Kisah 8 hari 7 malam

Day 1


-departed from Tullamar!ne. it was a boring & overheated flight, but have good scenery down below.
-woh, NZ custom officers are way friendlier and betterrrrr than OZ. at least they dont bring around dogs, muahahaha..
-we stayed at students' house(junior SSP 3 years'younger) and treated with laksam that nite. kutertidurrrr pulasss;)

Day 2


-Cathedral square. that's when my camera batteries decided to go kongg on me. hampeh!
-Museum & Old University. remember Earnest Rudford?
-Punting at Botanical Garden. hoh, tak romantikk la naik ramai2. ikut hati nak berkayak jehh tp sbb ramai nak naik punting, join jelahh.. adela pulak yg tertidur tuhhh.
-Gondola. mak aihhh, gayat la jugakkk..hehe. lps tuh buat expedisi sendri dgn attire yg sgtla tak sesuai. dahla slippery, nasib baikk tak tergolek jatuh gaung jeh. tapi sgt worth the journey bila dah nak dekat matahari terbenam tuh. subhanallahhh..
-BBQ for dinner. hehe, sempat main basketball skejap kat luar rumah diorg. yeay yeay!! skill aku tak rusty lagi rupanya. bila Chr!s & Samy join, diorg ajar main this particular game that tested ur shooting skills, and i won the 2nd game..hahahah, mmg nak riak! lps makan, join main game card. ini mmg susah, ala2 charade tp instead of act out u have to describe it. satu card tuh aku kena describe 'buzz'. d'ohh!

Day 3


-Settlekan bus ticket.
-Ferrymead Her!tage & Park..hahaha, hanya sbb nak ngelakkan anjing ktrg sesat sekejap. nothing much at that place actually. tmpt pun nmpk cam spooky jeh. balik tuh lama btul tunggu bus. boring sgt, aku saje2 tanya crite hantu kat B, tup2 terus dtg bus..hahaha, selamatttt!
-Souvenirs hunting began,nyehnyehnyehh
-Balik tuh diorg ada simpankan laksa utk ktrg
-Malam tuh jalan pegi rumah another students utk makan nasi lemak, karipap n apple crumb. ohhh, lazattt!! dah penat makan, bukak kopitiam. pasal ape??? adelahh...

Day 4



-Bras!l lost that morning. ohhhh, sangat sedihh =( spoil betulla..
-Revisited some places to capture some pics. remember my camera batteries went konggg the other day??.
-Souvernier hunting again. the best gift of all would be for my parents, unlike before when my siblings' often drained my money before i got to decide for both of them. not this time tho...
-This time tandori masala pulakk, kenyanggg!
-We hopped onto the bus to go to Dunedin again, stayed at students's house who happened to be our schoolmates.

Day 5


-cadbury world. cehhhh, rasa tertipu sbb masa kat Tassie dpt tour n bargain yg lagi best...
-Seafood's. hehe,nice deco and good variety of meals.
-Larnach castle tour. the only castle in NZ owned by this family with tragic storyline. biasala dah nama pun castle, mmgla lawa n usually one of its kind.
-dinner kat rumah kawan A, makan spaghetti. ohh, read this dialogue

'eehhh, dulu SSP kan?'
'errr alamakk, haah. mane tau?'
'sy junior kak Y'
'opss, ye ke. batch mana eh? alamak sorryla, tak cam'
'takpee biasala junior yang kenal.sy f1 masa kak Y f5. rumah sapph1re jugak'
'ohhh, heheheh'

alemakk korang, aku jumpa CS ude. ntah apelahh aku buat masa skola dulu sampai tak kenal org..

Day 6


-breakfast dgn roti canai???yup yup..hahaha. haii, beranganlaa nak dpt jiran yg jual roti canai, siap ada delivery boy yg sgt cuteeee..geram tgk budak kecik tuh..
-ops menjejak the world's steepest street, Baldw!n st yg ntah kat mana2. tgh jalan, jumpa seorang melayu yg pelikk..malas nak elaborate kisah dgn dia..nway only 3 decided to walk up the street, termasuk aku ok! hahaha, mengah tak mengah blakang kira. janji dpt beli cert lepas tuh.
-tour Otago Uni with its famous central library.
-balik christchurch.

Day 7


-Transzalp!ne to Greym0uth. ini org kata P.J naik n dpt ilham for LOTR. lalu jugak setting for Narn!a & LOTR. tapikan after some time, semua org dah mabukkk gunung sbb byk sgt..hahhaa!! nasibbbb..

Day 8
-Dressmart for some personal shopping;)
-Christchurch airport.

lastly, perasan tak ktrg makan sama banyak dgn jalan, maybe lebih skett pun ada...so takyahla buat2 tekejut kalu tgk pics towards the end of the trip, muka sorang2 ala ala nak meletup..bukan ilusi optikk!

Correct me if i'm wrong...

i dont know others but when i decided to share, i dont expect BIG words. i only seek for some assurance, if its not too much to ask. i know better that nothing may seems right to say at that time. one might never had similar experiences or am i right to assume, actually couldnt care less. so when the person changed the subject of discussion, i often take that as a cue..

why am i telling all this? because next time, if you feel that i havent share much or talk less try not to take it personally. not that i dont trust anymore, i just dont wanna waste your time and to avoid feeling crappy myself.

cheers.

Tomorrow..

i'll be starting the new rotation and i'm still down with cold.havent been sick for quite a long time and i'm done with half of the medication. not getting any better, sadly.

till then, dont expect anything from here.

Pergi muka gajah, balik muka tikus..

Sampai Melb petang tadi dan dari semalam dah start demam selsema..temperature & blocked nose =(

ohhh, tak selesaaaa..

sampai2 rumah, dapat surat and pics of my heroes...hensemmm!

Getaway

I am going to New Zea1and tomorrow morning =D

bye for now.

Reality check..

I remember promises and it becomes my flaw.

Words easily stucked in my head and with that comes expectation. i have a few not-so-pleasant experiences because of that. i dont know about other ppl, but i find it hard to deal with broken or forgotten promises UNEXPLAINED. silent resentment. its not so much about the things i am supposed to have/do with that, really.

Words can slip away easily, to make ppl feel good without much real intention sometimes. Because of that, now i tell ppl that whatever they say to me..i might not take it all. in fact i am changing myself not to believe in easily.

It's about time..

This was what Oprah's about today. two daughter suprised their mums with house make-over, family decided to get to know their neighbourhood by doing home visits etc

so, i guess it's about time for me to....

stop
-being fussy over nothing trivial things.

start
-being indifferent.


some time ago, a fren told me that i sounded sad and sulk every moment in my writing, as if life isnt fair for me and i've got nothing much to cherish.

just because i dont reveal every single misfortunates that happened to me here, doesnt mean that i dont have the right to grieve.yes, i'm not gonna deny the fact that my life may not be as great as other ppl BUT i'm all right with it. i guess, this kinda life has done its good to me in certain ways. everyone has its own phase of life, mine might be rough at the moment.

but life is NEVER unfair. i know that.

The end...

tried to watch past high-school love triangle, basketball and domestic conflicts, saw these..

- a lady with strong determination and tough heart. didnt let the past to hold her down, instead she bucked up. let bygones be bygones, but not the lessons she learnt. she kept them as good reminders.

- a friend who promised to be there for another fren and did. a promise is a promise. that proved some sincerity and trust. eventhough along the way, it might became more than friends and broke the hearts, it wouldnt change the promise.

- an old man full of wisdom. he's the man who picked up life lessons and use them to reach out the next generation of life. my favourite.

-it's really hard to tell. you just never knew what's actually inside someone's mind and heart. ppl lied, ppl confessed. how did you tell between them?

- friendship is brittle. the closer you get to the other company, the easier you gonna get hurt. sometimes, it just made me wonder is it worth to keep things superficial to avoid hard feelings?

-true love is out there. i dunno, i'm never gonna be good at this but its always feel good to witness others experiencing it. bliss.

-hatred, denial, wickedness are devils'. somehow, there are ppl who acted with those feelings. devils' company?

-what's with 2nd chance? worth risking cos if it failed again, its gonna cause double?

-someone might looked flamboyant, popular and snobbish but who know, he/she might have generous heart inside? we judged, dont we?

What's my favourite episode?
With tired eyes, tired minds, tired souls we slept.

Why?
It so much prevailed the truth. the fear, the guilt, the longingness to be accepted, the feeling of taken for granted, everything. it wont vanish. will always be part of the living.

Vulnerable

i am receiving cold shoulder(s?), for some reason i dont know. one day, it just happened and i still couldnt figure out why and how. could it be something i said or done, i DONT KNOW. i am no psychic but i dont think i'll ever go upfront to ask about it. i am no miss goody either but i'm grown up enough to listen to my mistakes and learn. sigh.

i realised i may have hurt other ppl a lot in the past or maybe at present, so could it be some kinda payback for me? even if its not from the same person? because if it is, then i'm willing to take it. i'll bear the pain and guilt, if it'll wash away my past and make ppl feel better.

