Takde ape nak dicerita...

maaf yer, kurang idea...itu ini begitu begini...penat hati.

Ignore this...

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssss

nak balik nak balik nak balikkkkkkkkkkkkk

nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephews nak tgk baby nephewsssssssss

(repeat till december comes!)

p/s...ingat nak tulis psl football freak dan sin-chan dulu dulu tp nantila kot..hati tak tenang sbb terlalu ingat rumah=(

*drum-roll pls*

finished class around 3.30pm, went to the locker to pick up my things. there's an sms from sis in law -anak sedara kita dah bertambah-. aikkkk, tuh jeh. tak ckp boy ke girl??saje la tuhhh...

decided to keep the suprise a little bit longer. i found myself grinning like kerang busuk sorang2 for the next 7 mins walk. how could i prolong the waiting and resist the tempation to call straight away, God knows. berdebar toksah nak kata laaa=p

reached home, quickly grabbed the phone. haih, awat yg taknak angkat tefon ntahh..last2 ma angkat..hehehe, tanya itu ini..barulah terkeluar soklan emas..

'hehe, boy ke girl ma?'

'boy la.hehehe'

'ahahaha, ye ke...aduiii'

then borak2 dgn kak kejap b4 battery habis..alaaaa=( tak sempat nak tanya details pun..so there i go, 4 nephews back home!! tell me how to wait for another 7 months before i can meet them all???!!

****recap this morning****
M: kak yatt, smalam sy mimpi kak yatt dpt anak sedara boy...
Y: hahaha, ye ke?? ape nihhh...dengki la tuhh..alahai malasnye nak pegi kelas..ponteng boleh tak?
Z: haaiii, sape yg nak bersalin sebenarnye nih??
Y: cehhh=p

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That's why we are sisters..

taktau nape tp hari nih rasa nakkk sgttt call rumah to check on my preggy sis. she's due next week for her 1st baby. ingat nak call dlm pukul 9mlm lps settle down, tp tak jadi padahal b4 tuh dah kuarkan siap2 calling card tp simpan balik dlm purse. bile dah occupied, terlupa kejap plan tuh. around 11 mlm bile dah nak tido, teringat balik kat dia. hmmm, nak turun bawah utk call dah malas plus err takut (ngaaaa!!), last2 call jelah gune hanfon. mase tuh dah siap dlm quilt utk tido.

call rumah, tak angkat..

call ma, tak angkat..

call kak, tak angkat..
(by now, i had a hunch that something's going on..)

call abah, aik angkat (padahal tak expect pun sbb slalu abah still takde kat rumah time2 mcm nih)..

tanye2, abah ckp dia kat hosp An-N!sa..kak dlm labour ward. heeee, rezeki!! i mean takdela expect utk dpt call time2 mcm nih kan. instinctively pulak tuh cos baru je pun borak dgn dia brape hari lepas. cakap dgn ma kejap pastu passed the phone to her. she already broke the water and having half-hourly contraction. heheh, warned her that its gonna be a LONGGG night and asked to selawat byk2...asked this and that, i was all excited...hmmm, shuldnt say this but i soooo wanna be with her now. dia ingatkan aku call sbb ma bgtau but nope, i hv my own instinct...
gifted to a sister.

12am: ahhhh, sudahh!! aku pulak yg tak boleh tido =D

What's Easter Sunday '06 all about...

we travel down here..

we played the mazes..
we wahhhh-ed and wohhh-ed at these sand sculptures...
we hopped onto the ferry and were entertained by these 'natural' dolphins =p

i so loved the invitation to be part of this road-trip..

i so loved listening to N's narration about her misfortune past few days in the car. she and her drama bits, me couldnt stop laughing;) and the laugh continued after an sms as we past Red H!ll...ngaaaaaa.

i so loved finding our way out in the mazes and posed to imitate the the expressions. oh yes, the temporary tatoo of fish. me=fish?? *shrug*

i so loved our little chat over nasi lemak and mee goreng in the garden, even if its just about how-to-make-ur-MILO-extra-sedap by S.

i so loved when we reasoned about how they maintained the sand sculptures if it rains.

i so loved when we tried to pose for Z but end up having candid pics during the ferry trip to Queenscl!ff island. lovely.

i so loved the moment we all rushed to the rail to witness first-hand experience of dolphin dance. what's the cheer again, N??=p

i so loved the juicy gossips and jokes we shared while waiting for our turn to pray.

i so loved the chilled nite in our room to enjoy the pics. all the expressive candids and joyous poses. fulfillingly happy.

i so loved the 13 hours that we spent together.

