Back to write??

hhmm, yeah.

i guess my results can wait, still praying for the best that i deserved.

in a meantime, there are something i'd like to share..so see you ppl around=)

farina missy, aku sudah tulis utk tag terbaru kamu tapi mungkin aku akan simpan yang itu, terlalu telus utk bacaan umum..akan tulis yang lain.

When & WHat??...

Tuesday 1pm: OSCE exam.

Friday 930am: Written exam (MCQ & EMQ).

Post-Exam

i'm not happy with how i did the written exam, even OSCE as a matter of fact. i had this mental block while doing the exam and because of that, i just didnt feel right at all after that. so i dunno, i guess there'll be nothing from me till the result's out?

to those who concerned and asked, i appreciated...

For this coming exam...

- i've been having problems to do my revision at home. i dunno why and i'm not exaggerating here. i seemed to lose focus and happy to do anything else but study. sick worried but i sat on the chair, stared blankly on the page. even worse, i didnt bother to open the book.

-due to above situation, i decided to change. i spent time in the library at the hospital and managed to finish off a fair amount of reading. this isnt me but at least when i was home and didnt do anything, i wouldnt feel that guilty or bad. something isnt right with my mind but i dont wanna bother to elaborate. i just wanna get this exam over with and that's it.

-was told that this exam will be TOUGH. no joking=( there are women's & children's health for this semester, that means i need to study both paeds & O and G. lil bit crazy i must say.

-i'm glad i have study group after hospital hours that helps alot. i'm flexible but the good thing to have mixed of girls and boys is that we are more commiting and a lil less distractive with gossips and whats-not. ohh, i'm not talking about my paediatric teammates ok :p

-i need more than assurance and good wishes from all. that includes you who might randomly read this. say a little prayer for me, please =(

-the more i wrote about this, the more anxious and agigated i get*sigh*

humbly, i ask for ur prayer. i really need it.

I hear you..

sms - Cepatla balik, kak S nak blanja N buffet makanan jepun. dah jumpa tempat best. walaupun mahal bbaloi 2 have a sister like u!

say, i'm missed?? heheh..

Kekecewaan melanda...

i was kinda tired from the little shoppping so while waiting for 12am Opening, decided to take a nap..before that i said

'nanti kejutkan eh...bila dah start'

so i slept...then when i opened my eyes again, the room's dark and TV was off. so yeahhhh, its 3am already..i missed both the Opening and 1st match =(

kecewa kecewa kecewaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i dunno, it could be either someone forgot to do a favour or someone forgot to wake up..

ok, maybe i still can catch the re-play later today after the study group but what about the Opening???? this is pain i choose for setting my mind to do/have something.

pain of feeling dissatisfied.

sedihhhh =(

Clarify before late...

ok ok, adding to the paragraph of Hottie H...

when i mentioned testimonials, its actually nonchalant remarks or mild compliments other ppl said about him during our nonchalant discussion. you know, you were chatting away with your frens and out of the blue moon, she mentioned yada yada yada yada... and of course i didnt say anything in reply cos it's nonchalant, remember?? hehehe..

hey farah, i didnt know that u still read...must be laughing ur gut off kan?? at least i was after reading ur msg...sungguhlaaa tak sangka=p

Next time?

today's for reality check..

There are a few things i'd like to do more actually, namely examine the kids and talk with the consultants. i dunno, for some reason i thought i didnt spend much time practising my skills on the patients. either caught up with other stuff to do or plain laziness. yes, the i-couldnt-be-bothered attitude i mentioned earlier. its like early in the morning with the doctors, i would make a mental note to at least see this and this patients. later i just...did not proceed with the plan. hmmmm, its hard.

i didnt know about other ppl, but i personally had this problem of being proactive here. maybe the feeling of minority sort of put me down and stop me from chasing opportunities. i changed to become timid and inferior on-and-off. i chose to observe and then look things up, instead of promptly asked the superior doctors. its not the reply of ' i'm the one who should be asking you this..' that stop me all the time, though sometimes it did cos it made me thought 'ohh, maybe i havent read enough'.. but i guess it's more of my own lacking courage to do so. in a way, its not a big deal as ppl always said' u'll remember more if u learn it by urself' but i dont know..i guess, it's the balance.

Little say from me..

Happy Birthday and Happy 1st Anniversary my dearest sis!!! to see that you found ur happiness eventually, makes me believe that i'll find mine soon...

Regardless, I still need you to be my guardian angel..

Love xoxo

Since I have Friday off..

..so today's literally my last day of paediatric rotation. it has been a pleasant experience for me, especially during the last 4 weeks in DH. i am really really satisfied and contented with my time there. got along well with the registra, made good effort to turn up for the ward rounds and attached myself to the team. clinics have been really useful in term of grasping the concept of some complex illness and observing that parenthood doesnt come with a complete manual. case presentation that taught me a lot about putting my best effort into something as i was full of i-couldnt-be-bothered attitude.

little patients that stole my heart away. true enough, they could be very handful and all cranky when 1st came to the hospital, made you sometimes pitiful over their pain of needles and strange environment. but even so, be it shy away, cry irritably or plainly look sick they were worth the care and love. if you were patient enough to wait for some days when they are back to their self, those smiles and happy faces made you day instantaneously. no doubt. just for the sake of bragging, more than once the registra would turn to me and say 'the boy/girl likes you, S'...ohh yeah *shrug* its just because i often made the kids smile and laugh just by eye contacts and lil bit of faces' effort. i'm flattered nonetheless.

i guess the good thing about kids' unit is you get to act like a kid and there's no one to laugh at you if you do so.

next. my group mates? i had great time hanging out with them during lunch, working on our DLA together, laughing over a bit of drama for stuffing up one of the community visits. I may not be talkative but to sit along, listen to their crap talk and budded in once in a while wasnt bad at all. heheh. a bunch of fun ppl, they surely are.

and hows hottie H? he's good. i listened to a lot of nice 'testimonials' from the other colleagues about him so i guess i'm not the only one who are seeing him the way i am now. no way i'm talking about some sweet talk, he's far better without that. just remind me to write about him more next time. if anyone bothers to know, that is. if you ask me now, i'd say i would love to have our path crossed again. damn, i'm smiling!!

Little confession..

i'm sitting for my exam next week

BUT

i do not feel like studying.

i have not even start doing my revision.

the only thing that makes me feel a wee bit better is

to have the study group

but i know i've had better motivation before.

and i feel bad for that.

The Moments of Contentment & Happiness...

Birthday bash= satay, rounders, playgrounds and cupcakes.

Mother's Day Classic 2006...we walked, we laughed..


Hit the net with good sportsmanship...

Girls' day out for Easter. very nice.

click on the pics for bigger view..

June's

3rd: Ma's birthday...

9th: kak's birthday...

13th: OSCE exam(women's & children's health)

16th: written exam: women's & children's health)

17th: missed SSP gathering*hurmmmmmm*

29th: Tullamarine airport=D


bila tanya 'kenal tak sape nih', dia jawab 'kenallll..dgr suara pun dah kenal' (elehhh, macam org tak dengar papa dia ckp sape yg call=p)

bila tanya tgh buat ape n dgn sapa, dia mention semua org yg ada kat situ tapi boleh lupa nama pakcik dia..heeee, bertuah!

bila tanya psl lawan bola, dia ckp dia main midfielder, striker dan defender (amboi, semua position!), cerita mcm mana dia almost score the goal, then dgn cool-nya admit yg team dia menang satu jeh game dlm tournament tuh.

bila tanya pasal world cup, dia kata nak support brazil, argentina and england.

bila kata manaa aci support byk2 team, dia choose england sbb ada steven gerrard=D

bila tanya nak present ape bila balik nanti, dia mintak boots bola

bila gelak and kata mana ade duittt pastu konon2 pengsan, dia gelak jugak pastu jawab 'kalu takde duit, kenapa pegi belajar kat universiti di australia'


bila konon2 merajuk sbb tak penah pun dpt present dari dia, dia kata takde duit so kalu nak juga kena pinjam duit papa.

bila usik2 pasal girl yg dia pernah mention dulu, dia gelakk pastu cakap 'heeeeihhh, dia nih..hihihihi'

sukaaa=)

To The Most WANTED person in my life...

Happy Birthday, ma...

you know i LOVE you so much!




and i miss u...

Jokingly deep..

when she said last time..
'takpelahhh korang, skarang aku dah tau dah sape kawan aku sbenar2nya..'
then we laughed.

but it's true.
ppl care. ppl ignore. ppl abandon.

its ok sometimes to know where one stands in ppl's heart/mind. it brings the person back to the ground.

dont let this writing get to u, any of u. my shallow thought. my obscure observation.

and my apology.

BIG LOL!!

Di suatu petang...

23yr old [1]: haaa, korang..aku nih yg paling tua tau kat rumah nih..kena panggil along...

