p/s..peah, i owe u an entry rite? dont worry, will do that once i'm back on track. hugs for u.
happy birthday to syak!r..love u dear!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Monday, September 19, 2005
now, that seems to be far-fetched. somehow i've lost hope and start to realise there is impossibility in everything. hmmm, what can i say...Allah must have His very own reason for not granting my wish for that. no matter how much i hope to have one and enjoy the company, i couldnt. maybe the dream of 16-year-old-girl has been replaced with some reality for 22-year-old girl. this isnt depressing yet, saddened me a bit. especially at this point of time when i really need that to hold on to and aid my journey.hmmmm...
pls, nothing to do with lovey-dovey-thingy. no wild assumption is welcome here.
pls, nothing to do with lovey-dovey-thingy. no wild assumption is welcome here.
this time, it came with unannounced melancholy..missing ppl and tears flooding my cheek.. a bit of swinging mood but hasnt got to anyone's nerves..by evening i knew whats this i-am-feeling-lonely-and-have-no-one-to-turn-to-feeling all about..eheh, talking about XX chromosomes and its package..bless us;)
yeah, catched up with n!esa. aint going down the memory lane and reminisce all the sweet ol' time we had during IB years..but revealed some harsh reality. no human can withstand that,i bet. i cant, for sure. i offered nothing but prayers and ears to listen (ok, eyes to read and hands to type in our case=p)..hope she'll know how to 'heyy' me whenever she needs one. dont hesitate ok!
and that cousin of mine, had me a few laugh fits..with his newly-discovered words of wisdom about making ways to a long term relationship and such. eh, i wasnt not laughing at him but more like amused with the change..so not him..wonder what happen to mama's boy*lol*..ahhh, cheeky mode=p dont him dare to leave me alone in not-yet-married-hood!! hahaha...will catch up again..this time it'll be somewhere in pizza hut,he said as he refused my humble request for mamak stall..yahahaha, will make sure of that!!
yeah, catched up with n!esa. aint going down the memory lane and reminisce all the sweet ol' time we had during IB years..but revealed some harsh reality. no human can withstand that,i bet. i cant, for sure. i offered nothing but prayers and ears to listen (ok, eyes to read and hands to type in our case=p)..hope she'll know how to 'heyy' me whenever she needs one. dont hesitate ok!
and that cousin of mine, had me a few laugh fits..with his newly-discovered words of wisdom about making ways to a long term relationship and such. eh, i wasnt not laughing at him but more like amused with the change..so not him..wonder what happen to mama's boy*lol*..ahhh, cheeky mode=p dont him dare to leave me alone in not-yet-married-hood!! hahaha...will catch up again..this time it'll be somewhere in pizza hut,he said as he refused my humble request for mamak stall..yahahaha, will make sure of that!!
Saturday, September 17, 2005
him...
- when i was small, he's not even close to be my favourite man. with his stern-looking face, loud voice and strictly no-nonsense,have to say i'm afraid of him at that time.
- we lived very closed to each other and our house was more like second house of his family. he would come to our house after work and spent hours playing solitaire. then he went- 'buat air teh' or 'takde air teh?' Initially grumpy, i began to enjoy serving him. taking his request as a compliment for my lil service.sometimes x sempat mintak, dah siapkan awal2 =)
- during my teen'years, i had this fav green sandals. mase tuh 1st day balik rumah and dia dtg rumah.."haa agak dah mesti ade kat rumah" "tahu mane?" " selipar hijau kat bawah tuh". hmm, i would remember this...
- he's really a family man. my family ourselves relied on him so much. attended my petty requests- cuci gambar, belikan tiket, belikan prepaid card, u name it. he may grumbled a bit but never failed me=) also the only man in this big family who always came up with the idea of 'mandi air terjun' or 'pegi pantai'. ahh, all excited!
- so much into sports, soccer i would say. and the trophies in his house proved it.
- the first to call me 'doctor' when i started doing IB, way before my med school's life. no one else did.
