided not to. instead, i wanna move on with life together with her and try my best to be good to all. i need strength so He gives me strength..

p/s: n!esa, i just read about ur admittance to the hospital in han!'s blog. i'm so sorry to hear and pray for ur speedy recovery. take a good care of urself , please=)

p/s: im not the best person to say this but try not to lose hope, mr robot. even if all fails u, turn to HIM. prayers is as worth as ur effort, i'd say. be it fyp or anything. to annoy u a bit: u shuldnt settle the migraine with other's meds. its much much better and safer to get urself a prescription. no coercion though.

Tough=)

its not easy to stand tall and keep up the spirit.

all this while, i seems to put myself in a difficult situation where i assume a lot and risk nothing. yes, ppl who knows me well will understand what i'm trying to say here. maybe i've listen to more than enough stories that in the end, i just wanna protect myself from those experiences. a bit of coward u might say. but as time goes by, i figured that i aint gain anything from the self-built shield. not to say that i've thrown away completely the shield though.

i hope no one has misread my writings. nothing is really happening. i'm still the old me who laughs more and sleep even more. sheshh!

How's that?

i was in the library to print out some notes while waiting for my O&G mate to go to the ward. Something went wrong with the thumbdrive and i was busy asking around when my phone rang the sms tone.

there's this guy at my back who turned to me and said
'thats the coolest ringtone eva..'

i had to laugh.i did. it sort of tickled me cos all this while, there have other ppl who commented on the tone and 'romantic' seemed to be the popular one*d'ohh*

hmm, lantak korangla nak kata ape pun....

More of..?

i was exchanging sms with my sis-in-law last nite when she last texted

......bcoz u r so special.

for what she wishes for me in the text, i'm touched. patience will always pay off. insya Allah, dengan izin Allah.

>>one once reminded me that i shouldnt let anyone determine my happiness. it might be easier said than done but i know she's speaking the truth. and rite now, i'm leading my life with those words in mind..

Priceless of me?

heheheh, never mind the tittle above but i do find myself having happy-hormones-overdose. everything's getting along fine with me, i'm having more and more positive thoughts about life and hmmmm i just feel precious...

and if its not now, there'll be some time sooner for all the good things to happen.

with that, come this silent vow/promise/hope/dream/prayer for certain commitment. dont kill urself trying to figure out what and who though cos its not worth asking the questions to me. and it might be none of what you are thinking/imagining at the time of reading this=D

positive vibes? unlimited;)

One fine saturday...

Eyes wide open around 6. *haiiihh, rugi bangun awal weekend nih* but in a way, its good cos that means extra few hours to spend during the wake. quickly resumed on Narut0 to catch up with Z and later when everyone's out of bed, decided to watched L0ng Kh0ng, siamese horror movie. yes, we did watched horror movie during daytime, for an obvious reason;)). honestly i dont think its worth watching and poor teleng, had to watch it on my behalf..hehehe

next was Fearless. as usual, i fell asleep in the middle of the movie and woke up few mins later. bad habit bad habit=p then went upstairs and flung myself on the bed. speed read Watermelon and catched up with the mates in the house.

"when happiness makes a guest appearances in one's life, its important to make the most of it. It may not stay around for long and when it has gone wouldnt it be terrible to think that all the time one could have been happy was wasted worrying about when that happiness would be taken away" -Watermelon-

around 5pm, got ready for women making waves at aquatic centre in the city. one of the things that i 1st learned in Melb and the only exercise i have for this week. hmm, it might be self-diagnosed but i think i had mild exercise-induced asthma, non stop cough & gasped for breath after finishing one of the laps,heheheh. nevertheless, came out of the pool feeling good and fresh.

just finished my dinner. Ya Allah pedasnye sambal tuh...

p/s: dah jumpa passport,yeayy!! kat mane? er, mesti kena gelak punye nih..jumpe....jumpe..kat...lipatan shopping plastic beg kat bawah meja..hehehehe..tak terfikir langsung nak cari kat situ..fuhh, lepas satu lagi kerisauan..

p/s: Happy birthday to my dearest frens, Hani & Niesa..miss u two damn loadss!!looked at ur dress-to-kill-pics and i simply longed to be part of the celebration. nasi kerabu beb!

My little fren=)

Her name's Kate and she's 3 years old.

she was with her mum in the antenatal clinic( its for pregnant women) this morning when i saw her. dressed in beautiful purple flowergirl-like dress and sat on the chair politely while the doc's examined her mum. Its when we finished listening to baby's heartbeat (audible to the room) and doc went out of the room, she came to us (me standing next to her mum who's lying on the couch)..

Kate: *giggle* funny heart..*giggle*
Me: heheh, its funny ey? so do you know whats in ur mummy's tummy?(hahah, couldnt think of any other question to ask)
Kate: yeahhhh, baby..
Me:hehheh. and do you have any sister or brother?
Kate: *sheepishly smile*
Mum: Yes, she has an elder sister. Kate, this lady is also a doctor. So we have two doctors in this room.
Me: heheeh, yeahh. you have 2 doctors to take care of ur mum today.
Kate: I have a....(mumbled something)
Me: *smile*
Mum: she said she also have a baby in her tummy.
Me: *laugh* ohh really..let me see?*shoved me her a-bit-boncit tummy* heheh, your tummy's smaller than mum's.
Kate: (mumbled something again)
Mum: she said hers a baby's baby.
Me: *laugh* oh really..
Kate:*kissed her mum's tummy, then turned to me* i love you.. *put her arms around my neck and pecked on my cheek*
Me: *stunned and giggled*
Mum: woww, you are being lovely today Kate..

later in the consultation, she came to me again

Kate: i love your bracelet..
Me: heheh, i love your dress

and there she twirled a few times, pretended to be a ballerina or something. so when they're about to leave the room, we exchanged goodbye and before she left the room,she turned to me and said
'i love you..'
then wrapped her hands around my neck and kissed my cheek. so i hugged her back.

We were frens for only 15 mins, but i'll always remember this adorable little fren of mine. she makes me feel GOOD.

It was two years ago that..

i first wrote here. exactly on this date..so happy 2 years to this space!!!

The day..

when i felt very very happy and RELIEVED eversince i started this rotation. Allah has always had better plan for me...there goes another chunk of burden;)

p/s:

as if im not leisurely occupied with naruto's, i managed to sneak into JM library this afternoon and end up with 3 fictional books to read for the next 2 weeks. and for the anime itself, hahahahahahahaah...

First entry of the NEW week..

i'm in the middle of my notes this morning, trying to compensate good early sleep i had last nite and at the some time blog-surfed. then i stumbled into this particular entry in this particular blog. trust me, i almost cramped my stomach for laughing too much. seriously its ...err how should i say...nvm

"3. Kelantan. No internet and just TV3 and bunch of siamese TV at my grandma’s. Enough said."

-ok, this wasnt the funniest point but i'd rather not copy-and-paste anything more here in case terkantoi later. heeee, tempah bala la tuh...

ngaaa, pecah perut aku tahan gelak !

ps: smalam mimpi tak best. memula bestla sbb mimpi nak balik msia ramai2. busy packing barang dan bile masa nak bertolak ke airport baru aku realise aku tak jumpe lagi passport aku..huwaaaaa, ape punye mimpi daaaa!!! aku tau sebab apa dpt mimpi tuh: 1. passport masih misplaced and aku dah taktau nak cari kat mane dah 2. smalam borak dgn N pasal tiket nak balik msia 3. nakkkk sgt balik msia utk tgk nephew baru...

Last entry of the week...

woke up quite early for a sunday morning despite stayed up late last nite. out of boredom, i bugged N, my high school junior who's apparently doing good in US. its not everyday or everymonth we contact each other thru msgr, partly cos both of us are occupied with stuff. but when the right time hit, we can talk for hours jumping from one topic to another just like this morning. it was so much fun, too bad i had to excuse myself for some house cleaning.

Y (19/02/2006 6:52:53 AM): heheh nak tau nape sy msg?
N (19/02/2006 6:53:03 AM): kenapakah?
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:20 AM): cos there's no 'busy' sign on ur status
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:28 AM): so i thot ur not that busy to be kacau
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:30 AM): aheheh
N (19/02/2006 6:53:31 AM): ooo hihihi
N (19/02/2006 6:53:51 AM): hey u r more than welcome to msg me even status busy or away pon

alrite, cant wait for another spontaneous catch-up with u, girl!

then we proceed with our plan: retail therapy in Westf!eld. hehe, i'm not so much into shopping at the moment, more like wanna hang out to enjoy good time with my mates and so i did. i suprised myself cos i didnt splurge my cash unnecessarily (ok, i need to buy something to get that longed Supre' shopping bag hence explained why i bought that *ehem* $5 top)..other than that, i'm being good;) happy hours end till late evening after doing some groceries and by the time we reached home, i lost count of how many laughs & giggles we shared.

