SUPRISE SUPRISE...

I suprised myself more than ever lately. For all sorts of reason.

When the instinct turned out to be true just now, i felt a tinge of dissapointment and betrayal but that was it. being used, more like. ahh well, it happened full stop. other experiences have been worse lately so why bother for this one? just that, be careful next time. people can appear all the same so it takes...i don't know really, what could be the best way to avoid it from happening (again)? just let it go away or wait for it to die slowly and never offer trust like a free gift. It bites sometimes.

The minute i set my mind to achieve the goal, i actually look forward to see whether i can make it or not. At first, it does look a bit impossible but i chose to take it as a challenge and alhamdulillah, i see the end coming. it is NOT for nothing and i am indeed pleased.

People come and go. People smirked and made fun. People compared and down-graded. whatever it is, to be able to hold to self is the ultimate way cos people, they are none other than different shades in the picture. they neither determine your sense of happiness nor perfect. They're entitled to do whatever they wish or say whatever they want to. It's not gonna bother me at all anymore.