- i always hopped in his car to go to the town. as we parted our way, he would call a few times, just to check on me..asking my whereabout and make sure i'm alrite...honestly even my abah didnt treat me this way..
- he's there during most of my siblings' registration days. seremban, kedah, johor,kl,penang, selangor. as for me, there were ser! puter! and banting. but not in KLIA..
- 1st rejab 1421, 5 days before my flight to melb. he returned to the Al-Mighty. his first heart attack. family was busy preparing for my kenduri doa selamat. turned into kenduri arwah *taking deep breath*. my last memory of him would be the night before, on our way back from kl. he on the praying mat looked longingly at his lil kids.
-remembered the day vividly. God knows how the family felt the loss. i shed no tears on my departure, had enough for 5 days before.
- abah, his bro-in laws was the closest person to him. just put it this way-whatever he bought for himself he paid for two, vice versa. a few times i saw abah's watery eyes after he left us for good. in fact i worried more about abah than ma at that time.
i know Allah loves him but i simply miss him. Al-fatihah to my Ayah Lah.
- when i was small, he's not even close to be my favourite man. with his stern-looking face, loud voice and strictly no-nonsense,have to say i'm afraid of him at that time.
- we lived very closed to each other and our house was more like second house of his family. he would come to our house after work and spent hours playing solitaire. then he went- 'buat air teh' or 'takde air teh?' Initially grumpy, i began to enjoy serving him. taking his request as a compliment for my lil service.sometimes x sempat mintak, dah siapkan awal2 =)
- during my teen'years, i had this fav green sandals. mase tuh 1st day balik rumah and dia dtg rumah.."haa agak dah mesti ade kat rumah" "tahu mane?" " selipar hijau kat bawah tuh". hmm, i would remember this...
- he's really a family man. my family ourselves relied on him so much. attended my petty requests- cuci gambar, belikan tiket, belikan prepaid card, u name it. he may grumbled a bit but never failed me=) also the only man in this big family who always came up with the idea of 'mandi air terjun' or 'pegi pantai'. ahh, all excited!
- so much into sports, soccer i would say. and the trophies in his house proved it.
- the first to call me 'doctor' when i started doing IB, way before my med school's life. no one else did.
- i always hopped in his car to go to the town. as we parted our way, he would call a few times, just to check on me..asking my whereabout and make sure i'm alrite...honestly even my abah didnt treat me this way..
- he's there during most of my siblings' registration days. seremban, kedah, johor,kl,penang, selangor. as for me, there were ser! puter! and banting. but not in KLIA..
- 1st rejab 1421, 5 days before my flight to melb. he returned to the Al-Mighty. his first heart attack. family was busy preparing for my kenduri doa selamat. turned into kenduri arwah *taking deep breath*. my last memory of him would be the night before, on our way back from kl. he on the praying mat looked longingly at his lil kids.
-remembered the day vividly. God knows how the family felt the loss. i shed no tears on my departure, had enough for 5 days before.
- abah, his bro-in laws was the closest person to him. just put it this way-whatever he bought for himself he paid for two, vice versa. a few times i saw abah's watery eyes after he left us for good. in fact i worried more about abah than ma at that time.
i know Allah loves him but i simply miss him. Al-fatihah to my Ayah Lah.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Monday, September 12, 2005
over the phone..
- i yearned to reach out and hug my sis. this was my proper phone call after knowing she's pregnant..within a minute,she broke into tears coz of bad time she had with morning sickness and watsnot. quite speechless, i am. 'bile nak baliknye, nak mintak picit kpala kak nih..x tahan dah' felt like crying too. how we missed each other..
- i laughed with abah over his attempt to cook lunch. tapi cemana nih abah, boleh tertukar bawang putih dgn bawang merah =D
-gossipped with ma about everyone in the family. nyehnyehnyeh!
- i yearned to reach out and hug my sis. this was my proper phone call after knowing she's pregnant..within a minute,she broke into tears coz of bad time she had with morning sickness and watsnot. quite speechless, i am. 'bile nak baliknye, nak mintak picit kpala kak nih..x tahan dah' felt like crying too. how we missed each other..