'haa tuhla, sekarang nih balasan kan cash...LOL'
'cesss, kurang asam eh ko skarang yatt'

now i'm so so tired. not gonna start on Naruto today as i'm gonna hit the bed right after isyak. wheehoo, ,sleep as my other fave past time=D

self-remainder for next week:
1.do not take a nap after azan asar..
2.call up mum to check on the baby and his elder brother.
3.the two stooges gonna be back from msia by friday so another round of Afdl!n and the geng's and surely the house is gonna be merrier soon enough (lucky they dont seem to keep up with this space of mine, otherwise mesti smug punyelahh=p)

hmm, i pray for this contenment to last.

Another kampung boy in the making...

to ma
- ape nama cucu baru ma?-
from ma
- Umar Danish. ada kat rumah kita now. tido dgn ma.

i know i'm not suppose to say this but 'AAAAAAAAAAA, nak balik!!' iskk, bestnye ada baby kat rumah. this is 2nd time my sis in law go thru her confinement period at our house and see what syahman turn out to be. a REAL kampung boy;) heheh, even my sis-in-law ackowledged that. i'm sure my parents (esp ma) are now like busybees, handling 2 grandchildren can be quite handful i presume and surely our house wont be as quite as before. i can almost imagine how contented and blissful their faces would be to have those kids around.

this reminded me of syahman's time. oh my, our mum surely turned into a-lovely-protective-grandma-but-a-wee-bit-'garang'-mum back then. in fact, abah pun kena tempias. there's this particular incident between ma & abah plus syahman that adik used to imitate, just to prove how 'hidup dalam ketakutan' we were during those time. at least now we can joke about that(in fact, i'm holding back my laugh rite now)

Bits & pieces ..

-first it was the computer, and now this need-to-be-claimed-soon cheque. how much? amount of a return ticket to msia plus the connecting flight=) another good deed from the faculty. heheh. alhamdulillah alhamdulillah, mmg murah rezeki =D

-now that our house has Naruto collection from episode 1, (thanks to L for doing us this big favour), i'm gonna start watching it tomorrow. yeah, laugh if u may cos ppl might think what a BIG lag-er (a person who is lag behind?) i am.see if i care=p

-i feel great. families to love, books to study, movies to watch, frens to hang out/laugh with. perfect life.

One, two, three, four and counting...

1. Stock up ready-made food e.g: tuna (Ayamas brand if possible where u have to do nothing prior to eating), sardin, salad, fish finger etc cos i dont know how long this 'LAPAR tapi malas' syndrome will last.

2. NEVER sleep during asar. mewarisi kegilaan and i thought i've gone nut today.

3. Live with guardian angels. today when i was all grumpy-cranky-and-about-to-explode-because-not-satiated so i sulked with myself to sleep, someone woke me up for yummy nasi goreng. i repeat, live with guardian angels.

4. avoid social interaction when its bad with the mood. nothing good will happen.

Abang mithali?

5am: sms ringtone woke me up. from sis-in-law- alhamdulillah baby boy 3.2 kg..hehe,took me quite some time to sleep back and i said my silent prayers.

Called mum & my sis in law later the day. was told about my bro's funny experiences in labour room=)) ma claimed the baby's a bit 'tanned' but when i asked my bro, he answered proudly 'haah, tapi hensemm..'

LOL!!

So happen..

i'm doing my obst & gynae rotation when both sis & sis-in-law are pregnant. over the summer hols, i was bombarded with pregnancy-related questions from my sis, some that i knew the answers but some i could've crap on =D being cheeky, i often touched both tummies, giggled and called them 'mak buyung'. or sometimes i voiced my disagreement when i felt my sis was trying to be overly-manja. but then , ma would reply back "haaa, tunggula dia punye nti..kite tengok mcm mana" err opss ngaaa!!

in fact, was told by mum earlier that my sis in law is in labour at the moment. hopefully everything will be fine and over by tomorrow, aminn. ahhh, my 3rd nephew is on his way to be part of this wonderful world *excited excited* i also wonder how's that lil syahman doing now, hopefullly not wailing & crying for his mum=p ..anyway, i'm relief to know that my bro's there with sis-in-law as he's actually staying in KL and managed to travel back home yesterday.

heeee, kan best kalu ade kat msia time nih=p

Of weekend

for this year, Saturday will be my book-free day;) stacked the study materials aside early in the morning and proceed with our plan to go to Chadstone shopping mall for some school stuff and groceries. i was well-stuffed with 2 tuna & smoked salmon Sushi sushi and practically had to force the the last bite in,hahaha. so and so, went back home and decided to give lunch queen a go since i've got nothing else to do. the last time i spent my time on japanese series were last year on Pride. i didnt expect much out of this one. i mean they dont have takuya k!mura in it, do they? hahah=p

" taste of food mixed with tears is the taste of life"- could be de javu but i am pretty sure some time ago, someone did actually recommend me this movie. and yes, i had good time! adore that cheerful-witty girl character & is charmed by all 3 (or could be 4?) gentlemen. even the dad is likeable..but the thing i enjoy most is actually their passion about food. i think i do share the same passion like theirs, well to an extent hahah;) cos the smell of food always estatics me & food deprivation can put me in cranky mood. whatever it is, i'm all drooling(despite the fact i had this appetite probs lately) & laughing my head off over the movie.

according to my favourite person(s), i should take life easy. so hopefully there'll be nothing but happy and cheerful ol' me in the future..rite? ;)

Role: witness

she's a first timer. looked a bit agitated and anxious from the long waiting for more than 12 hours. she must have had enough of the adrenaline rush and waited for the longggg day to end. by her sweetness & charm, i can be certain that she's gonna be a great mum..

he's the kind of man every woman would love to settle with. simply made his presence significant to his other half and composed enough to protect his lil darling...

baby? she must be very comfy in her comfort zone and choose to stay longer, instead of 40 she went up to 42 weeks. very cute, hah! dont worry love, u'll be fine in ur new world and dont forget to live ur life to the fullest!

the other she (midwife) proved to me that 1st impression doesnt always be true. during the hand-over, i quietly wished that i wont be asked to shadow her but thank god, i did. i particularly love her motherly voice, the kinda voice i would wanna hear to assist me during this most feared experience for any woman.

above was my 1st 9pm-7am shift in the delivery suite. hehe, i survived the nite but flatted out the next day.

Wake-up-call

its been quite some time. she pm-ed me to share her happy moments of great achievement. i'm awed but not suprised cos i know how far she can go with her great deal of effort she would put in anything. so proud of her =)

oh, thats not the part of story i wanna share. it's when she asked about my life. without much hesitation, i asked her questions that had been bugging me lately. so much so , i started to spill it out to her. and her being great at reading my mind, started to talk me out of it. one by one. she knows me well enough to understand what i'm going thru and how my head always take control over me.

by the end of our conversation, i'm so thankful for her great understanding and she made me realise that i should be more grateful not resentful over things bestowned on me. yes, life is beautiful to be wasted on worrying too much. so just enjoy it while i can.

so dude (as she always call me=p), you make me miss you even more today. to be honest, i thot i've lost one of my confidantes but no i havent. and yes, i miss playing 'peace' with u too..hahahah=p grow up, us two!

Weekend

in the middle of watching lunch queen, japanese series. i've only got 8 out of 10 series so might not get to watch the ending. doesnt matter tho cos i'm actually enjoying myself (more like enjoying my eyes for the cute guys actually!). very light storyline and so much on food that makes me drool and drool. in fact i was watching it when i thought maybe it would be nice to give up medicine and end up working in the restaurant. not that i'm tired of studying but there's something tempting about being food expert.

mantra: food..food..food

*Ehem ehem*

here's my out-of-box Mr. Philips which will be called mine until i graduate..yes, the faculty pampers us with this blacky and i'm so loving it.. so far, he's doing me good eventho i wish i would use him for some recreational purposes too but after some consideration & thought, i think i better not. its ok..






p/s...did u see the Marrybrown's calendar with fried chicken on it in this pic?? huarghh, i got it during my stay in Ipoh and i know now it is BIG mistake to bring it here when u really have to be selective on food..so much for stimulating my salivary gland..huhuhu..

am i getting clucky? (hah!)

yesterday of
-taking mum's blood pressure
-measuring baby inside mum's womb
-cute sounds of baby's heart beat. the best part of all;)

lalalalala...

kisah cuti lagi..sorry!

things i wanna write here before i forget..

-gossip about my youngest-elder brother. first thing aku heard when i reached home. hehe, i wont disclose it here tho in order to respect ppl's privacy. but it was really suprising news for me. nothing's confirm yet but the good thing is i grow closer to this brother of mine than before. ahaha, i used to have this distant bonding with him when i was smaller cos of my obnoxious-temperamental act. in fact i once ran away from home because of him shesshh!

-my presence at home was very much acknowledged and appreciated especially by my parents (hey, i'm not making this out. i had it verbally=p) . domestic helper duty : laundry, cooking dinner, cleaning the house and hobby: tagged along with my parents (much to my lil sister annoyance/amusement) were suprisingly fun.

