exhausting week with

- assignment dued last friday, and i'm not proud to say that i procrastinated it to the very last day :(

- cardiology rotation with Dr Szto who never ran out of questions about physiology and watsnot. lucky he's inspiring enough for me to do my reading & practise my ECG interpretation skills.

- expected to practise Mini Case Record with Dr Botha, my dear clinical dean with his infamous quote 'you know team, even policeman can diagnose this disease'...erkk, what an expectation from us :p

-Code Blue emergency in the middle of our round . a patient in the other ward had arrest, followed Andrea the registra & Vinod the intern to the place of scene. this was my 1st experience and were looking from the door. more than 10 dr's & nurses were there, trying to resuscitate & getting details about the patient. in the middle of things, a lady came & said to the crowd "she's documented NFR" -not for resuscitate. things happened so fast but all i can remeber was my registra keep on trying to save her untill she's asystole (no heart output). eventho i thot i dealt with this experience quite well, still had my partner for this rotation checking on me more than once. a bit puzzled. later i thot maybe the 'muka terkejut' i failed to get rid of. then when i asked for the reason of his concern, he simply said "its not everyday u watch death in the hospital'. n yes, its not everybody who is thoughtful to u.

having said that, i'm totally suprised. way beyond my expectation. hmm ok, expectation is a bad choice of word i think...

sedar diri bukan bermakna rendah diri.

last night, was on YM with my cousin, updated myself bout the consert. at the same time was virtually talking to my housemate (identiti kononnye dirahsiakan)..hehe, jom pekenakan dia

y: wehhhh, akak ko pegi konsert aaa...
z: haa akak aku mana nih??
y: (teng teng teng...)kak melah ram
y:lol
z: weehhhhh
z: ramlah tuh nama mak haku
y:(alamak alamak!!! tapi dah gelak cam nak pecah perut)

hohohoho, aku terkena balik..abih aa, mintak2 dia x report kat mumy...hillarious!!

hari nih ade lg netball practise. hmm, dah lama x main position GA. last time was 10 years ago, then for the past 3 years, mostly main position GS..hermmm, agak kurang confident sbenarnye sbb dah xde stamina..hehe, tp hari nih main position tuh rasa cam best la pulak..okehla, at least adela lari2 jugak instead of berkampung kat dlm D jeh tunggu nak shoot :p

sampai rumah after practise, terus ade org jerit "cepattt, Pupus!!!" wargh, lari x cukup tangga....hahahha, tang nih xnak cite byk2..rahsia rumah:p

am i having good time?? indeed.

gelak banyak+ tertido time asar=pening kepala.haihhh

mental note to self: its ok, this 5 days will fly fast.as always. be tough.

here come the highlights of the day:

-started my day early..ehemm, azam baru la*wink wink* still due to some technical probs & lack of motivation, i lazed around:p
-tried to be an angel for peah;) ahahaha, she must have some kinda sound-trouble when commented about my voice over the phone. tak logik akal langsung ape:p nway she's still the sweet bubbly peah (ehemm, bodek!!) that i dearly missed. so many things to catch up that i had to stop her few times to go back to our earlier discussions. there's no way to cram in all the happenings for 3 years into an hour++ phone call. at least for us, coz its actually 40% talk& 60++% laugh. honestly when i was about to dial her number, a bit worried that we might run out of idea but now i'm rest assured it wont happen...tp kurang asam punye phonecard, x kasi warning bile dah nak habis kredit..amacam peah, sronok x cakap sorang2?? ahahahha...i'm so so happy! ermm nih kalu mehran dgr cemana aku borak ngan peah, mesti kena warning-haaa gelak byk2,pastu pening pala!!.ahahaah, mak tiri:p
-started my netball training. uhuk, wasnt really my day but who cares. just play the game rite? maybe need some time to get hold of it, worry not.
-gala time in the kitchen, as the 4 always do..we tookpleasure in planning our meals and preparing them in a very 'loud' way,ahahaha!! makcik2 sure akan geleng kepala tgk ktrg masak..eh silap, tgk ktrg bercakap masa masak,ahahah .. and as peah put it this way- ala, ko x payah ckp ko masak ape. biar diorg teka pastu ko angguk jelah,lol...sebijak sang kancil eh!?
-women making waves..ahaha, aku byk main air jeh hari nih. uhuk, telan air pun byk jugak. played water games & went for sauna. haaa, seronok=)

some revelations=)