- i laughed with abah over his attempt to cook lunch. tapi cemana nih abah, boleh tertukar bawang putih dgn bawang merah =D
-gossipped with ma about everyone in the family. nyehnyehnyeh!
Saturday, September 10, 2005
today, i'm supposed to go the malaysian carnival in melbourne. treat myself with the $10 food voucher*drooling* & played netball afterwards. but for the last 3 days, i dont feel like going. dont feel like socialising to be exact. wished to stay home & have some quite time for myself. so thats what exactly i did. lazed around on the bed, worked on the notes and good laugh with the housemates.
but these 2 stooges drove me crazy with their lagu2 raya..cekik jugak diorg nih, saje jeh nak seksa aku..arghhh!! kalu lagu happy2 xpelah jugak, nih sume yg leleh2 manela aku tahan..dahla puasa pun belum start lagi, mana boleh...last2 aku yg kena pakai headphone*tongue*
~*______abah, happy 56th birthday. semoga Allah merahmati hidup, dipanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. proud to be ur daughter & i love u so much_______*~
but these 2 stooges drove me crazy with their lagu2 raya..cekik jugak diorg nih, saje jeh nak seksa aku..arghhh!! kalu lagu happy2 xpelah jugak, nih sume yg leleh2 manela aku tahan..dahla puasa pun belum start lagi, mana boleh...last2 aku yg kena pakai headphone*tongue*
~*______abah, happy 56th birthday. semoga Allah merahmati hidup, dipanjangkan umur & dimurahkan rezeki. proud to be ur daughter & i love u so much_______*~
Thursday, September 08, 2005
today marks the last day for abah in his educational career. he's officially retired now tho his birthday is actually on this coming saturday. congratulated & wished him well this morning. two things in my mind
- bestnye kalu ade kat rumah..nak makan nasi kerabu jugak!!
-hmm, lps nih nampak gaya abah dah tukar opis..dari bilik pengetua ke bangsal kat kebun..suke la tuh,heheheh..
went to watch charlies & the chocholate factory on wednesday. that lucky boy reminded me so much of syak!r...my darling nephew..argh, ingat rumah lagi :p
my last thought, Allah's plan works in mysterious ways. both learn the lessons and never too late to start new. alhamdulillah.
- bestnye kalu ade kat rumah..nak makan nasi kerabu jugak!!
-hmm, lps nih nampak gaya abah dah tukar opis..dari bilik pengetua ke bangsal kat kebun..suke la tuh,heheheh..
went to watch charlies & the chocholate factory on wednesday. that lucky boy reminded me so much of syak!r...my darling nephew..argh, ingat rumah lagi :p
my last thought, Allah's plan works in mysterious ways. both learn the lessons and never too late to start new. alhamdulillah.
Monday, September 05, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
it is an unappreciated frenship if
- its so much of playing around with words & things said are taken for granted.
- excuses may not be lame, but doubtful enough..and there were holes in the explanation given.
- one person left the other person in uncertainty, with the latter trying to figure out what he/she has said/done wrong.sorry but this particular habit isnt helpful.
- one person tried to rationalise things by taking part of the blame & end up feeling guilty nonethelessly. fair enough but pls have some courtesy to tell the person what/which went wrong. no one bites.
- sorry may be the easiest thing to say but...what happened after having it so so many times?
- one person tried to save the frenship each time...accepted the mistakes and swallowed the bitterness, but i reckon human are never perfect, far from being angelic to do it for the rest of life.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Sunday, August 28, 2005
mase tgk title artikel nih kat bulletin board, terasa nak baca. dah habis baca, terasa nak paste kat sini..bacalah
Berapa ramai lelaki yang boleh menjadi imam??
Kalau perempuan tidak boleh memasak, dikutuk
dan disuruh belajar. Kalau lelaki tak boleh jadi
imam kita kata okay saja. Jangan diperbesarkan
nanti mereka terasa hati.
"Apalah perempuan, tak pandai masak siapa nak
kahwin dengan awak!"