23yr old [2]: hahahahha, aku aku????

20yr old [1] & [2] :heheheheh..

23 yr old [2]: achik? sebab yg atas tuh angah la kan, sbb 3 hari awal dr aku..

20yr old [1]: kak *toot* alanglaa..

23yr old [2]:ohhh ok ok...haaa (sambil tengok kat 20 yr old [2]), ko .......achong!

all: LOL LOL..

20 yr old[2]: ehhh, ape pulakkkk*sengih*

23 yr old[2] : ahhh , takde2...achong jugak

23 yr old [1]: haaa ok ok. yg nih plak (aim kat 20 yr old [1])....ayam!

all: LOL LOL LOL

23 yr old[2]: haaa, senyap dia..tadi sedap sgt gelakkan org=p *toot*, ko memang besttt!!

sampai sini dahla..korang maybe tanak dgr sambungan dialog nih, merepek banyak=D lgpun lepas tuh, aku terus sakit kepala sbb byk sgt gelakkkkk..

Of presentation and babies..

I didnt see the marks coming. for one, i stuttered a few times and for two, i was so over with it. but there's always HIM. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. at least, it did something to the nasty inferiority complex.

babies almost always make me forget the world. totally in love.

Morning in Special Nursery Care..

One of the nurses: looks like someone is playing nose to nose..

Me: *Grin (sheepishly)*

you are gorgeous, arent u?

This to miss out??? so not fun =(

Hi All,

Here's the status update for the reunion to be held on the 17th of June.

Confirmed Date: 17th June 2006
Confirmed Venue: SSP Cyberjaya
Confirmed Fees: RM 100 for working alumnis and RM70 for students
Tentative Itinerary:

a) Sukaneka and Senam-Aerobic
Time: 8.30 am

Old girls will be in a group with current students. Group is based on school house ( Emerald, Topaz, Ruby, Sapphire)
Batch in charge: SPM 2001

b) Basketball/Netball
Time: 9.30 am

Old girls VS Current Students. Interested individuals pls confirm your attendance.
Batch in charge: TBC

c) SSP Cyberjaya XploreAce
Time: 9.30 am till 11 am

Old girls only. Total number of teams expected is TBC.
Batch in charge: SPM 2000

d) Tug Of War
Time: 11.30 to 12 pm ++
Old girls + Current Student (tentative)
Batch in charge: SPM 2001

e) Lunch time and break

Food stalls to be set up by the current clubs in SSP. They can make some money for the club fund, and we can help them by buying the tidbits/ drinks.

Heavy lunch might be provided for alumnis by the school.

f) Motivation Talk
Time: 2pm to 3 pm
Batch in charge: SPM 1999

Some guidance for the F4 and F5 students on stuff to do after SPM. The variety of opportunities, not restricted to the conventional career choices etc.....Target speakers: 3 ....others will need to mingle around with the students later...

g) AT last--> Hi Tea
Time: 3pm to 6pm

Here's where the networking begins.....Meeting up with old friends..seniors...juniors.....With scrumptious food :)

hehe, highlighted= i'm excited about...the only thing i didnt highlight is my batch's..cos i'm still wondering are we that motivational back then to be in charge? crazy kids adelaa..and kids, we are still;)

Get the joke??

20 yr old: bla bla...bile dia kawen eh? bla bla...korang nanti kalu kawen nx year jgn lupa jemput..bgtaula awal2 sket, senang nak plan..

23 yr old (1): haa, yelah yelah..

23 yr old (2): haah, korang pun kalu kawen nx year, jgnla segan nak jemput...

23 yr old (1) & (2): LOL

HAH HAH HAH!

miss ko jugak!!

yaaaatttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Message:
hellooo..thank you for the birthday wish,,aku miss giller kat kau and z!la..marilah kite berjumpe di malaysia , buleh la kite main basket lagiii

tak jemput pun aku gi australia, kita bolehkan kalahkan budak2 neighbourhood kau main basketball!!!
I hope you are having a good time overthere....nak jumpa kau sangat2 !!!!!aku maybe balik melesia bulan lapan ni, selama sebulan je...sempat ke jumpe?

love,$har

Home is where my heart is...

seems like everyone's heading home for the school hols..even my eldest busy-bee brother is coming home..syak!r, syahman, umar, aq!l..

homesick*sigh*

i'm entering panic-vulnerable zone *double sigh*

Season 1..finished

' I know you are searching for things and i hope with all my heart you will find answers to your questions, but the answers that you are looking for are closer than you think. they are in you heart, and the hearts to those who are close to you. and that is rite here at home. In your life, you are gonna go to some great places and do some wonderful things, but no matter where u go or who u become, this place will always be with u. There is only...'

i think i shouldnt and wouldnt stop watching eventho the exam's nearing. kamikaze laaa.

Of no importance...

decided to go thru the pics...uhhh, it hurts to see how much they've taken and changed our old place..come to think of the upcoming gathering, i can make it if i want. lets say my exam finished on 16th, i can catch up the midnite flight and reached KLIA on the day itself. Get someone to pick me up and off we go to school. haaaa, would be very much fun isnt it..would give anything for that but it couldnt be anymore wishful than that =(

finally, i got to watch BB but i must say the ending failed me. nope, failed all of us actually. hmmm, it was a-ok but read this..

'aku nak tgk telenovela venezuela salmonella..'
LOL

rite, i'll write some more next time...

When thursday's always my bad day...

these two excites me...

1. My mum retired today. Since her birthday fall during school holiday so today's officially her last day of being a teacher, tho i bet she'll forever be called 'teacher' by her students. I'm so happy. why? for the obvious reason, next time i'm home my mum's gonna be there for me 24/7. how GOOD is that? ok ok, she's not that available actually considering her side activities=D another 5 months to go and in a meantime, i'm gonna occupy myself with study, frens, this and that...

2. Few weeks back, i replied my fren's sms to say that i cant (obviously) attend her wedding this end of the month. this chilhood fren of my is graduating from medical school and im suprised but happy to hear about this tying-the-knot business. nway, this morning i received another sms from her saying that she's gonna be honeymoon-ing in melb from 15-22nd June and asked whether she can visit me?? OF COURSE, my dear...i'm more than happy for the thought. Exam finishes on 16th insya Allah so its nice to have something coming up right after that..

put off?

oh yeah. malas nak cerita.

It's 5:30...

and i just finished 8 episodes of OTH.*smug* yes, it suprised the housemates to see me awake during those hours. actually, thanks to the little temperature i had last nite that put me in bed from 8 till 12. then i thot i could do better than sleeping throughout the nite so i proceed with my weekend plan- do the marathon.

what a well-spent saturday nite!

I have...

-a very productive week and so relieved by that. getting there with my DLA notes, motivated enough to look up for the things i saw/heard in the ward/clinic. so it was good.

-lost 3kg for this year alone. without me doing anything. how great it is cos i never thought i could after getting back to the normal weight last year. that leaves me with another 2kg to go for my target.

-been suffering from short term memory loss and near-accidents lately, not to forget lost in my own world. bad.

-watched Da Vinc! c0de last nite. glad i read the book prior to that. very much enjoyed the movie and the companies themselves. that small reunion,heheh...and yes, i was attentive throughout the movie thanks to the nap i had earlier.

-been telling myself to call home but havent do so...

-a quick sleep-in this morning. was aiming for longer actually but end up tossing and turning. haihh...

Confirmed...

finally, we can say that we are going...wheee!

Tag??

this is from cik Far!na...

10 things i do when i feel so stressed out ..

1. Total submission to HIM. As i grow up, i learnt and noticed a lot of things. One would be that Allah never fails me. No matter how hard life is or how lonely i feel, to know that HE never leaves me alone gives me strength. Tapi manusia mmg mudah lalai, hanya mendekatkan dgn DIA bila dalam kesusahan. Malu...

2. Sleep. As ppl always say, sleep on it and when u wake up...thing isnt that bad after all. Tapikan selalu terjadi, perkara yang menyusahkan hati itu masuk dalam mimpi..

3. As what most of the woman would do, drain the tears duct. orang kata boleh membersihkan mata juga..maybe sebab itu alhamdulillah, aku masih tak perlukan kacamata.

4. Quiet. i know when i'm crancky, i can be annoyingly sensitive and quick tempered. so, kindly give me some space to cool down.

5. Talk/write. whichever i'm comfortable doing or whoever company i've got at that time. eventho i find it harder to practise this method nowadays, but i know in the past it helped me a lot. and yes, i'm very selective and the number is shrinking.

6. Would like to hit the basketball board. and score!

7. Would like to be somewhere with a silent company. No word but presence..

8. Maybe read good books. The ones that would make me forget the world.

9. Maybe watch feel-good movies. and sleep halfway through the story.

10.Hyperactive on rare events.