WONDERFUL GIRLFRIENDS, you are;)

Terba!k Untukmu..

Last week, T asked me to listen to this. most of the songs pass my ears unnoticed and unappreciated, but not the ones given by others...its habitual.

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

*Oh kini aku sadari
Ini salahku
Tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

Maafkanlah bila ku selalu
Membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
Kulakukan itu semua
Hanya untuk buatmu bahagia
Mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
Aku cuma ingin jadi
Terbaik Untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikansesungguhnya cintaku

' Brownies & Ice-cream...

...now that's best combo. that's all i'm looking for, my best combo. someone i can bring out the best in, and to bring out the best in me.'

'Maybe the perfect man wasnt real, but the perfect you is'..

'I realise you dont need an army to protect you. you dont let anybody close enough to hurt you in the first place'

'Everything always have two sides..'
- The Perfect Man movie-

No longer ..

yes peon, demi kamu aku tak lagi hiatus;) nahh, sumber bacaan sudah kembali...

1. Three names you go by
-N
-Y
-S

2. Three screen names you've had
-S
-C
-E

3. Three things you like bout yourself
-acceptance
-faith
-mediocre

4. Three things you don't like bout yourself
-quick temper
-insecure
-transient esteem issue

5. Three parts of your heritage (??????)
-malay
-malay
-siamese malay( yelah kot)

6. Three things that scare you (or mostly creeps you out)
-DARK
-ALONE
-DOG

7. Three of your everyday essential
-bed
-food
-good company

8. Three things you're wearing right now
-pyjama
-sapphire pendant
-thermal socks


9. Three of your favorite bands (or artist at the moment):
-none
-none
-none

10. Three of your favorite songs
-semusim
-because of you
-satu

11. Three new things you'd like to try in the next 12 months
-bungee jumping
-ski-ing
-be someone's

12. Three things you want in a relationship (love included in the package)
-dominant him
-dependant me
-sensitive us

13. Two truths and a lie
-i miss home
-i enjoy frenship
-lalalalala

14. Three people who have to take this quiz now or hv to treat me:p
-miss chuppa
-farina
-hani salim

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seems like aku bukan je ade telepathy dgn ma tp juga sis in law. baru plan nak call her later the day, sudah dpt sms bertanya kabar....
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HIATUS

maaf.

New chapter...

I'll be starting my paediatric rotation tomorrow for the next 9 weeks. best wishes, tips, words of wisdom, anything...most welcome=)

p/s: updated fotopages..

Ok tuan-tuan dan puan-puan...

Inilah dia antara bahan2 yg diperlukan utk menu tengah hari sabtu ini...(tambahan: beras, dessicated coconut, cili kering etc)
dalam masa taktau-brape-jam ini, chef kite A akan tunjukkan cara2 utk memasak ini..ini..ini..ini dan ini (alamak, banyaknyee nak kena prepare *pening pening*...)

tadaaaaaa, nasi kerabu version OZ dah siap..nampak lazaaatt kan?? jemput......tengokk=p

ehemm, dah dah jgn nak mintak resepi or suruh aku masak, ini chef A yang masak bukan chef Y ok...aku tukang potong bawang n kacau kuah kat dapur jeh...oh satu lagi

tukang makan banyak *sengihhh*

Recap...

...i manage to track down my big college sister, kak zue. she was in f5 when she took care of me, the crybaby first former *shame shame*. oh my, i can vividly picture her smiling face & remember how nice she was to me. at the same time of writing this, i'm emailing her=) was told that she's currently in Glasgow with her hubby n 2 daughters so there i go, 2 'instant nieces' . isnt it great??!!