Begitulah kata rakan sejawat lelaki pada seorang
anak dara, juga rakan
sejawat kami. Maka jawaplah si gadis ayu itu yang
dia tidak sempat belajar
memasak sebab dari kecil tidak digalakkan
keluarga sebaliknya di suruh
menumpukan perhatian pada pelajaran saja.
Sementelah tinggal di asrama,
peluang pulang ke rumah terhad dan tidak sempat
turun ke dapur membantu
ibunya.
"Habis sekarang kenapa tidak belajar?" Tanya
sang lelaki lagi dengan penuh semangat.
"Sedang belajarlah ni tetapi selain sibuk dengan
kerjaya saya juga sibuk
belajar agama, jadi belajar memasak tetap tidak
diutamakan!" Begitu jawab si gadis yang
membuatkan lelaki tadi menggeleng-geleng
kepala. Baginya tidak sempurna seorang wanita
jika tidak tahu memasak.
Wanita sepatutnya buat begitu juga. Syarat utama
menjadi suami mesti boleh menjadi imam. Walau
ada yang kata, jika itu syaratnya bermakna makin
ramai wanita yang hidup bujang seumur hidup.
Lelaki meletakkan kebolehan wanita di dapur
sebagai perkara utama dan ungkapan hendak
memikat suami, perlu pikat seleranya sering
diguna pakai.
Tidak kiralah jika wanita itu berpelajaran atau
berjawatan tinggi dan
penyumbang utama kewangan dalam
rumahtangganya. Sekarang bukan asing lagi gaji
isteri lebih tinggi daripada suami. Namun
kedudukan suami sebagai raja tidak pernah dilupa
walau dia tidak mengambil inisiatif mempelajari
ilmu menjadi imam. Ilmu bermain video game di
komputer mereka rasa lebih perlu.
Kalau tidak tahu memasak disuruh belajar dan
sesudah belajar perlu handal.
Jika handal bukan setakat masak untuk keluarga
sendiri, kalau boleh perlu boleh memasak untuk
tiga pasukan bola. Begitulah standard yang telah
ditetapkan. Bolehkah kita meletakkan undang-
undang itu kepada lelaki juga.
Kalau tidak pandai jadi imam, belajarlah. Mula-
mula jadi imam kepada
keluarga sendiri, sudah terror boleh mengimam
satu taman perumahan juga.
Sibuk suruh kita handal memasak, mereka tu
bolehkah jadi imam? Dengus teman wanita yang
lain.
Betul juga. Berapa kerat lelaki yang menjadikan
sembahyang jemaah di rumah bersama anak isteri
sebagai agenda utama, selain keperluan
memenuhi pelbagai seleranya? Maka bertanyalah
wanitakini kepada beberapa lelaki tentang
kebolehan yang satu ini.
Ternyata ramai yang menjawap tidak confident
menjadi imam sebab takut bacaan al-Fatihah tidak
sempurna, salah tajwid atau pun dia merasakan
isterinya lebih handal. Ada yang kata lebih elok dia
dan isteri sembahyang sendiri-sendiri. Ada juga
menjawab, rasa kelakar pula apabila dirinya yang
rugged menjadi imam.
Isu ini sepatutnya kita beratkan sepertimana
masyarakat memberatkan wanita perlu pandai
memasak jika mahu bersuami. Lelaki juga harus
boleh menjadi imam supaya kewibawaan mereka
sebagai ketua keluarga tidak goyah atau menjadi
mangsa queen control. Kalau tidak pandai,
belajarlah sekarang.
Jika wanita disuruh belajar, apa salahnya lelaki!
my say: ironically true..hmm, nak cakap lebih2 pun rasanya x layak...tp kalau rasa nak jadik imam pun agak susah, cukupla dgn jaga solat 5 waktu..ramai or maybe semua org solat tp jaga tak jaga tuh, wallahua'lam..ingatan utk diri sendiri jugak, insya Allah=)
Berapa ramai lelaki yang boleh menjadi imam??
