WHEN I WAS ABOUT
to sleep after non-stop yawn, A asked me a question..out of the blue moon. i was actually so sleepy and ready to doze off, but somehow this familiar question caught me up. i blurted some words, the usual ones when ppl asked me about it..it sounded easy and simple, but come to think of it..would i actually do as said? hmm, no idea..
this thing, put me into double personality..i can choose either to be positive or pessimist about it..most of the time, i keep the positive thought to myself, and saying out dismissive statement loud. no, nothing of sympathy-seeker but i learnt to live with no expectation...
back to the conversation with A and M..one question after another..in between, we laughed and teased each other..ok, more or so teasing me actually..haihh, that FedEx stuff was such an idea but nope, it wasnt at all like what they thought...very sure about that..
in the end when i could no longer resist the temptation to close my eyes, i said
"haaa korang kalu esok aku sedih ke..rasa nak nangis ke..jagalaa"
and when they asked why
"yelah..dok happy2 gelak2 nih, mesti lps tuh sedih..siap aa korang buat aku gelak byk2 mlm nih:p"
and today, i started to miss home. dah kata dahh..
POST-ENTRY (warning: self-obsessed entry, again?)...
she's like my sister and has always turn to her whenever i feel like telling someone about stuff..so when
me: aaa??? so yatt nih no bape yg tahu?
me: early birds??
sis: haah
me: flattered la mcm nih
sis: 2nd person to know..yg kat ____ ni la
me:*blushed*
sis: hehehe
me: sape 1st? nyebok nih
me: im soo sooo happy for u
sis: heheheh..thanx thanx..smlm overwhelmed tul rase..nervous
sis: baru tau smlm
me: sape yg 1st tau?
me: heheh jahat x yatt
sis: *smile*
sis: one of the girls..but not my _______..heheh
sis: tp jgn ckp diorg yatt tau dulu..kang abis kena marah..hehe
me: eh of course takkan
me: but being second is like..the sweetest thing
met: *smile*
sis: heheh..mula nk ckp dgn yatt dulu smlm..but mcm idle je
me: alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ye ke
sis: haah..heheheh
me: opss ...trase sgt2 flattered nih
sis: *Giggles: Hee Hee*
me: the thot that u actually thinking of me
me: *blushed*
sis: yes..i do think of u *wink*
me: *sis's name*, u surely know how to make me happy & feel good about myself
1st person she thought of telling the news? i'm deeply touched coz just when i thot...
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
BAJU RAYA OH BAJU RAYA
tergelak2 aku baca ape ma tulis..cant wait!
that was 2 days ago..yesterday another parcel arrived from a fren...hmmmm, somehow i feel pampered...
on another note, its my cousin who did the misscall last time....nyehnyehnyeh, shuld've guess but pardon my slow brain..so i know who to call/msg back when this happen again =)
tergelak2 aku baca ape ma tulis..cant wait!
that was 2 days ago..yesterday another parcel arrived from a fren...hmmmm, somehow i feel pampered...
on another note, its my cousin who did the misscall last time....nyehnyehnyeh, shuld've guess but pardon my slow brain..so i know who to call/msg back when this happen again =)
Sunday, October 23, 2005
LITTLE VOICE THAT WARM MY HEART
him-helloooo
me-hellooo, syak!r ke nih?
-hmm, sape nih?
-nih cik n*r,heheh..syakirrrrrrr..
-(him telling his papa)..cik n*r, cik n*r..bile nak datang ke malaysia?
- (???)ohh, hahahahahah..
me-syak!r dapat birthday card cikn*r kasi??
him-emmm dapat, yg gambar (x dgr sgt) tuh ke??
-aaa?? heheh,haah..dapat hadiah ape birthday?
-macam2...ade colour, story books, toys..
-wahhhhhhhh, banyaknye..toys ape dapat?
-macam2la... (mention a few names that i'm not familiar:p)
-dah x main ultraman ke??
-takkk..
-(cehh)..syak!r nak present ape from me?
-hmm, ape2 jeh..anything...tapi xnak baju dah
-hahahahhahhahha (dah pandai demand yeh budak nih!)
after terputus line
me-apesal k!r??
him-hihihihihi, battery habis.
-dah charge belum?
-belummmmm..malasss..hihihih
-hahahaha, adeke malasss..
him-harituh mase 1st month puasa(adei, ayat berbelit budak nih:p), syakir pengsan
me-haaa? ye ke..kat mana? skolah ke rumah?
