Even just for one night,
I'm going to KL this friday.
Yeay!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Emotion
As my aunt texted me a while ago
' Crying is a form of release so go ahead...'
I succumb to, silently.
' Crying is a form of release so go ahead...'
I succumb to, silently.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Perks
#My 30-40 mins speed drive time to go back and fro work.. solitude and regain self.
#The MO whom i was once very anxious of is now my comfort in the ward.
#When i got to finish work by 530pm.
#When on call still allowed me some good sleep.
#When time flew fast and i forget.
#When i learnt something from each case.
#SMS and calls from the darlings.
# Pray hard to attend Zarin's wedding this coming May. I so wanna spend some time in town and do some shopping..well, kalu gaji dah masuk bolehla belanja kalian;)
Don't be afraid. You needn't slay the beast nor scale the entire mountain. That's not how it's done. You only need to move through today,..... Think of the distance you've already covered. Focus on your strengths. Let each new step remind you of your freedom. Let every breath you take remind you of your power. Seek out friends and guides; they're anxious to help. You're not alone. You're understood. This road has been walked before. Dance life's dance, just a few steps at a time, and in the wink of an eye you will wonder to yourself, "What beast, what mountain? Was I having a dream?"
~A Note~
#The MO whom i was once very anxious of is now my comfort in the ward.
#When i got to finish work by 530pm.
#When on call still allowed me some good sleep.
#When time flew fast and i forget.
#When i learnt something from each case.
#SMS and calls from the darlings.
# Pray hard to attend Zarin's wedding this coming May. I so wanna spend some time in town and do some shopping..well, kalu gaji dah masuk bolehla belanja kalian;)
Don't be afraid. You needn't slay the beast nor scale the entire mountain. That's not how it's done. You only need to move through today,..... Think of the distance you've already covered. Focus on your strengths. Let each new step remind you of your freedom. Let every breath you take remind you of your power. Seek out friends and guides; they're anxious to help. You're not alone. You're understood. This road has been walked before. Dance life's dance, just a few steps at a time, and in the wink of an eye you will wonder to yourself, "What beast, what mountain? Was I having a dream?"
~A Note~
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I'm confused
Scene 1
Student nurse: doktor, doktor orang mane ye?
Me: aaa? Orang sini laa..
Student nurse: oohhhh ye ke?? cakap tak macam org kelantan pun...
Me: ohhh ek? (hoh! penat2 jeee aku cakap kelantan selama nih...)
Scene 2
After a few exchange of polite gestures everytime i attended his mum,
Visitor: rasa macam pernah jumpa doktor sebelum nih..?
Me: *blank* aaaa?? tak tahu...*shrug* (ahhh, sudahh..)
Visitor: haah...macam pernah nampak before nih..tp tak sure kat mana...tp yg pasti satu tempat la..kat UTP
Me: aaa? ( aku nih UTP pun tak pernah jejak =p) tak tahu *sengih blur*
i'm sure it was not a pick-up line but honestly, i could not recognise..so i simply continued attending to the next patient.
Student nurse: doktor, doktor orang mane ye?
Me: aaa? Orang sini laa..
Student nurse: oohhhh ye ke?? cakap tak macam org kelantan pun...
Me: ohhh ek? (hoh! penat2 jeee aku cakap kelantan selama nih...)
Scene 2
After a few exchange of polite gestures everytime i attended his mum,
Visitor: rasa macam pernah jumpa doktor sebelum nih..?
Me: *blank* aaaa?? tak tahu...*shrug* (ahhh, sudahh..)
Visitor: haah...macam pernah nampak before nih..tp tak sure kat mana...tp yg pasti satu tempat la..kat UTP
Me: aaa? ( aku nih UTP pun tak pernah jejak =p) tak tahu *sengih blur*
i'm sure it was not a pick-up line but honestly, i could not recognise..so i simply continued attending to the next patient.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
A Note
Happiness, dear......, is what greases the wheels of life. It's also what opens the floodgates, marshals the forces, commands the elements, raises the sun, aligns the stars, beats your heart, heals what hurts, turns the page, makes new friends, finds true love, calls the shots, waves the wand, connects the dots, feeds your mind, frees your soul, rocks the world, and pays compound interest.
Yeah, so easy to forget.
Wild on,
The Universe
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Simple life
As promised, i'm here again.
What'd you like to know?
=)
Alhamdulillah, i'm coping well with my job. currently doing medical rotation, well-known for its' stressful workload and demanding commitment.
I have a lot of reason not to feel miserable though
-I am actually prepared for something worse than this, based on what i heard from others actually.
-Although i was jittery and foresaw bleak moments before starting, i remembered when i was about to do absailing and said to myself 'Just Do It!' before leaning back on the rope a few feets away from the ground.
-My break between graduation and work was well spent so i have no complaint of not having enough holiday and such. Family and friends, my treasured gifts.