Kalau perempuan tidak boleh memasak, dikutuk
dan disuruh belajar. Kalau lelaki tak boleh jadi
imam kita kata okay saja. Jangan diperbesarkan
nanti mereka terasa hati.
"Apalah perempuan, tak pandai masak siapa nak
kahwin dengan awak!"
Begitulah kata rakan sejawat lelaki pada seorang
anak dara, juga rakan
sejawat kami. Maka jawaplah si gadis ayu itu yang
dia tidak sempat belajar
memasak sebab dari kecil tidak digalakkan
keluarga sebaliknya di suruh
menumpukan perhatian pada pelajaran saja.
Sementelah tinggal di asrama,
peluang pulang ke rumah terhad dan tidak sempat
turun ke dapur membantu
ibunya.
"Habis sekarang kenapa tidak belajar?" Tanya
sang lelaki lagi dengan penuh semangat.
"Sedang belajarlah ni tetapi selain sibuk dengan
kerjaya saya juga sibuk
belajar agama, jadi belajar memasak tetap tidak
diutamakan!" Begitu jawab si gadis yang
membuatkan lelaki tadi menggeleng-geleng
kepala. Baginya tidak sempurna seorang wanita
jika tidak tahu memasak.
Wanita sepatutnya buat begitu juga. Syarat utama
menjadi suami mesti boleh menjadi imam. Walau
ada yang kata, jika itu syaratnya bermakna makin
ramai wanita yang hidup bujang seumur hidup.
Lelaki meletakkan kebolehan wanita di dapur
sebagai perkara utama dan ungkapan hendak
memikat suami, perlu pikat seleranya sering
diguna pakai.
Tidak kiralah jika wanita itu berpelajaran atau
berjawatan tinggi dan
penyumbang utama kewangan dalam
rumahtangganya. Sekarang bukan asing lagi gaji
isteri lebih tinggi daripada suami. Namun
kedudukan suami sebagai raja tidak pernah dilupa
walau dia tidak mengambil inisiatif mempelajari
ilmu menjadi imam. Ilmu bermain video game di
komputer mereka rasa lebih perlu.
Kalau tidak tahu memasak disuruh belajar dan
sesudah belajar perlu handal.
Jika handal bukan setakat masak untuk keluarga
sendiri, kalau boleh perlu boleh memasak untuk
tiga pasukan bola. Begitulah standard yang telah
ditetapkan. Bolehkah kita meletakkan undang-
undang itu kepada lelaki juga.
Kalau tidak pandai jadi imam, belajarlah. Mula-
mula jadi imam kepada
keluarga sendiri, sudah terror boleh mengimam
satu taman perumahan juga.
Sibuk suruh kita handal memasak, mereka tu
bolehkah jadi imam? Dengus teman wanita yang
lain.
Betul juga. Berapa kerat lelaki yang menjadikan
sembahyang jemaah di rumah bersama anak isteri
sebagai agenda utama, selain keperluan
memenuhi pelbagai seleranya? Maka bertanyalah
wanitakini kepada beberapa lelaki tentang
kebolehan yang satu ini.
Ternyata ramai yang menjawap tidak confident
menjadi imam sebab takut bacaan al-Fatihah tidak
sempurna, salah tajwid atau pun dia merasakan
isterinya lebih handal. Ada yang kata lebih elok dia
dan isteri sembahyang sendiri-sendiri. Ada juga
menjawab, rasa kelakar pula apabila dirinya yang
rugged menjadi imam.
Isu ini sepatutnya kita beratkan sepertimana
masyarakat memberatkan wanita perlu pandai
memasak jika mahu bersuami. Lelaki juga harus
boleh menjadi imam supaya kewibawaan mereka
sebagai ketua keluarga tidak goyah atau menjadi
mangsa queen control. Kalau tidak pandai,
belajarlah sekarang.