slalu kalu aku ngadu demam or rasa mcm nak demam, 1st thing ma akan suruh-mandi. ye ye ok,ahahaha... pagi td sakit gusi *muka terseksa* tergolek2 kat katil...rasa mcm nak demam..ikutkan mmg malas nak bgn and buat pape, lapar pun laparlah..tp bila teringat ape yg ma akan buat kalu aku tgh tunjuk aura2 mcm tuh, aku paksala diri pegi mandi..haahla, bile dah segar tuh x rasa sakit sgt dah..magic magic:p

aduihla, penat kawad kaki kat ward..bukan ape, kalu sume kaki pendek mcm aku xpelah nak main pondok2, naik turun tangga byk mane pun. nih dpt Dr. Andre (kacak kalu tgk from the side:p) yg jln mcm robot pastu partner ngan Marty yg tinggi mcm galah, tak aci tak aci!

morning person.pagi ke petang di hosp-berkobar2 plan nak buat itu ini bile balik rumah nanti..konon nak siapkan keje la, nak start buat keje la. malam di rumah-melepek kat katil dgn x sengaja,heheh... dah kata aku mmg x produktif mlm2 nih. nak tgk aku rajin (sket), kasi aku buat keje pagi2..insya Allah, otak berjalan lancar. tp kalu dah mlm, hehehe sendri malas laaaaaaa. tak boleh nak buat ape..ade sesapa nak tolong marahkan x??

tomorrow. going back to frankston. a very distressing thought at the moment,but i've promised myself not to give up easily. let the battle continues. may it ends with success. count down - 18 weeks. after that, so long frankston, wohooo!!

i've got so much to say here but couldn't. and wouldn't. this serenity.

good thing is SIMPLY good.ahaha, simple recipe is the best tips for cooking.pasta, onion, garlic, chopped meat(too stingy to buy the ready-made-minced-meat:p plus some good exercise with the knife), bolognese sauce, tomato paste, water, mushroom, black pepper, oregano, salt.tadaaaa,sedap sedap!*erkkk perut cam nak meletup*

had nightmares for 2 days in a row.huhuhuhu, not the i-was-scared-to-death-chased-by-the-green-monsters-and-evil-looking-ghosts kind.nightmares in their own way, IF these are to happen in the future. nauzubillahhhh.

and has my phone gone mad with the 4am-no-number-missed-call??no, couldnt think of anyone in msia who is THAT thoughtful, so to whoever that was drunk enough to use the public phone in Melb0urne chilling winter just to prank me, sorry i didnt sleep with the handphone last night*gelak puas hati*>_<

so when Sin Chan met his fav fren, Buzz Lightyear (in the form of a school bag, that is:p)

testing testing


ahahah, tak cute pun:p


tgk tv kejap;) 


suke tak? suke tak? 


nyo nyo nyooo(to the infinity & beyond:p) 

today. movie marathon *dance icon*. batman begins & mr n mrs smith. thumbs-up for both. ok2, enjoyed batman more i think. not so much of wahhh's & fuyyooo's, something else. dont watch the cartoons, in fact know near to nothing about its legend. but i know this is a must-watch-movie for this year. as of mr & mrs smith, i just feel like watching it. but sorry, 'm no good at doing movie review. serahkan pada yang pakar ;)

reflecting back few days before my flight to melb, i was badly depressed & vulnerable. imagined for the bad-if-not-worse semester ahead. sad thoughts & unexplained fear of returning to Down Under. wished to extend my holiday forever.numb.

but now, here i am in melb. full of serenity. homesick, nope.alhamdulillah...

life, we can never tell. there were, are and will be so many suprises, twists and turns along the journey. blessing in disguise, things that happen for reasons, all the word of wisdoms. to keep us strong. to keep us going.

so they said on my day 1
- uihsss garangnyeee?? takut aahh (eh, dulu pun mmg garang ape)
-yelah tp balik nih makin garang . tgk tuh asik menjerit jeh..cakap pun laju, x berenti..(lol)
-biaq p dia, sat gi kalu dia senyap x cakap apa, kite yg susah..biar dia ckp byk..kat umah kena suppressed aa tuh(lol)

haha, pandai2 jeh depa nih...dengki x habis ngan aku..dah rasuah ngan food baru senyap:p glad that the 3 are home, so tak sempat nak rasa homesick...busy bercerita n bergelak ketawa..touche!

