*...said...*

heh, dah bape kali plan aku nak tulis sumthing x jadik..sbb aku end up merayau2 baca blog org lain...mostly anonymous but had put some impact in my mind...hish, entahla byk sgt benda aku nak tulis tp x tertulis..apsal ek???

 

* home and away*

uhuh, baru aku realise yg aku dah 5 month away from home..record la coz b4 nih the most aku penah x jumpe parents aku is 3 months..which was mase kat SSP dolu2..haduss, like my hosmet said" no wonder lah sasau jeh.."hishh!! the thought of not seeing them for another 3 months freaks me out, and make me wonder how can someone survive staying abroad more than a year,heheh.. not that i'm actually homesick (shhh!!) but you cant help missing your loved ones... aite?? keeping my brain occupied most of the time will do i, i guess.. ;;)

okeh, shout out to syu, wieza, seri and shafi..CONGRATS on ur graduation..wahhh, cun2 jeh aku nengok gambo korang grad..proud of u guys!!muashh..:=) good luck in the job-hunting eh..;p

hmm, skarang nih aku tgh gile nak bercakap tefon..tp dah bape org aku call ari nih xde sorang pun nak angkat/ada kat umah..dpt ckp ngan kak pun kejap jeh:p..cubaan call umah liyana x bjaya..hani plak xde kat umah(hai, pegi amik tempias kat melaka ke cik kak?;p)..farina pun xde kat umah..so calling for miss virus, pls gimme any of ur contact no..a.s.a.p. aku sgt mahu bicara sama kamu dehh..missing u damn lots!

arituh mase borak ngan ma after 3 weeks of not dialling +6097878---, mcm2 cite kuar..tergolek2 aku gelak kat kusyen bile dgr cite psl ma dpt offer jadik headmistress kat bachok(uihs, jauh amat tuh)' lawak pokok getah' mmg bjaya buat aku sengih sampai skang..as usual bukak cite psl kak..haiseh aku dah agak dah, mmg nak kena balik 2 kali thn depan..\:D/ tp yg buat aku tergedebuk tuh bile tetiba aku pulak yg diedisi-siasatkan..??ayoyo, anak ma nih x nmpk jln kuar lagilah..dok sesat dlm gua lg nih haa..ntah mane ntah org tuh:p ntah2 dia pun sama2 sesat kot,hahahha!!

hmm..dah abis satu PCL..1st day mase briefing case tuh, aku trase cam x biasa jeh ngan cara tutor baru nih..ala2 buat aku susah nak attentive(or maybe its the 1st day syndorme?;P) ..tapi on friday session, she did very well in explaining things to us..but it turned out to be that we'll have a new tutor nx week, and it'll be for the whole sem..hish, dah dpt yg best kena tukar la plak..hehe, most of us felt very reluctant to let her go..even Matthew pun boleh kuar ayat.."can't u just stay..we'll take care of u"..owh, how sweet!heheh..aku sengih jelah dgr dia ckp mcm tuh..

hish, farina dah jumpe 2 kali dah...bila pulak turn aku weh??heheh:p

p/s..happy 22nd birthday to wieza..jeng jeng jeng!!

*ALHAMDULILLAH..ALHAMDULILLAH..ALHAMDULILAH*

yerp, thats all i can think of rite now..passed another hurdle..the bitter ordeal that lead me to draw another consensus of my own-life...and here i am, smiling back to all my DEAREST..:=D

so many things had happened after July 2nd...the tastes of life...but i have no regret in experiencing any of them...neither do i wanna ponder over it...let it be H.I.S.T.O.R.Y

what's for now?i'm trying to reach my end-of-SSP  life again..wonder why??i think thats the time when i am truly being myself...understand myself and love myself...enough said. Now I learn to look at things in  different perspectives, appreciate ppl as someone unique in their own way and appreciate myself more! No other person can give better care than yourself rite?

Heh, challenging MED 2042 is on my top list ...hafta admit that it's taking most of my time now but i'm enjoying myself learning every bit of it..i mean, none of the courses offered in the university is easy..its the matter of how you put things into the right places and try to do you B.E.S.T...after all, The Al-Mighty is always there for you to seek for comfort,guidances and blessings..:=) pray hard..pray hard and pray hard!

 

 

 

*their say*
 
"hmm...i just try to be nice to everyone.."
 
" sesetengah barang yg baik x dpt dijual sbb jurujual x pandai..janganla pandang jurujual tuh"
 
"sesuatu yg baik dgn niat mengingati Allah boleh dibuat di mana2 jeh..insya Allah"
 
"petua awet muda? air smayang.."
 
"selagi mana seseorang itu masih hidup dah ade kebaikan dlm dirinya walau sedikit..insya Allah masih ade peluang"
 
"jgn ckp mcm tuh..jawab insya Allah, kalu ade jodoh adelah tuh"
 
"senyum tuh milik umum.."
 