Jika wanita disuruh belajar, apa salahnya lelaki!
my say: ironically true..hmm, nak cakap lebih2 pun rasanya x layak...tp kalau rasa nak jadik imam pun agak susah, cukupla dgn jaga solat 5 waktu..ramai or maybe semua org solat tp jaga tak jaga tuh, wallahua'lam..ingatan utk diri sendiri jugak, insya Allah=)
Thursday, August 25, 2005
gerak geri Ilahi...
tiba2 hari nih tergerak hati nak YM al!n..just try my luck sbb terasa lama sgt x borak panjang ngan dia..rindu nak bercerita n bergelak...after a while i received mail alert- a frenster msg from her, the same al!n..so dengan blurnya aku tanya
y: apekemenda ko kasi frenster msg nih
a: yela
a: cari kau
y: hmm?
y: cari aku??
a: a ah
y: bukan dah jumpe ke nih?
alin: aku kasi sebelum kau tegur kat ym nih
y: haa?? series?
y: tipu aa
a: adala beberapa minit sebelum
a: series!!!
a: aku ingat kau tego sebab dapat mesej
y: ko mmg carik aku lin?
a: kekekeke
y: oh my
a: cari sebab lama tak jumpa
a: :((
y:(i said sumthing)
a: huih mestila
y: alin...i'm touched
n what's in her msg? hmmmm, i think i wanna keep it to myself =) but i thank her soo much for the thot...
cerita lain pulak..pasal abah..slame kat sini, mmg jarang dpt cakap dgn abah sebab slalu xde kat rumah..aku pun xdela rajin mana nak call hanphone abah, stakat kirim salam n bertanya kabar mase cakap ngan ma..tp satu hari rasa teringin sgt2 nak dengar suara dia..siap pesan mintak ma bgtau kalu abah dah sampai rumah..tp ibuku terlupa jua:p
the next day, aku call jeh hanphone abah sebab rasa nak berckp jugak dgn abah..dah penat bergelak, abah bukak cerita...rupanya dia pelik apsal aku asik kasi sms yg sama berulang2 kali, ade tuh sampe 20++..alamak, ape dah jadik?? xkan hanphone aku rosak kot..rupa2nya mmg aku accidently terhantar sms kat abah sbb jarang lock keypad & mmg nama abah 1st dlm contact list..patutla abah penah sms 'kenapa' tp aku pulak ingatkan silap send... aisehhh, lps tuh barulah aku godek2 phone tuh carik cemana nak autolock keypad..hahaha, punyelahh tak betul aku nih :p
tapi perasan tak dalam 2 cerita nih, mmg Allah Maha Mengetahui? kannn? =)
tiba2 hari nih tergerak hati nak YM al!n..just try my luck sbb terasa lama sgt x borak panjang ngan dia..rindu nak bercerita n bergelak...after a while i received mail alert- a frenster msg from her, the same al!n..so dengan blurnya aku tanya
y: apekemenda ko kasi frenster msg nih
a: yela
a: cari kau
y: hmm?
y: cari aku??
a: a ah
y: bukan dah jumpe ke nih?
alin: aku kasi sebelum kau tegur kat ym nih
y: haa?? series?
y: tipu aa
a: adala beberapa minit sebelum
a: series!!!
a: aku ingat kau tego sebab dapat mesej
y: ko mmg carik aku lin?
a: kekekeke
y: oh my
a: cari sebab lama tak jumpa
a: :((
y:(i said sumthing)
a: huih mestila
y: alin...i'm touched
n what's in her msg? hmmmm, i think i wanna keep it to myself =) but i thank her soo much for the thot...