urgh, i was FORCED to watch shutter by the 3. they watched it while i'm away, but insisted me to watch it also. huh, mmg dengki laa diorg nih!! knowing that i WILL NOT watch it alone, agreed to watch the movie again with me...last hope to escape from this TORTURE was when they couldnt fine the cd's that nite. hahahhaa, lega gile...but tadaaaa, they found it at last,huwaaa! so imagine this: tucked in the sleeping bag with the 3 on my sides, held my breath & had my eyes half-opened most of the time:p palpitating & suffocating in the end for not breathing & hiding under the cover. haaa dah nak sgt aku tgk cite tuh, korang yg terkejut dgr suara aku.padan muka,hahaha!! also need to check on them if anyone fall asleep, bukan boleh pecaya sorang tuh:p no matter how hard they tried to make me watch the scarriest scenes, i wouldnt. no way, aku tutup mata jugak!

meaningful & sweet hols?

-the only reason i was home for this short-so-not-actually-worth-going-back winter hols was for my sister's wedding. she's my guardian angel. my childhood memories was her taking care of me, bearing my bossiness & cries, me tagging along when she's out with her frens(which i would usually 'buat perangai' sbb boring*piapp*). we are getting closer as we grow up. nway the wedding went on smoothly, simple yet memorable. For all the work i've done for the reception & role i've played as her sis, i'm proud of myself.

-spent good time with my family. behaving well, err less rebellious to be exact esp to my mum. see, i've grown up to be a very gud girl...

-met my frens even to the very last day in msia. spent few hours with peon during my transit in KL, browsing at sg wang hoping to get some pirated*syhh* vcds. but didnt get any, raid besar-besaran rupanya skarang nih:p

- i've done my best to make everyone's happy. sacrifices, weariness & emotional instability i've to endure, no complain at all.

now that i've safely returned to melb, pray hard that everything will be fine. need to keep my sis's words in mind.

*****

when something happened twice, i lost for words. esp when i thought that i've made it clear from the beginning. for all my grown-up life, i tried my best not to regret over my doings. so when i'm bound to be mean & sarcastic, i find its best to refrain myself from saying the disgust. guilt is never good. keep it low.

pagi.jln sorang2 kat kb. monolog.


-hmm, nak pegi kedai tuh kena carik pasar MPKB dulu..alamak, mane pasar?? ikut jln nih ke?? try jelah...(jalan).....fuh, sib baik betul ..ok skang carik kedai, x silap kat ujung jln...(pusing-pusing)..hmm xde pun..mane eh??...(masuk satu kedai, tanye salegirl)...alamak kat bazar ke rupanya kedai tuh..mane nak pegi?? nak ikut jln mane satu?? hmmm, sesat dahh...

tgh hari.lps jumpa dyian(from johor) & rose(another kelantanese)

yatt: meh aku bitau ko trick kalu nak shopping kat sini..nti kalu jumpe mane2baju yg ko bekenan, tunjuk kat aku ..biar aku yg bckp ngan org kedai...ko jgn ckp pape tau

dyian: heheh, kenapa??

yatt: xde, kat sini kalu ckp luar susah nak mintak kurang..so kalu aku ckp kelantan nti dpt murah sket, pastu bleh tawar harga lagi..tp ko jgn gelak dgr aku ckp, hehehe.

dyian:ohhhh..mmg mcm tuh eh?

rose: haah..kalu ckp luar diorg susah sket nak kasi kurang..kalu ckp kelantan senang nak tawar harga..

yatt: betull..dulu mase far!na dtg sini pun ktrg wat camtuh gak...jadik trick tuh

hahaha, it worked;) sgt2 kelakar. sorang jadik tukang tunjuk, sorang tukang cakap. kalu nak diskas sesama ktrg, ckp slow2 ala-ala x bukak mulut.byk gune eye contacts n facial expressions. kuar jeh kedai bantai gelak bile ingat balik aksi2 mase membeli td..slamber!

pick-up hisyam & DJ(the married couple). punyela susah nak carik jalan. landmark: moving tractor(duhh!) & papan tanda jalan(yg dah xde rupa papan tanda sbb kena langgar, another duhh!) bile budak2 banting get together, meriah. sessi kutuk mengutuk sesama sendiri.gossip sana sini. tukar2 cite antara benua.compare sape yg lagi blur & uni mane yg lagi crap.hahah, best2! semua macam dulu lagi, x berubah pun.