-met up with a fren i've known for almost 2 years. i know there are these certain things that was-not-like-me-at-all to agree/do that day but i have my very own reasons. it was a fine outing and i enjoyed the lunch (more like a deserved brunch for me, thanks to the breakfast-tak-jadi =p) and movie (hillarious with this funniest scene where Hans let this makcik test-drive kereta F1 for her daily market trip!). now i need to think of way to re-pay the treat.

-improvement on my driving skills. at least i am confident enough to drive alone and at nite tho it was only less than 3km drive. hahaha, i'm a late bloomer (whatever it is suppose to mean..)

-had fun and more fun with my 2 darlings (soon to be 3 and then 4 by this April, insya Allah). there're these latest pics of sin-chan-turning-into-ultraman-kampung siram pokok bunga dan mandi sungai that made syak1r demanded for the same mandi sungai treat.

-the whole family gathered during CNY-awal muharam hols. for the first time since i was in msia this time as 2 werent around during aidiladha. haha, so much for male dominant there were futsal with me as a loyal supporter and laughed my gut out at my brothers, late night stay-up for soccer live (them, not me!) and UNO card games (i retired when the clock ticked 12 but they had it till 4 am for goodness's sake!!). oh yes, one BIG victory for beating my eldest brother up in Scrabble during my 1st attempt. hahaha, so much for a winner as he claim for himself.

ok dah, esok nak start klas. lambat la lagi nak update kot

treasure hunt

i've always had trouble packing my stuff. not that i'm messy-and-my-things-are-everywhere but my skills lacking tips to maximise space and tricks to hide things. it became more of a prob when i first came Down Under, where the custom officers can be annoyingly strict with certain food/ingredient. so i resort to this routine whenever its time do that freaking task.
1. me picked up all the clothes/shoes/anything i wanna bring back and put them around the beg. extra task: re-packaged the food into smaller units and with my dory-like memory, i might need checklist.
2. my dearest mum arranged them into the luggage. yup, this is when i used to scratch my head not knowing which and where to put and end up load-unload repeatedly.
3. me doing the last check around the house and lock the bag. even so, sometimes due to my dory-like memory (again?!) i have to unlock it just to shove some forgotten things. see, imagine if i'm the one doing the 2nd routine above then how many times i have to do this lock-unlock thingy?

the second best part was at the airport when the officer often dismissed my luggage without much songeh (which later i presumed may be due to the neatness of my bag,hahahaha).

and the best part was to unpack the luggage as i would be enjoying mini treasure hunt all by myself, oohh-ing at where my mum stuffed the food especially the ones forbidden by kinda-stupid-OZ-law.

opsss! ngaaa...

first day in melb 2006

and i'm weeping. it was never like this before. usually, the homesickness hit me earlier like few days before i leave msia and went away the moment i touch down in melb. this time, it was there all along the journey and didnt go away as it used to be, plus the fact that nobody's around in this place except for S just add up to the loneliness. i need crowd to cheer me up or at least keep me occupied, not quietness of a large room.

even yesterday, i was in tears when saying goodbye to my family. i wish i had not. it has always been something big for me to be apart from my parents since my first day in boarding school at the age of 12 but i thought i manage to 'grow up' from it when i 1st come to melb. the previous years were ok but not this year tho. somehow i think i'm getting emotionally weaker and weaker by year. sigh

i am still learning how to take things one at a time. pesan ma, jangan banyak fikir benda yg tak perlu.

of study & singlehood...

'3 days and counting auww'- sms from one of my aunties yesterday.

despite my wish to stay home longer and longer, i'm mentally preparing myself for another year in melb at the same time.
- 4 rotations of O&G, paeds, psych and GP. and i'll be starting off with O&G next week. huwaaa, freak out! according to others, time-wise i need to be very flexible for this rotation. long hours, demanding knowledge etc...hmmm. first thing this sunday morning: read the manual for requirements and do some quick reading. whatever it is, i need to learn to take things day by day just to avoid unnecessary stress and trouble.
- another year of savouring my singlehood with my fellow girlfriends. oh, i'm not trying to be sexist here cos that's the way it is, for me at least. and i'm not complaining much. anyway, will try to come up with something for the short easter weekend and later winter hols. ohh, i dont mind settling for melb experiences in case of tight budget.
- last year to spend with some great ppl. seniors and housemates. so i really wanna to make the most out of it. strengthen the bonding and cherish the moments. and this might include me playing sports cos when these ppl are gone next year, i dont think i'll be playing basket/netball anymore. sad thought =(
- commonwealth games melb 2006. wheee! got myself a ticket to hockey tournament. wish could go and watch some other games but first i need to ask around for company. plus the ticket is surely-expensive-and-over-the-budget-. haihhh
- anything else?

as for the holiday, its been a bit of up-side-down-and-up-again. nevertheless, i'm happy to be home. and i'm thankful to those who've made my days memorable. families. friends. looking forward to seeing those familiar faces again next year. semoga dipanjangkan usia.

p/s..still looking for simple and decent layout, yet in vain..*cringe*

melancholy

i love melb but at the same time i dont wanna leave home, my comfort zone. the fact that i'll be leaving on weekend and there'll be more family members sending me off to KLIA kinda bug me too. cos that means somehow i feel obliged to appear strong and composed at departure which i dont think i quite possible this time. unexpected things that happened during this hols put me in yo-yo mood. of course i appreciate their kindness and thought but..i know, very ungrateful of me.

will write more on this but first thing i need to do now is betulkan niat. pergi sana utk belajar kerana Allah.

Kisah sin chan!

kisah 1
tgh breakfast kat kedai mamak together with his parents. baru sampai, dia dah pau papa dia untuk beli 2 coklat. mase aku dah start mkn, dia suruh bukak satu coklat ...mula2 masuk dlm mulut dia pastu tiba2 jeh pegi letak atas roti canai aku..aarghh, mulala tuh. siap gelak2 lagi..takpe, amik tisu dan letak coklat tuh kat tepi sambung mkn balik. 2nd time, dia usaha bukak sendiri psl aku taknak tolong dah. same thing again, dia masuk dlm mulut kejap pastu letak atas roti canai aku. then gelak2. saje la tuh nak kacau org. dah abis coklat kat tgn, dia jln pegi kaunter mamak buat muka kesian kat situ. bile papa dia pegi amik, dah berjaya pau satu coklat lagi from mamak. free pulak tu. macam biasala, dia bukak dia letak dlm mulut pastu tadaaaa, dah ade atas roti canai aku...heeeeee, suka sgt dgr aku membebel kot.

kisah 2
petang or malam. lepak2 sambil tunggu papa dia balik. once dgr bunyi keta or bile mama dia ckp papa dah balik, cepat2 dia lari cari belakang kerusi. nak nyorok. kekadang excited sgt sampai tak tahu nak nyorok mane. kejap sini kejap situ. tak cukup duduk belakang kerusi, amik kusyen nak cover muka. so terpaksala papa dia 'carik' dia..bila lama sket cari tak jumpa, mulala dgr tiny giggles, konon nak kasi hint. one time, penat jeh dia lari nyorok bawah kerusi siap dgn kusyen sume, rupanya mama dia tersilap. bukan papa balik tp nenek (bibik) pegi buang sampah. marah dia...hehe

kisah 3
skrang tgh suka pakai superheroes suits. batman la, spiderman la, power rangers la. kalu pakai as pyjama okla cos long sleeves tp tak. nak pakai pagi petang siang malam kalu boleh. mama dia cerita, ade skali tuh bile sampai rumah tgk dia duduk kat luar dekat dgn ampaian. bile tanye bibik "ohh, dia tunggu baju batmannya kering"..isk isk isk budak nih..

kisah 4
instead of menangis nak ngikut, dia tahan aku dari keluar. skarang ni selalu keluar ikut dapur sebab senang. so 1st attempt dia block jalan ke dapur, nasib baik muat2 tangan and kaki dia nak spread out kat pintu tuh. aku pun buat2la angkat dia. 2nd attempt pegi sandar kat pintu dapur buat muka kesian. aiseh. ini terpaksala bayar tol.tol kosong jeh:p nasib tak nangis, kalu tak silap2 aku bwk dia jalan sama.

kisah 5
aku decided to bribe with M&M for going out without him. suke la dia bile tgk kat cermin mulut dia berubah2 ikut kaler coklat tuh. skali tgh gelak2 tuh, dia capai dua2 tgn aku pastu tadah bawah mulut dia. ingatkan ape, skali rupanya dia nak throw up. aiseh, nasibla tak banyak and liquid jeh.. kalu tak, silap2 aku pun join sekali. bile cite, mama dia ckp " ape nih man, gune tangan cik n*r, gunela tangan sendri "...ntahnye:p

kisah 6
dah mmg tahap kritikal dia kena jumpa barber. aku pun sukela gelakkan dia psl nmpk mischiveous sgt dgn rambut ala2 curly tuh. mama dia cite bukan senang nak potong rambut dia, silap2 malu jeh org tgk psl dia punye nangis mak aihh..so this time aku kena take over in case dia nak ngelat. alih2 dia rilek jeh kat atas kerusi wak, tak nangis pun...paling2 pun buat muka bile rambut masuk mata or mulut. tapi yg tak tahan tgk memek muka dia tahan geli dan takut. sket punye lawak, rugi tak bwk digicam. dah tak tahan dgn rambut sendiri yer??