-kat skola..syak!r x sedar 10 mins...pastu ade sorang budak tuh nama (ape ntah) kejut2 syakir..x bangun..lps tuh syak!r bangun
-(huh, betui ke tidak nih..ntah2 kelentong :p) heheh, ke syak!r tido??? knape pengsan? lapar ke?
-haah...jatuh atas lantai pun x sakit
-ohh,alahaiii...
me-huhuhu, c!k n*r x balik raya tau...x jumpe tok ma..xde makanan sedap2
him-haaaa?? ye keee...emmm,raya kat australia ke?
-haah,huhuhu..sedihhh nanti
-ye ke??? alaaaaa...
-tuhla nanti syak!r kena makan utk cikn*r tau..kena makan bla, bla, bla...ingat tuh
-(gelak comei)..banyaknyeeee..
-yelahh, cikn*r nak syakir makan sampai buncit..nanti kalu balik tgk syak!r x buncit, cikn*r tanye kenapa..
-alaaaaa, mana boleh buncit..hihihihi
him-ohh, nant! cikn*r datang ke malaysia ke kelantan??
me-(hahahahha!!) kelantan tuh kat malaysia la sayangg....
me-so u want either toys or storybooks for ur present?
him-haah, tapi tapi xnakla toys..yang macam...ape tuh??...barbie ke
-lol..barbie is for girl laaaa..adeke nak belikan dia barbie..
-(gelak comei lagi)
me-syak!r, syak!r bukak pose dgn ape?
him- hmm, (not so clear again)...
-haaa?? mkn ape tuh??
-(him asking his papa'papa,nak ckp sweet sour tuh ape?')
-ohh,sweet sour...heheh
him-ohh ye ke? hmmm, kalu boy lagi best laaa..
me-ehh ape pulakkk...cikn*r nak girl..syak!r kan dah ade syahman..kasila girl pulak..bolehla cikn*r belikan barbie utk dia...
-hehehehe, okla okla kite vote
-hahahhaah, nak vote? macam mana?
-kite votelah..kalu dapat boy ,haaa.. hihihih
oh dear....
him-helloooo
me-hellooo, syak!r ke nih?
-hmm, sape nih?
-nih cik n*r,heheh..syakirrrrrrr..
-(him telling his papa)..cik n*r, cik n*r..bile nak datang ke malaysia?
- (???)ohh, hahahahahah..
me-syak!r dapat birthday card cikn*r kasi??
him-emmm dapat, yg gambar (x dgr sgt) tuh ke??
-aaa?? heheh,haah..dapat hadiah ape birthday?
-macam2...ade colour, story books, toys..
-wahhhhhhhh, banyaknye..toys ape dapat?
-macam2la... (mention a few names that i'm not familiar:p)
-dah x main ultraman ke??
-takkk..
-(cehh)..syak!r nak present ape from me?
-hmm, ape2 jeh..anything...tapi xnak baju dah
-hahahahhahhahha (dah pandai demand yeh budak nih!)
after terputus line
me-apesal k!r??
him-hihihihihi, battery habis.
-dah charge belum?
-belummmmm..malasss..hihihih
-hahahaha, adeke malasss..
him-harituh mase 1st month puasa(adei, ayat berbelit budak nih:p), syakir pengsan
me-haaa? ye ke..kat mana? skolah ke rumah?
-kat skola..syak!r x sedar 10 mins...pastu ade sorang budak tuh nama (ape ntah) kejut2 syakir..x bangun..lps tuh syak!r bangun
-(huh, betui ke tidak nih..ntah2 kelentong :p) heheh, ke syak!r tido??? knape pengsan? lapar ke?
-haah...jatuh atas lantai pun x sakit
-ohh,alahaiii...
me-huhuhu, c!k n*r x balik raya tau...x jumpe tok ma..xde makanan sedap2
him-haaaa?? ye keee...emmm,raya kat australia ke?
-haah,huhuhu..sedihhh nanti
-ye ke??? alaaaaa...
-tuhla nanti syak!r kena makan utk cikn*r tau..kena makan bla, bla, bla...ingat tuh
-(gelak comei)..banyaknyeeee..
-yelahh, cikn*r nak syakir makan sampai buncit..nanti kalu balik tgk syak!r x buncit, cikn*r tanye kenapa..
-alaaaaa, mana boleh buncit..hihihihi
him-ohh, nant! cikn*r datang ke malaysia ke kelantan??
me-(hahahahha!!) kelantan tuh kat malaysia la sayangg....
me-so u want either toys or storybooks for ur present?
him-haah, tapi tapi xnakla toys..yang macam...ape tuh??...barbie ke
-lol..barbie is for girl laaaa..adeke nak belikan dia barbie..
