rezeki.

yesterday i'm supposed to meet nisa, my junior from school. been a long time since i last saw her. heh,Sapphire-ians;) my dorm-leader when i was in F5.our beds were next to each other. our shared stories(ahemm, ur cadet police pic reminded me of ur lil secret at that time :p)...
anyway, sms-ed her that morning to tell about the change of venue. replied saying that she cant some for some reason. so i proceed my plan to go out with my sis. i was walking towards the escalator after lunch, then sayup2 dgr nama dipanggil. err xkanla kot, mane ade janji ngan sesapa.with no hope to see anyone familiar, i looked over my shoulder.nisa, shu and another girl. eh apsal muka diorang??..cemana leh ade kat sini??. i laughed & walked towards them. sambil2 salam, they mumbled sumthing about handphone, sms, misscalls...
-ehh, cemana korang ade kat sini..kate x jadik(terkejut, rasa nak pengsan, blank!)
-haaa, tuhla nak ckp...bleh dtg tp apsal x angkat fon??sms pun x reply...
-wohohoho, fon tinggal kat rumah la..HAHAHAH!
-patutla..(continue membebel pasal misscall n sms)
-alamak..dah awak kate x jadik..saya pun tinggal la fon tuh kat rumah..ingat xde org nak contact..sorry2
-apelahh kak yati nih...penat pukul 9 drive pegi kedai top-up.
-hahahha, sorryy..lps dpt sms awak tuh, ingatkan dah betul2 x jadik..tinggalla fon kat rumah..
-haa, nih kenal x sape nih?
-*sengih
-azie.haa, tuhla org siap2 dah sms bgtau sape yg dtg sape x dtg..bla bla bla(sambung bebel la tuh:p)

what can i say..one of the days. i dont normally go out without my hanfon just in case of anything. feeling rather bad, i made up by joining them for a while. tapi 15 mins, mane cukup nak borak :( still, i'm grateful.

rezeki.

i dont look happy.i am not happy. bitter. very bitter, indeed. few times i broke down into tears & feeling better after that. i suprised myself for not being strong & off-control. hmmm, they asked for the reasons but nothing came out from me. i kept way too much to myself. THINGS.this and that. let them out, tell me how??

mid-of-the-year was never good time for me. when things were falling down on me.when ppl messed around with me, testing my patience. when i couldnt accept the change around me. when all the last mins plan screwed me up, leaving me off-guard & feeling crappy.

and i cried.

dulu2 ade dua jeh, kl n klate.skang nih dah tambah satu, kedah.hohoho,pening pala!

klate.duduk rumah.mls nak kuar sbb xde kawan:(( oklah, aku akan kuar umah ikut parents pegi memana.itu x payah disuruh, mmg akan volunteer nak ikut. lain2, ngadap tv takpun pc. lain2 lagi, tolong buat kerja rumah takpun buang masa mengelamun..tp x penah rasa boring.

kl.best. panjang langkah.public transport la. misi utama nak hang out with frens xpun ngan famili.byk benda aku bleh buat.tgk movie.borak2.shopping.mkn2.even kuar sorang2 pun aku x kisah.duduk rumah melayan sin chan, best jugak!eheh, budak itu:p

kedah. not familiar.but i've got my newly-wed guardian angel there.eheh, another place to be :p

hmm, cuti makin trase kejap jeh:p

when harry meet sally. love this movie. for me, it is something & true.meaningful words in it;)

that.is what i've alwanted to have in my life.since i was in high school, keep on telling ppl about the wish.some ppl ridicule me,heheh .in KMB, that became one of the topic of discussion among us in F210.heated. while the rest disagree with the thought, i still said it is possible.*shrug*

oh well...i am shallow, maybe;) but life, u can never tell;)

"haaa...dah jatuh cite?"
"eh? sape?"(blur!)
"AF lerr.."
(still blur!)"hahahhha.."

lps 2 3 hari dok tgk tv...tgk iklan...makan x kenyang, tido x lena...ohhh, baru pahamm!!hahahhaa, manelah nak tahu:p

benda paling x best kat dapur>>minyak...

alkisah nak jadik cite...tgh prepare dinner kat dapur,sorang2..sambil tuh seronokla nyanyi2.. i have a dream, a song to sing,lalalala...(x hapal lirik pun!) dlm dok ulang lagu tuh..tgn kanan tgh angkat kuali kecik penuh ngan minyak..nak letak atas dapur..

(tgh2 nyanyi) eh, eh apsal goyang...kuali tuh cam nak terbalik dannn....mmg terbalik pun..abis minyak tumpah atas lantai...x sempat nak buat ape:(

abisla kena marah ngan ma,huhuhuhu ...sib baik minyak x panas..kalu tak, alahaiii! rupanya kuali tuh mmg x stabil, kena pegang dua belah tgn..hohohoho

org tua2 dah kata jgn nyanyi kat dapur, degil!!:p

simple tapi meriah.sgt meriah.alhamdulillah

best sebab most of the things buat sendri..drpd siapkan gift utk tetamu sampailah masak memasak...sume pakat wat keje, sedara mara ramai so bile gather mmg sronok..meriahh...

