Elated...

i'm ecstatic about the upcoming events for this weekend. so much so, i feel lost amid the excitement,ngaaaaaa....

Melb0urne 2006

I'm so gonna enjoy this =D

Mumba Festival...


worst thing: i forgot my camera=( i guess, Dory is really my middle name..heheh

'Too Much Pride Can Kill A Man'- Daredev!l

Warm hearted

A: nasib baik la aku ada kawan macam ko ngan To*e..
A: apa korang cakap sangat make sense pada aku
A: thanks a lot yatt...
A: ko tak tau how much it means for me..

sometimes it doesnt take all the sweetest talk to make ppl feel appreciated. this one will do for me...

Little dreams

~> For my final year (insya Allah) it'll be great if i can do my selective block in UK/Eire and then spend my holiday block of 6 weeks to travel and visit my frens.. hmmm, so much for dream comes true =D The only things that make it a bit tricky now is to get permission from my parents and to find someone to be my company, otherwise i'm game.i know, the other tempting destination would be Msia but at the moment i feel like going places ...

~> I'd love to stay in melb for another year or two after the graduation. Its not that i dont miss Msia and the ppl (plus the FOOD) but again, i feel like doing something more over here..work experiences and watsnot. so Nisa, i feel you about making this decision (tho i might be lacking one individual to think/consider about =p)

~>I dont think practising medicine (insya Allah) in East Msia is a bad idea altogether. hehehe, i must've gone crazy to say this but i'd like to have a bit of feel living in sabah/sarawak for some time. its more to prove my survival skills i guess ( as if i havent spend enough time away=p ) and get to know other ppl...could've been influenced by some reading about ppl's adventures as well..

~> this one, i'd like to keep it to myself thank u=)

we'll see how i go about all these. doesnt matter if none comes true, at least i know i've lived to my dreams until then..

=D

wheee, i'm done with the Core Curriculum's notes *sigh in relief*

wheee, i borrowed another 4 storybooks from JM's library.

wheee, i slept for more than 8 hours last nite *gulp in guilt*

wheee, i'm gonna continue on reading Ten Teachers' book.

whee, i bicycled around the neighbourhood this evening.

wheee, i have these dreams i do not wish to let go just yet.

wheee, i'm happy.

=D

12:30 am

and i was wide awake, laughing and joking around with the housemates.

Z: nih apsal tak tido lagi nih..
aku: (tersenyap)
Z: ohhh, patutla dia takde kelas esokk..cett
aku: ohh, cakap dgn aku ke?? hahahaha

Saje-saje...


Down under collections, tho some are specially brought from msia;) but now all are safely kept in the wardrobe..takut habuk nanti;)


these two who often cilok my space to sleep..bak kata L, bear tuh lagi besar dari aku..hahaha, mmg penyibuk pun dua2 nih, penah jugak terfikir 'hmm, sape yg nak tido sebenarnye nih??..' =p



hehe, bunny choc nih aku dapat mase dekat2 easter last year which was around April from a tutor.. tapi aku sayang nak makan so ingat nak simpan dulu..simpan punye simpan, last week baru noticed balik and decided nak makan..so adela dekat setahun dia jadi hiasan kat study table aku..comei!

Suprise suprise!!

yesterday was full of fun. N and i proceed with our plan to watch the very longgggg overdue movie of lion-witch-wardrobe..shessshh, i know it's very very long overdue but does it matter?hehe...anyway, N came up with this idea last weekend so i thought why not. Off we went to The Village together with A,M,Z who had their fair share of shopping spree while we spend the 2 hours fascinated and moved by the story.