...i had this funny yet beautiful dream last nite but i'm gonna kill myself first before i reveal it here. its funny cos the person's anynomous but beautiful cos lalalalalala..(annoyed? nasiblaaa=p) suprisingly also, the dream came in series cos everytime i unwillingly woke up from my sleep and slept back, it continued but in diff settings. not exaggerating but it seemed real,hehehe..

...lavish or not, we have 2 TV in our house. one downstairs in the living room and the smaller one(we bought to survive Franskton last year =p) is in the master bedroom. so last nite we decided to watch 'Freaky Fr!day' and cos of the wintery weather, i nicely tucked in the bed for some warmth while watching the movie. no its not a scary movie but family-comedy genre, really enjoyable movie and laughed my gut out. i was determined to watch the ending but around 10.15pm (i repeat 10.15pm not 11.15 or 12.15), decided to rest my eyes while waiting for the ad's to finish. yes, u guessed right, i missed the ending,huwaaaaaaaaaaaa... (this definitely should come top in the 7 weird list actually)

Some words

and it's getting more and more absurd
it's sad (so sad) so sad why can't we talk it over
oh it seems to me
sorry seems to be the hardest word...

i missed the fyp presentation but wish all the very best for the final exam. u'll make it and prayers go to u. have i thanked u for being a loyal confidante before? if not, here it is. thank u very much.

Freakingg ggeliiii...

Disclaimer: ini bukan cerita aku. aku hanyalah tukang sebar gossip/lawak ini..utk hiburan semata, tiada kaitan samada yg berada di melb mahupun di msia.

Akum, apa kabar. Suspen tak? Mamat mana la pulak yang email kat aku ni, kan?
Ini Abg [so-and-so], yang jumpa kat City ari tu masa Comm Game. Ingat? Yang sms tanya kg kat mana pastu [so-and-so] tak jawap tu....

Macam mana study? K? Abg doakan semuanya OK dan akan lulus exam dgn warna yg berterbangan........he,he,he.

Ini Abg nak attach gambar yang ari tu, pastu boleh tak tulis nama sorang2 & antar balik kat Abg? Abg dah lupa la nama adik2 Abg tu!

Slack betul dah berapa lama tunggu tak leh nak attach pulak, koman spana sungguh comp ni, mungkin line lambat agaknya, maklumlah dial-up bukan broadband.

Nantilah Abg cuba attach pada next mail, K?

p.s. Balas la, Jgn tak balas macam sms gak, K?

Take care, kirim salam semua kekawan,

Wassalam.

*jap, nak gelak icon YM...guling kiri kanan sambil hentak kaki*

ya Allah, pecah perut dahh mcm nih...nasibla bukan aku yg dapat email nih, one of the geng yg dapat tp aku ade di tempat kejadian mase tuh...masya Allah, rasa nak terrrmunnnttt pun ade *double-green face*

Once and for all

here u go, han!

How many school did i go to?
-Sek Keb Pula! Ch0nd0ng
-Sekolah Ser! Puter!

Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
None of those. i study when i the mood strike or i feel like studying, and stop when i'm tired or the mood wears off. i cant do last mins either cos i crack under pressure.

Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
A bit of both. Was more of teacher's pet during primary school, maybe because i was from the prominent family in the kampung. one of the important figures and known to most of the teachers.

highschool?? (hahaha, i bet most of my ssp fellow is giggling hard by now...) i'm not in warden's goodbook, thats a sure. i was mischiveous back then. i didnt bother to try to impress teachers, nor did i messed up with them. i was pretty loud (as in verbally loud, not abusively loud) and they often placed me to sit near the HIGH TABLE for dinner where all the prefect and warden on duty would be. konon2 tanak kasi aku bising la tuh, benciiiiii!! what else? nothing much really (kononnnn!)

same thing went for college years. mischiveous.

What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Often it involved Rec room where the tv was. shessshhh!! i know i know, there's this incident unforgettable to those involved, what far!na referred as 'menamastekan c!k a!sah'..LOL LOL!! there's another incident happened on the last day of form dot-dot...this one i cant elaborate more cos promised my partners in crime to keep it secret. i tell u, this one was VERY VERY hillarious!!