-(gelak comei lagi)
me-syak!r, syak!r bukak pose dgn ape?
him- hmm, (not so clear again)...
-haaa?? mkn ape tuh??
-(him asking his papa'papa,nak ckp sweet sour tuh ape?')
-ohh,sweet sour...heheh
him-ohh ye ke? hmmm, kalu boy lagi best laaa..
me-ehh ape pulakkk...cikn*r nak girl..syak!r kan dah ade syahman..kasila girl pulak..bolehla cikn*r belikan barbie utk dia...
-hehehehe, okla okla kite vote
-hahahhaah, nak vote? macam mana?
-kite votelah..kalu dapat boy ,haaa.. hihihih
oh dear....
Saturday, October 22, 2005
THE SEVEN
7 things you plan to do before you die:
1.Sempurnakan rukun haji & ibadah umrah.
2.Be a good daughter to my parents and pamper them with unconditional love.
3.Get married,have my own kids(wont get confused with number this time:p) and lead a modest but happy family.
4.Specialise in *dunno yet* and keep the interest in medicine growing.
5.Travel around Europe and some other historical places.
6.Appreciate people and things around me.
7.Seek for forgiveness from Allah.
7 things i cannot do
1.Anything forbidden by syariah.
2.Pretend. never.
3.Accept any destructive remarks. i'll bark!
4.Draw pictures.Frustrating.
5.Look into the eyes when i'm angry/mad/sad.
6.Lay up in basketball. sadly.
7.Stay up late. At most is 2am, coz my brain just stop functioning.
7 things i can do
1.Call my mum just to hear her voice.
2.Admit my mistakes and say my apologies.
3.Give cold shoulder to ppl. yes, i am evil.
4.Shopping alone. did it a few times and hasnt really bothering me much.
5.Cook tomyam without using instant perencah *smug*
6.Be impulsive. for bad or good reasons.
7.Listen to people.
7 celebrities crushes (teng teng teng!!):
1.Ah Wai in "Flames" (chinese series back in 1994)
2.Ah Kin in "Cold Blood Warm Heart" (another chinese series, 1997)
3.R0syam Noor, hehehe..
4.Ak0 Mustapha, hehehe jugak
5.Hero in "All About Eve" (korean series)
6.Eric Bana in "Troy"
7.Errfahr!n Ahmad? Faizal Yusop. tak kenal? xpe, x glamer pun:p
7 often repeated words:
1.Takpe, ........
2.Aaaalamakk!!
3....pengsan...
4.Aaaa tak tau.
5.Hmmmm,...
6.ok,...
7.Ya Allah,..
7 things that attract me to the opposites:
1.Keep good track of solat 5 waktu.
2.Muka bersih. x perlu hensem.
3.Specky (peon!! does this ring a bell??hahaha)
4.These three ideal things.. no idea? nvm;)
5.Manage to handle me. you know what i mean;)
6.Good sense of humour.
7.Thoughtful, but not with typical sweet talk. iyek!
7 tags:
can i not? coz i think most of my list are either: done this/been tagged by others/busybees.
7 things you plan to do before you die:
1.Sempurnakan rukun haji & ibadah umrah.
2.Be a good daughter to my parents and pamper them with unconditional love.
3.Get married,have my own kids(wont get confused with number this time:p) and lead a modest but happy family.
4.Specialise in *dunno yet* and keep the interest in medicine growing.
5.Travel around Europe and some other historical places.
6.Appreciate people and things around me.
7.Seek for forgiveness from Allah.
7 things i cannot do
1.Anything forbidden by syariah.
2.Pretend. never.
3.Accept any destructive remarks. i'll bark!
4.Draw pictures.Frustrating.
5.Look into the eyes when i'm angry/mad/sad.
6.Lay up in basketball. sadly.
7.Stay up late. At most is 2am, coz my brain just stop functioning.
7 things i can do
1.Call my mum just to hear her voice.
2.Admit my mistakes and say my apologies.
3.Give cold shoulder to ppl. yes, i am evil.
4.Shopping alone. did it a few times and hasnt really bothering me much.
5.Cook tomyam without using instant perencah *smug*
6.Be impulsive. for bad or good reasons.
7.Listen to people.
7 celebrities crushes (teng teng teng!!):
1.Ah Wai in "Flames" (chinese series back in 1994)
2.Ah Kin in "Cold Blood Warm Heart" (another chinese series, 1997)
3.R0syam Noor, hehehe..
4.Ak0 Mustapha, hehehe jugak
5.Hero in "All About Eve" (korean series)
6.Eric Bana in "Troy"
7.Err
7 often repeated words:
1.Takpe, ........