kisah 7
bile makan, carik tissue.. time makan satay arituh, makan sesuap lap tissue. makan lagi, tissue lagi.. abis tissue kat tgn dia jeh. aku pun sempat amik satu jeh:p bibik cite, kekadang tuh mkn biskut pun nak tissue. heeeee mengadala sgt...

kisah 8
despite his age, he still talks gibberish. kekadang tuh aku pulak naik fed-up bile org tanye2, so aku ckp kat dia " tak kisahla man, man takleh ckp betul2 pun cikn*r sayang man jugakkk". puas hati. eh, tapi takdela aku ckp depan2 org lain, cari nahas la tuh namanye...

kisah 9
dia suka invent benda2 baru out of crap. teropong yg dah terbahagi dua, dia jadikan ala2 telefon and at the same time boleh gune jugak utk tarik toy box. skali tuh, bile dia nak call bibik, cepat2 dia amik kusyen letak kat tengah2 box tuh...mula2 aku pun tak paham, skali baru tau by right, we are not suppose to see the other's face if we are talking over the phone. so that's why kusyen tuh ade utk jadik wall between dia and bibik.

kisah 10
nanti dia akan dapat adik very-very soon. kalau deliver before aku balik melb lagi best. nak tgk cemana dia interact dgn adik dia pulak. jangan dia buli adik dia sudahhhh...

haih, kan best kalu dpt bwk dia teman aku kat melb nti..

kl was so-and-so. tired of waiting for ppl and transport that next time of hols, i'll settle for home and family only. a person of no patience. plus i dont have the heart leaving my lil sayang behind anymore (and there'll be two of them very soon). on monday i came to realise that i've been thru 4 days without rice and my sis-in-law complained i'm not eating like i used to. but as long as i dont feel sick, i dont really care.
in a week or so, i'll be flying back to melb. find it hard to hold back my emotion this time. for the past 3 years, i rarely shed tears at departure but as year goes by, its getting harder not to. and i find life per say, very tough.

day one.

random thoughts

>>>'i came to teach basketballers and you became students, i came to teach boys and you became men..thank you for that'..finally after almost half a year i got to watch this movie. blame my lacking download skills. regardless, enjoyed it much. what can i say? sports is more that just sweat and hardwork. more than games and victories.more like operating under pressure. mindset and how you put it into play. accepting falls and learn to stand up again.

>>>my aunt once said ' we often give advice that we dont use'..simply true. there are lotsa occasions when we, in the process of being a good listener would try our very best to say goodies to the other company with a single hope that it will at least alleviate their emotions if not solve their probs. but what happen when the same thing happen to us, or almost the same thing? we often forget to use the same advice we once tell the other. we sort of neglect the words we once believe in. that's why we still need each other no matter how good we think of ourselves, no matter how strong we think we are to brave the turbulence. those ppl become the reminder. of what we've told them before.

>>> regardless of the disturbing writings previously, i shall not forget that whatever happen, i always have HIM to turn to. to seek guidance and solace. i shall not forget that there are a lot of ppl out there who love and care about me. always and i cant thank them enough. i shall not forget the hikmahs behind the so-called-fiasco and how much it grows me up.

ei submitted my assignment yesterday. alhamdulillah, did better this time. it took me almost twice the effort as i chose to change the topic when i'm almost done with the template. didnt regret it though coz it was easier to do the calculation and reasoning with the second article.

>>>ppl live by choice. either in everyday living or for one big major decision that will determine their future. sometimes, its not that they dont know what's best to do and expect out of certain situation. sometimes it's not that they have lost the sense of values; rights or wrongs, goods or bads. but most of the time, the pick is based on emotions, experiences and personal strength.

>>>i am not to justify why i choose to grieve. by that it means

i learn to live with tiny expectations.

i distant myself from meanings of companionship, trust, hope, self-worthiness.

i take all the blame as something to dwell over and hope it will put others at ease.

i accept the fact that i'm not gifted with an angel's heart and i actually hate to act like one.

>>>thanks very much Peon for ur concern and sincere thought. wish could spend some more time with you here. have a safe journey and keep the spirit high.

ape yg jadi baru2 nih gives big impact in my life. as said, damned for life. terus terang, aku dah hilang cara utk rasa happy. hati aku dah tak tenang, anytime aku boleh lost in my own thought. living in fear and insecurities, exactly how i felt. honestly aku rasa kalu tak kuat pegangan, aku boleh jadik gila bila ingat dan fikir psl benda ni. apa yg selama nih aku tak pernah terfikir mungkin terjadik. mungkin ye, mungkin tidak aku pun tak tahu. dan aku takut utk tahu. takut sgt2.. for me, nothing will be the same again. walaupun mungkin juga takde ape, tapi ape yg hilang tuh dah tak boleh dicari balik.
sebab benda nih, aku hilang self-esteem. vulnerable. sekejap aku rasa dah ok tapi tak lama. aku tak looking forward to mingle around and meet other ppl. aku rasa byk benda aku dah tak deserve utk dpt. rasa tak worthy.
tapi jangan risau, aku takkan susahkan korang dgn probs aku. sebab aku taknak simpati tuh jadi beban dan lama2 beban tuh mungkin akan buat org benci..takpe, selama nih apa2 jadi aku go thru sorang2...
sesapa yg aku pernah buat salah, minta maaf. sesapa yg aku penah susahkan, minta maaf. minta maaf sgt2...

haunted

of seeing is believing. of betrayal and losing trust. of hatred and hurtful. of blood and sacrifices. of denial versus reality. of strength and grip. of cry and deep cut. of turn to versus burden.

on another note, thanks for all the birthday-wishes. may Allah bless u all too. this year, i wish and pray for my loved ones.Solace.Strength.Happiness.

ya Allah, janganlah Kau duga kami dengan dugaan yang tak tertanggung oleh kami..

sampai jumpa lagi.

now, window shopping or movies are no longer my ideas of hanging out with frens...cos for me these two so-called-girls-thingy can wait for some other time, with ppl that i meet everyday (read: i live with)..but for those that i meet eyes to eyes only once a year (twice if lucky), i'd rather get some decent meals and chat about anything and nothing over it....or weird enough just sit next to each other without saying a thing..sometimes ppl just need the company not words...

i'm so enjoying my comfort zone at home that i subconsciously errr turn back into the old-bossy-tantrum-laden-girl..i bet no one would wanna see what i turn into when there's only 'nasi berlauk' for breakfast or i simply didnt get what i wished for..few times i had my families laughing at me,hurm!! and for the past few days, both my sis are home so i've been bullied endlessly..yes, i still quarrel with the younger and rebel with the elder at this age...and when i couldnt bear with their alliance, i turned to mum...

dilemma. i've got a month of hols left and somehow, i still couldnt fit in all the plan/trips into the calendar to satisfy all... hmmm, i sure have to give up my attachment this time and postpone it to next summer break...the thing is i really wanna spend some time with families and close frens who are living in the other parts of m'sia but at the same time, i havent never have enough of my parents and home.i've promised my loved ones to spend some time together and if possible, i would wanna make them all..thats why i always wish to halve myself everytime holiday comes..to be home and somewhere else at the same time..haihh

hmmmmmmmm, should've known.a bit strange cos been quite some time...somehow i think i can figure now why..sigh..sigh..sigh..

one big lesson i learnt : do not blame others but myself..cos when the faults are mine, there's nothing to hold againts anyone.. knowing me, its easier to act that way...


i'm off.

TRALALALA...

Chinese series, Survivor's Law dah habis semalam..hari nih ade cerita baru plak..tengok iklan smalam (teng!teng!teng!) ada Ah Kin...wheeee, best2...last time saw him on tv was in f3 kot..tapi taknakla cerita mcm mana taksub and usahanya aku nak tgk/tahu pasal cerita yg dia berlakon tuh... sebab masa kat hostel so takleh tgk sgt...kang buat malu sendri jeh..lagipun bile once dah bukak cerita psl tgk tv time kat skola dulu, one story will lead to another..tengok2, habis terbongkar 'rahsia gelap' aku..tak ke bahaya??

ONE THING...

about meeting any of my girl frens, i laughed a lot..i mean you are not suppose to start giggling before anything, rite? be it on the phone or while hang out together, i can laugh till my head ache later..

yesss, i did meet up with hani b*suk (or is it k*pam, aku dah confuse which one is which:p)..called me up when i no longer think she would...i mean she only had 2 weeks to spend in msia rite?.. answered the phone..this and that..then

'yatt, apsal suara ko mcm pempuan?"
*&#~^$# (huarghhhhhhhh, aku tak paham!)

my explanation: i didnt recognise the number so i was only trying to be polite..ggrrrrrr, next time i'll make sure i sound like a king kong or gorilla then lets see what ppl say,hahahahhah..

waited for her in kinokun!ya.. was about to replied to her sms and put the book back when

'yatttttttttt'

ok, she's here..hugged her there and then..spent next 3 hours laughing, gossiping and laughing..couldnt imagine if there were others of the crony to join us there...sure kena halau dgn pak guard..huhuhu..nway it was so nice to meet her again, great company and we sure shared lotsa past and future stories....ngehngehngeh!!