I'm tagging...
1.Syu
2.Nisa
3.Peah
4.Hani Salim
5.Niesa
6.Hani Izhar.
7.Alysha
8.Tuty
9.Shera

Today's highlights...

- Meet J, my dearest mate.. after more than a year of not seeing each other, i'm convinced that she's still the same J i used to confide in and laugh with..to spend our time catching up with each other would be one of the things i look forward in the next 4 weeks in D hospital..

-Play with baby Shahm!y..he's adorable, believe me! Allah had a better plan for me since i've been putting off the idea to visit him due to lacking time and he's now 5 months old. how nice it was to bump into the family while waiting for the bus, invited for tea and sent home afterward.

I'm grateful, insya Allah..

The card says...

Post-entry: i made a mistake by putting my mum's name on the dedication card. hmm, being ignorant as i always am. no, my mum's actually fit and healthy=)


For the day, i joined...
got the medallion..
be part of the birthday celebration...
and acted like badut sarkis before playing rounders and bola beracun...
I may not be the happiest person now, but these really made my day..

p/s..only for today's event...i've got lotsa pink-ishhh pics to share;) and L0ve Actually remains my favourite movie ...

Another May girl...

Babe,
Happy Birthday..
May Allah bless you with happiness and serenity..
You are definitely a strong woman in the making..

I'll take this chance to thank you for being great at reading my mind and never stop from being true to me..take care=)

jangan risau...

rajuk aku tak lama kerana dgn mereka jugalah aku menangis kemudiannya...dgn mereka jugalah aku sought comfort..

makanan sudah kembali ada..kupaksa diri pergi grocery shopping....satu aktiviti yg kurang best dilakukan sorang2 tp terpaksa sbb kalu tunggu weekend utk pergi ramai2, alamat kelaparanla...

dah 3 hari balik rumah tak baca buku...kenapa?

targetku untuk menonton Da Vinc! C0de movie, mulakan OTH, meneruskan Narut0...dan berBBQ weekend ini...

Today?

- ate my last slice of bread this morning. huhuh, there goes my 'instant' meal. made extra effort for egg sandwich cos i was practically starving since the nite before. What're left on my food shelf: nestum, milk, kurma, (uncooked)pasta, tinned tuna and jam.sigh

- they changed the comm skills workshop to this arvo. yes, i was asked to do the role play for that and hardly prepared anything. here's the brief instruction: you are concerned about ur daughter's asthma and want to have her check....speak no English....interpreter..slightly tense introverted person..lower the volume of voice..hesitate before answering....avoid eye contact...do tell the doctor what's happenning...when asked about ur husband you become very upset and nervous, started crying...embarrased...you do slowly reveal.
fuhhhhhh, it wasnt easy as u would imagine. we had about 20 ppl in the session and i had S, and indian msia as the Malay interpreter. i really had to block my mind from listening to her interpretation, otherwise i would be on the floor laughing my head off..just a sneak preview of what happened
Doctor: so hows the asthma going?
Interpreter: jadi, macam mana asthma itu sudah pergi??
Mother: (tolongggggg, aku nak gelakk aku nak gelakk!!)*chuckled* hmmm, sudah kena 10 kali dalam tahun nih (sambil tunjuk sign 10 dgn tangan)..

dah, yg lain2 tak ingat. thank god, i didnt get do to the crying part..dah cuak dahh..matiii, mcm mane nak blakon part tu depan2 sume org....ehem, mase tgh nak get ready tuh sempatla check out on H...dia senyum jeh tgk aku..hahahhaha, kachhh nye dia xoxo

-so so hungry when i reached home. too lazy to cook rice or pasta, i settled for kurma before off to 'nite' nap. rasa mcm nak nangis pun ade sbb lapar. lps tuh minta ihsan Z for 2 slices of bread n made myself milo-nestum. jadiklaa tuh...nmpk gaya plan nak masak pasta utk bekal pun tinggal plan jelahh..mim alif lam sin sungguhh (err, betul ke jawi aku tuh?)

How's paediatric?

the things that i enjoy most

- there are a bunch of happy and contented ppl around the hosp called paediatricians..they might be on the move most of the time and dont hv much time to entertain us, but when they do they'll teach good stuff. they can be teasy and funny at times, which makes them fun to learn with . i've had good experiences with Dr AW & DG for bedsite tutorials especially.

-ED(emergency dept) has been fulfilling too. lotsa 1st hand experiences and good contact with ppl. yes, cant deny that we sometimes being ignored by the busy-bee dr.'s but there'll always someone who are willing to take us thru things and ackowledge our presence. so its not all sweet and ideal but i'd say, still good.

-seeing how the doctors interact with their little patients. they really know their stuff and it really gives a good impression. while us students struggle on making frens the kids, its all breeze to them.

-i'm happy with my case study topic but i've got limited time (and motivation) to sit down and put my effort on it. so it ended up with could've-been-better assignment. nothing i can do really, i'm never good with academic writing.

-my MMC group. 2 caucasian blokes, 4 chicks of malay, indian, chinese and caucasian. dynamic and fun to work with. ohh and H, he's definitely a gentleman;)

-my study group with A,B and S. we meet up weekendly and talk about our appointed topic over some munches. take off some of the stress from the BIG BUNDLE of study that we need to do..i'd say we're doing fine with the discussion plus some side-tracks =p

- when i'm busy, i think of the crap less. when i'm busy, i feel better. when i'm busy, time flies. when i'm busy, again i think of the crap less.

but the hardest thing is actually

-to resist the temptation to cuddle the little babies, pinched the cheek of chubbby girls and ruffle the shy (blushy!) young boys's hair. gerammmmm!! hehehe, u know the time when u need to listen to the doctor's talking to the parents but all you actually wanna do is to play with the kids....sometimes i couldnt help making eye contacts/facial gestures with them before i realised that i missed on the doctor's words...keh keh keh!

When it comes to sports...

i've had my fair share of FUN and JOY...

- be it basketball years in KMB or netball years here, i made a lot of good frens. the ones that i might never be in the same class, same uni or even same residence with them. in other words, its the few hours in the court that brought us together and the bonding bloomed outside the games. the warmth stays. nope, words failed me this time but i can assure u, its one of the sweetest things...

- i'm not competitive. i play for fun and frens.to play under pressure is never my skill but if i'm feeling good, i'll keep up with it. that means NOT to play against the team who really wanna win, as in REALLY REALLY wanna win. if thats the case, i'm off...

-used to be injury-prone..hehe, had few incidents before and made me a lil bit cautious now. haihh, sakitlaa patah2 tgn nih.

-ppl said i'm funny in the court. even made my teammates laugh while playing the game but yeahhh, klutz is me.. what exactly i did??? HAH, as if i'm gonna tell =p

-i believe to be a good defender, you need to be all alert but to those who's playing the attacking position, ur forgiven to be a bit blur..HAH HAH HAH!!

-to lose the game is one thing, but to have the referee came to one of the players and said 'to me, your team is the better team' is totally another thing. win or not, we played our game.

Dear Nisa...

its already 11am on July, 7th here...so here goes my wishes

Happy Birthday girl !! may Allah BLESS u always and many HAPPY returns in the future.. i'm sure u'll have a good time today...enjoy it ok=)
and also we havent been in contact for quite some time but trust me, ur msg-es never fail to cheer me up..many thanks, sis!
take care...

out of words??

in the middle of phone conversation..

me: hmmmmmm..
ma: lama tak telefon. cemana?ape cerita?
me: hmmmmmm..tuh aaa (senyap)..saje, card dah habis. lama tak dgr suara ma (senyap)
ma: haa, tuhla..lama rasa tak telefon..
me: hmmmm(senyap)
ma: bile exam?
me: hmmmmm, sebulan lagi (senyap)
ma: nih yg bertulis ke?
me: hmmmmmmm,haah (senyap)
ma: kak dah 14 hari dah..pantang
me: hmmmmm (senyap)
ma: eh, ke tak tahu lagi kak dah bersalin?
me: hmmm, tahu..
ma: ade ke kwn2 balik nih? cuti winter nanti?
me: hmmm, tak tahu. ade kot (senyap)
ma: ada problem ke?
me: hmm, tak tahu...(senyap)

after a while
me: takpelah ma, taktau nk ckp ape dah. telefon lain kali la kot.
ma: haa, nih call direct kan. nti call lagi, boleh ckp dgn kak psl baby dia..
me: hmmmmmmmm..bye

sebetulnya...aku merajuk =(

Takde ape nak dicerita...

maaf yer, kurang idea...itu ini begitu begini...penat hati.

Ignore this...