Three subjects I enjoyed
-History..not really enjoyed as in memorised line by line in the textbook but it was more like gifted to do well during exam.
-Chemistry...
-Math..used to enjoy it but brain decided not to keep up with Add maths, so i gave up on this subject.

Three teachers that inspired me
-Puan Salma..once she made me cried and after that i vowed to score chem in IB. and i did.
-Dan!elle W!lk!ns...young obstetrician who memorised things like crazy.
-my mum...she's a teacher.

Promise to self

i shuldnt promised myself about what u call it melodramatic entry cos i'm about to break it.

i cant say sorry, can i? rite, it could've ended in a better way but nothing's worth mentioning now. i gather that what's said is said and i have to live with it. i'll try. after all i'm selfish, i can say hurtful things in a breeze and i have known that all along. thats why i dont deserve a lot of things and i'd rather be in my old shell. back 6 years ago.

this isnt ayat pancing to draw sympathy. this is just a writing to say that i know it could've ended in a better way. thats all.

Busy-BORED

u got me this time, n!sa;p

4 jobs i have in life
-student doctor
-domestic helper (when i'm on long holiday)
-babysitter to my baby nephews
-mum's escort (self-appointed, i am)

4 movies i can watch over and over
-Al! setan
-Soal hat!
-P Ramlee's
-L0ve actually


4 tv shows i love to watch (its actually i'd love to watch)
-CS!
-Oprah's sh0w
-Desperate housew!ves
-Gray's anatomy( err never watch a single show actually...)

4 places i've lived in
-Kelan+an
hometown. born and raised there. Yes, i know some ppl rolled their eyes when i introduced myself as a kelantanese. both my parents are from there as well and my childhood life was of typical kampung girl that i treasured very much.
-KL
spent my teen years over there since 12 years old in a boarding school . made a lot of frens for life. enjoy the youth spirit.
-Selang0r
the remaining 2 teen years. its in a college doing my pre-uni. another lot of frens for life and this place really toughen me.
-Melb0urne
where i am now and will be till end of next year, insya Allah. been living in the same house for the last 4 years and not planning to move out. this place witnessed the most of bitter-sweet memories that turn me into who i am now.

4 places i've been on vacation to
-Sydney
w!nter 2004. i love this place for its hustle bustle city.
-Gold coast
also w!nter 2004.wheee, had so much fun with the rides in the theme park n shopping spree.
-Tasmania
autumn 2005. girls vacation, something i've always enjoyed. laugh and terror, both we had.
-Ipoh
my auntie's place. i love being pampered by her as she doesnt have any daughter, long hours of movie marathon, shopping trip and jalan2 cari makan. we shared stories a lot too.

4 places i'd rather be in
-in a camp somewhere near the beach or mountain. had enough of indoor.
-Mecca and Madina. top of my vacation list before i start my career life.
-somewhere in UK/europe with my girl frens. i call this girls vacation.
-honestly? in my mum's arms =(

4 of my favourite food (easiest of all=p)
-laksa (any kind)
-nasi kerabu
-mee (any kind)
-yong tau fu

4 websites i visited daily
-bl0gsp0t
-link-ees
-fr!endster
-utusan onl!ne

4 victims to do this tag
-far!na
-han! sal!m
-azzahraa
-den!se
and anyone who's busy-BORED like me


>>>wise or worse? maybe its the latter, i have no idea really. an impromptu in nature, it comes with a high price.<<<

Reflection...

'I had always believed that my dad was the tough one. My mum didnt drive, she wouldnt open her front door after dark, and she hated confrontation of every kind. And because she didnt have a driving licence, because she was polite to rude waiters, because she slept with the light on, I was stupid enough to believe that my mother was a timid woman. Now i was about to learn that my mother had her own well of courage.'

'I knew that my father couldnt live without my mother. Her going first would have killed him. It would have robbed him of his main reason for living. and I always assumed that she could not survive without her. I was wrong'

..man and w!fe

Exhausted...

some time ago, i made a promise to myself not to have another melodramatic-self-pitying entry here. so, there i go. two lines of entry.