* home and away*

hmm, off to Bendigo for 2 weeks of rural placement.. n this pc won't be around coz it need to be fixed up ,huhuhu..updates later...

*sarcastic?*
i'm no good in any long distance communication..*boohooo!* can't think well most of the time and end up worrying others..*shrug* to u, sorry for being insensitive ;) and much thanks for ur patience..

*ATAS NASI ADE KERABU*

"pandai buat nasi kerabu kelantan? meh kita buat. k ida alice st"...heheh, aku bukak sms nih mase kat dlm library..trase cam nak melompat2 jeh kat situ!!tunjuk sms tuh kat zila*sengih* at last, merasa jugak dia nak mkn kat sini after so many times mintak aku buat..aiyo, aku kat umah pegi beli nasi kerabu kat kedai jeh, mane nak buat sendri..
called my mum nak tanye sket2 resepi, sbb k ida pun gune resepi inte ade rnet...heheh, cane nak kasi sedap eh kalu xde budu??hahahha...on that day, i was the 2nd chef aka food-tester..heaps of fun, with me trying to annoy them saying 'ehh, kena halus lagi potong timun tuh, tebal sgt nih"(knowing that i couldnt do it either..lol)..wohhh, baru aku tahu yg k ida mengidam rupenye,patutlahh:p
tadaaa..

lama nak siap masak mmg berbaloi dgn 2 rounds of nasi kerabu..how did it taste???burpppss!!!heheh...mmg kaw aaa!! tapi tobat kalu aku sesorang nak buat mmg xkan jadik...

*weekend*

headed to DFO after PCL for window shopping.. huhuhuh, tempted to buy a few things on the sale racks, but i'll wait for another few months:p

saturday.. video-exercise prior to PCL discussion..we managed to go through the whole lot of cases while catching up with the opening of olympia.. then went to the library, searching for SPC material.. nite, 5 of us went to Bismi..kedai mamak kat city..what did i have for dinner?? briyani (shared with zila) 1/2 fish fry, plain roti, tandoori and teh tarik..heh, i wouldnt dream to eat that lot in malaysia,*wink2* later, had Baiti in my room and we talked through the nite untill 4 am..kak sms-ed me with the AF2 results at 2am..yeayy!!*semusim*

sunday.. woke up with Syima bugging me about the AF2 stuff, and got ready to go to the sports rec..at last, basketball!!! horrayy, we started with only 6 ppl and after 10 mins, i was pretty sure that my chest's gonna burst..that explained how long since i dribbled the ball (amateurly of course)..hohoho, but of course all the excitement wasn't comparable to the college years..where we used to team up every evening..pretended to run back and forth in the court..laughed at our own's clumsiness.. and cheered like no one else's there ...once we had to get the ball off the rim, ~lol~ yeah, frenship was created there! later, went to beddoe mosque and moriah for evening tea,kekeke..dozed off for an hour on the sofa b4 we headed home..

now, trying to do some work for my midsem next week..and tomorrow 'll resume back the wake-up duty..hehehhe

*FEELING GOOD*

It comes with a suprise..bunches of reason for that..maybe its the mended frenships, maybe its the shared stories (be strong girl!! i know u r)..or maybe its the new confidant ..needless to say that i'm grateful for any of those..

* SEMUSIM*
Semuanya telah terjadi
Cintaku telah pergi
Dan kini kusendiri
Tanpa dirimu lagi

Tak mudah menepis cerita indah...

*Semusim telah kulalui
Telah kulewati tanpa dirimu
Tetapi bayang wajahmu
Masih tersimpan di hati

Tak pernah kubayangkan
Kau putuskan cintaku
Ku cuba membuangkang
Semua tentang dirimu

Tak mudah bagiku melupakanmu...


*EPILOG CINTA DARI BROMLEY*

Kau tersenyum manja
Menyatakan hasrat kepadaku
Kau kata kau cinta
Cinta pertama kepadaku
Ku hampir tergoda
Bergelora dalam kalbu
Kau bukan untukku
Kau dan aku tak mungkin berpadu

Nun di sana
Beri beribu batu
Kau kutinggalkan bersama hatimu
Nun di sana
Kau meratap pilu
Satu masa nanti
Kau akan mengerti
Apa maksudku
Kini kau menanti
Harapanmu abadi terhadapku
Kau coretkan lagi
Rahsia hatimu kepadaku
Ku doakan dikau
Bertemu seorang teman sejati
Yang satu aliran
Satu kepercayaan
Aduhai Kathy



*MEMORY*
Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her mem'ry?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Mem'ry
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
Life was beautiful then
I remember
The time I knew what happiness was
Let the mem'ry live again

Ev'ry street lamp
Seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And a street lamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new life will begin

Burnt out ends of smokey days
The stale cold smell of morning
The street lamp dies
Another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with my mem'ry
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is
Look a new day has begun ...


*BERHENTI BERHARAP*


Tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan

Aku pulang.. Tanpa dendam..Kuterima kekalahanku
Aku pulang..Tanpa dendam..Kusalutkan kemenanganmu

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Warning: lagu2 nih tiada kaitan dgn yang hidup mahupun yg mati...enjoy!