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssss

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssssss

(repeat till december comes!)

p/s...ingat nak tulis psl football freak dan sin-chan dulu dulu tp nantila kot..hati tak tenang sbb terlalu ingat rumah=(

*drum-roll pls*

finished class around 3.30pm, went to the locker to pick up my things. there's an sms from sis in law -anak sedara kita dah bertambah-. aikkkk, tuh jeh. tak ckp boy ke girl??saje la tuhhh...

decided to keep the suprise a little bit longer. i found myself grinning like kerang busuk sorang2 for the next 7 mins walk. how could i prolong the waiting and resist the tempation to call straight away, God knows. berdebar toksah nak kata laaa=p

reached home, quickly grabbed the phone. haih, awat yg taknak angkat tefon ntahh..last2 ma angkat..hehehe, tanya itu ini..barulah terkeluar soklan emas..

'hehe, boy ke girl ma?'

'boy la.hehehe'

'ahahaha, ye ke...aduiii'

then borak2 dgn kak kejap b4 battery habis..alaaaa=( tak sempat nak tanya details pun..so there i go, 4 nephews back home!! tell me how to wait for another 7 months before i can meet them all???!!

****recap this morning****
M: kak yatt, smalam sy mimpi kak yatt dpt anak sedara boy...
Y: hahaha, ye ke?? ape nihhh...dengki la tuhh..alahai malasnye nak pegi kelas..ponteng boleh tak?
Z: haaiii, sape yg nak bersalin sebenarnye nih??
Y: cehhh=p

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That's why we are sisters..

taktau nape tp hari nih rasa nakkk sgttt call rumah to check on my preggy sis. she's due next week for her 1st baby. ingat nak call dlm pukul 9mlm lps settle down, tp tak jadi padahal b4 tuh dah kuarkan siap2 calling card tp simpan balik dlm purse. bile dah occupied, terlupa kejap plan tuh. around 11 mlm bile dah nak tido, teringat balik kat dia. hmmm, nak turun bawah utk call dah malas plus err takut (ngaaaa!!), last2 call jelah gune hanfon. mase tuh dah siap dlm quilt utk tido.

call rumah, tak angkat..

call ma, tak angkat..

call kak, tak angkat..
(by now, i had a hunch that something's going on..)

call abah, aik angkat (padahal tak expect pun sbb slalu abah still takde kat rumah time2 mcm nih)..

tanye2, abah ckp dia kat hosp An-N!sa..kak dlm labour ward. heeee, rezeki!! i mean takdela expect utk dpt call time2 mcm nih kan. instinctively pulak tuh cos baru je pun borak dgn dia brape hari lepas. cakap dgn ma kejap pastu passed the phone to her. she already broke the water and having half-hourly contraction. heheh, warned her that its gonna be a LONGGG night and asked to selawat byk2...asked this and that, i was all excited...hmmm, shuldnt say this but i soooo wanna be with her now. dia ingatkan aku call sbb ma bgtau but nope, i hv my own instinct...
gifted to a sister.

12am: ahhhh, sudahh!! aku pulak yg tak boleh tido =D

What's Easter Sunday '06 all about...

we travel down here..

we played the mazes..
we wahhhh-ed and wohhh-ed at these sand sculptures...
we hopped onto the ferry and were entertained by these 'natural' dolphins =p

i so loved the invitation to be part of this road-trip..

i so loved listening to N's narration about her misfortune past few days in the car. she and her drama bits, me couldnt stop laughing;) and the laugh continued after an sms as we past Red H!ll...ngaaaaaa.

i so loved finding our way out in the mazes and posed to imitate the the expressions. oh yes, the temporary tatoo of fish. me=fish?? *shrug*

i so loved our little chat over nasi lemak and mee goreng in the garden, even if its just about how-to-make-ur-MILO-extra-sedap by S.

i so loved when we reasoned about how they maintained the sand sculptures if it rains.

i so loved when we tried to pose for Z but end up having candid pics during the ferry trip to Queenscl!ff island. lovely.

i so loved the moment we all rushed to the rail to witness first-hand experience of dolphin dance. what's the cheer again, N??=p

i so loved the juicy gossips and jokes we shared while waiting for our turn to pray.

i so loved the chilled nite in our room to enjoy the pics. all the expressive candids and joyous poses. fulfillingly happy.

i so loved the 13 hours that we spent together.

WONDERFUL GIRLFRIENDS, you are;)

Terba!k Untukmu..

Last week, T asked me to listen to this. most of the songs pass my ears unnoticed and unappreciated, but not the ones given by others...its habitual.

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

*Oh kini aku sadari
Ini salahku
Tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

Maafkanlah bila ku selalu
Membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
Kulakukan itu semua
Hanya untuk buatmu bahagia
Mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
Aku cuma ingin jadi
Terbaik Untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikansesungguhnya cintaku

' Brownies & Ice-cream...

...now that's best combo. that's all i'm looking for, my best combo. someone i can bring out the best in, and to bring out the best in me.'

'Maybe the perfect man wasnt real, but the perfect you is'..

'I realise you dont need an army to protect you. you dont let anybody close enough to hurt you in the first place'

'Everything always have two sides..'
- The Perfect Man movie-

No longer ..

yes peon, demi kamu aku tak lagi hiatus;) nahh, sumber bacaan sudah kembali...

1. Three names you go by
-N
-Y
-S

2. Three screen names you've had
-S
-C
-E

3. Three things you like bout yourself
-acceptance
-faith
-mediocre

4. Three things you don't like bout yourself
-quick temper
-insecure
-transient esteem issue

5. Three parts of your heritage (??????)
-malay
-malay
-siamese malay( yelah kot)

6. Three things that scare you (or mostly creeps you out)
-DARK
-ALONE
-DOG

7. Three of your everyday essential
-bed
-food
-good company

8. Three things you're wearing right now
-pyjama
-sapphire pendant
-thermal socks


9. Three of your favorite bands (or artist at the moment):
-none
-none
-none

10. Three of your favorite songs
-semusim
-because of you
-satu

11. Three new things you'd like to try in the next 12 months
-bungee jumping
-ski-ing
-be someone's

12. Three things you want in a relationship (love included in the package)
-dominant him
-dependant me
-sensitive us

13. Two truths and a lie
-i miss home
-i enjoy frenship
-lalalalala

14. Three people who have to take this quiz now or hv to treat me:p
-miss chuppa
-farina
-hani salim

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seems like aku bukan je ade telepathy dgn ma tp juga sis in law. baru plan nak call her later the day, sudah dpt sms bertanya kabar....
**********************

HIATUS

maaf.

New chapter...

I'll be starting my paediatric rotation tomorrow for the next 9 weeks. best wishes, tips, words of wisdom, anything...most welcome=)

p/s: updated fotopages..

Ok tuan-tuan dan puan-puan...

Inilah dia antara bahan2 yg diperlukan utk menu tengah hari sabtu ini...(tambahan: beras, dessicated coconut, cili kering etc)
dalam masa taktau-brape-jam ini, chef kite A akan tunjukkan cara2 utk memasak ini..ini..ini..ini dan ini (alamak, banyaknyee nak kena prepare *pening pening*...)

tadaaaaaa, nasi kerabu version OZ dah siap..nampak lazaaatt kan?? jemput......tengokk=p

ehemm, dah dah jgn nak mintak resepi or suruh aku masak, ini chef A yang masak bukan chef Y ok...aku tukang potong bawang n kacau kuah kat dapur jeh...oh satu lagi

tukang makan banyak *sengihhh*

Recap...

...i manage to track down my big college sister, kak zue. she was in f5 when she took care of me, the crybaby first former *shame shame*. oh my, i can vividly picture her smiling face & remember how nice she was to me. at the same time of writing this, i'm emailing her=) was told that she's currently in Glasgow with her hubby n 2 daughters so there i go, 2 'instant nieces' . isnt it great??!!

...i had this funny yet beautiful dream last nite but i'm gonna kill myself first before i reveal it here. its funny cos the person's anynomous but beautiful cos lalalalalala..(annoyed? nasiblaaa=p) suprisingly also, the dream came in series cos everytime i unwillingly woke up from my sleep and slept back, it continued but in diff settings. not exaggerating but it seemed real,hehehe..

...lavish or not, we have 2 TV in our house. one downstairs in the living room and the smaller one(we bought to survive Franskton last year =p) is in the master bedroom. so last nite we decided to watch 'Freaky Fr!day' and cos of the wintery weather, i nicely tucked in the bed for some warmth while watching the movie. no its not a scary movie but family-comedy genre, really enjoyable movie and laughed my gut out. i was determined to watch the ending but around 10.15pm (i repeat 10.15pm not 11.15 or 12.15), decided to rest my eyes while waiting for the ad's to finish. yes, u guessed right, i missed the ending,huwaaaaaaaaaaaa... (this definitely should come top in the 7 weird list actually)

Some words

and it's getting more and more absurd
it's sad (so sad) so sad why can't we talk it over
oh it seems to me
sorry seems to be the hardest word...

i missed the fyp presentation but wish all the very best for the final exam. u'll make it and prayers go to u. have i thanked u for being a loyal confidante before? if not, here it is. thank u very much.