Later was the weekly doses of women making waves. with the blistering hot weather for the past 3 days, this one was definitely heaven. Came back home with a pack of grilled Nando's chicken and chips. The household was getting ready for movie time as i started my dinner. Yes, i noticed they were hissing and 'kalut-ing' over God-knows-what but couldnt bother to ask. was about to go downstairs and upon seeing me, they looked pretty 'upset' and 'gelabah', so i simply turn back and said

'sorry, tak kacau..'

all i can guess was that they might be planning on some suprise but again, i kept my nose out of it. they urged me to go to S' room for the movie, came upstairs with food and smiled from ears to ear. Then when they sang the song for me & S, i looked at them blankly and the 1st thing that came out from my mouth:

'tak fahamm... kenapa korang buat nih?'

ok, this was suppose to be a suprise belated birthday for me & S =D they should be thankful for my nature of LPU-lambat pick up that i didnt suspect anything, not even noticed the cake they were about to take out from the oven when i went downstairs earlier. hahahaha.


to Z, M, A,B,I: loads of thanks for this sweet thought..who would've guessed that i'll be having my birthday cake 2 months post the date? the bestest hand-made prune cake ever (courtesy of I) and sushi treat ;)

Continued

I actually read Hani's when i 1st know about the news. i feel so hopeless being at the other end of the world, not knowing what's gonna happen next and how she's doing at the moment. lucky there's this strong circle of sisterhood we managed to keep up despite the distances. sms-ed and IM-ed around to get the updates. a bit relieved to know that she's recovering well.

as far as aneesa's concern, i've always admired her strong will and determination. she's one hell of a tough lass, hardly give up on anything and never put herself down. Girl,i pray for ur speedy recovery and wish to be there for u..*hugs*

Deep scar...

We both agree that no matter how good things are now, the scar will remain there. 'walaupun semua dah ok, parutnye masih ada'. to see how much she's affected by this and how much he has/might have changed devastated me. personally, nothing will ever be the same for me again. pain and anguish lingers, so does the voice at the back of my head. i was also being told about the happenings in my absence, much to my suprise and relief. i'm entitled to be sad and dissapointed over this, but i decided not to. instead, i wanna move on with life together with her and try my best to be good to all. i need strength so He gives me strength..

p/s: n!esa, i just read about ur admittance to the hospital in han!'s blog. i'm so sorry to hear and pray for ur speedy recovery. take a good care of urself , please=)

p/s: im not the best person to say this but try not to lose hope, mr robot. even if all fails u, turn to HIM. prayers is as worth as ur effort, i'd say. be it fyp or anything. to annoy u a bit: u shuldnt settle the migraine with other's meds. its much much better and safer to get urself a prescription. no coercion though.

Tough=)

its not easy to stand tall and keep up the spirit.

all this while, i seems to put myself in a difficult situation where i assume a lot and risk nothing. yes, ppl who knows me well will understand what i'm trying to say here. maybe i've listen to more than enough stories that in the end, i just wanna protect myself from those experiences. a bit of coward u might say. but as time goes by, i figured that i aint gain anything from the self-built shield. not to say that i've thrown away completely the shield though.

i hope no one has misread my writings. nothing is really happening. i'm still the old me who laughs more and sleep even more. sheshh!

How's that?

i was in the library to print out some notes while waiting for my O&G mate to go to the ward. Something went wrong with the thumbdrive and i was busy asking around when my phone rang the sms tone.

there's this guy at my back who turned to me and said
'thats the coolest ringtone eva..'

i had to laugh.i did. it sort of tickled me cos all this while, there have other ppl who commented on the tone and 'romantic' seemed to be the popular one*d'ohh*

hmm, lantak korangla nak kata ape pun....

More of..?

i was exchanging sms with my sis-in-law last nite when she last texted

......bcoz u r so special.

for what she wishes for me in the text, i'm touched. patience will always pay off. insya Allah, dengan izin Allah.

>>one once reminded me that i shouldnt let anyone determine my happiness. it might be easier said than done but i know she's speaking the truth. and rite now, i'm leading my life with those words in mind..

Priceless of me?

heheheh, never mind the tittle above but i do find myself having happy-hormones-overdose. everything's getting along fine with me, i'm having more and more positive thoughts about life and hmmmm i just feel precious...

and if its not now, there'll be some time sooner for all the good things to happen.

with that, come this silent vow/promise/hope/dream/prayer for certain commitment. dont kill urself trying to figure out what and who though cos its not worth asking the questions to me. and it might be none of what you are thinking/imagining at the time of reading this=D

positive vibes? unlimited;)

One fine saturday...