HMMM...

Dear Student

On behalf of A/Prof T . Luff, Chair of Year 3 Board of Examiners, I write to inform you of the decisions arising from deliberations of the Yr 3 Board of Examiners held this week regarding your results.

Following review of your Semester 2 results, it has been determined that you have failed to meet satisfactory requirement for the Evidence Based Clinical Practice component of the course.
You are required to resubmit a response to the Therapy Critical Appraisal assessment task by 12.00 midday, Friday 13 January 2006.

Please submit your response by e-mail to kay.currie@med.monash.edu.au

Please include your name and Student ID number in the body of the email response and in the title of the message.
Late submissions will not be assessed.

If you have any difficulties, please contact Kay Currie by phone (Ph: +61 3 9594 7555) or email (see above).

Please acknowledge receipt of this message via return email ASAP.

Yours sincerely
Laura Salomone

First. Alhamdulillah, i did ok with my written exam and OSCE and need not to worry about going back early to sit for supp exam. Alhamdulillah.

Second. This. Served me right cos i took this assignment lightly. sigh. saki baki sikap melayu/M yg aku tak habis kikis lagi..suka ambil mudah kerja yang aku tak minat or tak reti,, malas pun boleh tahan..hmmm, lesson in hard way..

Basically for this asgn, i need to think of a clinical scenario and find an information gap..look up into the medical database for a relevant journal article and critically appraise it. so much so for my holiday..

WHEN ONE SAID..

"org kelantan mesti nak dgn org kelantan..org luar pun selalunya taknak org kelantan..ko cemana yatt?"

how should i feel about this?? anyone?

WHEN 9599 ATTENDS A WEDDING RECEPTION...
i should say that i made a right decision to turn up to this wedding..was really overwhelmed seeing my good mates, some were long lost since we left school 6 years ago..damn, i wish i could be more expressive over how i felt and thought about this whole Aliza's wedding-who-turn-out-to-be-our-mini-gath..before that, i met up with ina, liyana and huda as they picked me up at LRT station and we headed to OU. We ended up 'bullying' each other(ok, i was actually the infamous victim:p) and trying (really hard) to talk sense over Peranakan meals...whee, thanks Liyana for the treat..then we bumped into chendol & kak mega..the latter was our headprefect when we were in F4 and believe me, she aint changed a bit..remembered each of us and we talked and joked like some good ol buddies..a living proof of a very-down-to-earth person..
back to the wedding..what can i say, out of 3 hours we spent there, only 30 mins that we really gave our attention to the food(suprise!suprise)..the rest of time= giggled, catched up with ppl, giggled again, cranky jokes, giggled again, posed for camera, giggled again, enjoyed the tv, giggled again...in fact we (or shall i say i personally) thought it's a wise decision to put our tables where they were cos errr hehehe, cant imagine if they were not...so so glad to meet a few that i never come into contact face-to-face or virtually since school life ended..but none of us changed..the same ol giggling bunches of 20-urmm-sumthing's..hahahah, i'll never grow old with these crowd..

Top 15 best-quoted dialoques..err anonymous simply means i cant remembered who said it and not to de-identify...

1.
Yatt: wehhhh hanin, tak sangka gila aku bleh jumpe ko kat sini (gaya excited)
Hanin: hahahaha, memang. aku pun..(excited jugak:p)
Yatt: ko nak tau, mase aku tgk nama ko kat list tuh aku pk 'isk, iyelah sgt hanin nak ade kat sini..takkan punye..hampeh budak tu, kasi nama mcm ye ye jeh nak dtg'..hahahah
Hanin: hahahaha, eleh ko tuh lagi tak logik nak ade kat sini..apsal ko kat sini nih??? pelik aku..hah hah??
Yatt:aku cuti aaa..eleh ko tuh..isk serius aku tak sangka bleh jumpe ko kat sini..

2.
Ina: hmm, Aliza nampak lain bile tgk..
Hanin: haahla, nmpk mcm muka ko..
LOL...
Yatt: haa ape ape?? (again i misses the jokes and they unhappily-but-just-have-to repeat the conversation).

3.
Mase Khai and Rosma nyanyi
Anonymous 1:wahh....mesti byk spend..
Anonymous 2: tuhla...tp Raml! MS ade tuh, so maybe sedara dia..then dptla invite diorg tu..
Then M!sha Omar plak..
Anonymous: ok, kaya kaya..

4.
Melati: ok nx year mase 1st anniversary dinner, aku nak ckp ' i want this table and i want this place'.

5.
Ina: Seri, boleh tak nak request lepas mkn nanti ko sendawa kuat2..utk ktrg..hehehe
Seri: wahhh, terharunye aku..ade permintaan..boleh boleh

6.
Ina: korang ingat tak mase f5 dulu ade skali masa prep mlm..org2 yg naik awal kat 5J. then ade org dtg kat depan and ckp "haaa, ade sape sape sakit kat rumah"(tuh dialog fevret ustazah)..padahal ustazah ade kat blakang mase tuh..
Whole SSPians at the table: LOL (chen sampe berair2 mata)..
Melati: sape la tuh??? hahah, kalu aku dah keluar skolah dah..
Anonymous: kalu aku, mmg letak jawatan aa...

7.
Again, mase Khai and Rosma tgh nyanyi..
Melati: ok korang, lepas nih jgn lupa...vote sms..
Yatt: haa ape dia ko ckp melat? (excuse:aku selang 3 kerusi dari dia:p)

8.
Ezleen introduced her other half to me...
Ezleen: haa yatt, dia pun org klantan jugak..(turned to him and said the same thing)
Yatt: ohh ye ke..duk mane?
Him: kota bharu..
Yatt:(out of nowhere)..hmm apelah korang nih..asal jumpe org n tanye duduk mane jeh, mesti kota bharu..kota bharu..takde tempat lain dah ke???haiihhh..

9.
Yatt: bla bla bla..hehehe..
Ifi: ko nih yatt, takde beza macam dulu gak..
Yatt: ape dia?? alamak ye ke..nih yg nak segan nih..tak berubah tang mane? *muka konon malu2*
Ifi: huh!! menyesalnye aku..why did i say all those things??
Yatt: hahahahahaha, amik ko!

10.
Meja 56 (us)
Ina: wehhh, meja kita nih bisingnye..tgk meja tuh, senyap jehh..
Hanin: haahla....ala meja tuh asal librarian.meja kita nih dining hall..
Ina: eh Hanin..sorang jeh librarian kat situ..yg meja kita nih, ko n melati tuh prefect..
Hanin: eh Ina, ko lupe ke ko pun prefect???
LOL..
Ina: eh, haahla..lupa aku..hahahah..eh chen ko makan tak? pinjam fork and spoon:p

11.
Peon: haah, aku penah kena tinggal ngan ayah aku sebab lambat..ko penah melat?
Melati: takk, aku tak penah kena tinggal dgn ayah aku mahupun ayah ko...

12.
guy-yang-sesat-kat-meja-kitorang: wehh, korang nih bisingla..macam pasar! (gaya melawak selepas asik dibuli dah diperli:p)
semua org: elehhhhh!!! cakap org...macam ko takk..sama jehh

13.
that-guy-again: bla bla dia nyanyi..bla bla sedap
Huda: haah, ko penyanyi kolej 2 kan?
that-guy-again: eh,hahaha (muka kalut)..cemana ko tahu??
Huda: alaaaaa, aku pun kolej 2 jugak..

14.
That-guy-again: korang nih satu skolah dgn Aliza ke?
Anonymous1: haah..sekolah dot dot dot
Anonymous2:(whisper)eh apsal ko ckp skola tuh?
Anonymous1: alaa...aku taknak menjatuhkan nama skola kita(muka konspirasi)
then when he knew our actual school's name..
That-guy-again: ohh, Aliza penah eh skola situ??
Anonymous: haah, penah..sekejap
That-guy-again: ohh, korang nih kire kawan sekejap la eh?
All of us: heyyyyy, kurang asam la ko...

15.
Hanin: ko nak tau, aku mase before sampai sini dah risau sbb dah lama tak jumpe korang..taktau cemana nak bckp kalau2 dah berubah ke.
Ina: heheh, so cemana??
Hanin: hahaha, tak berubah langsung...sama jeh korang..

to my dearest College Friend, you looked lovely in ur wedding dress. May Allah bless both of u and lead a happy married life..

to the rest of 9599's, meet u guys again in our next wedding-gath...