Freakingg ggeliiii...

Disclaimer: ini bukan cerita aku. aku hanyalah tukang sebar gossip/lawak ini..utk hiburan semata, tiada kaitan samada yg berada di melb mahupun di msia.

Akum, apa kabar. Suspen tak? Mamat mana la pulak yang email kat aku ni, kan?
Ini Abg [so-and-so], yang jumpa kat City ari tu masa Comm Game. Ingat? Yang sms tanya kg kat mana pastu [so-and-so] tak jawap tu....

Macam mana study? K? Abg doakan semuanya OK dan akan lulus exam dgn warna yg berterbangan........he,he,he.

Ini Abg nak attach gambar yang ari tu, pastu boleh tak tulis nama sorang2 & antar balik kat Abg? Abg dah lupa la nama adik2 Abg tu!

Slack betul dah berapa lama tunggu tak leh nak attach pulak, koman spana sungguh comp ni, mungkin line lambat agaknya, maklumlah dial-up bukan broadband.

Nantilah Abg cuba attach pada next mail, K?

p.s. Balas la, Jgn tak balas macam sms gak, K?

Take care, kirim salam semua kekawan,

Wassalam.

*jap, nak gelak icon YM...guling kiri kanan sambil hentak kaki*

ya Allah, pecah perut dahh mcm nih...nasibla bukan aku yg dapat email nih, one of the geng yg dapat tp aku ade di tempat kejadian mase tuh...masya Allah, rasa nak terrrmunnnttt pun ade *double-green face*

Once and for all

here u go, han!

How many school did i go to?
-Sek Keb Pula! Ch0nd0ng
-Sekolah Ser! Puter!

Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
None of those. i study when i the mood strike or i feel like studying, and stop when i'm tired or the mood wears off. i cant do last mins either cos i crack under pressure.

Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
A bit of both. Was more of teacher's pet during primary school, maybe because i was from the prominent family in the kampung. one of the important figures and known to most of the teachers.

highschool?? (hahaha, i bet most of my ssp fellow is giggling hard by now...) i'm not in warden's goodbook, thats a sure. i was mischiveous back then. i didnt bother to try to impress teachers, nor did i messed up with them. i was pretty loud (as in verbally loud, not abusively loud) and they often placed me to sit near the HIGH TABLE for dinner where all the prefect and warden on duty would be. konon2 tanak kasi aku bising la tuh, benciiiiii!! what else? nothing much really (kononnnn!)

same thing went for college years. mischiveous.

What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Often it involved Rec room where the tv was. shessshhh!! i know i know, there's this incident unforgettable to those involved, what far!na referred as 'menamastekan c!k a!sah'..LOL LOL!! there's another incident happened on the last day of form dot-dot...this one i cant elaborate more cos promised my partners in crime to keep it secret. i tell u, this one was VERY VERY hillarious!!

Three subjects I enjoyed
-History..not really enjoyed as in memorised line by line in the textbook but it was more like gifted to do well during exam.
-Chemistry...
-Math..used to enjoy it but brain decided not to keep up with Add maths, so i gave up on this subject.

Three teachers that inspired me
-Puan Salma..once she made me cried and after that i vowed to score chem in IB. and i did.
-Dan!elle W!lk!ns...young obstetrician who memorised things like crazy.
-my mum...she's a teacher.

Promise to self

i shuldnt promised myself about what u call it melodramatic entry cos i'm about to break it.

i cant say sorry, can i? rite, it could've ended in a better way but nothing's worth mentioning now. i gather that what's said is said and i have to live with it. i'll try. after all i'm selfish, i can say hurtful things in a breeze and i have known that all along. thats why i dont deserve a lot of things and i'd rather be in my old shell. back 6 years ago.

this isnt ayat pancing to draw sympathy. this is just a writing to say that i know it could've ended in a better way. thats all.

Busy-BORED

u got me this time, n!sa;p

4 jobs i have in life
-student doctor
-domestic helper (when i'm on long holiday)
-babysitter to my baby nephews
-mum's escort (self-appointed, i am)

4 movies i can watch over and over
-Al! setan
-Soal hat!
-P Ramlee's
-L0ve actually


4 tv shows i love to watch (its actually i'd love to watch)
-CS!
-Oprah's sh0w
-Desperate housew!ves
-Gray's anatomy( err never watch a single show actually...)

4 places i've lived in
-Kelan+an
hometown. born and raised there. Yes, i know some ppl rolled their eyes when i introduced myself as a kelantanese. both my parents are from there as well and my childhood life was of typical kampung girl that i treasured very much.
-KL
spent my teen years over there since 12 years old in a boarding school . made a lot of frens for life. enjoy the youth spirit.
-Selang0r
the remaining 2 teen years. its in a college doing my pre-uni. another lot of frens for life and this place really toughen me.
-Melb0urne
where i am now and will be till end of next year, insya Allah. been living in the same house for the last 4 years and not planning to move out. this place witnessed the most of bitter-sweet memories that turn me into who i am now.

4 places i've been on vacation to
-Sydney
w!nter 2004. i love this place for its hustle bustle city.
-Gold coast
also w!nter 2004.wheee, had so much fun with the rides in the theme park n shopping spree.
-Tasmania
autumn 2005. girls vacation, something i've always enjoyed. laugh and terror, both we had.
-Ipoh
my auntie's place. i love being pampered by her as she doesnt have any daughter, long hours of movie marathon, shopping trip and jalan2 cari makan. we shared stories a lot too.

4 places i'd rather be in
-in a camp somewhere near the beach or mountain. had enough of indoor.
-Mecca and Madina. top of my vacation list before i start my career life.
-somewhere in UK/europe with my girl frens. i call this girls vacation.
-honestly? in my mum's arms =(

4 of my favourite food (easiest of all=p)
-laksa (any kind)
-nasi kerabu
-mee (any kind)
-yong tau fu

4 websites i visited daily
-bl0gsp0t
-link-ees
-fr!endster
-utusan onl!ne

4 victims to do this tag
-far!na
-han! sal!m
-azzahraa
-den!se
and anyone who's busy-BORED like me


>>>wise or worse? maybe its the latter, i have no idea really. an impromptu in nature, it comes with a high price.<<<

Reflection...

'I had always believed that my dad was the tough one. My mum didnt drive, she wouldnt open her front door after dark, and she hated confrontation of every kind. And because she didnt have a driving licence, because she was polite to rude waiters, because she slept with the light on, I was stupid enough to believe that my mother was a timid woman. Now i was about to learn that my mother had her own well of courage.'

'I knew that my father couldnt live without my mother. Her going first would have killed him. It would have robbed him of his main reason for living. and I always assumed that she could not survive without her. I was wrong'

..man and w!fe

Exhausted...

some time ago, i made a promise to myself not to have another melodramatic-self-pitying entry here. so, there i go. two lines of entry.

8am-5pm

hmmm, never thot that time could fly thisss fast.. i kept losing track of time, i.e i thought today's thursday instead of tuesday and i hardly have time to sit down and do nothing (not to say that i dont do leisure stuff, heapsss;p) in a way, this is to compensate the 'gala time' i had last week but i'm not complaining at all, in fact i enjoy every bit of the day..workhaholic? maybe maybe not. the self-worthiness and satisfaction is just too rewarding, plus i found myself less guilty over my slack in managing time. tiredness is a sure thing but i'll live with it.

its a blessing that i dont get much pressure from the superior colleagues in the hospital to perform like a genius cos i AM NOT, and they acknowledge the fact. most of them expect mistakes and want us to learn through the mistakes, which is so reality-check. another reason that keeps me contented with my clinical experiences.

also, i took a simple approach to ignore ppl's words about the worst-has-yet-to-happen-this year..i've had enough of that in the past that this time around i just snap back whenever ppl started on it. not smugly but exasperately. pls, spare me the whine and let me experience it myself, for whatever stressful-crazy-time-you-claim-it'll-be-for-this-year. i'm trying to be positive here and all i ask for is either some 'you can do it too' or shut up say nothing at all.

this might do for this week..

7 WEIRD habits

ok, i'll do this one first...

1. kalau sebut 'alamak', mesti tangan letak kat tepi kepala...gaya seseorang yg pelupa=D

2. i LOVE to tag along with my parents in the car when i'm back home..doesnt matter where and for how long, i'll be more than happy to be at the backseat and enjoy my solitude.

3. as i mostly occupy the co-pilot/passenger seat, i often lost in my own thought during car trip. thats why ppl shuldnt ask me for direction or assistance in tracking the road..i'm hopeless due to the above mentioned.

