Foreign-Home Land

safe and sound, although days prior to departure were emotional ones. tears came down, uncontrollably.

as much as i'd wish to keep life personal, i just have to admit it's been very much trying for myself and i'm so vulnerable. that's why if you are to bring more confusion, sadness or anything like that to me in near future, just dont. thank you.

i wanna change myself. from a person who used to take note of everything to someone who's unconcerned. from a person who used to work hard to please other people and be nice to someone who put herself first. from a person who often lose her temper over something subtle-but-matters-to-her to someone who said to herself 'it's ok, it's not ur problem but theirs. if they think it's wrong they'll change but if they don't, its not ur fault. just, whatever'. from a person who used to believe in everything people said to someone who shrug off and remember that promises could never go beyond sweet talk.

ahh well.

even with list of things to deeply worry, grieve and be bitter about; at the end of the day i go on believing that everything's in HIS hands for HE is my ultimate HELP. i shall remain hopeful for the day my patience to be paid off. even if it doesnt reach there, i am hopeful to HIM. and that's all i need.