malam.akad nikah f!zah. member banting jugak. lawak bumper & lawak takut masjid(hilarious!). bile turn kenalkan member2 lepas majlis....

bride: yang nih plak yatt, kat austral!a..
bridegroom: ohh(mumble ape ntah)...dulu SSP ??
yatt: hahh??hmm, haah.(blur. haih, x puas ati nih.kena tanya)

dah abis kenalkan semua org, beranikan diri...

yatt: hmm, bleh bitau x cemana tau 'from SSP?
bridegroom: hahhahha, biasa aa ..org byk kabel (eleh!)..stakat satu nama 'yatt' tuh xkan xleh ingat..
one of the frens:haah, dulu bridegroom's name skola tuh.
yatt: (tahu, tp aku mane ade kwn kat skola tuh...x paham)huh? yelah tuh..xkan aa..hurm, baik bgtau...
bridegroom: hahaha.xdela...kenal sorang nih pastu bkait2 camtuhla...sbenarnye kenal my close fren's name..penah dgr from dia la..bla bla bla
yatt: hmmm, ohh...*sengih

hohoho,bleh plak mcm tuh.

rezeki.

yesterday i'm supposed to meet nisa, my junior from school. been a long time since i last saw her. heh,Sapphire-ians;) my dorm-leader when i was in F5.our beds were next to each other. our shared stories(ahemm, ur cadet police pic reminded me of ur lil secret at that time :p)...
anyway, sms-ed her that morning to tell about the change of venue. replied saying that she cant some for some reason. so i proceed my plan to go out with my sis. i was walking towards the escalator after lunch, then sayup2 dgr nama dipanggil. err xkanla kot, mane ade janji ngan sesapa.with no hope to see anyone familiar, i looked over my shoulder.nisa, shu and another girl. eh apsal muka diorang??..cemana leh ade kat sini??. i laughed & walked towards them. sambil2 salam, they mumbled sumthing about handphone, sms, misscalls...
-ehh, cemana korang ade kat sini..kate x jadik(terkejut, rasa nak pengsan, blank!)
-haaa, tuhla nak ckp...bleh dtg tp apsal x angkat fon??sms pun x reply...
-wohohoho, fon tinggal kat rumah la..HAHAHAH!
-patutla..(continue membebel pasal misscall n sms)
-alamak..dah awak kate x jadik..saya pun tinggal la fon tuh kat rumah..ingat xde org nak contact..sorry2
-apelahh kak yati nih...penat pukul 9 drive pegi kedai top-up.
-hahahha, sorryy..lps dpt sms awak tuh, ingatkan dah betul2 x jadik..tinggalla fon kat rumah..
-haa, nih kenal x sape nih?
-*sengih
-azie.haa, tuhla org siap2 dah sms bgtau sape yg dtg sape x dtg..bla bla bla(sambung bebel la tuh:p)

what can i say..one of the days. i dont normally go out without my hanfon just in case of anything. feeling rather bad, i made up by joining them for a while. tapi 15 mins, mane cukup nak borak :( still, i'm grateful.

rezeki.

i dont look happy.i am not happy. bitter. very bitter, indeed. few times i broke down into tears & feeling better after that. i suprised myself for not being strong & off-control. hmmm, they asked for the reasons but nothing came out from me. i kept way too much to myself. THINGS.this and that. let them out, tell me how??

mid-of-the-year was never good time for me. when things were falling down on me.when ppl messed around with me, testing my patience. when i couldnt accept the change around me. when all the last mins plan screwed me up, leaving me off-guard & feeling crappy.

and i cried.

dulu2 ade dua jeh, kl n klate.skang nih dah tambah satu, kedah.hohoho,pening pala!

klate.duduk rumah.mls nak kuar sbb xde kawan:(( oklah, aku akan kuar umah ikut parents pegi memana.itu x payah disuruh, mmg akan volunteer nak ikut. lain2, ngadap tv takpun pc. lain2 lagi, tolong buat kerja rumah takpun buang masa mengelamun..tp x penah rasa boring.