4. enjoyed bersila atas kerusi, tak kisahla tgh makan ke, tgk movie ke, buat kerja ke..kaki mesti atas kerusi, err bukan atas meja yer=p

5. kalu tido, mesti selubung sampai ke kepala...worst come to worst kalu takde selimut, akan guna bantal..it runs in the family

6.suka makan pedas tp tak tahan pedas..hehehe, macam kalau masak ramai2 akan pesan 'masak pedas2 tau'...pastu mesti kena balik 'elehhhh, nti sape yg tak tahan pedas???dia jugakk'..ngaaaaa

7. i have this ability to sing a song with a new lyric. composed spontaneously. usually it comes about when im in the middle of humming the song and something happened...hahaha

having said all this, pls dont give me that weird look=p

i wanna tag...............................7 lucky link-ees ( as in those in my link list, ok;p) who havent done this. feel free=)

Love means knowing when to let go....
' Even when the relations between us had been strained, he had always been my shield, my guardian, my greatest ally. Even when we bickered and fought, even when i had dissapointed him or let him down, i had always been secure in the knowledge that we would still do anything for me. now all that was gone'- Man and Boy.

damn, i got tears in my eyes when reading the last few chapters..

Nothing significant...

so i'll just ramble, ok. lets see, i declined two invitation for today...one was to play badminton and another one was to watch movie. sorry mates, i just wanna stay home today and enjoy the last day of SUKOZ(hahaha, i culpritly changes the abbreviation to show my much Annoyance (notice the capital A??) with the tv station and sports commentator). plus i've had too much fun these past few days up until yesterday, so maybe i need to settle down a bit and get back to study..tho i hardly finish a chapter for today due to err hot weather and usual laziness..

few days ago, F asked me this caught-me-off-guard-question, i bet she'd been asking the same question around and got diff views and ideas. as honest as i can be, i still thought that the answer was pretty LAME.hohohohoho.. . we talked a bit more about it ..so she said for my case, its the perseverance . dictionary defines it as to continue trying to achieve a particular aim in spite of difficulties ...mind u, she's been listening to me for all this while to come up with that big word *nodding*.. may that kind of person still exist;)

finally, i completed the template..

sms...

biasa je. tadi danish cry masa dia tgk kartun. dia pun g kat danish buat ssshhh ngan jari dia. bising kot. tapi tak boleh dia 2 org tu. takut dia kiss adiknya...

alahaii, rindunyaaa=(

Howdy Mate: Tabik pelajar kita sanggup ikat perut untuk beri sokongan(source: Berita Harian)

SEMANGAT sekumpulan pelajar negara yang sanggup mengeluarkan belanja sendiri untuk hadir di Melbourne untuk memberi sokongan kepada kontinjen negara di Sukan Komanwel, sememangnya sesuatu yang amat dibanggakan.
Pelajar ini bukan saja daripada kalangan pelajar di Melbourne tetapi di serata Australia termasuk Darwin, Sydney dan juga Perth, semuanya dengan hasrat yang sama - memberi sokongan kepada atlit negara.
Ada yang sanggup menaiki kereta api selama 12 jam dari Sydney ke Melbourne dan kemudian menumpang di rumah rakan. Tidak kurang juga yang terpaksa mengikat perut untuk perbelanjaan perjalanan jauh serta tiket pertandingan kerana sedar temasya sebegini bukan datang selalu.
Sudah tentu peluang untuk menyaksikan atlit bertaraf dunia beraksi tidak mahu dilepaskan apa lagi sesudah berada di negara Down Under ini. Apa lagi berpeluang untuk melihat pemain negara secara lebih dekat, tentunya ia sesuatu yang lebih menarik.
Pengorbanan pelajar sebegini wajar dihargai oleh kontinjen negara atau atlit yang bakal menyertai pertandingan di luar negara pada masa depan sama ada dibalas dengan keputusan terbaik atau sekadar menghabiskan sedikit masa untuk beramah mesra dengan mereka.
Kerana mereka inilah peminat sebenar yang sanggup berhabis dan berkorban masa demi sukan negara, tidak seperti sesetengah pihak sekadar hadir kerana syok sendiri menerusi tiket percuma.
Bagi penyokong yang bernasib baik, ada yang mendapat kemeja T Harimau Malaysia yang diagihkan kontinjen negara tetapi untuk penyokong sejati seperti mereka, ia bukannya keutamaan walaupun pasti bersyukur jika mendapatnya.
Seperti kebiasaan, masih ada VIP mahupun orang yang menganggap dirinya VIP serta anak-anak mereka yang hanya sanggup berhabis untuk membeli belah tetapi ‘menyusahkan’ pihak lain bagi mendapatkan mereka tiket percuma menyaksikan Sukan Komanwel ini.
Lebih pelik, kelompok ini hanya mahukan tiket acara yang menjanjikan emas seperti badminton – mungkin sekadar mahu kelihatan berada di sana kononnya merekalah peminat sejati.
Jika dilihat latar belakang kelompok ini, rasanya mereka berkemampuan untuk membeli tiket sendiri tetapi nyata lebih gemar menggunakan saluran tertentu bagi mendapatkan keistimewaan sedangkan pada masa sama menafikan hak orang lain yang terpaksa menyerahkan tiket bagi diserahkan kepada kelompok berkenaan.
Terpaksalah juga pengurus pasukan skuad badminton negara, Ahmad Mohd Idris terkejar-kejar menguruskan tiket dan menyerahkannya kepada ‘si-peminat’, sedangkan tugasnya adalah untuk menguruskan pemain negara.
Bagi penulis, kelompok seperti ini ‘sendiri mahu fikirlah’ sebelum terus menjadi bahan ketawa di kalangan media dan pegawai sukan.

...makan cili? rasa pedas?hehehe, nasiblaaa

click here for more pics &amp; review on the game;)

and in NST..

The action didn't stop, and Kuhan gave the Malaysian fans plenty to shout about with another goal in the 58th minute to draw level, and suddenly, a victory over Pakistan looked possible....

Mum-daughter telepathy....

Last nite, i contemplated to make a direct call to my mum using handphone coz i ran out of calling card but knowing she wasnt home at that time, i cancelled the plan.

This morning, i felt a bit uneased and planned to sms her out but didnt....i simply forgot in the middle of rush.

This same morning, i received an sms from her..

'Rindunya lama tak dengar berita...'

oh my my, guilt almost numbed me...its actually less than 2 weeks since i last called her, a bit of record as compared to weekly doses of call last year..

MALAYSIA BOLEHH!!

look at the colourful background...

Malays!a started off with 1-0

Then Pak!stan scored to make it 1-4

Later the score was 2-5

We managed to catch up till 5-5

But they scored an extra goal not long after our 5th goal =(

Nevertheless, we made it to the semi-final, wohooo!!!

It was a GREAT game..full of adrenaline rush and i'm mostly amazed by their fighting spirit, despite the blazing hot autmn.

As a result, i only have a photo of them in action. too busy cheering with the clan=)

Proudest moment after the match...

Going crazy?

It feels like i havent studied hard enough and yes, this thought can be quite stressful. Not that i fancy the idea of studying 24/7 but i think i shuld be doing a bit more. shoot. this doesnt make me feel any good.

crapp!

A QUICK ONE...

In the middle of this impossible schedule, i managed to get myself another hockey ticket for Melb'2006. Its Malays!a vs Pak!stan, tomorrow morning. Tutes/Clinic/Theatre? err what're all those?? nyehnyehnyeh...

In less than 24 hours, i've been tagged by her and her ...errrrrrr you ppl sure know how to dig in my deepest darkest secrets??=p

This is what weekend's all about...

for saturday,

before the match...

during the match...

Msia 8- 0 Tr!nidad & Tobago...C0mm0nwealth Games, Melb0urne 2006

after the match

...and for sunday

binge time at kak sajar's house;) my tummy must've stretched out for that day...hehehe

Elated...

i'm ecstatic about the upcoming events for this weekend. so much so, i feel lost amid the excitement,ngaaaaaa....

Melb0urne 2006

I'm so gonna enjoy this =D

Mumba Festival...


worst thing: i forgot my camera=( i guess, Dory is really my middle name..heheh

'Too Much Pride Can Kill A Man'- Daredev!l

Warm hearted

A: nasib baik la aku ada kawan macam ko ngan To*e..
A: apa korang cakap sangat make sense pada aku
A: thanks a lot yatt...
A: ko tak tau how much it means for me..

sometimes it doesnt take all the sweetest talk to make ppl feel appreciated. this one will do for me...

Little dreams

~> For my final year (insya Allah) it'll be great if i can do my selective block in UK/Eire and then spend my holiday block of 6 weeks to travel and visit my frens.. hmmm, so much for dream comes true =D The only things that make it a bit tricky now is to get permission from my parents and to find someone to be my company, otherwise i'm game.i know, the other tempting destination would be Msia but at the moment i feel like going places ...