*SELF-REMINDER*

KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka
dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman,"
sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya
kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka
sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan
sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta." -
Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia
amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu
menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu,
Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." -
Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan
sesuai dengan kesanggupannya." -Surah Al-Baqarah
ayat 286


RASA FRUST?
"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah
pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg
paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang
yg beriman." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah
kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam
mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan),
dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada
kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan
bersedialah (dengan
kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan)
serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu
berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)." -Surah Al-Imran
ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan
jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan
sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat
kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk" -Surah
Al-Baqarah ayat 45

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2
mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan
syurga utk mereka... ..

-Surah At-Taubah ayat 111


KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain
drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal." -Surah
At-Taubah ayat 129

AKU DAH TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI!!!!!
"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa drp rahmat
Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari
rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."
-Surah Yusuf ayat 12

*kata itu kota*

call me selfish, but keeping two at a time is just too much..

*ASTAGFIRULLAHALA'ZIM*

hmm, Allah nak uji kesabaran aku...memula hadiah from abah for my SPM rosak, or should i say dah worn out..aku sayang gile camera tuh eventho dlm hati dah berangan2 nak save up beli digicam...masin mulut aku bile cakap yg aku akan beli kalu camera ni dah rosak..tapi bile dah betul2 rosak aku tekad nak baiki jugak, maybe spare part kat mesia will be cheaper...

the day aku bwk camera tuh utk dicheck, aku ilang bracelet..my 21st birthday gift from my parents...hmm, ade history behind it yg buat aku rasa devastated sgt2..i wept on my way home..i wept when talking to my mum and i wept to sleep...the sentimental value is still there and it stole away my smile..

i'm sorry for the silence..i need time to pull myself together..things aren't on my side, also other trivial things stumbled me over and over again...

i'm gone...for a while or..?? the only thing that i wish is my parents..full stop

*WHY??*

X: heh perasan x muka kawan A tuh mcm muka Yusry KRU?>>
Me:haahla, betul2
Y:haaaa, dok tgk ehh??
Me:laahhh, dah dpn mata, tgk jelah...(grr!)

Ya Allahh, by then darah aku dah meruap2..sorry to say but i found that remark was somewhat intimidating..actually i couldnt really recall ur exact words(shock!) but for me it sounded so accusive.Kenapa mesti kuar ayat mcm tuh?? Is it wrong to look at the face(for once!) and say hi after being introduced to someone??nothing more than, no further talking, no etc..even if i did, pls dun made me felt like a .....!! heh,some ppl might say that this was just my emotional bit but hang on....come over here and experience yourself!!

B:eh, yang dgn A tadi tuh bf dia eh?
Me: heh, entahla..x bertanya pulak

see, another scenario?? kenapa mesti ditanya, in fact kalu nak tahu silalah tanya empunya diri..kan?? kita mesti elakkan drpd jadi bahan fitnah..TRUE..tapi ape kisahnye dgn org yg membuat fitnah???bukanke fitnah itu lebih teruk drpd membunuh...

some ppl claimed that they are different than others...only because they attended more classes and in the so-called 'group'..but that doesnt mean you can easily judge ppl, and simply made bitter statements..Allah tahu ape dlm hati kite, in fact aku ingat satu quote nih, something like' kite jgn berasa superior drpd seseorang yg lain sbb dia mungkin sebenarnye lebih baik drpd kita'.. kenapa mesti di'significant'kan commitment yg diberi, menjadikan attendance tuh satu kayu ukur utk classifykan seseorang??kenapa mesti buat org lain felt bad about themselves, just because they aren't in the group..kenapa mesti dibedakan kwn2 sendiri and keluarkan ayat " yang X org lagi tuh.."??everyone has their own way of seeking Allah's guidance and we have no right whatsoever to weight that out..

sape kite nak judge org lain sedangkan kite sendiri masih dlm proses tarbiyah diri, mencari2 hidayah Allah yang boleh ditarik bila2 masa..ingatlah Allah tuh Maha Mengetahui, the table may turn around and dugaan dari Allah boleh dtg bila2...jgn mudah berasa selesa dgn ape yg dimiliki..mulut kena jaga, hati kena pelihara..Nauzubillahh

its not only me who experience the discomfort, the uneasiness among the crowd...kenapa mesti diextremekan batas2 tuh sampaikan bertegur sapa@acknowledge kawan sendiri yang seAGAMA dan seBANGSA dinampakkan sbg satu kesalahan besar..??

kekadang sixth sense can be 'something' jugak...once aku pernah tnmpk someone forwardkan satu email from another fren to the so-called 'authority'...ape nih???some sort of spy towards your own pals??

tegur menegur mmg t'jawab sume org tapi lagi baik kalu dibuat dgn cara yg bijaksana and berhemah..ain't no one is perfect??