* no regret*

hmm, ade stengah2 benda tuh kite buat sbb kite rasa thats the only solution we have, at least utk masa tuh.. benda yg kite x tahu akan tolong solve the problem ke tak ..maybe akan buat org kecik hati ngan kite..or even worse akan berkerat arang-rotan bile dia tahu kenapa..tapi kite dah nekad..nekad sbb kite pun time tuh rasa hopeless.. so kita buat jeh benda tuh..*bismillah*

after some time ( is half a year justified here??!!), kite trase dah okeh balik..time tuh all the devilish thought dah ilang..but no regret dgn ape yg kite dah buat dulu ..sbb kite tahu kalu kite x buat..things may get worse *shrug* at least on our side...so kite decide nak undo benda yg kite buat dulu..hmm, doubtful jugak as how org akan react bile dia realise ape yg kite dah buat..tapi kite undo jugak *nervous*

hohoho, of course kalu x pandai nak cover akan kantoi, big time!! org akan realise and question balik..tapi kite kasi masa utk digest...biarlah ape org nak pikir..sbb time tuh pun mmg x pecaya yg kite ada gut nak undo things..nyeheheh! bile rasa dah ready, slowly open up and be sincere..ckp elok2 tapi still refuse to explain the reason behind it.. of course org akan x puas hati, terkilan sbb x tahu sebab musabab tapi demand overuled *sorry* suprisingly after that , half of the burden yg kite x sedar tgh kelek ke hulu-hilir slame nih dah xde..alhamdulilahh..mmgla kite x tahu ape yg org pk and rasa..guilty jugak bile ingat balik but yeah, no regret.. life's like that..and it's now or never!

*why biography?*

my 1st thot wasn't encouraging at all...i mean what will i get from those long boring narrative huh??! *naive*

my 1st encounter was 'the sealed nectar', life story of our beloved prophet Nabi Muhammad s.a.w..keen to look for that book after seeing the title in H@nin's frenster..took quite a few days to finish it actually for i had my midsem exam coming at that time..but all in all, thumbs up to the author!! i read...i learnt..i understand...hmm, mmg kena aa timing sbb time tuh pun tgh ade sket identity-crisis..Allah nak tolong aku..alhamdulilahh..i wept through the last few pages...i wish kalu ade translated in malay, nak kasi present utk abah... it corrected the misconception and answered the confusion bout certain things..and it need not a genius to read till the last page ;=)

then its 'road to mecca'..buku nih aku jumpe mase tgh carik2 buku the sealed nectar tp baru sem nih sempat nak pinjam..heh, another thumbs-up! jewish journalist who travelled to middle east, then later on revert to islam...masya Allahh.. cite dia mmg inspiring aa..and made me felt grateful sgt2 born as a muslim..alhamdulilahh.. his observation about muslim..and the islamic environment wat aku trase nak travel ke sana..;=) hahah, sesape yg interested psl history pun okeh gak kalu nak baca..tp aku sendri pun susah nak concentrate bile cite bab2 tuh..hahah...nvm, there' s more to learn...

next in the list..the beautiful mind...bought it during sale arituh kat campus bookshop..tapi x tahu aa bile nak start.. byk lagi keje lain nak kena buat..midsem pun lagi 3 weeks,hohoho!! xpe2.. weekend2 pun leh layan gak, kan??

*confused?*

hmm.. home alone now, not too bad coz in my hand are two story book ...well, its not about the books, but my lil conversation this morning

abc: hehe, yatt. aku dah tgk dah blog ko
me: ???? ( mouth wide open)haaa???
abc: haah, smalam kan bukak blog kwn ko tuh..pastu ade link..xyz ckp' cube teka blog sape nih'..'yatt eh?hehe
me: *gulp*,hoho!!
abc: hahahha, tuh aa..aku tgk 'kacangbotol'..hehehhe..tp aku x baca..aku tgk skali lalu jeh..jgn risau
me: hehe, x kisahh..(ye ke!?) x kisah kalu jumpe tapi kenapa cakapp?!!!(huhuhuhu!*head down*)

my say: a pinch of upset..ntahla, i dun mind ppl linking to my blog and others 'accidently' found out, but not this way..not when someone kind-heartedly pointed it out..huhuhu!! maybe i'm not ready for an 'announcement' even to my own mates here..darn!

*inhale..exhale..inhale..exhale* okeh, knowing that storing all gruesome and disagreement inside myself does no good for any relationship, better to say it out rite? talk things out nicely and everything will be fine..hmmm*shrug*

*road to mecca*

" we turn toward the Kaaba, God's holy temple in MEcca, knowing that the faces or all Muslims, wherever they may be, are turned to it in prayer, and that we are like one body, with Him as the center of our thoughts. Fisrt we stand upright and recite from Holy KOran, remembering that this is His word, given to man that he may be upright and steadfast in life. then we say, " God is the Greatest," reminding ourselves that no one deserves to be worshipped but Him; and bow down deep becasue we honour Him above all, and praise his power and glory. Thereafetr we prostrate ourselves on our foreheads, because we feel that we are dust and nothingness before HIm, and He is the Creator and Sustainer on high. Then we lift our faces from the ground and remain sitting, praying tha He forgive aour sins and bestow His grace upon us. and guide us aright, and give us health and sustenance. Then we again prostrate ourselves on the ground and touch the dust with our forehad before the might and the glory of the One. After that, we remain sitting and pray that He bless the Prophet Muhammad who brought His message to us, just as He blesses the earlier Prophets, and that He bless us as well, and all those who follow the right guidance; and we ask HIme to give us of the good of this world and of the good of the world to com. IN the end we turn our heads to the right and to the left, saying " Peace and teh grace of aGod be upon you,"- and thus greet all who are righteous, wherever tehy may be"

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" it was not the Muslim that had made Islam great : it was Islam that had made Muslim great. But as soon as their faith became habit and ceased to be a programme of life, the be consciouly pursued, the creative impulse that underlay their civilisation waned and gradually gave wat to indolence, sterility and cultural decay"

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"if water stands motionless in pool, it becomes stale, muddy and foul; only when it moves and flows does it remain clear"