2.Aaaalamakk!!
3....pengsan...
4.Aaaa tak tau.
5.Hmmmm,...
6.ok,...
7.Ya Allah,..
7 things that attract me to the opposites:
1.Keep good track of solat 5 waktu.
2.Muka bersih. x perlu hensem.
3.Specky (peon!! does this ring a bell??hahaha)
4.These three ideal things.. no idea? nvm;)
5.Manage to handle me. you know what i mean;)
6.Good sense of humour.
7.Thoughtful, but not with typical sweet talk. iyek!
7 tags:
can i not? coz i think most of my list are either: done this/been tagged by others/busybees.
IF THERE'S ONE WORD...
that will put me off, this is it: poyo. somehow, i have bad impression about this four letters. i mean, why on earth would u say something so destructive towards other ppl?? and yes ppl, i'll be very offended upon hearing it. i can either snap back or ignore u completely. yes, i can.
sensitive? hell yeah.
that will put me off, this is it: poyo. somehow, i have bad impression about this four letters. i mean, why on earth would u say something so destructive towards other ppl?? and yes ppl, i'll be very offended upon hearing it. i can either snap back or ignore u completely. yes, i can.
sensitive? hell yeah.
PSSTTT...
amidst my work, managed to exchange some juicy messages with my dearest tassie fren. courtesy of frenster;) and there i was, giggling and gasping...hahaha, this girl surely knows how to entertain me with her never-ending-stories-and-ramblings...she's so full of expression, if that explains my good laugh reading all those..and u wouldnt believe what we actually ranted about..rest assured, its nothing of lovey-dovey cliche'..we have other big mission to work on at this moment..this surely make me feel so good that i couldnt stop smiling...oh well, maybe i'm just easily amused..
and at the point of writing this, i'm IMing with peon, my partner in crime/gossip since high school..we can talk about anything under the sun, if time permits ;)
sometimes i believe that its much easier to keep a frenship when the other party is a distance away..absence makes the heart grows fonder is one thing, but vulnerability of getting overboard is another...agree??
amidst my work, managed to exchange some juicy messages with my dearest tassie fren. courtesy of frenster;) and there i was, giggling and gasping...hahaha, this girl surely knows how to entertain me with her never-ending-stories-and-ramblings...she's so full of expression, if that explains my good laugh reading all those..and u wouldnt believe what we actually ranted about..rest assured, its nothing of lovey-dovey cliche'..we have other big mission to work on at this moment..this surely make me feel so good that i couldnt stop smiling...oh well, maybe i'm just easily amused..
and at the point of writing this, i'm IMing with peon, my partner in crime/gossip since high school..we can talk about anything under the sun, if time permits ;)
sometimes i believe that its much easier to keep a frenship when the other party is a distance away..absence makes the heart grows fonder is one thing, but vulnerability of getting overboard is another...agree??
Friday, October 21, 2005
DAY BEFORE WEEKEND
continued on the notes this morning...but before long, i had my hands clicking here and there, checking mails and blog hopping=D went to campus with a good intention, that was to buy some postcard raya..hahah, i was running out of proper kad raya but stingy enough to use my collections of postcards..then rushed to the post office ..erk, can i make it to the bus loop in 3 mins?? i had 2 classes to attend this afternoon...
opss, i missed the bus. panting and puffing, tried to call my housemate who's supposed to be home coz i dont have the key, only to get into the voicemail. so i went to the library while waiting for the other housemates to finish their lectures. wohoo, found 4 chick flick novels and ended up borrowing them all. hmmm, what a good way to distract myself. sat on the couch next and flipped thru the pages. this basketball movie was on tv. it looked good. might get hold of it some time later.
ohh, ive been tagged by 3 good ppl to do the 7 things meme..lalalala, hope it wont be tooooooo prevailing for me ;)
continued on the notes this morning...but before long, i had my hands clicking here and there, checking mails and blog hopping=D went to campus with a good intention, that was to buy some postcard raya..hahah, i was running out of proper kad raya but stingy enough to use my collections of postcards..then rushed to the post office ..erk, can i make it to the bus loop in 3 mins?? i had 2 classes to attend this afternoon...
opss, i missed the bus. panting and puffing, tried to call my housemate who's supposed to be home coz i dont have the key, only to get into the voicemail. so i went to the library while waiting for the other housemates to finish their lectures. wohoo, found 4 chick flick novels and ended up borrowing them all. hmmm, what a good way to distract myself. sat on the couch next and flipped thru the pages. this basketball movie was on tv. it looked good. might get hold of it some time later.