cerita lain pulak..pasal abah..slame kat sini, mmg jarang dpt cakap dgn abah sebab slalu xde kat rumah..aku pun xdela rajin mana nak call hanphone abah, stakat kirim salam n bertanya kabar mase cakap ngan ma..tp satu hari rasa teringin sgt2 nak dengar suara dia..siap pesan mintak ma bgtau kalu abah dah sampai rumah..tp ibuku terlupa jua:p
the next day, aku call jeh hanphone abah sebab rasa nak berckp jugak dgn abah..dah penat bergelak, abah bukak cerita...rupanya dia pelik apsal aku asik kasi sms yg sama berulang2 kali, ade tuh sampe 20++..alamak, ape dah jadik?? xkan hanphone aku rosak kot..rupa2nya mmg aku accidently terhantar sms kat abah sbb jarang lock keypad & mmg nama abah 1st dlm contact list..patutla abah penah sms 'kenapa' tp aku pulak ingatkan silap send... aisehhh, lps tuh barulah aku godek2 phone tuh carik cemana nak autolock keypad..hahaha, punyelahh tak betul aku nih :p
tapi perasan tak dalam 2 cerita nih, mmg Allah Maha Mengetahui? kannn? =)
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Monday, August 22, 2005
warning: sesapa yg rasa akan menyampah bile baca nih, xyah continue baca..x kisah pun:p
warghh, jelesnye..jelesnye!!! argh, aku dengki..nak jugak nak jugak..hohohohoh...tertekan nye mcm nih...sedih aa:(
apesal??
sebab adik dpt bola basketball dr abg long utk b'day dia...huwaaaa, nak luruh jantung aku bile dia bgtau...tahap jeles x ingat campur sedih sbb nak jugak..nike plak tuh, berganda la jelesnye aku. adoii abg long, adikmu yg nih pun nak jugak :((
adik mmg bijak nak buat aku jeles & 'sakit ati'. tahula dia baru nak berjinak2, tp aku yg main evry week(yelah tahap beginner jeh:p) xde pun dapat..arghh, tak aci tak aci!! sedih aa mcm nih..huhuhuhu, nak jugakk =(( *muka monyok sbb x puas hati*
warghh, jelesnye..jelesnye!!! argh, aku dengki..nak jugak nak jugak..hohohohoh...tertekan nye mcm nih...sedih aa:(
apesal??
sebab adik dpt bola basketball dr abg long utk b'day dia...huwaaaa, nak luruh jantung aku bile dia bgtau...tahap jeles x ingat campur sedih sbb nak jugak..nike plak tuh, berganda la jelesnye aku. adoii abg long, adikmu yg nih pun nak jugak :((
adik mmg bijak nak buat aku jeles & 'sakit ati'. tahula dia baru nak berjinak2, tp aku yg main evry week(yelah tahap beginner jeh:p) xde pun dapat..arghh, tak aci tak aci!! sedih aa mcm nih..huhuhuhu, nak jugakk =(( *muka monyok sbb x puas hati*
Sunday, August 21, 2005
one of the days...
neurological rotation, hadnt meet the consultant yet coz i was sick on monday. around 9am, went to join our doctor doing lumbar puncture a.ka amik air tulang belakang. me n my partner stood at the edge of the bed & observed him doing the procedures. for the 1st timer, i braved my soul for this as i wasnt fancy of anything to do with the spine...hmm, it didnt go well & took longer time than expected. the doctor was up to his 3rd attempt & that poor lady had involuntary jerks twice coz the needle hit the nerves..that sudden reactions got me. lightheaded, running heartbeat & cold hands...fortunately(or unfortunately?), i've had similar experiences 4 years ago & i knew i was about to faint . recited selawat & hoped to feel better. it wasnt long tho coz i decided to leave the room. went to the toilet & looked into the mirror. pucat gile muka. pakai pulak tudung putih. tried not to panic, i sat down & waited for it to settle a bit. after a glass of water, sneaked into the room again but left after a few minutes. heh, still lightheaded:((
the doctor gave up after his 3rd attempt & called for anaesthetist to re-perfom the lumbar puncture. it was after half an hour when he came & i decided to give myself another chance. alhamdulillah, with selawat & some doa, i managed to watch the whole procedures, tho there were times when i looked elsewhere but the patient's back... but i'm pretty sure i was a-ok by then.
the consultant. after introducing myself, stood next to him while waiting for the rest of the team. so when he turned to me and ask..