- There were humble patients that soften my hearts and supportive easy-going colleagues that make the routine a bearable one.
-I do learn a lot to which i have to keep on doing.
No,
It's not that i did not cry out of despair for being bullied.
It's not that i never question myself why not other job, once.
It's not that i know most of the things and never feel hopeless.
It's not that i'm ignorant of the politics and hierarchy.
It's not that i always leave for home on time.
But i choose to ignore those things and take some time to feel happy with little things. Also, i choose to start a new day every day. Most importantly, i choose to fulfill my job Lillahita'ala and not for anyone else. I tried my best everyday and that suffices.
Doesnt life works that way?
We'll never get everything we want in life but it's our choice to dwell or to move forward. I had my share of earlier so i know how deep it will bring us down.
The only thing that keeps me on the ground is my faith in Allah as only He who will always be there for me and i have seen it happened before my eyes for so many times.
Alhamdulillah.
What'd you like to know?
=)
Alhamdulillah, i'm coping well with my job. currently doing medical rotation, well-known for its' stressful workload and demanding commitment.
I have a lot of reason not to feel miserable though
-I am actually prepared for something worse than this, based on what i heard from others actually.
-Although i was jittery and foresaw bleak moments before starting, i remembered when i was about to do absailing and said to myself 'Just Do It!' before leaning back on the rope a few feets away from the ground.
-My break between graduation and work was well spent so i have no complaint of not having enough holiday and such. Family and friends, my treasured gifts.
- There were humble patients that soften my hearts and supportive easy-going colleagues that make the routine a bearable one.
-I do learn a lot to which i have to keep on doing.
No,
It's not that i did not cry out of despair for being bullied.
It's not that i never question myself why not other job, once.
It's not that i know most of the things and never feel hopeless.
It's not that i'm ignorant of the politics and hierarchy.
It's not that i always leave for home on time.
But i choose to ignore those things and take some time to feel happy with little things. Also, i choose to start a new day every day. Most importantly, i choose to fulfill my job Lillahita'ala and not for anyone else. I tried my best everyday and that suffices.
Doesnt life works that way?
We'll never get everything we want in life but it's our choice to dwell or to move forward. I had my share of earlier so i know how deep it will bring us down.
The only thing that keeps me on the ground is my faith in Allah as only He who will always be there for me and i have seen it happened before my eyes for so many times.
Alhamdulillah.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Sweet sorrow...
i also didnt see this coming but i decided to give tis space a rest..i could not point out to a single reason why, but i hope i would make it here again...
as i am flawed, i seek for forgiveness if i hurt anyone's feeling or ego thru my words...
i hope we could still keep in touch. i'll be an sms/phonecall/email away...
darling honey, pls keep me updated (and excited) about OTH...i owe u that one!
Kenapa aku diuji?
“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan ; “Kami terlah beriman,” sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yg dusta.” -Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3.
Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216.
Kenapa ujian seberat ini?
“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286.
Kenapa rasa kecewa?
“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman.” Surah Al-Imran ayat 139.
Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?
“Wahai orang-orang yg beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yg berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih drpd kesabaran musuh (di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahan di daerah-daerah sempadan) seta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan).” -Surah Al-Imran ayat 200.
“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada org-org yg khusyuk.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45.
Apa yg aku dapat dari semua ini?
“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli drpd org-org Mukmin, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka..” -Surah At-Taubah ayat 111.
Kepada siapa aku berharap?
“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drpd-Nya. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal.” Surah At-Taubah ayat 129.
Aku dah tak dapat bertahan lagi!
“…dan janganlah kamu berputus asa drpd rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa drpd rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.” Surah Yusuf ayat 12.
as i am flawed, i seek for forgiveness if i hurt anyone's feeling or ego thru my words...
i hope we could still keep in touch. i'll be an sms/phonecall/email away...
darling honey, pls keep me updated (and excited) about OTH...i owe u that one!
Kenapa aku diuji?
“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan ; “Kami terlah beriman,” sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yg dusta.” -Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3.
Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216.
Kenapa ujian seberat ini?
“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286.
Kenapa rasa kecewa?
“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman.” Surah Al-Imran ayat 139.
Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?
“Wahai orang-orang yg beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yg berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih drpd kesabaran musuh (di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahan di daerah-daerah sempadan) seta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan).” -Surah Al-Imran ayat 200.
“Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada org-org yg khusyuk.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45.
Apa yg aku dapat dari semua ini?
“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli drpd org-org Mukmin, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka..” -Surah At-Taubah ayat 111.
Kepada siapa aku berharap?
“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drpd-Nya. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal.” Surah At-Taubah ayat 129.
Aku dah tak dapat bertahan lagi!
“…dan janganlah kamu berputus asa drpd rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa drpd rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.” Surah Yusuf ayat 12.
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