~> I'd love to stay in melb for another year or two after the graduation. Its not that i dont miss Msia and the ppl (plus the FOOD) but again, i feel like doing something more over here..work experiences and watsnot. so Nisa, i feel you about making this decision (tho i might be lacking one individual to think/consider about =p)

~>I dont think practising medicine (insya Allah) in East Msia is a bad idea altogether. hehehe, i must've gone crazy to say this but i'd like to have a bit of feel living in sabah/sarawak for some time. its more to prove my survival skills i guess ( as if i havent spend enough time away=p ) and get to know other ppl...could've been influenced by some reading about ppl's adventures as well..

~> this one, i'd like to keep it to myself thank u=)

we'll see how i go about all these. doesnt matter if none comes true, at least i know i've lived to my dreams until then..

=D

wheee, i'm done with the Core Curriculum's notes *sigh in relief*

wheee, i borrowed another 4 storybooks from JM's library.

wheee, i slept for more than 8 hours last nite *gulp in guilt*

wheee, i'm gonna continue on reading Ten Teachers' book.

whee, i bicycled around the neighbourhood this evening.

wheee, i have these dreams i do not wish to let go just yet.

wheee, i'm happy.

=D

12:30 am

and i was wide awake, laughing and joking around with the housemates.

Z: nih apsal tak tido lagi nih..
aku: (tersenyap)
Z: ohhh, patutla dia takde kelas esokk..cett
aku: ohh, cakap dgn aku ke?? hahahaha

Saje-saje...


Down under collections, tho some are specially brought from msia;) but now all are safely kept in the wardrobe..takut habuk nanti;)


these two who often cilok my space to sleep..bak kata L, bear tuh lagi besar dari aku..hahaha, mmg penyibuk pun dua2 nih, penah jugak terfikir 'hmm, sape yg nak tido sebenarnye nih??..' =p



hehe, bunny choc nih aku dapat mase dekat2 easter last year which was around April from a tutor.. tapi aku sayang nak makan so ingat nak simpan dulu..simpan punye simpan, last week baru noticed balik and decided nak makan..so adela dekat setahun dia jadi hiasan kat study table aku..comei!

Suprise suprise!!

yesterday was full of fun. N and i proceed with our plan to watch the very longgggg overdue movie of lion-witch-wardrobe..shessshh, i know it's very very long overdue but does it matter?hehe...anyway, N came up with this idea last weekend so i thought why not. Off we went to The Village together with A,M,Z who had their fair share of shopping spree while we spend the 2 hours fascinated and moved by the story.

Later was the weekly doses of women making waves. with the blistering hot weather for the past 3 days, this one was definitely heaven. Came back home with a pack of grilled Nando's chicken and chips. The household was getting ready for movie time as i started my dinner. Yes, i noticed they were hissing and 'kalut-ing' over God-knows-what but couldnt bother to ask. was about to go downstairs and upon seeing me, they looked pretty 'upset' and 'gelabah', so i simply turn back and said

'sorry, tak kacau..'

all i can guess was that they might be planning on some suprise but again, i kept my nose out of it. they urged me to go to S' room for the movie, came upstairs with food and smiled from ears to ear. Then when they sang the song for me & S, i looked at them blankly and the 1st thing that came out from my mouth:

'tak fahamm... kenapa korang buat nih?'

ok, this was suppose to be a suprise belated birthday for me & S =D they should be thankful for my nature of LPU-lambat pick up that i didnt suspect anything, not even noticed the cake they were about to take out from the oven when i went downstairs earlier. hahahaha.


to Z, M, A,B,I: loads of thanks for this sweet thought..who would've guessed that i'll be having my birthday cake 2 months post the date? the bestest hand-made prune cake ever (courtesy of I) and sushi treat ;)

Continued

I actually read Hani's when i 1st know about the news. i feel so hopeless being at the other end of the world, not knowing what's gonna happen next and how she's doing at the moment. lucky there's this strong circle of sisterhood we managed to keep up despite the distances. sms-ed and IM-ed around to get the updates. a bit relieved to know that she's recovering well.

as far as aneesa's concern, i've always admired her strong will and determination. she's one hell of a tough lass, hardly give up on anything and never put herself down. Girl,i pray for ur speedy recovery and wish to be there for u..*hugs*

Deep scar...

We both agree that no matter how good things are now, the scar will remain there. 'walaupun semua dah ok, parutnye masih ada'. to see how much she's affected by this and how much he has/might have changed devastated me. personally, nothing will ever be the same for me again. pain and anguish lingers, so does the voice at the back of my head. i was also being told about the happenings in my absence, much to my suprise and relief. i'm entitled to be sad and dissapointed over this, but i decided not to. instead, i wanna move on with life together with her and try my best to be good to all. i need strength so He gives me strength..

p/s: n!esa, i just read about ur admittance to the hospital in han!'s blog. i'm so sorry to hear and pray for ur speedy recovery. take a good care of urself , please=)

p/s: im not the best person to say this but try not to lose hope, mr robot. even if all fails u, turn to HIM. prayers is as worth as ur effort, i'd say. be it fyp or anything. to annoy u a bit: u shuldnt settle the migraine with other's meds. its much much better and safer to get urself a prescription. no coercion though.

Tough=)

its not easy to stand tall and keep up the spirit.

all this while, i seems to put myself in a difficult situation where i assume a lot and risk nothing. yes, ppl who knows me well will understand what i'm trying to say here. maybe i've listen to more than enough stories that in the end, i just wanna protect myself from those experiences. a bit of coward u might say. but as time goes by, i figured that i aint gain anything from the self-built shield. not to say that i've thrown away completely the shield though.

i hope no one has misread my writings. nothing is really happening. i'm still the old me who laughs more and sleep even more. sheshh!

How's that?

i was in the library to print out some notes while waiting for my O&G mate to go to the ward. Something went wrong with the thumbdrive and i was busy asking around when my phone rang the sms tone.

there's this guy at my back who turned to me and said
'thats the coolest ringtone eva..'

i had to laugh.i did. it sort of tickled me cos all this while, there have other ppl who commented on the tone and 'romantic' seemed to be the popular one*d'ohh*

hmm, lantak korangla nak kata ape pun....

More of..?

i was exchanging sms with my sis-in-law last nite when she last texted

......bcoz u r so special.

for what she wishes for me in the text, i'm touched. patience will always pay off. insya Allah, dengan izin Allah.

>>one once reminded me that i shouldnt let anyone determine my happiness. it might be easier said than done but i know she's speaking the truth. and rite now, i'm leading my life with those words in mind..

Priceless of me?

heheheh, never mind the tittle above but i do find myself having happy-hormones-overdose. everything's getting along fine with me, i'm having more and more positive thoughts about life and hmmmm i just feel precious...

and if its not now, there'll be some time sooner for all the good things to happen.

with that, come this silent vow/promise/hope/dream/prayer for certain commitment. dont kill urself trying to figure out what and who though cos its not worth asking the questions to me. and it might be none of what you are thinking/imagining at the time of reading this=D

positive vibes? unlimited;)

One fine saturday...

Eyes wide open around 6. *haiiihh, rugi bangun awal weekend nih* but in a way, its good cos that means extra few hours to spend during the wake. quickly resumed on Narut0 to catch up with Z and later when everyone's out of bed, decided to watched L0ng Kh0ng, siamese horror movie. yes, we did watched horror movie during daytime, for an obvious reason;)). honestly i dont think its worth watching and poor teleng, had to watch it on my behalf..hehehe

next was Fearless. as usual, i fell asleep in the middle of the movie and woke up few mins later. bad habit bad habit=p then went upstairs and flung myself on the bed. speed read Watermelon and catched up with the mates in the house.

"when happiness makes a guest appearances in one's life, its important to make the most of it. It may not stay around for long and when it has gone wouldnt it be terrible to think that all the time one could have been happy was wasted worrying about when that happiness would be taken away" -Watermelon-

around 5pm, got ready for women making waves at aquatic centre in the city. one of the things that i 1st learned in Melb and the only exercise i have for this week. hmm, it might be self-diagnosed but i think i had mild exercise-induced asthma, non stop cough & gasped for breath after finishing one of the laps,heheheh. nevertheless, came out of the pool feeling good and fresh.

just finished my dinner. Ya Allah pedasnye sambal tuh...

p/s: dah jumpa passport,yeayy!! kat mane? er, mesti kena gelak punye nih..jumpe....jumpe..kat...lipatan shopping plastic beg kat bawah meja..hehehehe..tak terfikir langsung nak cari kat situ..fuhh, lepas satu lagi kerisauan..

p/s: Happy birthday to my dearest frens, Hani & Niesa..miss u two damn loadss!!looked at ur dress-to-kill-pics and i simply longed to be part of the celebration. nasi kerabu beb!