ohh, ive been tagged by 3 good ppl to do the 7 things meme..lalalala, hope it wont be tooooooo prevailing for me ;)
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
dear miss/mr no-number
u've been kind last nite for not waking me up from my sleep. lasted for 2 seconds, so i'm pretty sure it's supposed to be a misscall. anyhow, its a shame that i couldnt reply or even sms u back. u see, i'm not gifted with telepathy so couldnt really make a good guess and without any number appeared, nothing i can do. or maybe it was just accidental...no idea:p
err i'm a bit nutsy today....
u've been kind last nite for not waking me up from my sleep. lasted for 2 seconds, so i'm pretty sure it's supposed to be a misscall. anyhow, its a shame that i couldnt reply or even sms u back. u see, i'm not gifted with telepathy so couldnt really make a good guess and without any number appeared, nothing i can do. or maybe it was just accidental...no idea:p
err i'm a bit nutsy today....
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
OF FASTING IN FRANKSTON
- i made do with so-called-porridge-but-dried-version and salty (ops!)omelette for breaking fast.
- i braced myself to go to the toilet which is luckily in the same house during sahur. oh, yes, 3am and its not en suite. goosebumps:p
- i called my mum for 2 days in a row, and today is only tuesday *sigh*.
- i made do with so-called-porridge-but-dried-version and salty (ops!)omelette for breaking fast.
- i braced myself to go to the toilet which is luckily in the same house during sahur. oh, yes, 3am and its not en suite. goosebumps:p
- i called my mum for 2 days in a row, and today is only tuesday *sigh*.
TAGGIE
peah and haniizhar, here goes
20 years ago, 1985
hehe, 3-year-old girl with her DORY-like memory?? both doesnt help at all..but i knew at that time our family had already settled in that lot-186 as according to my parents, we moved into the house a day before my birth..enjoyed being the youngest as adik only joins us 4 years later (note: up till now, i have frens questioning when i say i DO have a YOUNGER sibling=D ) as what i did to syak!r and syahman during my hols, i had the same with my auntie..only that she babysitted me much longer as she lived with us.hmmm, i'm not entirely sure how i behaved as a 3 year old toodler, i memoried that family used to call me with this funny nickname as i had the habit of pretending to cry untill i get things my way..hahah,nope wont disclose it here!! sadly i dont have a lot of baby pictures..when i complained to ma why my elder siblings have lots more, she said its because during their stay at the old house, they have a photographer as their neighbour...hurmmmmmm *not talking*
10 years ago, 1995
all this while i was another kampung girl who played 'getah' and 'baling tin' (err) with my relatives-cum-frens and looked forward to sleep over at our arwah nenek sedara..its care-free life.alhamdulillah that year, i was offered to go to seri puteri, 8 hours drive away from home..i was all prepared for this,used to send my other siblings off to their respective schools. but little did i expect that i would be all in tears before we even left my uncle's house, huhuhu..hanin, i know u'r snifling ur laugh reading this:p yeah, my 1st year was full of ahemm, u guess;) lucky me, i had extra 6 weeks of hols that year as i fractured my elbow and turned up just before final exam..hohoho. despite all the crybaby episodes, i did enjoy the year and started to make acquaintances, some turn to be my good frens till now..then, life was colourful.full of laugh and joy..and im not really sure how i end up to be known as loud and mischiveous by teachers *thinking hard with innocent face* ...i wont cramp in my 5 years experiences into this single paragraph as its so not fair...each and every single things deserved to be mentioned..friends, teacher, seniors, celebrations, exams, sports day, FOOD, wardens & hostels...n SA1C'98,our lil secret still safe with me *chuckle*
5 years ago, 2000
time flew fast..n u bet, i did step out from seri puteri in tears..good things never last forever aite?..anyway, batch of '82 was the chosen 'trial sample' for the matric's double intake..which means there were ppl who enrolled into matrics before SPM result came out. i was the unlucky one, left behind while most of my frens were already in KMM, KMPP etc..how dissapointed and sad that time, Allah knows..spent my extended hols at home, doing household chores and tailing my mum..Alhamdulillah, Allah has always come up with better plan for me..after SPM was announced, i got a telegram (huh, macamla hulu sgt umah aku xleh nak tefon:p) from MARA and this marked another chapter of my journey. actually there were twisted chronology before i ended up attending the interview..again, not gonna elaborate about it here..anyhow, what happened during the interview was i failed to name the sultan of kelantan..huhuhu. again, Alhamdulillah i received an offer letter to do IB in KMB..and no thanks to my bro who did his A-level at the same place years before and told stories about his IB-and-never-have-free-time room mate, i freaked out..but in the end, i decided to give it a try and never would i know, i'm so gonna love the next 2 years's experiences..again, its not the place that matters but frens that we made, teachers that we loved and activities that we joined... deeply bonded by frequent gathering in a small cubicle of F201, eveningly doses of basketball, trips, pranks and dramas.. despite all the stress of assignments & exams, we found happiness and comfort...i couldnt ask for more, could i?