aku??eheheh, jadik assistant ciksu buat hiasan...utk kasi tetamu, utk hantaran n bunga pahar..haha, takat buat reben, bunga kecik2, lekatkan renda n manik2 tuh blehla;) task paling kritikal pun siapkan jambangan bunga pahar, cucuk sana sini:p dari awal pagi sampe lewat malam dok ngadap...new experience yg sgt best! sambil2 tuh busy jugak jd photographer n tumpang posing;)

tapi part yg aku n kak paling miss is buat keje2 kat khemah..angkat hidangan..layan tetamu..sbb time tuhla, nak keje ramai2, bergelak ketawa ramai2....uncles, aunties, cousins sume pakat tolong...mmg happening esp bile dah start ramai org dtg, kalut nak make sure hidangan siap n tetamu dilayan..macam2 aksi n lawak ade...semua muka serius, konon!...maybe we had good experience of that time kenduri uy!, so kali nih a bit terkilan sbb xleh turun padang sama2 ngan yg lain kali nih...okeh, dialog bile dah petang n org still ramai...

"wani2, kalu ade org dtg lagi lps nih..kite get ready nak tembak"
"heheheh..haa abg long..tuh ade org mari.."
"okehh, (aksi acukan senapang kat tetamu)"

adoi,boleh mcm tuh???heheh, yg surenye mmg best kalu dpt join diorg buat keje kat bawah khemah..eventho pancit gile bile dah habis majlis..x kisah asalkan seronok;)

part paling touching semasa membaca doa...bila tok uda keluarkan sekeping kertas bertulisan jawi...doa yg dikarang sendri. special utk majlis n pengantin...dibaca sendiri..di tengah2 doa, dia menangis..menangis dgn bersungguh2, mungkin teringat arwah tok ayah, ayah soh n ayah lah..sebak ...rasanya tuhla pelengkap majlis, jadi sgt2 bermakna...abah kata, tonggak kejayaan majlis kali nih terletak pada tok uda..bila dia sendiri menyinsing lengan baju utk melayan tetamu, yg lain pun bersemangat=)

"rasa2nya mane lagi best ...dok sini ke dok sana?"
"heheh, dua2 best..sana pun ok jeh"
"(diam agak lama)...selalunye, bile org suke dok kat satu2 tempat tuh..mesti ade someone special"
"(ternganga kejap)..lol!! hahahah, xde2..pandai jeh"
"heheheh..."

adeihh, sakit perut aku gelak...x terpk langsung!

all in all, aku happy dgn wedding nih...alhamdulillah!

till then...

Manusia hanya merancang, Allah yang menentukan..how true it is…after so many times when things didn't go my way, I gave up planning…whats up?? As of now, I'm going back to melb not on the July 16th, not even 15th but..on the 5th, ,huwaaa!! n there goes all my plan for the hols…when I went out of the MAS office at kl!a this morning, I was practically devastated & numb..no tears though …when I was supposed to be joyously happy for being home, I wasn"t …spent 3 hours while waiting for the next flight, trying to digest the whole thing… I shouldn"t complain at all, I know but…there"s no limit to greed, rite? so peon & fatma, I can't promise about our meeting..insya Allah, ade rezki jumpe nanti;)

Hows my journey itself? Not too bad.. I never enjoyed traveling alone..mixed feelings, I had… bored with no one to talk to or share the excitement…funny stories??I was offered (read: kronisme) to use the business lounge at kl!a where there'll be breakfast provided..free food, why not eh?? I was imagining nasi lemak, laksa watsnot..nyum nyum!! But tadaaa, nicely placed on the table were croissants, sandwishes and cereal…the last things I wanna have on my 1st day in malaysia..huhhuhuhu, nak KFC & Mc’D!!

De javu?? I saw melati on the tv (again, while waiting for the flight) n was like "heheh, my fren.." and later when I was looking for the boarding gate, heard someone called my name..blurred, I turned around only to see her grinning at me…I laughed at us!!

when i take things personally...demm!t!

bid farewell. 3 blokes that make my life in franston bearable. funny, considerate, thoughtful and laid back~they are. yeah, they are so nice to fall for..ahahahhahaha!! forget wat i said, but i do appreciate their presence, in a good way ok:p so much like big bro's...n one of them was pretty serious when saying " u take good care of urself.." hmm, C0rby case ( previous entry pls!) & we had this heated discussion in one of our class with the tutor..i didnt say much but errr, rather not to talk about it here..ask me if u may;) nway, thanks guys for d thot!

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happy birthday mum!! u r my sunshine, my only sunshine...love you so so much!!

bile aku membebel...
..sampai2 jeh rumah ahad nih, dah ade majlis kat umah cousin....x silap, merisik kot, ke tunang?? x sure aa,hehe ...aiyo, cousin merangkap close childhood fren dah nak kawen jugak ke?? bistu lps nih nak kawan ngan sape??huhuhuh..
..selang dua hari plak, another cousin nak tunang..pastu selang 2 hari, kenduri kawen kakak...1/7 kenduri kawen banting!tes, fizah kat kb...3/7 kenduri kawen junior monash, farah kat kl.....16/7 kenduri kawen another banting!tes, faeis kat melaka..not sure boleh pegi ke tak yg nih sbb ingat nak tukar flight balik oz on that day...hmmm, 'll see how thing goes...
...hahahha, byknye majlis makan2, ngap ngap!!