Hal0

I never promised you a ray of light
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday
I give you everything I have
The good the bad

Why do you put me on a pedestal?
I'm so up high that
I can't see the ground below
So help me down, you got it wrong
I don't belong there

[Chorus]One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo and you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn't say so
You wouldn’t say so if you were me
And I.. I just wanna love you
Oh oh oh I.. I just wanna love you

I always said that I would make mistakes
I'm only human and that's my saving grace
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am
I have flaws sometimes, I even sin
So pull me from my pedestal, I don't belong there

One thing is clear
I wear a halo
I wear a halo and you look at me but
Standing from here… you wouldn't say so...

~Soundtrack of OTH~

Hai..

Just to share with u ppl some good news..

i did fine with the exams and need not to worry about the supplementary exams.

Alhamdulillah. hugh relief for me.

The faculty did the lousiest way to release the results by expecting us to wait for their email if we need to re-sit the papers. that means the only way to be sure that we are cleared is by checking the email every hour now and then until yesterday's midnite. wait!! they didnt actually specified the time frame but to be on the safe side, i decided to choose midnite. so can u imagine how lllooooonnnggg yesterday was for me?

no point to whine.

but i'd like to say thank you very much for all the prayers, supports and concern. i'm really grateful . may Allah bless and pay all your kindness in HIS own way.

Honesty hurts?

if you asked me, i would say yes.

i know how it feels to be left clueless, not knowing what went wrong and how to deal with it. i know how it feels to hold up, because we dont want to hurt and we dont want to carry the guilt after that. i know how hard it can be to admit the mistakes and start all over again.

so, i thought why dont i get things straight. just be honest and tell everything. because for me, its not about who's right or wrong. i am human and i make mistakes myself. correct me. it is about making things clear for the future. also, i know better that to assume and misunderstand is the easiest and worst thing to happen in any kinda communication, ppl just has no better idea what the other ppl is thinking.

so, if i am being honest, i could make things easier for both in the future because IF the same thing happens again, both would know what's expected from them. i save time to argue and fight. even if at present, things look sour and nothing's worse than listening to the words spoken in such bitterness. but i hope in the future, things are better and easier.

but it doesnt always come right.

i may slip away some harsh words along the lines, making ppl nonetheless offended and mad. i may be mean and selfish myself. i may forget to offer ppl the chance to defend themselves. i've committed all those and i chocked with guilt. but the worst thing is actually to have my intention taken the wrong way.

so, yeah. it hurts.

When i'm upset...

-i lose my patience pretty quick.

-i turn into a b!atch. demanding and difficult.

-i keep things to myself. i rarely open up but when i do, i expect ppl to listen not hear. i expect to be told that everything will be fine, not shoved away. like what i would do to others.

-i mess up.

What's next...

i thought i wont get bored for this hols. this is suppose to be the most deserved holiday after all the struggle. but today, boredom just kick in.

i've finished a book and the one i'm reading next is a bit draggy. i'm not sure whether i would bother to finish it.

rite, i enjoyed OTH but i SO hate the devil in the story, i need a break.

WC is only at nite and rite now, its 12 pm in the afternoon.

What i actually would like to do for my holiday?

- Camping.

"Kalo dah dpt yg persevere tu...utk kamu aku rasa everything will fall into place"

Rulessssssss....
*The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover
*Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover
*Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog
*If you are tagged for the second time, there is NO need to do this again
*Lastly, Most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT!

all this while, it has always been just THE 3 . But i'm game.

8 ciri lelaki idaman

1.Love GOD and the religion
i'm not waiting for Mr. Perfectly-Pious, but someone who tries his best to be a faithful servant to HIM, abide by all the boundaries and able to guide me all along.

2.Sensitive
to my needs. my PMS has no specified dates, aren't we all woman? when i'm bummed, i bummed. so to be sensitive, its more than just good understanding but able to fit his presence to the situation. either to become my silent company, decent joker or another person to talk some sense.


3.Humourously witty
i need to laugh but i dont entertain stupid insulting jokes. go figure!


4.Appreciative
I understand that flirt is man's second nature. They just love to eye pretty faces and drool over hot chics. ok, fine BUT once he decided to settle with me, i dont think i can tolerate that. either he had it all done before he chooses me or spare it during my presence. sorry, i'm not gonna be the cool partner who can jolly join that.
i least expect showers of gifts but welcomes endless thoughts and small suprises very much. ohh, have i mentioned that sweet talks sucksss??


5.Responsible
to the relationship. just a simple stuff, like when he speak of the truth, he make mistakes and admit them, he stuffed up and explain. apart from that, of course be a good son and brother to the family.


6.Sports
For an obvious reason, i dont want him to go boncit after eating all my cooking. so off he should go for some soccer or anything with his mates. hehehe. also i dont really fancy going in and out of the shopping mall for our dates, too crowded. instead i will have better time at the park or in the court.

7.Communicative
i am no angel and i need him to correct me. i dont have telepathy to know what's in his mind, whether he wants to go back to his cave to calm down or share with me . i cant accept cancelled plans without prior notice. also when i'm dissatisfied or unhappy, i need to talk or else i'll drive him up the wall feeling clueless.

8.Dominant
Dont mistaken this with male-chauvenist. i've had my fair share of being independent for the past 23 years so i'd like him to take charge from then on. could be for some trivial stuff like to decide where to go, what to eat, how to spend the time during the outings or some bigger decision on the household.

i halved the victims to these 4.
1.Hani salim
2.Hani izhar
3.Aneesa
4.Peah

When season 2 finished..

" Let us drop this breadcrumb so that together we find our way home, because losing our way would be the most cruelest thing. This year, i lost my way" -The Boy.

" And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate, but losing your reason for the journey is a bit more cruel." -The Boy.

"The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes i travelled alone, sometimes there were others who took the wheels and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasnt me who rided. wasnt me at all." -The Girl.

"And when you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be or lose that person completely "- The Girl.

"Because sometimes you have to step out from the person who've been and remember the person you are meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are" -The Boy.

On Crush...

'...Well, that was alright. A natural enough phenomenon that happened between men and women. Mature, normal people didnt let it upset their lives, didnt act on those low level emotions and let them develop into more than frienship, into something that seized control..'

-Single White Female-

So i quote...

a few years from now....

niesa: :cry: awww...as arnee would say...sedih!!!what ske really meant: terharu...(isk)
yatt: of course...who wouldnt?? everytime aku teringat our time kat med 3 and block F, either tersengih or tergelak sorang2...the BEST 2 years of frenship..sayang korang!
hani: wehehe...yup niesa, i missed the good old time in med 3!!
niesa: peah..always the drama queen(flashbacks of all ur exagerated emotions follwed by hysterical laughs..*wink* id say yatt n hani will agreee)

Reading those, slowly I smiled, grinned and as recollections of events occupied my tired mind.. I laughed terguling-guling. Yes, my dearest buddies.. they never fail to amuse me. I've said before, it's magical that 2-years seemed a lifetime. It's like I've known you guys and have you guys by my side since day 1.

And it's as exciting to imagine.. in a few years from now.. things will gradually change, but hopefully the bond remains as beautiful, insya Allah.

Maybe several years ahead,
- I might be listening to any of you guys complaining about the lack of sleep coz ur newborn just wouldn't stop crying for the rest of the night
- I might bump into any of you guys in the supermarket.. either running after a cheeky little toddler or a trolley loaded with food, enough to feed the whole jungle
- I might read the inspirational story of a DR who saved lives of those less fortunate in the middle of nowhere, or a DR who won Nobel Prize for a new discovery in the field of Medicine

Which one it may be, I will always be the same Peah who would smile proudly at every forward steps my friends make.

And also, I will be the "cool Aunty Peah" who'll shower your children with fashionable dresses and dungarees, who'll babysit anytime and who'll team up with your children against you. Hehehe.

If, and insyaAllah, I have one (or 4) of my own, I have favours to ask from korg. Hahaha
- Son : Free arts session once a week
- Niesa : KO kene babysit when Aku and Yatt ade trips to spa/facial treatment or horse-riding ( Yatt, aku assume ko akan ikut aku. Niesa, I pick you sbb tak sure ko nak ikut tak. If ko interested, then Hani Syahida.. ko jage our kids!) <<<<yes yes aku sokongg..of course aku akan ikut ko cik peah..let Niesa and Hani to o-sommm between them for the babysit..
- Arnee (if die read this): Your place would be the ideal sleep-over site sbb if ever things get out of hands, your high-pitched voice should be sufficient to make them go to sleep at once)
- Budak2 kecik Leicester: I welcome any form of clothing from Gap, Next, Laura Ashley.. ( tak yah byk2.. sorg kasi 3-4 okay la)Thanking you in advance!