'are you alright?'
i was stunned. the next thing i said
'yeah, er why?' ( cant think of anything more decent to say)
but after that, i told him briefly about the incidence. ohh well, small gestures never fail to touch my heart=)
yup, i've had similar experiences with i-am-about-to-faint years ago while doing CAS in IB course. twice with the 1st one i could even see the polka-dot black & white before my eyes.. but for both occasions, my defenses were lacking breakfast (or literally hungry :p) & strained too much. and for a few times being in the theatre room this year, i did ok...so maybe this was just one of the days...
another story altogether, in dr Botha's. heheh, he always feed us with non-medico-stories before the tutes. so this time it was about his daughter who failed to impress him after 8 years of piano lessons.he claimed she's not putting her effort in it & decided to be critical on her...as usual, everyone had their say & we had mixed response. critical vs diplomatic mostly..for my turn
me: yup, i would be critical..
him: are you (my name)? you would be critical? did your parents be critical on you?
me: ohh no they are not, but i would for my child.. (hmmm come to think of this again, they are critical in diff way,hehe)
later i continued " i agree with (my other fren's name)..i mean it depends on her effort. if she really put much effort but still couldnt do best, i wouldnt really mind but if not, then i'll be critical" then i let the rest do their talking..
"i like you, (my name). you are strict. and also (my 2 male frens' names)..bla bla bla"
errk hehehe, i think i'm being plain honest here...its either all or nothing ;)
neurological rotation, hadnt meet the consultant yet coz i was sick on monday. around 9am, went to join our doctor doing lumbar puncture a.ka amik air tulang belakang. me n my partner stood at the edge of the bed & observed him doing the procedures. for the 1st timer, i braved my soul for this as i wasnt fancy of anything to do with the spine...hmm, it didnt go well & took longer time than expected. the doctor was up to his 3rd attempt & that poor lady had involuntary jerks twice coz the needle hit the nerves..that sudden reactions got me. lightheaded, running heartbeat & cold hands...fortunately(or unfortunately?), i've had similar experiences 4 years ago & i knew i was about to faint . recited selawat & hoped to feel better. it wasnt long tho coz i decided to leave the room. went to the toilet & looked into the mirror. pucat gile muka. pakai pulak tudung putih. tried not to panic, i sat down & waited for it to settle a bit. after a glass of water, sneaked into the room again but left after a few minutes. heh, still lightheaded:((
the doctor gave up after his 3rd attempt & called for anaesthetist to re-perfom the lumbar puncture. it was after half an hour when he came & i decided to give myself another chance. alhamdulillah, with selawat & some doa, i managed to watch the whole procedures, tho there were times when i looked elsewhere but the patient's back... but i'm pretty sure i was a-ok by then.
the consultant. after introducing myself, stood next to him while waiting for the rest of the team. so when he turned to me and ask..
'are you alright?'
i was stunned. the next thing i said
'yeah, er why?' ( cant think of anything more decent to say)
but after that, i told him briefly about the incidence. ohh well, small gestures never fail to touch my heart=)
yup, i've had similar experiences with i-am-about-to-faint years ago while doing CAS in IB course. twice with the 1st one i could even see the polka-dot black & white before my eyes.. but for both occasions, my defenses were lacking breakfast (or literally hungry :p) & strained too much. and for a few times being in the theatre room this year, i did ok...so maybe this was just one of the days...
another story altogether, in dr Botha's. heheh, he always feed us with non-medico-stories before the tutes. so this time it was about his daughter who failed to impress him after 8 years of piano lessons.he claimed she's not putting her effort in it & decided to be critical on her...as usual, everyone had their say & we had mixed response. critical vs diplomatic mostly..for my turn
me: yup, i would be critical..
him: are you (my name)? you would be critical? did your parents be critical on you?
me: ohh no they are not, but i would for my child.. (hmmm come to think of this again, they are critical in diff way,hehe)
later i continued " i agree with (my other fren's name)..i mean it depends on her effort. if she really put much effort but still couldnt do best, i wouldnt really mind but if not, then i'll be critical" then i let the rest do their talking..
"i like you, (my name). you are strict. and also (my 2 male frens' names)..bla bla bla"
errk hehehe, i think i'm being plain honest here...its either all or nothing ;)
Thursday, August 18, 2005
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