3 years ago, 2002
graduated from KMB and brought back the high spirit and memories. before everyone departed into our own way, we the girls of med3 had our final gathering in langkawi..GREAT, enough said! and in september, i hit the ground of down-under, still in grief after the loss of my late uncle *sigh..well, this was my 1st ever being oversea =) settled myself down with the other frens, old and new. i started to play netball again after 10 years. life was ok, high-spirited but at the same time anxious to start my med year..oh yes, 1st aidilfitri away from home..hehe, u could guess by now what happen when i heard the takbir at malaysian hall:p went back to malaysia for the summer break..my parents're away for hajj so aidiladha wasnt any better :p syahman was born and i had experience of babysitting him 24/7 for almost 2 weeks as my sis-in-law was tied up with KPLI.now u know why i'm so bonded with that sin chan :p
last year, 2004
2nd year of MBBS.. when life took its rough turn..shedded so many tears and swallowed so much sadness...and with that i metamorphed. things happened one after another and when i couldnt think of anything else to ease myself up, a fren suggested to pour it into this virtual space..at the same time, i started to miss ppl, realised that i was no longer in my comfort zone and somehow i knew i had to brave the waves all alone. tough, verily. despite all that, i experienced sydney and gold coast during winter hols. 2 girls and a map. it was a blast and brought back sweet memories. but i wasnt smiling for long. again, Allah tested me with misfortunes and by the end of the year, i was practically drained from all the emotional torture. but as the saying goes, setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. so i survived.
this year, 2005
living in 2 places was no one's dream. frankst0n is where i am destined to be for my clinical year, yet clayton is the place of comfort and joy...continued to metamorph as i picked up the lessons and learnt the beauty of acceptance. good laugh and bitter cry, i went through. families? absence makes the heart grows fonder ..frens? come and go but some stick around..faith in ALLAH? it means strength. went back to msia for my sis's wedding. alhamdulillah, everything went well and i myself rejuvenate during the hols. another sydney experiences during MASCA GAMES. as i am approaching the end of my stay, i come to realise that Allah doesnt send me to frankst0n for nothing.
next year, 2006
Insya Allah, i'll be in my 4th year..doing 4 blocks of pscyh, GP, O&G and paeds.hohoho, pray hard that things will be much better next year. good news, i'm expecting (ceh, mcm aku pulak yg preggy:p) another 2 nieces/nephews by April.lalalala, may both of them be girls and i'll shower them with cutesy tops and gowns..might be my final year of playing netball =( n err i'm thinking of doing cross-stiches of an english house or garden of flowers...but the most important things will be to keep the spirit high and always be in good company.
10 years from now, 2015
already a hajjah, insya Allah..married to the man destined by Allah and blessed with err 4 kids?? huhuhu, maybe should keep the number open :p working my way to become a specialist in....again, i keep the option open..hopefully by then, i managed to do as much good deeds as i can to my parents, coz to repay all they've done to is beyond possible. keep the families bonding strong and will always have time for my girly sessions with my mates..may our frenship lasts ;)
fuhhhh, penat!