P/s: Please make dua for me.. my exam's on Thursday and I'm hoping to do well this time... ok, sudah merase cuak.. back to studying!


niesa said...
hahahhahhahah*tergolek2 gelak*
...ade tinggal aku sambil korang kene gi pampered!!!! (whats that about??)ikut la weh, suh arnee jela jage weh, hani...hmmmm(pk2..musykil)

gdluck exam k

it does seem a lifetime away, but it is very much cherished.the tough times, the sad times.it taught us to survive the hardships we go through now.

peah! ko igt tak ko actually TERGOLEK jatuh after a 1st Aid course by the seniors-AND ko taknak bangun???(tergolek2) <<
keep blogging guys.its a special-rare bond accross the continents.
thank god 4 technology.

Tue Jun 20, 03:46:31 AM


Marfu'ah said...
Thanks for the wishes. Keep up with the prayers.. I need them badly. Tsk tsk tsk

Kalau nak kasi kiki lala ke, kiko ke, rocky one ke.. ok je. To compensate, one top from Zara/Jane Norman/Oasis for the mum would be acceptable. LOL


NIESA!!!

Hoi habis rahsia abadi aku.. kureng nyeee.. Tp aku dah seriously tergolek2 sambil jatuh kerusi.

In case you've forgotten, the rationale behind aku TANAK bangun.. gile ke ape? The whole bunch of guys tgh lalu. BY pretending to faint, nampak la cam emergency rather than being clumsy.

But yeah, it's wonderful to think of you guys and smile there and then.

P/s : yatt, ingat tak time ko terbongkang dlm surau and buff decided to have a peek? Hahahahahahahahaha <<<<<haaaaa gelak gelakkk!! nak tahu, after chat dgn ko pasal kisah nih aku takleh tido tau tak..sbb aku tersengih and tergelak sorang2.. urghh, aku nak saman buff!

Tue Jun 20, 08:24:11 AM


niesa said...
igt tak ko tersekat kan bola basketball kt basketball ring?tersekat ok? tak masuk hoop pon.tesekat antare hoop n tiang. talk about lousy shooting. sheesh.. <<<aku ingatt yang nihhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! peahhh oh peahh..masa tuh aku dah terduduk kat atas court sbb dah gelak byk sgt..well, i had my share on the candid too..berlari kejar bola, tak sedar dah terbang terpijak bola...aduiii!!

Tue Jun 20, 02:50:11 PM


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ohh dear, i'm sure other ppl will think that we are non-sense...i mean what's with this obsessive effort to cut and paste from her's when i can easily write about something else?

hah!! because they matters to me so much so that i'll keep on appreciating them again and again. They are no longer friends but SISTERS to me..

Back to write??

hhmm, yeah.

i guess my results can wait, still praying for the best that i deserved.

in a meantime, there are something i'd like to share..so see you ppl around=)

farina missy, aku sudah tulis utk tag terbaru kamu tapi mungkin aku akan simpan yang itu, terlalu telus utk bacaan umum..akan tulis yang lain.

When & WHat??...

Tuesday 1pm: OSCE exam.

Friday 930am: Written exam (MCQ & EMQ).

Post-Exam

i'm not happy with how i did the written exam, even OSCE as a matter of fact. i had this mental block while doing the exam and because of that, i just didnt feel right at all after that. so i dunno, i guess there'll be nothing from me till the result's out?

to those who concerned and asked, i appreciated...

For this coming exam...

- i've been having problems to do my revision at home. i dunno why and i'm not exaggerating here. i seemed to lose focus and happy to do anything else but study. sick worried but i sat on the chair, stared blankly on the page. even worse, i didnt bother to open the book.

-due to above situation, i decided to change. i spent time in the library at the hospital and managed to finish off a fair amount of reading. this isnt me but at least when i was home and didnt do anything, i wouldnt feel that guilty or bad. something isnt right with my mind but i dont wanna bother to elaborate. i just wanna get this exam over with and that's it.

-was told that this exam will be TOUGH. no joking=( there are women's & children's health for this semester, that means i need to study both paeds & O and G. lil bit crazy i must say.

-i'm glad i have study group after hospital hours that helps alot. i'm flexible but the good thing to have mixed of girls and boys is that we are more commiting and a lil less distractive with gossips and whats-not. ohh, i'm not talking about my paediatric teammates ok :p

-i need more than assurance and good wishes from all. that includes you who might randomly read this. say a little prayer for me, please =(

-the more i wrote about this, the more anxious and agigated i get*sigh*

humbly, i ask for ur prayer. i really need it.

I hear you..

sms - Cepatla balik, kak S nak blanja N buffet makanan jepun. dah jumpa tempat best. walaupun mahal bbaloi 2 have a sister like u!

say, i'm missed?? heheh..

Kekecewaan melanda...

i was kinda tired from the little shoppping so while waiting for 12am Opening, decided to take a nap..before that i said

'nanti kejutkan eh...bila dah start'

so i slept...then when i opened my eyes again, the room's dark and TV was off. so yeahhhh, its 3am already..i missed both the Opening and 1st match =(

kecewa kecewa kecewaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i dunno, it could be either someone forgot to do a favour or someone forgot to wake up..

ok, maybe i still can catch the re-play later today after the study group but what about the Opening???? this is pain i choose for setting my mind to do/have something.

pain of feeling dissatisfied.

sedihhhh =(

Clarify before late...

ok ok, adding to the paragraph of Hottie H...

when i mentioned testimonials, its actually nonchalant remarks or mild compliments other ppl said about him during our nonchalant discussion. you know, you were chatting away with your frens and out of the blue moon, she mentioned yada yada yada yada... and of course i didnt say anything in reply cos it's nonchalant, remember?? hehehe..

hey farah, i didnt know that u still read...must be laughing ur gut off kan?? at least i was after reading ur msg...sungguhlaaa tak sangka=p

Next time?

today's for reality check..

There are a few things i'd like to do more actually, namely examine the kids and talk with the consultants. i dunno, for some reason i thought i didnt spend much time practising my skills on the patients. either caught up with other stuff to do or plain laziness. yes, the i-couldnt-be-bothered attitude i mentioned earlier. its like early in the morning with the doctors, i would make a mental note to at least see this and this patients. later i just...did not proceed with the plan. hmmmm, its hard.

i didnt know about other ppl, but i personally had this problem of being proactive here. maybe the feeling of minority sort of put me down and stop me from chasing opportunities. i changed to become timid and inferior on-and-off. i chose to observe and then look things up, instead of promptly asked the superior doctors. its not the reply of ' i'm the one who should be asking you this..' that stop me all the time, though sometimes it did cos it made me thought 'ohh, maybe i havent read enough'.. but i guess it's more of my own lacking courage to do so. in a way, its not a big deal as ppl always said' u'll remember more if u learn it by urself' but i dont know..i guess, it's the balance.

Little say from me..

Happy Birthday and Happy 1st Anniversary my dearest sis!!! to see that you found ur happiness eventually, makes me believe that i'll find mine soon...

Regardless, I still need you to be my guardian angel..

Love xoxo

Since I have Friday off..

..so today's literally my last day of paediatric rotation. it has been a pleasant experience for me, especially during the last 4 weeks in DH. i am really really satisfied and contented with my time there. got along well with the registra, made good effort to turn up for the ward rounds and attached myself to the team. clinics have been really useful in term of grasping the concept of some complex illness and observing that parenthood doesnt come with a complete manual. case presentation that taught me a lot about putting my best effort into something as i was full of i-couldnt-be-bothered attitude.

little patients that stole my heart away. true enough, they could be very handful and all cranky when 1st came to the hospital, made you sometimes pitiful over their pain of needles and strange environment. but even so, be it shy away, cry irritably or plainly look sick they were worth the care and love. if you were patient enough to wait for some days when they are back to their self, those smiles and happy faces made you day instantaneously. no doubt. just for the sake of bragging, more than once the registra would turn to me and say 'the boy/girl likes you, S'...ohh yeah *shrug* its just because i often made the kids smile and laugh just by eye contacts and lil bit of faces' effort. i'm flattered nonetheless.

i guess the good thing about kids' unit is you get to act like a kid and there's no one to laugh at you if you do so.

next. my group mates? i had great time hanging out with them during lunch, working on our DLA together, laughing over a bit of drama for stuffing up one of the community visits. I may not be talkative but to sit along, listen to their crap talk and budded in once in a while wasnt bad at all. heheh. a bunch of fun ppl, they surely are.

and hows hottie H? he's good. i listened to a lot of nice 'testimonials' from the other colleagues about him so i guess i'm not the only one who are seeing him the way i am now. no way i'm talking about some sweet talk, he's far better without that. just remind me to write about him more next time. if anyone bothers to know, that is. if you ask me now, i'd say i would love to have our path crossed again. damn, i'm smiling!!