INPUT

mase turun untuk breakfast...
ma: N nak ikut ma pegi dgr org ngajar?
me: boleh..pukul brape?
ma: tak lama nih...org tgh baca Quran..kejap lagi start la..
me: ohh N pegi mandi la eh...

mase nak turun dari keta kat masjid, nmpk a few kanak2 berjubah putih..baya sekolah rendah semua...tengah amik wudhuk..
me: alaahai comelnye budak2 tuh..
abah: anak2 murid dia la tuh...datang nak dengar
me: anak murid sape?
abah: ustaz nih la...bersih muka..
me: ooo...

tak rugi aku pergi..rasa puas hati..personally ceramah/kelas agama yg aku enjoy utk pergi:
1.TIADA UNSUR POLITIK.
2.tak lebih dari 1 jam cos after that aku dah takleh or susah nak concentrate.
3.similar to no 2, tak draggy..tak meleret2 sampe tak tahu mane hujung pangkal..last2 aku pun tak paham ape point nak disampaikan.
4.NON-JUDGEMENTAL to those who attend the class..semua org boleh pergi n insya Allah akan dpt ilmu sedikit sebanyak..so takdela tahap tinggi sangat sampaikan aku pun ternganga2 jeh tak paham..
5. kata2 yg revolve around Al-Quran and hadis..takde main ikut sedap mulut jeh..atau cakap boros kata org.
6. TIADA 'SICK/DIRTY JOKES'. urghhhh!!

alhamdulillah, ape yg aku dpt ingat/observe/faham:
- selawat itu mcm doa utk apa yang terlupa..sebab ustaz tuh evrytime nak recall ayat/nama yg dia tak ingat or terlupa akan selawat then dapat recite the ayat/nama.selalu kan kalu tgh cari2 barang hilang kita selawat sambil2.
- zaman Rasulullah, masjid sangat serba-guna. so boleh nmpk ke'gah'han rumah Allah in term of its functions and cemana org2 dulu appreciate masjid.
- jangan kita berpaling daripada 'org buta'..tak boleh nak act as in 'org buta' nih tak tahu ape2 so tak payah nak layan or kita buat derk jeh..in other words, jgn judge org samada setaraf ke tak dgn kita sebelum kita decide how to treat them...
- bukan setakat manusia jeh sayangkan Rasulullah, hatta benda yg tak bernyawa pun ade yang menangis sebab Rasulullah dan beri salam pada Rasulullah..so kita cemana??
- org tegur/nasihat selalunya sebab sayang.

Salah ??



nasi lemak ikan puyuh....



jumpa??



tak..??



haha,baguss...boleh geng =p

Perfect Stranger..

Browsed through the channel when i saw it was coming up next in HBO..quickly took my shower and settled in front of the tv. I've read the book but couldnt remember much about the story..so i thought why not watch the movie instead..after all, i'm alone again at home=(

So to speak, i enjoyed the movie very much..the similar contentment i got with Love Actually..there's something about these movie that i love watching..not the cliche' fling-and-flirt but more to chemistry and complimentary..shoot, i'm talking crap now!!*zip the mouth*

Hooked to the 6pm Chinese series on TV3..Survivor's Law..Ben vs Vincent, i go for Ben..aint that good looking but again, something about his character and the way he lead his life..errkk can i puke at my own words?? iyek!

Question: Am i being pampered at the moment? cos thats what i feel everybody's doing to me.. Ma no longer nag/scold me whenever i laze around in the morning not doing the chores and attend to all my cravings...adik's been complaining that i no longer get scolded by ma/abah but she still does,hehehe..brother who's being extra nice and thoughtful ...and Ayah Mie bought me this nice perfume. he said he bought it in june and kept it for me since so i decided to called it as an early birthday present.
err of course i'm not complaining =)

MEMO...

Never ever leave me alone at home...look what happen today when nobody's home by 9am and its raining outside...
12 pm

1.Bfast-done(not yet? ur kidding,hehehe)
2.Shower- errr aaaa hehehe (told ya:p)
3.Houhehold duties- half (quarter to be more accurate) way
4.TV-hours
5.Internet-hours
6.Cooking- erkk

and i'm feeling very sleepy after finishing my daily doses of nasi kerabu...

so mum, pls dont complain if u see me in my pyjama at this hour and the house isnt the way it is suppose to be cos i cant funtion alone..told u before rite? =D

i'm off to the living room to watch some tv (read:doze off) while waiting for others to come home...

LIFE IS GOOD

he kept me occupied for a week..tasks included kejut suruh bangun subuh..nagged suruh stop main games utk smayang n mandi..temankan tgk vcd cerita2 hantu..layan dgr lagu jiwang dia tuh n suapkan makan...yep, malas nak ber'perang' utk suruh mkn, susah sgttt..in between, sukela kacau2 dia main games, layan kelentong n loyar buruk dia..and buat dia merajuk..hahaha, ala senang jeh nak pujuk..mesti aku akan nyanyi lagu nih

kik kik koo..
nukub berah...
sikit nak suko(sikit nak suka/gelak)
suko deghah(suka/gelak kuat2)

gerenti dia akan sorok muka sbb nak hide his grin..then he complained "slalu nyanyi lagu ni..." another trick is to pretend to sulk n buat x layan..sure lps tuh dia akan datang ngendeng n buat2 baik..hahahah
oh my, i missed him so so muchhh...trase mcm ade little brother..sgt best..

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cuti kali nih byk jumpe/terjumpa kawan lama as in kawan skola rendah..smalam pun pegi rumah kwn merangkap sedara jauh for her engagement day...rezki dapat jumpe sorang lagi kwn lama...so x payahla nak penat2 plan nak jumpe,hehehe... kwn sorang lg nih study medic kat HUSM n been keeping in touch with her once in a while..catched up with things n planned to meet up again...haih, duduk umah nih mmg patah kaki..nak kuar malas unless dgn parents or betul2 ade hal...ikutkan ade la sorang dua kwn kat sini yg nak jumpe tp ntah tak terplan2 lagi..mase b4 balik mmgla bukan main lg ckp nak jumpe tp bile kat rumah nih, occupied dgn household chores campur malas..heheh

kedah's trip was good...spent time with my sooo-pampered-preggy sister..since abg K keje so xdela jln2 sgt..tp mkn sgt byk...x sempat lapar dah makan balik..hahah..lawak abah yg paling best

"hmm kalu panggil abg K jadik kuda la"

"eh, bakpo(apsal) pulak abah?"

"yelah, abg D dah ade..abg U dah ade..abg ngah dulu2 org panggil E"

"lol"

pastu tgk cite indon nih, kiamat sudah dekat...best jugakk cos klakar tp ade mesej yg sgt bagus...

i'm expecting more fun nx week..2 weddings of seri puter!'s CF (college fren) and junior m0nash..ikutkan ade 2 invitation for the same date..M(housemate) punye akak n Al!za, my CF mase kat skola...at first mmg ingatkan akan miss Al!za's wedding cos dpt invitation from M lagi awal n wedding akak dia pun kat klantan so senangla...tp pk2 balik, this is the only chance to meet up my other SSP frens cos skang sume dah bz n ade commitment lain..last2 decided to go to Aliza's, last mins confirmed and really looking forward for that..plus insya Allah will be staying over at L!yana's place after the function..wheeeeeeee!! another one is Ana, my Monash junior..hopefully dpt pegi and jumpe other ppl jugak..sure byk gossip aaa=p..sume2 nih insya Allahhhhh kalu xde halangan...hmm, dua2 yg nak kawen nih ade Yasm!n kat blakang nama diiorg..errr relevant tak nak tulis kat sini,hehehe...

alhamdulillah, i thank HIM for all this

in the middle of serious(exaggerated ok:p)discussion with on!e...lotsa things happening around..will write soon..

WHAT U GIVE...U GET BACK...(heheheh)




err dont puke:p
to be honest..i dearly miss him=(

i dunno..maybe i'm living in denial...maybe its all rumours and nothing's actually gonna happen..at this point, ignorance is a bliss for me...i cant take it for any reason, even to think of the possibilities for it to happen make me feel sick..the only strength i have now are my little prayers and those who's been there for me...otherwise,God knows what would happen to me..
needless to say, at the same time i learnt the invaluable hikmahs behind it...tho i might be living in insecurities and fear for all my life thinking and worrying about this, i'll keep on praying for the good thing..silent prayers sent to me, very much appreciated=)

on another note, i'll be visiting my preggie sis in kedah tomorrow..spend a few days there...then back home before going to kl ..so peon, see u at the wedding reception(syhhhh tau!!) and hani-izhar, msgkan contact no in msia so that we can plan up something..anything, i'm using the old 017...

cos of the news/rumours this morning, my hols came to its end.damn sad and confused. tears couldnt find their way and i couldnt bring myself to look into the eyes. not hatred but i wish i never got asked about it. SIGH. i hate to be noble and i hate to pretend..i am one hell of selfish and if this news is to be true, i am damned for life.

life has been really really good to me for the past week. wish i've written the experiences earlier so that it'll be full of joy and contentment. staying home and caring for the 3 lil boys of nephew and cousins...balik kg, met the old folks, played with lil cousins and ate my fav dish...reunited with my childhood fren whom i last saw in form 3 and just got married last saturday, catched up with things.all breeze for me. life was soooooo perfect that last nite, i thot it couldnt be true. life couldnt be this smooth and there need to be something bad. just when i thot, it then happened..

i soo wanna erase the conversation. i soooo wanna be invisible. i soooo wanna pour it all. but the decision isnt mine tho. no matter how much i hate it, it still can happen and i'll be damned for life.

quiet.