Eyes wide open around 6. *haiiihh, rugi bangun awal weekend nih* but in a way, its good cos that means extra few hours to spend during the wake. quickly resumed on Narut0 to catch up with Z and later when everyone's out of bed, decided to watched L0ng Kh0ng, siamese horror movie. yes, we did watched horror movie during daytime, for an obvious reason;)). honestly i dont think its worth watching and poor teleng, had to watch it on my behalf..hehehe

next was Fearless. as usual, i fell asleep in the middle of the movie and woke up few mins later. bad habit bad habit=p then went upstairs and flung myself on the bed. speed read Watermelon and catched up with the mates in the house.

"when happiness makes a guest appearances in one's life, its important to make the most of it. It may not stay around for long and when it has gone wouldnt it be terrible to think that all the time one could have been happy was wasted worrying about when that happiness would be taken away" -Watermelon-

around 5pm, got ready for women making waves at aquatic centre in the city. one of the things that i 1st learned in Melb and the only exercise i have for this week. hmm, it might be self-diagnosed but i think i had mild exercise-induced asthma, non stop cough & gasped for breath after finishing one of the laps,heheheh. nevertheless, came out of the pool feeling good and fresh.

just finished my dinner. Ya Allah pedasnye sambal tuh...

p/s: dah jumpa passport,yeayy!! kat mane? er, mesti kena gelak punye nih..jumpe....jumpe..kat...lipatan shopping plastic beg kat bawah meja..hehehehe..tak terfikir langsung nak cari kat situ..fuhh, lepas satu lagi kerisauan..

p/s: Happy birthday to my dearest frens, Hani & Niesa..miss u two damn loadss!!looked at ur dress-to-kill-pics and i simply longed to be part of the celebration. nasi kerabu beb!

My little fren=)

Her name's Kate and she's 3 years old.

she was with her mum in the antenatal clinic( its for pregnant women) this morning when i saw her. dressed in beautiful purple flowergirl-like dress and sat on the chair politely while the doc's examined her mum. Its when we finished listening to baby's heartbeat (audible to the room) and doc went out of the room, she came to us (me standing next to her mum who's lying on the couch)..

Kate: *giggle* funny heart..*giggle*
Me: heheh, its funny ey? so do you know whats in ur mummy's tummy?(hahah, couldnt think of any other question to ask)
Kate: yeahhhh, baby..
Me:hehheh. and do you have any sister or brother?
Kate: *sheepishly smile*
Mum: Yes, she has an elder sister. Kate, this lady is also a doctor. So we have two doctors in this room.
Me: heheeh, yeahh. you have 2 doctors to take care of ur mum today.
Kate: I have a....(mumbled something)
Me: *smile*
Mum: she said she also have a baby in her tummy.
Me: *laugh* ohh really..let me see?*shoved me her a-bit-boncit tummy* heheh, your tummy's smaller than mum's.
Kate: (mumbled something again)
Mum: she said hers a baby's baby.
Me: *laugh* oh really..
Kate:*kissed her mum's tummy, then turned to me* i love you.. *put her arms around my neck and pecked on my cheek*
Me: *stunned and giggled*
Mum: woww, you are being lovely today Kate..

later in the consultation, she came to me again

Kate: i love your bracelet..
Me: heheh, i love your dress

and there she twirled a few times, pretended to be a ballerina or something. so when they're about to leave the room, we exchanged goodbye and before she left the room,she turned to me and said
'i love you..'
then wrapped her hands around my neck and kissed my cheek. so i hugged her back.

We were frens for only 15 mins, but i'll always remember this adorable little fren of mine. she makes me feel GOOD.

It was two years ago that..

i first wrote here. exactly on this date..so happy 2 years to this space!!!

The day..

when i felt very very happy and RELIEVED eversince i started this rotation. Allah has always had better plan for me...there goes another chunk of burden;)

p/s:

as if im not leisurely occupied with naruto's, i managed to sneak into JM library this afternoon and end up with 3 fictional books to read for the next 2 weeks. and for the anime itself, hahahahahahahaah...