Little confession..

i'm sitting for my exam next week

BUT

i do not feel like studying.

i have not even start doing my revision.

the only thing that makes me feel a wee bit better is

to have the study group

but i know i've had better motivation before.

and i feel bad for that.

The Moments of Contentment & Happiness...

Birthday bash= satay, rounders, playgrounds and cupcakes.

Mother's Day Classic 2006...we walked, we laughed..


Hit the net with good sportsmanship...

Girls' day out for Easter. very nice.

click on the pics for bigger view..

June's

3rd: Ma's birthday...

9th: kak's birthday...

13th: OSCE exam(women's & children's health)

16th: written exam: women's & children's health)

17th: missed SSP gathering*hurmmmmmm*

29th: Tullamarine airport=D


bila tanya 'kenal tak sape nih', dia jawab 'kenallll..dgr suara pun dah kenal' (elehhh, macam org tak dengar papa dia ckp sape yg call=p)

bila tanya tgh buat ape n dgn sapa, dia mention semua org yg ada kat situ tapi boleh lupa nama pakcik dia..heeee, bertuah!

bila tanya psl lawan bola, dia ckp dia main midfielder, striker dan defender (amboi, semua position!), cerita mcm mana dia almost score the goal, then dgn cool-nya admit yg team dia menang satu jeh game dlm tournament tuh.

bila tanya pasal world cup, dia kata nak support brazil, argentina and england.

bila kata manaa aci support byk2 team, dia choose england sbb ada steven gerrard=D

bila tanya nak present ape bila balik nanti, dia mintak boots bola

bila gelak and kata mana ade duittt pastu konon2 pengsan, dia gelak jugak pastu jawab 'kalu takde duit, kenapa pegi belajar kat universiti di australia'


bila konon2 merajuk sbb tak penah pun dpt present dari dia, dia kata takde duit so kalu nak juga kena pinjam duit papa.

bila usik2 pasal girl yg dia pernah mention dulu, dia gelakk pastu cakap 'heeeeihhh, dia nih..hihihihi'

sukaaa=)

To The Most WANTED person in my life...

Happy Birthday, ma...

you know i LOVE you so much!




and i miss u...

Jokingly deep..

when she said last time..
'takpelahhh korang, skarang aku dah tau dah sape kawan aku sbenar2nya..'
then we laughed.

but it's true.
ppl care. ppl ignore. ppl abandon.

its ok sometimes to know where one stands in ppl's heart/mind. it brings the person back to the ground.

dont let this writing get to u, any of u. my shallow thought. my obscure observation.

and my apology.

BIG LOL!!

Di suatu petang...

23yr old [1]: haaa, korang..aku nih yg paling tua tau kat rumah nih..kena panggil along...

23yr old [2]: hahahahha, aku aku????

20yr old [1] & [2] :heheheheh..

23 yr old [2]: achik? sebab yg atas tuh angah la kan, sbb 3 hari awal dr aku..

20yr old [1]: kak *toot* alanglaa..

23yr old [2]:ohhh ok ok...haaa (sambil tengok kat 20 yr old [2]), ko .......achong!

all: LOL LOL..

20 yr old[2]: ehhh, ape pulakkkk*sengih*

23 yr old[2] : ahhh , takde2...achong jugak

23 yr old [1]: haaa ok ok. yg nih plak (aim kat 20 yr old [1])....ayam!

all: LOL LOL LOL

23 yr old[2]: haaa, senyap dia..tadi sedap sgt gelakkan org=p *toot*, ko memang besttt!!

sampai sini dahla..korang maybe tanak dgr sambungan dialog nih, merepek banyak=D lgpun lepas tuh, aku terus sakit kepala sbb byk sgt gelakkkkk..

Of presentation and babies..

I didnt see the marks coming. for one, i stuttered a few times and for two, i was so over with it. but there's always HIM. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. at least, it did something to the nasty inferiority complex.

babies almost always make me forget the world. totally in love.

Morning in Special Nursery Care..

One of the nurses: looks like someone is playing nose to nose..

Me: *Grin (sheepishly)*

you are gorgeous, arent u?

This to miss out??? so not fun =(

Hi All,

Here's the status update for the reunion to be held on the 17th of June.

Confirmed Date: 17th June 2006
Confirmed Venue: SSP Cyberjaya
Confirmed Fees: RM 100 for working alumnis and RM70 for students
Tentative Itinerary:

a) Sukaneka and Senam-Aerobic
Time: 8.30 am

Old girls will be in a group with current students. Group is based on school house ( Emerald, Topaz, Ruby, Sapphire)
Batch in charge: SPM 2001

b) Basketball/Netball
Time: 9.30 am

Old girls VS Current Students. Interested individuals pls confirm your attendance.
Batch in charge: TBC

c) SSP Cyberjaya XploreAce
Time: 9.30 am till 11 am

Old girls only. Total number of teams expected is TBC.
Batch in charge: SPM 2000

d) Tug Of War
Time: 11.30 to 12 pm ++
Old girls + Current Student (tentative)
Batch in charge: SPM 2001

e) Lunch time and break

Food stalls to be set up by the current clubs in SSP. They can make some money for the club fund, and we can help them by buying the tidbits/ drinks.

Heavy lunch might be provided for alumnis by the school.

f) Motivation Talk
Time: 2pm to 3 pm
Batch in charge: SPM 1999

Some guidance for the F4 and F5 students on stuff to do after SPM. The variety of opportunities, not restricted to the conventional career choices etc.....Target speakers: 3 ....others will need to mingle around with the students later...

g) AT last--> Hi Tea
Time: 3pm to 6pm

Here's where the networking begins.....Meeting up with old friends..seniors...juniors.....With scrumptious food :)

hehe, highlighted= i'm excited about...the only thing i didnt highlight is my batch's..cos i'm still wondering are we that motivational back then to be in charge? crazy kids adelaa..and kids, we are still;)

Get the joke??

20 yr old: bla bla...bile dia kawen eh? bla bla...korang nanti kalu kawen nx year jgn lupa jemput..bgtaula awal2 sket, senang nak plan..

23 yr old (1): haa, yelah yelah..

23 yr old (2): haah, korang pun kalu kawen nx year, jgnla segan nak jemput...

23 yr old (1) & (2): LOL

HAH HAH HAH!

miss ko jugak!!

yaaaatttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Message:
hellooo..thank you for the birthday wish,,aku miss giller kat kau and z!la..marilah kite berjumpe di malaysia , buleh la kite main basket lagiii

tak jemput pun aku gi australia, kita bolehkan kalahkan budak2 neighbourhood kau main basketball!!!
I hope you are having a good time overthere....nak jumpa kau sangat2 !!!!!aku maybe balik melesia bulan lapan ni, selama sebulan je...sempat ke jumpe?

love,$har

Home is where my heart is...

seems like everyone's heading home for the school hols..even my eldest busy-bee brother is coming home..syak!r, syahman, umar, aq!l..

homesick*sigh*

i'm entering panic-vulnerable zone *double sigh*

Season 1..finished

' I know you are searching for things and i hope with all my heart you will find answers to your questions, but the answers that you are looking for are closer than you think. they are in you heart, and the hearts to those who are close to you. and that is rite here at home. In your life, you are gonna go to some great places and do some wonderful things, but no matter where u go or who u become, this place will always be with u. There is only...'

i think i shouldnt and wouldnt stop watching eventho the exam's nearing. kamikaze laaa.

Of no importance...

decided to go thru the pics...uhhh, it hurts to see how much they've taken and changed our old place..come to think of the upcoming gathering, i can make it if i want. lets say my exam finished on 16th, i can catch up the midnite flight and reached KLIA on the day itself. Get someone to pick me up and off we go to school. haaaa, would be very much fun isnt it..would give anything for that but it couldnt be anymore wishful than that =(

finally, i got to watch BB but i must say the ending failed me. nope, failed all of us actually. hmmm, it was a-ok but read this..

'aku nak tgk telenovela venezuela salmonella..'
LOL

rite, i'll write some more next time...

When thursday's always my bad day...

these two excites me...

1. My mum retired today. Since her birthday fall during school holiday so today's officially her last day of being a teacher, tho i bet she'll forever be called 'teacher' by her students. I'm so happy. why? for the obvious reason, next time i'm home my mum's gonna be there for me 24/7. how GOOD is that? ok ok, she's not that available actually considering her side activities=D another 5 months to go and in a meantime, i'm gonna occupy myself with study, frens, this and that...

2. Few weeks back, i replied my fren's sms to say that i cant (obviously) attend her wedding this end of the month. this chilhood fren of my is graduating from medical school and im suprised but happy to hear about this tying-the-knot business. nway, this morning i received another sms from her saying that she's gonna be honeymoon-ing in melb from 15-22nd June and asked whether she can visit me?? OF COURSE, my dear...i'm more than happy for the thought. Exam finishes on 16th insya Allah so its nice to have something coming up right after that..

put off?

oh yeah. malas nak cerita.