kl.best. panjang langkah.public transport la. misi utama nak hang out with frens xpun ngan famili.byk benda aku bleh buat.tgk movie.borak2.shopping.mkn2.even kuar sorang2 pun aku x kisah.duduk rumah melayan sin chan, best jugak!eheh, budak itu:p

kedah. not familiar.but i've got my newly-wed guardian angel there.eheh, another place to be :p

hmm, cuti makin trase kejap jeh:p

when harry meet sally. love this movie. for me, it is something & true.meaningful words in it;)

that.is what i've alwanted to have in my life.since i was in high school, keep on telling ppl about the wish.some ppl ridicule me,heheh .in KMB, that became one of the topic of discussion among us in F210.heated. while the rest disagree with the thought, i still said it is possible.*shrug*

oh well...i am shallow, maybe;) but life, u can never tell;)

"haaa...dah jatuh cite?"
"eh? sape?"(blur!)
"AF lerr.."
(still blur!)"hahahhha.."

lps 2 3 hari dok tgk tv...tgk iklan...makan x kenyang, tido x lena...ohhh, baru pahamm!!hahahhaa, manelah nak tahu:p

benda paling x best kat dapur>>minyak...

alkisah nak jadik cite...tgh prepare dinner kat dapur,sorang2..sambil tuh seronokla nyanyi2.. i have a dream, a song to sing,lalalala...(x hapal lirik pun!) dlm dok ulang lagu tuh..tgn kanan tgh angkat kuali kecik penuh ngan minyak..nak letak atas dapur..

(tgh2 nyanyi) eh, eh apsal goyang...kuali tuh cam nak terbalik dannn....mmg terbalik pun..abis minyak tumpah atas lantai...x sempat nak buat ape:(

abisla kena marah ngan ma,huhuhuhu ...sib baik minyak x panas..kalu tak, alahaiii! rupanya kuali tuh mmg x stabil, kena pegang dua belah tgn..hohohoho

org tua2 dah kata jgn nyanyi kat dapur, degil!!:p

simple tapi meriah.sgt meriah.alhamdulillah

best sebab most of the things buat sendri..drpd siapkan gift utk tetamu sampailah masak memasak...sume pakat wat keje, sedara mara ramai so bile gather mmg sronok..meriahh...

aku??eheheh, jadik assistant ciksu buat hiasan...utk kasi tetamu, utk hantaran n bunga pahar..haha, takat buat reben, bunga kecik2, lekatkan renda n manik2 tuh blehla;) task paling kritikal pun siapkan jambangan bunga pahar, cucuk sana sini:p dari awal pagi sampe lewat malam dok ngadap...new experience yg sgt best! sambil2 tuh busy jugak jd photographer n tumpang posing;)

tapi part yg aku n kak paling miss is buat keje2 kat khemah..angkat hidangan..layan tetamu..sbb time tuhla, nak keje ramai2, bergelak ketawa ramai2....uncles, aunties, cousins sume pakat tolong...mmg happening esp bile dah start ramai org dtg, kalut nak make sure hidangan siap n tetamu dilayan..macam2 aksi n lawak ade...semua muka serius, konon!...maybe we had good experience of that time kenduri uy!, so kali nih a bit terkilan sbb xleh turun padang sama2 ngan yg lain kali nih...okeh, dialog bile dah petang n org still ramai...

"wani2, kalu ade org dtg lagi lps nih..kite get ready nak tembak"
"heheheh..haa abg long..tuh ade org mari.."
"okehh, (aksi acukan senapang kat tetamu)"

adoi,boleh mcm tuh???heheh, yg surenye mmg best kalu dpt join diorg buat keje kat bawah khemah..eventho pancit gile bile dah habis majlis..x kisah asalkan seronok;)

part paling touching semasa membaca doa...bila tok uda keluarkan sekeping kertas bertulisan jawi...doa yg dikarang sendri. special utk majlis n pengantin...dibaca sendiri..di tengah2 doa, dia menangis..menangis dgn bersungguh2, mungkin teringat arwah tok ayah, ayah soh n ayah lah..sebak ...rasanya tuhla pelengkap majlis, jadi sgt2 bermakna...abah kata, tonggak kejayaan majlis kali nih terletak pada tok uda..bila dia sendiri menyinsing lengan baju utk melayan tetamu, yg lain pun bersemangat=)

"rasa2nya mane lagi best ...dok sini ke dok sana?"
"heheh, dua2 best..sana pun ok jeh"
"(diam agak lama)...selalunye, bile org suke dok kat satu2 tempat tuh..mesti ade someone special"
"(ternganga kejap)..lol!! hahahah, xde2..pandai jeh"
"heheheh..."

adeihh, sakit perut aku gelak...x terpk langsung!

all in all, aku happy dgn wedding nih...alhamdulillah!

till then...