Captured...

'syakir nak ape cik N balik nih?'
'gambar steven gerrard ade?'
'erkkk, adui'
twice i got the same reply..printing the pics from internet wasnt so appealing so i ended up buying a football mags with gerrard mini poster..he's at the airport when i arrived and the next day, i gave him the mags..pleased to see the happy face and how excitedly he flipped thru the pages, shared his idea about soccer with his Tok Ayah (my Ayah Mie)..later he came up to me
'thank you'
'eh for what?'
'for this'*sheepish smile*
heeeee...

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uptown girl..she's been living in an uptown world...
as far as i can remember, he' been into this song since 4 years old. at that time, he would bug me to play the song on the computer and hum along. this summer, its this same song he excitedly asked me about and play it again and again on the computer.

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'jom syakir, esok kite lawan main games''
heheh, nak main game ape?''
hmmm, football la''reti ke??' *chehh*
'eeee retilaaa..nti cik N kalahkan syakir,haaaaaa;p'
'okk'
after 1 mins and he's leading by 1 goal, he asked my cousin to take over me..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
*******
'murah je nih ma..'
'nih berapa nih kalu duit kite?'
'hmmm, **rm..'
'uhhhh, mahalnye..comel, knapa beli satu jeh?'
'aikk ma, tadi kata mahal pastu tanye apsal beli satu..haahhaaha, mane satu nih?'
*******
'ape dia ma?'
'esok ma abah raya, dah habis pose...kita celebratelaa masak laksa penang..pagi tuh nasi lemak'
'YEAYYYYYYYY!!'
*******
11 am...
'cik N, syakir nak tgk cite hantu'
'cite ape? cite hantu hindustan nak?'
'hmmm, x kisahla..'
aku belek2 vcd
'haaa, syakir cite hantu jepun nak? Ju-On..'
'takut ke?'
'hehe, x tahu..cik N pun x tgk lg''
bolehlaa, mane selimut?''
'hahahahaahahh, takutla tuhh..tuh ade selimut..amik cik N satu'

later,
'haaa cik N x tgk,takutla tuhh!!'

'mmgla cik N takut...nak tgk sebelah mata jeh'

i would trade the world to be home...

not another drama queen episode...

you are right. i was the one who gave up on things without knowing ur reasons. and may i add that i was the one who created arguments and made big fuss over stuff. so its actually me who is troublesome, never knows how to appreciate things and ignorant over other ppl's concerns and probs. i've been selfish all this while and i'm so ashamed of myself.never would i know that being straightforward can actually mislead because wrongly used words and end up accusing u harshly. put the blame on me coz i make u feel not good enough for a frenship.wish i could say more than sorry..

if u are to hate me for this, i understand.i failed to be a good fren.before i stop, there are things i'd like to thank u; for being there to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down, for putting up with my temperamental attitude and never complain and for trying to do good to me. life would never be the same then...

NUMB...

no matter how much i regret over my doings, the damage is done...i learnt the lessons in hard way...sigh

for that, i deserved to be blamed and hated =|

TONITE...

is my last nite in melbourne before flying home for summer hols insya Allah..looking back, this is the most ENRICHING year so far and i can proudly say that i'm a SURVIVOR in the journey..those who's been reading this for the past year would have the idea why i said that..quoted from A,how time flies fast this year and franskston is now history to me..what started as resented placement had filled me with great satisfaction and sweet memories..

yes, there were a lot of trying times and emotional breakdown was part of the viscious cycle..up to a point, i almost lost grip=( but there were always be someone around the globe who reminded me that never would i be alone in this journey..and i couldnt thank them enough..and Allah will never test HIS servant for nothing..

throughout, i metamorphed..mistakes learnt, flaws accepted, people appreciated and to HIM i surrender myself...no matter how trying time it is, i managed to survive,alhamdulillahh..

i know i've hurt a lot of ppl for my bad temper and ignorant..egoist i can be but deep inside, guilty conscience wins its way..


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i owe my great time in frankston especially to these 3 blokes..for all their non-judgemental respect, charming smile, brotherly concern and dogdy-but-laughable jokes i will miss them..

also to all the tutors: Serpell, Langton, Botha, Russell, CLeves, O'Donnell, Wassertheil, Fiddes..thank you so much!

p/s..pls pray for my safe journey..anything, reach me through my no.

Rescue 999!!!

erkkk yelppp!!..used to have my mum backk home for the past 2 years and M has been helping me to do it (she did 90% of the task actually) when she's around this year..now that M is already in msia, nobody's gonna be there me this time..no, i'm not trying to be bossy but i do have probs with it..yeah, i did try but things usually wont fit in all and when its time to unload, they will be all over the place, huwaa!! thats why i prefer ma or M to do it for me..neat n spacious..
this morning, started to sort things out, which and where..end up with piles of stuff on the bed and an empty bag..huhuhu, i grumbled to myself a few times and hopelessly looked at the bag. urgh, i dont mind spring cleaning the closet and drawers but ..what should i do next??

Z: mcm nih...ko masukkan dulu brg2 nak bawak balik dlm beg..
Y: laaa, cemana?? xkan nak campak2 jeh?
Z: xdela..ko masukkan jehla dulu...pastu letak tepi..then dah abis kemas yg kat umah nih susunla balik benda dlm beg tuh..
Z: ohhhhhhhh....

grrr, wonder how did i survive my years in ser! puter! and KMB doing this for every hols?? isk!

B!C RUNGA-courtesy of Onie

She left on a Monday
She's a siren down the road
In your herringbone overcoat
That you don't expect to get back

And it's an ordinary sky
Today's like any other day
When all of the aeroplanes
Write her name in the clouds

And nothing's wrong
But it's already Sunday
And you know just how Sunday
Was the day that she would come around?

Go to her foolish man
What's the use of having pride if you don't have her?
She'll endure all she can
But you could make this easier on her

It's all like sinking
You're trying to stay afloat
Like a wind blown paper boat
Over uncharted sea

There's no question why
You're driving to kill some time
Racing the power lines
Back into town

Go to her foolish man
What's the use of having pride if you don't have her?
She'll endure all she can
But you could make this easier on her

Go to her foolish man
What's the use of having pride if you don't have her?
She'll endure all she can
But you could make this easier on her
Make this easier on her
Make this easier on her
Make this easier on her

p/s..nice song..go listen

=)

alhamdulillah, i'm done with the OSCE exam...woke up with throbbing pain on my head,thought that i would screw up if the exam was in the morning..tried to sleep on the pain again and soaked my head with water (mum's tips)..then had my breakfast and took some painkillers..alhamdulillah, by the time to go to CMHSE, the pain wasnt as bad...

12 stations of 8 mins each...i'm not really at my top spirit to perform..just wanna get it over with..again, Allah helped me A LOT..solace and guidance..HE didnt put me in panic situation that i can think well and answer the questions as best as i can. also, the examiners' were nice and not of the stern-looking-faces-that-freaks-me-out...i know i may not be doing as thoroughly as its supposed to be, but thats the best i can do..and i have faith in Allah...

now, apart from praying hard for the results, i'm gonna occupy myself with
-my mates here. laze around, go out and cherish our time
-updates on the fotopages for raya pics
-spring cleaning of the house and wardrobe
-shopping spree
-do a checklist;)

ok, gonna make a lil announcement...teng teng teng!


i'm going back to msia this 28hb..wheeeeee!! special shout out to
hani-izhar:weh, balik christmas kan? jumpa yok!!
peon:yeay, bolehlepak dgn ko lagi..harituh kejap sgt laa;)
peah: i know u care about me..so u wont nag me for this, rite?? *muka sememeh minta dikasihani*

erkkk, do i hear someone screaming my name out loud?? better run and hide myself =p

HEADACHE

I dont know why but seems like i've been suffering from this pain for a few times lately. its not the usual headache that self-limiting. ok, this one may not be as bad as the last time but it still bother me coz it HURTS...how to describe the pain?

'rasa macam ade angin dlm kepala..berdenyut gile...everytime stand up or bendkan kepala..otak macam disqueeze byk2 kali...badan akan seram sejuk..kekadang rasa macam ade ruang kosong dlm skull...mmg akan demam kalu biar jeh sakit tuh..'

it could be the heat of summer...it could be the late meals...it could be the pressure..it could be anything

biarlahh...