It's 5:30...

and i just finished 8 episodes of OTH.*smug* yes, it suprised the housemates to see me awake during those hours. actually, thanks to the little temperature i had last nite that put me in bed from 8 till 12. then i thot i could do better than sleeping throughout the nite so i proceed with my weekend plan- do the marathon.

what a well-spent saturday nite!

I have...

-a very productive week and so relieved by that. getting there with my DLA notes, motivated enough to look up for the things i saw/heard in the ward/clinic. so it was good.

-lost 3kg for this year alone. without me doing anything. how great it is cos i never thought i could after getting back to the normal weight last year. that leaves me with another 2kg to go for my target.

-been suffering from short term memory loss and near-accidents lately, not to forget lost in my own world. bad.

-watched Da Vinc! c0de last nite. glad i read the book prior to that. very much enjoyed the movie and the companies themselves. that small reunion,heheh...and yes, i was attentive throughout the movie thanks to the nap i had earlier.

-been telling myself to call home but havent do so...

-a quick sleep-in this morning. was aiming for longer actually but end up tossing and turning. haihh...

Confirmed...

finally, we can say that we are going...wheee!

Tag??

this is from cik Far!na...

10 things i do when i feel so stressed out ..

1. Total submission to HIM. As i grow up, i learnt and noticed a lot of things. One would be that Allah never fails me. No matter how hard life is or how lonely i feel, to know that HE never leaves me alone gives me strength. Tapi manusia mmg mudah lalai, hanya mendekatkan dgn DIA bila dalam kesusahan. Malu...

2. Sleep. As ppl always say, sleep on it and when u wake up...thing isnt that bad after all. Tapikan selalu terjadi, perkara yang menyusahkan hati itu masuk dalam mimpi..

3. As what most of the woman would do, drain the tears duct. orang kata boleh membersihkan mata juga..maybe sebab itu alhamdulillah, aku masih tak perlukan kacamata.

4. Quiet. i know when i'm crancky, i can be annoyingly sensitive and quick tempered. so, kindly give me some space to cool down.

5. Talk/write. whichever i'm comfortable doing or whoever company i've got at that time. eventho i find it harder to practise this method nowadays, but i know in the past it helped me a lot. and yes, i'm very selective and the number is shrinking.

6. Would like to hit the basketball board. and score!

7. Would like to be somewhere with a silent company. No word but presence..

8. Maybe read good books. The ones that would make me forget the world.

9. Maybe watch feel-good movies. and sleep halfway through the story.

10.Hyperactive on rare events.

I'm tagging...
1.Syu
2.Nisa
3.Peah
4.Hani Salim
5.Niesa
6.Hani Izhar.
7.Alysha
8.Tuty
9.Shera

Today's highlights...

- Meet J, my dearest mate.. after more than a year of not seeing each other, i'm convinced that she's still the same J i used to confide in and laugh with..to spend our time catching up with each other would be one of the things i look forward in the next 4 weeks in D hospital..

-Play with baby Shahm!y..he's adorable, believe me! Allah had a better plan for me since i've been putting off the idea to visit him due to lacking time and he's now 5 months old. how nice it was to bump into the family while waiting for the bus, invited for tea and sent home afterward.

I'm grateful, insya Allah..

The card says...

Post-entry: i made a mistake by putting my mum's name on the dedication card. hmm, being ignorant as i always am. no, my mum's actually fit and healthy=)


For the day, i joined...
got the medallion..
be part of the birthday celebration...
and acted like badut sarkis before playing rounders and bola beracun...
I may not be the happiest person now, but these really made my day..

p/s..only for today's event...i've got lotsa pink-ishhh pics to share;) and L0ve Actually remains my favourite movie ...

Another May girl...

Babe,
Happy Birthday..
May Allah bless you with happiness and serenity..
You are definitely a strong woman in the making..

I'll take this chance to thank you for being great at reading my mind and never stop from being true to me..take care=)

jangan risau...

rajuk aku tak lama kerana dgn mereka jugalah aku menangis kemudiannya...dgn mereka jugalah aku sought comfort..

makanan sudah kembali ada..kupaksa diri pergi grocery shopping....satu aktiviti yg kurang best dilakukan sorang2 tp terpaksa sbb kalu tunggu weekend utk pergi ramai2, alamat kelaparanla...

dah 3 hari balik rumah tak baca buku...kenapa?

targetku untuk menonton Da Vinc! C0de movie, mulakan OTH, meneruskan Narut0...dan berBBQ weekend ini...

Today?

- ate my last slice of bread this morning. huhuh, there goes my 'instant' meal. made extra effort for egg sandwich cos i was practically starving since the nite before. What're left on my food shelf: nestum, milk, kurma, (uncooked)pasta, tinned tuna and jam.sigh

- they changed the comm skills workshop to this arvo. yes, i was asked to do the role play for that and hardly prepared anything. here's the brief instruction: you are concerned about ur daughter's asthma and want to have her check....speak no English....interpreter..slightly tense introverted person..lower the volume of voice..hesitate before answering....avoid eye contact...do tell the doctor what's happenning...when asked about ur husband you become very upset and nervous, started crying...embarrased...you do slowly reveal.
fuhhhhhh, it wasnt easy as u would imagine. we had about 20 ppl in the session and i had S, and indian msia as the Malay interpreter. i really had to block my mind from listening to her interpretation, otherwise i would be on the floor laughing my head off..just a sneak preview of what happened
Doctor: so hows the asthma going?
Interpreter: jadi, macam mana asthma itu sudah pergi??
Mother: (tolongggggg, aku nak gelakk aku nak gelakk!!)*chuckled* hmmm, sudah kena 10 kali dalam tahun nih (sambil tunjuk sign 10 dgn tangan)..

dah, yg lain2 tak ingat. thank god, i didnt get do to the crying part..dah cuak dahh..matiii, mcm mane nak blakon part tu depan2 sume org....ehem, mase tgh nak get ready tuh sempatla check out on H...dia senyum jeh tgk aku..hahahhaha, kachhh nye dia xoxo

-so so hungry when i reached home. too lazy to cook rice or pasta, i settled for kurma before off to 'nite' nap. rasa mcm nak nangis pun ade sbb lapar. lps tuh minta ihsan Z for 2 slices of bread n made myself milo-nestum. jadiklaa tuh...nmpk gaya plan nak masak pasta utk bekal pun tinggal plan jelahh..mim alif lam sin sungguhh (err, betul ke jawi aku tuh?)

How's paediatric?

the things that i enjoy most

- there are a bunch of happy and contented ppl around the hosp called paediatricians..they might be on the move most of the time and dont hv much time to entertain us, but when they do they'll teach good stuff. they can be teasy and funny at times, which makes them fun to learn with . i've had good experiences with Dr AW & DG for bedsite tutorials especially.

-ED(emergency dept) has been fulfilling too. lotsa 1st hand experiences and good contact with ppl. yes, cant deny that we sometimes being ignored by the busy-bee dr.'s but there'll always someone who are willing to take us thru things and ackowledge our presence. so its not all sweet and ideal but i'd say, still good.

-seeing how the doctors interact with their little patients. they really know their stuff and it really gives a good impression. while us students struggle on making frens the kids, its all breeze to them.

-i'm happy with my case study topic but i've got limited time (and motivation) to sit down and put my effort on it. so it ended up with could've-been-better assignment. nothing i can do really, i'm never good with academic writing.

-my MMC group. 2 caucasian blokes, 4 chicks of malay, indian, chinese and caucasian. dynamic and fun to work with. ohh and H, he's definitely a gentleman;)

-my study group with A,B and S. we meet up weekendly and talk about our appointed topic over some munches. take off some of the stress from the BIG BUNDLE of study that we need to do..i'd say we're doing fine with the discussion plus some side-tracks =p

- when i'm busy, i think of the crap less. when i'm busy, i feel better. when i'm busy, time flies. when i'm busy, again i think of the crap less.

but the hardest thing is actually

-to resist the temptation to cuddle the little babies, pinched the cheek of chubbby girls and ruffle the shy (blushy!) young boys's hair. gerammmmm!! hehehe, u know the time when u need to listen to the doctor's talking to the parents but all you actually wanna do is to play with the kids....sometimes i couldnt help making eye contacts/facial gestures with them before i realised that i missed on the doctor's words...keh keh keh!

When it comes to sports...

i've had my fair share of FUN and JOY...

- be it basketball years in KMB or netball years here, i made a lot of good frens. the ones that i might never be in the same class, same uni or even same residence with them. in other words, its the few hours in the court that brought us together and the bonding bloomed outside the games. the warmth stays. nope, words failed me this time but i can assure u, its one of the sweetest things...