niesa, izzah and syu: you are next! nisa & shera: would love to tag but time might be a constraint eh? feel free to do anyway;)
peah and haniizhar, here goes
20 years ago, 1985
hehe, 3-year-old girl with her DORY-like memory?? both doesnt help at all..but i knew at that time our family had already settled in that lot-186 as according to my parents, we moved into the house a day before my birth..enjoyed being the youngest as adik only joins us 4 years later (note: up till now, i have frens questioning when i say i DO have a YOUNGER sibling=D ) as what i did to syak!r and syahman during my hols, i had the same with my auntie..only that she babysitted me much longer as she lived with us.hmmm, i'm not entirely sure how i behaved as a 3 year old toodler, i memoried that family used to call me with this funny nickname as i had the habit of pretending to cry untill i get things my way..hahah,nope wont disclose it here!! sadly i dont have a lot of baby pictures..when i complained to ma why my elder siblings have lots more, she said its because during their stay at the old house, they have a photographer as their neighbour...hurmmmmmm *not talking*
10 years ago, 1995
all this while i was another kampung girl who played 'getah' and 'baling tin' (err) with my relatives-cum-frens and looked forward to sleep over at our arwah nenek sedara..its care-free life.alhamdulillah that year, i was offered to go to seri puteri, 8 hours drive away from home..i was all prepared for this,used to send my other siblings off to their respective schools. but little did i expect that i would be all in tears before we even left my uncle's house, huhuhu..hanin, i know u'r snifling ur laugh reading this:p yeah, my 1st year was full of ahemm, u guess;) lucky me, i had extra 6 weeks of hols that year as i fractured my elbow and turned up just before final exam..hohoho. despite all the crybaby episodes, i did enjoy the year and started to make acquaintances, some turn to be my good frens till now..then, life was colourful.full of laugh and joy..and im not really sure how i end up to be known as loud and mischiveous by teachers *thinking hard with innocent face* ...i wont cramp in my 5 years experiences into this single paragraph as its so not fair...each and every single things deserved to be mentioned..friends, teacher, seniors, celebrations, exams, sports day, FOOD, wardens & hostels...n SA1C'98,our lil secret still safe with me *chuckle*
5 years ago, 2000
time flew fast..n u bet, i did step out from seri puteri in tears..good things never last forever aite?..anyway, batch of '82 was the chosen 'trial sample' for the matric's double intake..which means there were ppl who enrolled into matrics before SPM result came out. i was the unlucky one, left behind while most of my frens were already in KMM, KMPP etc..how dissapointed and sad that time, Allah knows..spent my extended hols at home, doing household chores and tailing my mum..Alhamdulillah, Allah has always come up with better plan for me..after SPM was announced, i got a telegram (huh, macamla hulu sgt umah aku xleh nak tefon:p) from MARA and this marked another chapter of my journey. actually there were twisted chronology before i ended up attending the interview..again, not gonna elaborate about it here..anyhow, what happened during the interview was i failed to name the sultan of kelantan..huhuhu. again, Alhamdulillah i received an offer letter to do IB in KMB..and no thanks to my bro who did his A-level at the same place years before and told stories about his IB-and-never-have-free-time room mate, i freaked out..but in the end, i decided to give it a try and never would i know, i'm so gonna love the next 2 years's experiences..again, its not the place that matters but frens that we made, teachers that we loved and activities that we joined... deeply bonded by frequent gathering in a small cubicle of F201, eveningly doses of basketball, trips, pranks and dramas.. despite all the stress of assignments & exams, we found happiness and comfort...i couldnt ask for more, could i?
3 years ago, 2002
graduated from KMB and brought back the high spirit and memories. before everyone departed into our own way, we the girls of med3 had our final gathering in langkawi..GREAT, enough said! and in september, i hit the ground of down-under, still in grief after the loss of my late uncle *sigh..well, this was my 1st ever being oversea =) settled myself down with the other frens, old and new. i started to play netball again after 10 years. life was ok, high-spirited but at the same time anxious to start my med year..oh yes, 1st aidilfitri away from home..hehe, u could guess by now what happen when i heard the takbir at malaysian hall:p went back to malaysia for the summer break..my parents're away for hajj so aidiladha wasnt any better :p syahman was born and i had experience of babysitting him 24/7 for almost 2 weeks as my sis-in-law was tied up with KPLI.now u know why i'm so bonded with that sin chan :p
last year, 2004
2nd year of MBBS.. when life took its rough turn..shedded so many tears and swallowed so much sadness...and with that i metamorphed. things happened one after another and when i couldnt think of anything else to ease myself up, a fren suggested to pour it into this virtual space..at the same time, i started to miss ppl, realised that i was no longer in my comfort zone and somehow i knew i had to brave the waves all alone. tough, verily. despite all that, i experienced sydney and gold coast during winter hols. 2 girls and a map. it was a blast and brought back sweet memories. but i wasnt smiling for long. again, Allah tested me with misfortunes and by the end of the year, i was practically drained from all the emotional torture. but as the saying goes, setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. so i survived.
this year, 2005
living in 2 places was no one's dream. frankst0n is where i am destined to be for my clinical year, yet clayton is the place of comfort and joy...continued to metamorph as i picked up the lessons and learnt the beauty of acceptance. good laugh and bitter cry, i went through. families? absence makes the heart grows fonder ..frens? come and go but some stick around..faith in ALLAH? it means strength. went back to msia for my sis's wedding. alhamdulillah, everything went well and i myself rejuvenate during the hols. another sydney experiences during MASCA GAMES. as i am approaching the end of my stay, i come to realise that Allah doesnt send me to frankst0n for nothing.
next year, 2006
Insya Allah, i'll be in my 4th year..doing 4 blocks of pscyh, GP, O&G and paeds.hohoho, pray hard that things will be much better next year. good news, i'm expecting (ceh, mcm aku pulak yg preggy:p) another 2 nieces/nephews by April.lalalala, may both of them be girls and i'll shower them with cutesy tops and gowns..might be my final year of playing netball =( n err i'm thinking of doing cross-stiches of an english house or garden of flowers...but the most important things will be to keep the spirit high and always be in good company.