HOW WAS IT?

the questions were..how should i say..tough and tricky??. couldnt think of any other words that better described the written exam this morning...why?
- it was an extended multiple-choice questions (EMQ) where we had a cluster of questions with a long list of possible answers.some of the choices given were up to X or Y..so you really have to choose the BEST answer for each scenarios..and mind you, the descriptions were very much similar to each other.even if they were not, we still need to think hard for the obscure ones..jargon? countless=(
- it tested our knowledge for the WHOLE year..and studying the integrated system of medicine means we've got every possible things to be asked in the exam..if this question was on clinical, the next one might be on pathology..and the next one? pharmacology..huhuh..and for this time around, we had whole lot of surgical and medical rotation to cover..yes, u can argue that we've much less exam period (like this time it was only a week) but the pressure? triple if not quadriple..
- personally, this exam was no more about how much we can memorise things but rather tested ur understanding on the particular topic. we can no longer rely on the basic knowledge about this illness and its clinical presentation but of how it happen and every details bits of everything..tough? u bet..
- yes, we know that there'll be a lot of past years' from the experiences but sadly, we dont get hold of the papers. so no matter how much we listen to the seniors about which topic to focus on,it will still be very broad..and yes, this is the only written exam that carry marks for our 3rd year final assesment *sigh*...

having said all that,i've given my best shot for this exam. eventho there's minor panic attack last saturday coz i was behind my revision plan and some nagging thought at the back of my head,alhamdulillah i managed to get it over with. i owed it to the short meaningful sms replies from my families and good wishes from other ppl. but most importantly is the Al-Mighty.Allah helps me to pull this thru with HIS endless guidance and bestowed me with solace before and while doing the exam...alhamdulillahh. things wouldnt be the same without HIM by my side. berkat doa parents n semua yang lain;) as quoted from abg ngah' 50% dari ape yg ngah dapat sekarang nih daripada ma dan abah' and i felt the same way too..all in all, done my best so its time to pray and tawakkal..

exam habit? for as long as i can remember, i never fancy any discussion outside the exam hall...before sitting for the paper, i prefer to sit alone at a corner than joining the crowd to avoid unnecessary panic attack..and after the exam? its already done so no point in going over it again i reckon..so i'd leave the place as quietly as possible. another habit would be the uncompromised sleep. yep, i can let go of my meals (not that often tho:p) and leisure things but not this one. my brain stop ticking after midnite. sometimes i do feel that i'm disadvantage from extra study hours but i've no complaint for this=)

post-entry
i had nightmate about the paper last nite...urghhh!!

NICE LITTLE BREAK

40 mins on the phone with him was really nothing. we talked like nobody's bussiness. started off with him asking about my return, rambling about this movies and that games.... i teased him when i asked whether he has any gf. its funny how he sheepishly changed the expression from 'kawan baik perempuan' to 'kawannn' and i laughed hard by then. next was the AF gossips...i dont have any idea how he managed to know a lot about it, seriously.. then he amused me with his passion about football, chanted a few names that i wouldnt know..recited the www dot liverpoolfc dot com thingy when i asked about his steven gerrard..haihhh, he's way too errr young for that *geleng kepala*..

we day-dreamed if we ever have the chance to travel to UK or london, as he put it;) him chasing the photograph of the soccer players and me going shopping..lalala would be fun!! "nanti kalu sesat macam mana?" "alaaa, syakir kan pandai cakap omputeh.u can ask for direction"..

and i took the chance to tease him(again!) about the food he can't take after his 'big event'..
"aaaaaaaaaa, brape lama xleh makan tuh??"

ohh, i love my 8-year-old-nephew xoxo

FINAL EXAM CHECK LIST

21st nov- Written exam (they pull a year of syllabus into this ONE freaking paper *pengsan*)

24th nov-OSCE

Ya Allah, we seek for your guidance...

till then, take care and pls pray for our success *hugs*

WHEN PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS

Eid prayer, Monash sports centre

ready, not?

at kak sajar's

at kak azie's

on the way to moriah's st

third year meddies clan-evelyn st

gossip corner:p -evelyn st

fourth year clan-evelyn st


weeeeeeee, ribena-berry girls

at hafiz & k syaja's

maybe i should tune in to exam mode now..haihhhhhh =(

CHERISHED...

more piccies to come=)

CRANKY WISDOM TOOTH

'Kak yatt tak tido ke?'
'Ohh tido..kejap jeh..xleh tido...sakit gigi'

seriously tak best...since semalam lg dah sakit tp by the time nak tido, which is around 3am dah ok dah..tp pukul 5 terjaga sbb panas and sakit..terus xleh tido..*sigh* so much for the hari raya..

i dont really mind if its not for the food i'm aiming to feast on;) especially the long-craving satay that we managed to prepare last nite..

*off with lil-bit-of-bad-mood-due-to-lacking-sleep.DND?*

NAK BALIKKKKK...

yesterday was our last terawikh and this morning had our last sahur for his Ramadhan. yes, i'm going to miss this holy month..may Allah gives me the chance to experience it again next year, insya Allah..

called home twice today.. huhuhu, my heart suddenly yearned to be with those familiar faces..to enjoy those familiar laughter and to share the beauty of familyhood. hmm, another price to pay for choosing to study abroad i guess..

mental imagination while on the phone: syakir tgh main games dgn abg ipar..abg long, cik yah, ayah mie and ayah zie(later substituted by abg ngah) main scrabble (level-up?) ...adui, sure macam2 kutukan n lawak yg keluar tuh..semua dah jadik mak n bapa org tp perangai ya Allahh..heheh...abg yu plak jd tukang tengok and tukang gelak ...mesti meriah punyelah rumah tuh..bising jehh..huhuh..man-man aka sinchan tgh main dgn toys dia..sombong taknak ckp tefon..abah n ma were occupied with some other stuff...but lucky we had this technology that let me view them online just now..ohh, missing my loved ones=(

hmm, alhamdulillah raya this year is much better than the previous year. tho i'm not really looking forward for the celebration, at least i've got no reason to be overly-sad..i'd say the highlight of my raya will be to hear abah's takbir through the phone..

and to all ...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

MAY ALLAH BLESS US

*SIGH IN RELIEF*

i'm FINALLY done with my notes-typing. huhuhu, it's been bugging me for the past 2 weeks or so and became one of the reason for my restlessness..but alhamdulillah, managed to finish it within my aim. reason? coz i wanna print them out for free at the hospital tomorrow.hehehe. yup, as non-so-relevant-reason as it can be..but care not, its called personal satisfaction..ohh i'm supposed to be able to finish it by yesterday but blame my sleepy head :p

but the down side of it is- run out of idea to write here..hmmm, cant think of anything instantaneous and my earlier thought is no longer appealing..alahaii =(

at this point of time, i'm having good tempation to laze around on my bed, A & M are busy studying for their final exam tomorrow (great, EId's eve:p) and all of us are listening to raya songs. ohh, i attempted to give hints/suggestions of what to focus for their exam based on my previous experiences but errr seemed like i confused them even more...haihhh, so much for an average student.

not gonna wish the famous greetings yet.

*off to become ayam golek*

WHEN I WAS ABOUT

to sleep after non-stop yawn, A asked me a question..out of the blue moon. i was actually so sleepy and ready to doze off, but somehow this familiar question caught me up. i blurted some words, the usual ones when ppl asked me about it..it sounded easy and simple, but come to think of it..would i actually do as said? hmm, no idea..
this thing, put me into double personality..i can choose either to be positive or pessimist about it..most of the time, i keep the positive thought to myself, and saying out dismissive statement loud. no, nothing of sympathy-seeker but i learnt to live with no expectation...
back to the conversation with A and M..one question after another..in between, we laughed and teased each other..ok, more or so teasing me actually..haihh, that FedEx stuff was such an idea but nope, it wasnt at all like what they thought...very sure about that..
in the end when i could no longer resist the temptation to close my eyes, i said
"haaa korang kalu esok aku sedih ke..rasa nak nangis ke..jagalaa"
and when they asked why
"yelah..dok happy2 gelak2 nih, mesti lps tuh sedih..siap aa korang buat aku gelak byk2 mlm nih:p"

and today, i started to miss home. dah kata dahh..

POST-ENTRY (warning: self-obsessed entry, again?)...

she's like my sister and has always turn to her whenever i feel like telling someone about stuff..so when

me: aaa??? so yatt nih no bape yg tahu?
me: early birds??
sis: haah
me: flattered la mcm nih
sis: 2nd person to know..yg kat ____ ni la
me:*blushed*
sis: hehehe
me: sape 1st? nyebok nih
me: im soo sooo happy for u
sis: heheheh..thanx thanx..smlm overwhelmed tul rase..nervous
sis: baru tau smlm
me: sape yg 1st tau?
me: heheh jahat x yatt
sis: *smile*
sis: one of the girls..but not my _______..heheh
sis: tp jgn ckp diorg yatt tau dulu..kang abis kena marah..hehe
me: eh of course takkan
me: but being second is like..the sweetest thing
met: *smile*
sis: heheh..mula nk ckp dgn yatt dulu smlm..but mcm idle je
me: alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ye ke
sis: haah..heheheh
me: opss ...trase sgt2 flattered nih
sis: *Giggles: Hee Hee*
me: the thot that u actually thinking of me
me: *blushed*
sis: yes..i do think of u *wink*
me: *sis's name*, u surely know how to make me happy & feel good about myself

1st person she thought of telling the news? i'm deeply touched coz just when i thot...

WHINGE TO SELF

sakit bahu..sakit bahu..sakit bahu..
sakit tengkuk..sakit tengkuk..sakit tengkuk
penat..penat..penat
nak pengsan!!

oh satu lagi..malas mandi!!!

*deep sigh*