- i'm not competitive. i play for fun and frens.to play under pressure is never my skill but if i'm feeling good, i'll keep up with it. that means NOT to play against the team who really wanna win, as in REALLY REALLY wanna win. if thats the case, i'm off...

-used to be injury-prone..hehe, had few incidents before and made me a lil bit cautious now. haihh, sakitlaa patah2 tgn nih.

-ppl said i'm funny in the court. even made my teammates laugh while playing the game but yeahhh, klutz is me.. what exactly i did??? HAH, as if i'm gonna tell =p

-i believe to be a good defender, you need to be all alert but to those who's playing the attacking position, ur forgiven to be a bit blur..HAH HAH HAH!!

-to lose the game is one thing, but to have the referee came to one of the players and said 'to me, your team is the better team' is totally another thing. win or not, we played our game.

Dear Nisa...

its already 11am on July, 7th here...so here goes my wishes

Happy Birthday girl !! may Allah BLESS u always and many HAPPY returns in the future.. i'm sure u'll have a good time today...enjoy it ok=)
and also we havent been in contact for quite some time but trust me, ur msg-es never fail to cheer me up..many thanks, sis!
take care...

out of words??

in the middle of phone conversation..

me: hmmmmmm..
ma: lama tak telefon. cemana?ape cerita?
me: hmmmmmm..tuh aaa (senyap)..saje, card dah habis. lama tak dgr suara ma (senyap)
ma: haa, tuhla..lama rasa tak telefon..
me: hmmmm(senyap)
ma: bile exam?
me: hmmmmm, sebulan lagi (senyap)
ma: nih yg bertulis ke?
me: hmmmmmmm,haah (senyap)
ma: kak dah 14 hari dah..pantang
me: hmmmmm (senyap)
ma: eh, ke tak tahu lagi kak dah bersalin?
me: hmmm, tahu..
ma: ade ke kwn2 balik nih? cuti winter nanti?
me: hmmm, tak tahu. ade kot (senyap)
ma: ada problem ke?
me: hmm, tak tahu...(senyap)

after a while
me: takpelah ma, taktau nk ckp ape dah. telefon lain kali la kot.
ma: haa, nih call direct kan. nti call lagi, boleh ckp dgn kak psl baby dia..
me: hmmmmmmmm..bye

sebetulnya...aku merajuk =(

Takde ape nak dicerita...

maaf yer, kurang idea...itu ini begitu begini...penat hati.

Ignore this...

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssss

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssssss

(repeat till december comes!)

p/s...ingat nak tulis psl football freak dan sin-chan dulu dulu tp nantila kot..hati tak tenang sbb terlalu ingat rumah=(

*drum-roll pls*

finished class around 3.30pm, went to the locker to pick up my things. there's an sms from sis in law -anak sedara kita dah bertambah-. aikkkk, tuh jeh. tak ckp boy ke girl??saje la tuhhh...

decided to keep the suprise a little bit longer. i found myself grinning like kerang busuk sorang2 for the next 7 mins walk. how could i prolong the waiting and resist the tempation to call straight away, God knows. berdebar toksah nak kata laaa=p

reached home, quickly grabbed the phone. haih, awat yg taknak angkat tefon ntahh..last2 ma angkat..hehehe, tanya itu ini..barulah terkeluar soklan emas..

'hehe, boy ke girl ma?'

'boy la.hehehe'

'ahahaha, ye ke...aduiii'

then borak2 dgn kak kejap b4 battery habis..alaaaa=( tak sempat nak tanya details pun..so there i go, 4 nephews back home!! tell me how to wait for another 7 months before i can meet them all???!!

****recap this morning****
M: kak yatt, smalam sy mimpi kak yatt dpt anak sedara boy...
Y: hahaha, ye ke?? ape nihhh...dengki la tuhh..alahai malasnye nak pegi kelas..ponteng boleh tak?
Z: haaiii, sape yg nak bersalin sebenarnye nih??
Y: cehhh=p

*************************

That's why we are sisters..

taktau nape tp hari nih rasa nakkk sgttt call rumah to check on my preggy sis. she's due next week for her 1st baby. ingat nak call dlm pukul 9mlm lps settle down, tp tak jadi padahal b4 tuh dah kuarkan siap2 calling card tp simpan balik dlm purse. bile dah occupied, terlupa kejap plan tuh. around 11 mlm bile dah nak tido, teringat balik kat dia. hmmm, nak turun bawah utk call dah malas plus err takut (ngaaaa!!), last2 call jelah gune hanfon. mase tuh dah siap dlm quilt utk tido.

call rumah, tak angkat..

call ma, tak angkat..

call kak, tak angkat..
(by now, i had a hunch that something's going on..)

call abah, aik angkat (padahal tak expect pun sbb slalu abah still takde kat rumah time2 mcm nih)..

tanye2, abah ckp dia kat hosp An-N!sa..kak dlm labour ward. heeee, rezeki!! i mean takdela expect utk dpt call time2 mcm nih kan. instinctively pulak tuh cos baru je pun borak dgn dia brape hari lepas. cakap dgn ma kejap pastu passed the phone to her. she already broke the water and having half-hourly contraction. heheh, warned her that its gonna be a LONGGG night and asked to selawat byk2...asked this and that, i was all excited...hmmm, shuldnt say this but i soooo wanna be with her now. dia ingatkan aku call sbb ma bgtau but nope, i hv my own instinct...
gifted to a sister.

12am: ahhhh, sudahh!! aku pulak yg tak boleh tido =D

What's Easter Sunday '06 all about...

we travel down here..

we played the mazes..
we wahhhh-ed and wohhh-ed at these sand sculptures...
we hopped onto the ferry and were entertained by these 'natural' dolphins =p

i so loved the invitation to be part of this road-trip..

i so loved listening to N's narration about her misfortune past few days in the car. she and her drama bits, me couldnt stop laughing;) and the laugh continued after an sms as we past Red H!ll...ngaaaaaa.

i so loved finding our way out in the mazes and posed to imitate the the expressions. oh yes, the temporary tatoo of fish. me=fish?? *shrug*

i so loved our little chat over nasi lemak and mee goreng in the garden, even if its just about how-to-make-ur-MILO-extra-sedap by S.

i so loved when we reasoned about how they maintained the sand sculptures if it rains.

i so loved when we tried to pose for Z but end up having candid pics during the ferry trip to Queenscl!ff island. lovely.

i so loved the moment we all rushed to the rail to witness first-hand experience of dolphin dance. what's the cheer again, N??=p

i so loved the juicy gossips and jokes we shared while waiting for our turn to pray.

i so loved the chilled nite in our room to enjoy the pics. all the expressive candids and joyous poses. fulfillingly happy.

i so loved the 13 hours that we spent together.

WONDERFUL GIRLFRIENDS, you are;)

Terba!k Untukmu..

Last week, T asked me to listen to this. most of the songs pass my ears unnoticed and unappreciated, but not the ones given by others...its habitual.

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

*Oh kini aku sadari
Ini salahku
Tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

Maafkanlah bila ku selalu
Membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
Kulakukan itu semua
Hanya untuk buatmu bahagia
Mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
Aku cuma ingin jadi
Terbaik Untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikansesungguhnya cintaku

' Brownies & Ice-cream...

...now that's best combo. that's all i'm looking for, my best combo. someone i can bring out the best in, and to bring out the best in me.'

'Maybe the perfect man wasnt real, but the perfect you is'..

'I realise you dont need an army to protect you. you dont let anybody close enough to hurt you in the first place'

'Everything always have two sides..'
- The Perfect Man movie-

No longer ..

yes peon, demi kamu aku tak lagi hiatus;) nahh, sumber bacaan sudah kembali...

1. Three names you go by
-N
-Y
-S

2. Three screen names you've had
-S
-C
-E

3. Three things you like bout yourself
-acceptance
-faith
-mediocre

4. Three things you don't like bout yourself
-quick temper
-insecure
-transient esteem issue

5. Three parts of your heritage (??????)
-malay
-malay
-siamese malay( yelah kot)

6. Three things that scare you (or mostly creeps you out)
-DARK
-ALONE
-DOG

7. Three of your everyday essential
-bed
-food
-good company

8. Three things you're wearing right now
-pyjama
-sapphire pendant
-thermal socks


9. Three of your favorite bands (or artist at the moment):
-none
-none
-none

10. Three of your favorite songs
-semusim
-because of you
-satu

11. Three new things you'd like to try in the next 12 months
-bungee jumping
-ski-ing
-be someone's

12. Three things you want in a relationship (love included in the package)
-dominant him
-dependant me
-sensitive us

13. Two truths and a lie
-i miss home
-i enjoy frenship
-lalalalala

14. Three people who have to take this quiz now or hv to treat me:p
-miss chuppa
-farina
-hani salim

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seems like aku bukan je ade telepathy dgn ma tp juga sis in law. baru plan nak call her later the day, sudah dpt sms bertanya kabar....
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HIATUS

maaf.