My little fren=)

Her name's Kate and she's 3 years old.

she was with her mum in the antenatal clinic( its for pregnant women) this morning when i saw her. dressed in beautiful purple flowergirl-like dress and sat on the chair politely while the doc's examined her mum. Its when we finished listening to baby's heartbeat (audible to the room) and doc went out of the room, she came to us (me standing next to her mum who's lying on the couch)..

Kate: *giggle* funny heart..*giggle*
Me: heheh, its funny ey? so do you know whats in ur mummy's tummy?(hahah, couldnt think of any other question to ask)
Kate: yeahhhh, baby..
Me:hehheh. and do you have any sister or brother?
Kate: *sheepishly smile*
Mum: Yes, she has an elder sister. Kate, this lady is also a doctor. So we have two doctors in this room.
Me: heheeh, yeahh. you have 2 doctors to take care of ur mum today.
Kate: I have a....(mumbled something)
Me: *smile*
Mum: she said she also have a baby in her tummy.
Me: *laugh* ohh really..let me see?*shoved me her a-bit-boncit tummy* heheh, your tummy's smaller than mum's.
Kate: (mumbled something again)
Mum: she said hers a baby's baby.
Me: *laugh* oh really..
Kate:*kissed her mum's tummy, then turned to me* i love you.. *put her arms around my neck and pecked on my cheek*
Me: *stunned and giggled*
Mum: woww, you are being lovely today Kate..

later in the consultation, she came to me again

Kate: i love your bracelet..
Me: heheh, i love your dress

and there she twirled a few times, pretended to be a ballerina or something. so when they're about to leave the room, we exchanged goodbye and before she left the room,she turned to me and said
'i love you..'
then wrapped her hands around my neck and kissed my cheek. so i hugged her back.

We were frens for only 15 mins, but i'll always remember this adorable little fren of mine. she makes me feel GOOD.

It was two years ago that..

i first wrote here. exactly on this date..so happy 2 years to this space!!!

The day..

when i felt very very happy and RELIEVED eversince i started this rotation. Allah has always had better plan for me...there goes another chunk of burden;)

p/s:

as if im not leisurely occupied with naruto's, i managed to sneak into JM library this afternoon and end up with 3 fictional books to read for the next 2 weeks. and for the anime itself, hahahahahahahaah...

First entry of the NEW week..

i'm in the middle of my notes this morning, trying to compensate good early sleep i had last nite and at the some time blog-surfed. then i stumbled into this particular entry in this particular blog. trust me, i almost cramped my stomach for laughing too much. seriously its ...err how should i say...nvm

"3. Kelantan. No internet and just TV3 and bunch of siamese TV at my grandma’s. Enough said."

-ok, this wasnt the funniest point but i'd rather not copy-and-paste anything more here in case terkantoi later. heeee, tempah bala la tuh...

ngaaa, pecah perut aku tahan gelak !

ps: smalam mimpi tak best. memula bestla sbb mimpi nak balik msia ramai2. busy packing barang dan bile masa nak bertolak ke airport baru aku realise aku tak jumpe lagi passport aku..huwaaaaa, ape punye mimpi daaaa!!! aku tau sebab apa dpt mimpi tuh: 1. passport masih misplaced and aku dah taktau nak cari kat mane dah 2. smalam borak dgn N pasal tiket nak balik msia 3. nakkkk sgt balik msia utk tgk nephew baru...

Last entry of the week...

woke up quite early for a sunday morning despite stayed up late last nite. out of boredom, i bugged N, my high school junior who's apparently doing good in US. its not everyday or everymonth we contact each other thru msgr, partly cos both of us are occupied with stuff. but when the right time hit, we can talk for hours jumping from one topic to another just like this morning. it was so much fun, too bad i had to excuse myself for some house cleaning.

Y (19/02/2006 6:52:53 AM): heheh nak tau nape sy msg?
N (19/02/2006 6:53:03 AM): kenapakah?
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:20 AM): cos there's no 'busy' sign on ur status
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:28 AM): so i thot ur not that busy to be kacau
Y (19/02/2006 6:53:30 AM): aheheh
N (19/02/2006 6:53:31 AM): ooo hihihi
N (19/02/2006 6:53:51 AM): hey u r more than welcome to msg me even status busy or away pon

alrite, cant wait for another spontaneous catch-up with u, girl!

then we proceed with our plan: retail therapy in Westf!eld. hehe, i'm not so much into shopping at the moment, more like wanna hang out to enjoy good time with my mates and so i did. i suprised myself cos i didnt splurge my cash unnecessarily (ok, i need to buy something to get that longed Supre' shopping bag hence explained why i bought that *ehem* $5 top)..other than that, i'm being good;) happy hours end till late evening after doing some groceries and by the time we reached home, i lost count of how many laughs & giggles we shared.

'haa tuhla, sekarang nih balasan kan cash...LOL'
'cesss, kurang asam eh ko skarang yatt'

now i'm so so tired. not gonna start on Naruto today as i'm gonna hit the bed right after isyak. wheehoo, ,sleep as my other fave past time=D

self-remainder for next week:
1.do not take a nap after azan asar..
2.call up mum to check on the baby and his elder brother.
3.the two stooges gonna be back from msia by friday so another round of Afdl!n and the geng's and surely the house is gonna be merrier soon enough (lucky they dont seem to keep up with this space of mine, otherwise mesti smug punyelahh=p)

hmm, i pray for this contenment to last.

Another kampung boy in the making...

to ma
- ape nama cucu baru ma?-
from ma
- Umar Danish. ada kat rumah kita now. tido dgn ma.

i know i'm not suppose to say this but 'AAAAAAAAAAA, nak balik!!' iskk, bestnye ada baby kat rumah. this is 2nd time my sis in law go thru her confinement period at our house and see what syahman turn out to be. a REAL kampung boy;) heheh, even my sis-in-law ackowledged that. i'm sure my parents (esp ma) are now like busybees, handling 2 grandchildren can be quite handful i presume and surely our house wont be as quite as before. i can almost imagine how contented and blissful their faces would be to have those kids around.

this reminded me of syahman's time. oh my, our mum surely turned into a-lovely-protective-grandma-but-a-wee-bit-'garang'-mum back then. in fact, abah pun kena tempias. there's this particular incident between ma & abah plus syahman that adik used to imitate, just to prove how 'hidup dalam ketakutan' we were during those time. at least now we can joke about that(in fact, i'm holding back my laugh rite now)

Bits & pieces ..

-first it was the computer, and now this need-to-be-claimed-soon cheque. how much? amount of a return ticket to msia plus the connecting flight=) another good deed from the faculty. heheh. alhamdulillah alhamdulillah, mmg murah rezeki =D

-now that our house has Naruto collection from episode 1, (thanks to L for doing us this big favour), i'm gonna start watching it tomorrow. yeah, laugh if u may cos ppl might think what a BIG lag-er (a person who is lag behind?) i am.see if i care=p

-i feel great. families to love, books to study, movies to watch, frens to hang out/laugh with. perfect life.

One, two, three, four and counting...

1. Stock up ready-made food e.g: tuna (Ayamas brand if possible where u have to do nothing prior to eating), sardin, salad, fish finger etc cos i dont know how long this 'LAPAR tapi malas' syndrome will last.

2. NEVER sleep during asar. mewarisi kegilaan and i thought i've gone nut today.

3. Live with guardian angels. today when i was all grumpy-cranky-and-about-to-explode-because-not-satiated so i sulked with myself to sleep, someone woke me up for yummy nasi goreng. i repeat, live with guardian angels.

4. avoid social interaction when its bad with the mood. nothing good will happen.

Abang mithali?

5am: sms ringtone woke me up. from sis-in-law- alhamdulillah baby boy 3.2 kg..hehe,took me quite some time to sleep back and i said my silent prayers.

Called mum & my sis in law later the day. was told about my bro's funny experiences in labour room=)) ma claimed the baby's a bit 'tanned' but when i asked my bro, he answered proudly 'haah, tapi hensemm..'

LOL!!

So happen..

i'm doing my obst & gynae rotation when both sis & sis-in-law are pregnant. over the summer hols, i was bombarded with pregnancy-related questions from my sis, some that i knew the answers but some i could've crap on =D being cheeky, i often touched both tummies, giggled and called them 'mak buyung'. or sometimes i voiced my disagreement when i felt my sis was trying to be overly-manja. but then , ma would reply back "haaa, tunggula dia punye nti..kite tengok mcm mana" err opss ngaaa!!

in fact, was told by mum earlier that my sis in law is in labour at the moment. hopefully everything will be fine and over by tomorrow, aminn. ahhh, my 3rd nephew is on his way to be part of this wonderful world *excited excited* i also wonder how's that lil syahman doing now, hopefullly not wailing & crying for his mum=p ..anyway, i'm relief to know that my bro's there with sis-in-law as he's actually staying in KL and managed to travel back home yesterday.

heeee, kan best kalu ade kat msia time nih=p