New chapter...

I'll be starting my paediatric rotation tomorrow for the next 9 weeks. best wishes, tips, words of wisdom, anything...most welcome=)

p/s: updated fotopages..

Ok tuan-tuan dan puan-puan...

Inilah dia antara bahan2 yg diperlukan utk menu tengah hari sabtu ini...(tambahan: beras, dessicated coconut, cili kering etc)
dalam masa taktau-brape-jam ini, chef kite A akan tunjukkan cara2 utk memasak ini..ini..ini..ini dan ini (alamak, banyaknyee nak kena prepare *pening pening*...)

tadaaaaaa, nasi kerabu version OZ dah siap..nampak lazaaatt kan?? jemput......tengokk=p

ehemm, dah dah jgn nak mintak resepi or suruh aku masak, ini chef A yang masak bukan chef Y ok...aku tukang potong bawang n kacau kuah kat dapur jeh...oh satu lagi

tukang makan banyak *sengihhh*

Recap...

...i manage to track down my big college sister, kak zue. she was in f5 when she took care of me, the crybaby first former *shame shame*. oh my, i can vividly picture her smiling face & remember how nice she was to me. at the same time of writing this, i'm emailing her=) was told that she's currently in Glasgow with her hubby n 2 daughters so there i go, 2 'instant nieces' . isnt it great??!!

...i had this funny yet beautiful dream last nite but i'm gonna kill myself first before i reveal it here. its funny cos the person's anynomous but beautiful cos lalalalalala..(annoyed? nasiblaaa=p) suprisingly also, the dream came in series cos everytime i unwillingly woke up from my sleep and slept back, it continued but in diff settings. not exaggerating but it seemed real,hehehe..

...lavish or not, we have 2 TV in our house. one downstairs in the living room and the smaller one(we bought to survive Franskton last year =p) is in the master bedroom. so last nite we decided to watch 'Freaky Fr!day' and cos of the wintery weather, i nicely tucked in the bed for some warmth while watching the movie. no its not a scary movie but family-comedy genre, really enjoyable movie and laughed my gut out. i was determined to watch the ending but around 10.15pm (i repeat 10.15pm not 11.15 or 12.15), decided to rest my eyes while waiting for the ad's to finish. yes, u guessed right, i missed the ending,huwaaaaaaaaaaaa... (this definitely should come top in the 7 weird list actually)

Some words

and it's getting more and more absurd
it's sad (so sad) so sad why can't we talk it over
oh it seems to me
sorry seems to be the hardest word...

i missed the fyp presentation but wish all the very best for the final exam. u'll make it and prayers go to u. have i thanked u for being a loyal confidante before? if not, here it is. thank u very much.

Freakingg ggeliiii...

Disclaimer: ini bukan cerita aku. aku hanyalah tukang sebar gossip/lawak ini..utk hiburan semata, tiada kaitan samada yg berada di melb mahupun di msia.

Akum, apa kabar. Suspen tak? Mamat mana la pulak yang email kat aku ni, kan?
Ini Abg [so-and-so], yang jumpa kat City ari tu masa Comm Game. Ingat? Yang sms tanya kg kat mana pastu [so-and-so] tak jawap tu....

Macam mana study? K? Abg doakan semuanya OK dan akan lulus exam dgn warna yg berterbangan........he,he,he.

Ini Abg nak attach gambar yang ari tu, pastu boleh tak tulis nama sorang2 & antar balik kat Abg? Abg dah lupa la nama adik2 Abg tu!

Slack betul dah berapa lama tunggu tak leh nak attach pulak, koman spana sungguh comp ni, mungkin line lambat agaknya, maklumlah dial-up bukan broadband.

Nantilah Abg cuba attach pada next mail, K?

p.s. Balas la, Jgn tak balas macam sms gak, K?

Take care, kirim salam semua kekawan,

Wassalam.

*jap, nak gelak icon YM...guling kiri kanan sambil hentak kaki*

ya Allah, pecah perut dahh mcm nih...nasibla bukan aku yg dapat email nih, one of the geng yg dapat tp aku ade di tempat kejadian mase tuh...masya Allah, rasa nak terrrmunnnttt pun ade *double-green face*

Once and for all

here u go, han!

How many school did i go to?
-Sek Keb Pula! Ch0nd0ng
-Sekolah Ser! Puter!

Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
None of those. i study when i the mood strike or i feel like studying, and stop when i'm tired or the mood wears off. i cant do last mins either cos i crack under pressure.

Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
A bit of both. Was more of teacher's pet during primary school, maybe because i was from the prominent family in the kampung. one of the important figures and known to most of the teachers.

highschool?? (hahaha, i bet most of my ssp fellow is giggling hard by now...) i'm not in warden's goodbook, thats a sure. i was mischiveous back then. i didnt bother to try to impress teachers, nor did i messed up with them. i was pretty loud (as in verbally loud, not abusively loud) and they often placed me to sit near the HIGH TABLE for dinner where all the prefect and warden on duty would be. konon2 tanak kasi aku bising la tuh, benciiiiii!! what else? nothing much really (kononnnn!)

same thing went for college years. mischiveous.

What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Often it involved Rec room where the tv was. shessshhh!! i know i know, there's this incident unforgettable to those involved, what far!na referred as 'menamastekan c!k a!sah'..LOL LOL!! there's another incident happened on the last day of form dot-dot...this one i cant elaborate more cos promised my partners in crime to keep it secret. i tell u, this one was VERY VERY hillarious!!

Three subjects I enjoyed
-History..not really enjoyed as in memorised line by line in the textbook but it was more like gifted to do well during exam.
-Chemistry...
-Math..used to enjoy it but brain decided not to keep up with Add maths, so i gave up on this subject.

Three teachers that inspired me
-Puan Salma..once she made me cried and after that i vowed to score chem in IB. and i did.
-Dan!elle W!lk!ns...young obstetrician who memorised things like crazy.
-my mum...she's a teacher.

Promise to self

i shuldnt promised myself about what u call it melodramatic entry cos i'm about to break it.

i cant say sorry, can i? rite, it could've ended in a better way but nothing's worth mentioning now. i gather that what's said is said and i have to live with it. i'll try. after all i'm selfish, i can say hurtful things in a breeze and i have known that all along. thats why i dont deserve a lot of things and i'd rather be in my old shell. back 6 years ago.

this isnt ayat pancing to draw sympathy. this is just a writing to say that i know it could've ended in a better way. thats all.

Busy-BORED

u got me this time, n!sa;p

4 jobs i have in life
-student doctor
-domestic helper (when i'm on long holiday)
-babysitter to my baby nephews
-mum's escort (self-appointed, i am)

4 movies i can watch over and over
-Al! setan
-Soal hat!
-P Ramlee's
-L0ve actually


4 tv shows i love to watch (its actually i'd love to watch)
-CS!
-Oprah's sh0w
-Desperate housew!ves
-Gray's anatomy( err never watch a single show actually...)

4 places i've lived in
-Kelan+an
hometown. born and raised there. Yes, i know some ppl rolled their eyes when i introduced myself as a kelantanese. both my parents are from there as well and my childhood life was of typical kampung girl that i treasured very much.
-KL
spent my teen years over there since 12 years old in a boarding school . made a lot of frens for life. enjoy the youth spirit.
-Selang0r
the remaining 2 teen years. its in a college doing my pre-uni. another lot of frens for life and this place really toughen me.
-Melb0urne
where i am now and will be till end of next year, insya Allah. been living in the same house for the last 4 years and not planning to move out. this place witnessed the most of bitter-sweet memories that turn me into who i am now.

4 places i've been on vacation to
-Sydney
w!nter 2004. i love this place for its hustle bustle city.
-Gold coast
also w!nter 2004.wheee, had so much fun with the rides in the theme park n shopping spree.
-Tasmania
autumn 2005. girls vacation, something i've always enjoyed. laugh and terror, both we had.
-Ipoh
my auntie's place. i love being pampered by her as she doesnt have any daughter, long hours of movie marathon, shopping trip and jalan2 cari makan. we shared stories a lot too.

4 places i'd rather be in
-in a camp somewhere near the beach or mountain. had enough of indoor.
-Mecca and Madina. top of my vacation list before i start my career life.
-somewhere in UK/europe with my girl frens. i call this girls vacation.
-honestly? in my mum's arms =(

4 of my favourite food (easiest of all=p)
-laksa (any kind)
-nasi kerabu
-mee (any kind)
-yong tau fu

4 websites i visited daily
-bl0gsp0t
-link-ees
-fr!endster
-utusan onl!ne

4 victims to do this tag
-far!na
-han! sal!m
-azzahraa
-den!se
and anyone who's busy-BORED like me


>>>wise or worse? maybe its the latter, i have no idea really. an impromptu in nature, it comes with a high price.<<<

Reflection...

'I had always believed that my dad was the tough one. My mum didnt drive, she wouldnt open her front door after dark, and she hated confrontation of every kind. And because she didnt have a driving licence, because she was polite to rude waiters, because she slept with the light on, I was stupid enough to believe that my mother was a timid woman. Now i was about to learn that my mother had her own well of courage.'

'I knew that my father couldnt live without my mother. Her going first would have killed him. It would have robbed him of his main reason for living. and I always assumed that she could not survive without her. I was wrong'

..man and w!fe

Exhausted...

some time ago, i made a promise to myself not to have another melodramatic-self-pitying entry here. so, there i go. two lines of entry.

8am-5pm

hmmm, never thot that time could fly thisss fast.. i kept losing track of time, i.e i thought today's thursday instead of tuesday and i hardly have time to sit down and do nothing (not to say that i dont do leisure stuff, heapsss;p) in a way, this is to compensate the 'gala time' i had last week but i'm not complaining at all, in fact i enjoy every bit of the day..workhaholic? maybe maybe not. the self-worthiness and satisfaction is just too rewarding, plus i found myself less guilty over my slack in managing time. tiredness is a sure thing but i'll live with it.

its a blessing that i dont get much pressure from the superior colleagues in the hospital to perform like a genius cos i AM NOT, and they acknowledge the fact. most of them expect mistakes and want us to learn through the mistakes, which is so reality-check. another reason that keeps me contented with my clinical experiences.

also, i took a simple approach to ignore ppl's words about the worst-has-yet-to-happen-this year..i've had enough of that in the past that this time around i just snap back whenever ppl started on it. not smugly but exasperately. pls, spare me the whine and let me experience it myself, for whatever stressful-crazy-time-you-claim-it'll-be-for-this-year. i'm trying to be positive here and all i ask for is either some 'you can do it too' or shut up say nothing at all.

this might do for this week..

7 WEIRD habits

ok, i'll do this one first...

1. kalau sebut 'alamak', mesti tangan letak kat tepi kepala...gaya seseorang yg pelupa=D

2. i LOVE to tag along with my parents in the car when i'm back home..doesnt matter where and for how long, i'll be more than happy to be at the backseat and enjoy my solitude.

3. as i mostly occupy the co-pilot/passenger seat, i often lost in my own thought during car trip. thats why ppl shuldnt ask me for direction or assistance in tracking the road..i'm hopeless due to the above mentioned.

4. enjoyed bersila atas kerusi, tak kisahla tgh makan ke, tgk movie ke, buat kerja ke..kaki mesti atas kerusi, err bukan atas meja yer=p

5. kalu tido, mesti selubung sampai ke kepala...worst come to worst kalu takde selimut, akan guna bantal..it runs in the family

6.suka makan pedas tp tak tahan pedas..hehehe, macam kalau masak ramai2 akan pesan 'masak pedas2 tau'...pastu mesti kena balik 'elehhhh, nti sape yg tak tahan pedas???dia jugakk'..ngaaaaa

7. i have this ability to sing a song with a new lyric. composed spontaneously. usually it comes about when im in the middle of humming the song and something happened...hahaha

having said all this, pls dont give me that weird look=p

i wanna tag...............................7 lucky link-ees ( as in those in my link list, ok;p) who havent done this. feel free=)

Love means knowing when to let go....
' Even when the relations between us had been strained, he had always been my shield, my guardian, my greatest ally. Even when we bickered and fought, even when i had dissapointed him or let him down, i had always been secure in the knowledge that we would still do anything for me. now all that was gone'- Man and Boy.

damn, i got tears in my eyes when reading the last few chapters..

Nothing significant...

so i'll just ramble, ok. lets see, i declined two invitation for today...one was to play badminton and another one was to watch movie. sorry mates, i just wanna stay home today and enjoy the last day of SUKOZ(hahaha, i culpritly changes the abbreviation to show my much Annoyance (notice the capital A??) with the tv station and sports commentator). plus i've had too much fun these past few days up until yesterday, so maybe i need to settle down a bit and get back to study..tho i hardly finish a chapter for today due to err hot weather and usual laziness..

few days ago, F asked me this caught-me-off-guard-question, i bet she'd been asking the same question around and got diff views and ideas. as honest as i can be, i still thought that the answer was pretty LAME.hohohohoho.. . we talked a bit more about it ..so she said for my case, its the perseverance . dictionary defines it as to continue trying to achieve a particular aim in spite of difficulties ...mind u, she's been listening to me for all this while to come up with that big word *nodding*.. may that kind of person still exist;)

finally, i completed the template..

sms...

biasa je. tadi danish cry masa dia tgk kartun. dia pun g kat danish buat ssshhh ngan jari dia. bising kot. tapi tak boleh dia 2 org tu. takut dia kiss adiknya...

alahaii, rindunyaaa=(

Howdy Mate: Tabik pelajar kita sanggup ikat perut untuk beri sokongan(source: Berita Harian)

SEMANGAT sekumpulan pelajar negara yang sanggup mengeluarkan belanja sendiri untuk hadir di Melbourne untuk memberi sokongan kepada kontinjen negara di Sukan Komanwel, sememangnya sesuatu yang amat dibanggakan.
Pelajar ini bukan saja daripada kalangan pelajar di Melbourne tetapi di serata Australia termasuk Darwin, Sydney dan juga Perth, semuanya dengan hasrat yang sama - memberi sokongan kepada atlit negara.
Ada yang sanggup menaiki kereta api selama 12 jam dari Sydney ke Melbourne dan kemudian menumpang di rumah rakan. Tidak kurang juga yang terpaksa mengikat perut untuk perbelanjaan perjalanan jauh serta tiket pertandingan kerana sedar temasya sebegini bukan datang selalu.
Sudah tentu peluang untuk menyaksikan atlit bertaraf dunia beraksi tidak mahu dilepaskan apa lagi sesudah berada di negara Down Under ini. Apa lagi berpeluang untuk melihat pemain negara secara lebih dekat, tentunya ia sesuatu yang lebih menarik.
Pengorbanan pelajar sebegini wajar dihargai oleh kontinjen negara atau atlit yang bakal menyertai pertandingan di luar negara pada masa depan sama ada dibalas dengan keputusan terbaik atau sekadar menghabiskan sedikit masa untuk beramah mesra dengan mereka.
Kerana mereka inilah peminat sebenar yang sanggup berhabis dan berkorban masa demi sukan negara, tidak seperti sesetengah pihak sekadar hadir kerana syok sendiri menerusi tiket percuma.
Bagi penyokong yang bernasib baik, ada yang mendapat kemeja T Harimau Malaysia yang diagihkan kontinjen negara tetapi untuk penyokong sejati seperti mereka, ia bukannya keutamaan walaupun pasti bersyukur jika mendapatnya.
Seperti kebiasaan, masih ada VIP mahupun orang yang menganggap dirinya VIP serta anak-anak mereka yang hanya sanggup berhabis untuk membeli belah tetapi ‘menyusahkan’ pihak lain bagi mendapatkan mereka tiket percuma menyaksikan Sukan Komanwel ini.
Lebih pelik, kelompok ini hanya mahukan tiket acara yang menjanjikan emas seperti badminton – mungkin sekadar mahu kelihatan berada di sana kononnya merekalah peminat sejati.
Jika dilihat latar belakang kelompok ini, rasanya mereka berkemampuan untuk membeli tiket sendiri tetapi nyata lebih gemar menggunakan saluran tertentu bagi mendapatkan keistimewaan sedangkan pada masa sama menafikan hak orang lain yang terpaksa menyerahkan tiket bagi diserahkan kepada kelompok berkenaan.
Terpaksalah juga pengurus pasukan skuad badminton negara, Ahmad Mohd Idris terkejar-kejar menguruskan tiket dan menyerahkannya kepada ‘si-peminat’, sedangkan tugasnya adalah untuk menguruskan pemain negara.
Bagi penulis, kelompok seperti ini ‘sendiri mahu fikirlah’ sebelum terus menjadi bahan ketawa di kalangan media dan pegawai sukan.

...makan cili? rasa pedas?hehehe, nasiblaaa

click here for more pics &amp; review on the game;)

and in NST..

The action didn't stop, and Kuhan gave the Malaysian fans plenty to shout about with another goal in the 58th minute to draw level, and suddenly, a victory over Pakistan looked possible....

Mum-daughter telepathy....

Last nite, i contemplated to make a direct call to my mum using handphone coz i ran out of calling card but knowing she wasnt home at that time, i cancelled the plan.

This morning, i felt a bit uneased and planned to sms her out but didnt....i simply forgot in the middle of rush.

This same morning, i received an sms from her..

'Rindunya lama tak dengar berita...'

oh my my, guilt almost numbed me...its actually less than 2 weeks since i last called her, a bit of record as compared to weekly doses of call last year..