10 years from now, 2015
already a hajjah, insya Allah..married to the man destined by Allah and blessed with err 4 kids?? huhuhu, maybe should keep the number open :p working my way to become a specialist in....again, i keep the option open..hopefully by then, i managed to do as much good deeds as i can to my parents, coz to repay all they've done to is beyond possible. keep the families bonding strong and will always have time for my girly sessions with my mates..may our frenship lasts ;)
fuhhhh, penat!
niesa, izzah and syu: you are next! nisa & shera: would love to tag but time might be a constraint eh? feel free to do anyway;)
Monday, October 17, 2005
Saturday, October 15, 2005
guess one's right, that pink-angelic-look is too gurlish for me so here i'm back with the old (very old, indeed) black-white-red look..and the girl depicts me..the truest me..
i've lived with this template for more than a year and never wear out of it..oh well, once or twice i did try on something new or so-called refreshing but i would settle to this eventually...lost the html codes when my pc crashed last month and didnt really bother looking for it again, until tonite..and to find it back is a relief, or maybe therapeutic..
i've lived with this template for more than a year and never wear out of it..oh well, once or twice i did try on something new or so-called refreshing but i would settle to this eventually...lost the html codes when my pc crashed last month and didnt really bother looking for it again, until tonite..and to find it back is a relief, or maybe therapeutic..
Friday, October 14, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
a fren offered a lift today, so here i am in clayt0n t0nite..wehoo!!
..next to the tv was a parcel, with my name on it..yeayyyyy, kuih tart from my sis-in-law..jumped and laughed excitedly..i'm all HAPPY and EXCITED..but not gonna stuff it all till raya =D
..were in the kitchen..in the middle of cooking soup..
me: *campak bahan2 dalamm periuk* aaahh pedulikla..aku reti masak ke, x reti masak ke..kalu nak _____ ngan aku, terima jehla (gaya org membebel)
anonymous 1: eh kenapa tiba2 nih??hahahha *then jenguk dalam periuk, ada slices of daging and 2 chopped onion dalam air yang baru nak mendidih* kak yattt!!!! masak ape nih???
me: eeerrrrr....hahaha.. masak sup..nak makan.. *thinking of all the excuses i can give
anonymous 1: *lol* patutlaaa dia dok cakap mcm tuh....mane ade org masak sup mcm nih..ade tumis bla bla bla tak??
me: *sengih* hahaha, takk..kena letak ke?? ala, aku nak kurangkan minyak (konon!) malas nak tumis..masak jelah macam nih
anonymous 2: ape dia letak dalam periuk tuh?? ko nih, gaya macam marah kat sorang budak jeh... (so happen, tadi dlm keta mmg borak pasal bestnye pempuan yang reti masak, especially kelantanese=p)
me: hahaha, xde aaa (mmg pun, x kisah langsung psl conversation tuh)... aku mmg tak sure nak letak ape..eh tak boleh ke masak mcm nih???*lol*
so they started to talk like ibu-ibu-mertuaku *tutup telinga* adeihhhh...
..next to the tv was a parcel, with my name on it..yeayyyyy, kuih tart from my sis-in-law..jumped and laughed excitedly..i'm all HAPPY and EXCITED..but not gonna stuff it all till raya =D
..were in the kitchen..in the middle of cooking soup..
me: *campak bahan2 dalamm periuk* aaahh pedulikla..aku reti masak ke, x reti masak ke..kalu nak _____ ngan aku, terima jehla (gaya org membebel)
anonymous 1: eh kenapa tiba2 nih??hahahha *then jenguk dalam periuk, ada slices of daging and 2 chopped onion dalam air yang baru nak mendidih* kak yattt!!!! masak ape nih???
me: eeerrrrr....hahaha.. masak sup..nak makan.. *thinking of all the excuses i can give
anonymous 1: *lol* patutlaaa dia dok cakap mcm tuh....mane ade org masak sup mcm nih..ade tumis bla bla bla tak??
me: *sengih* hahaha, takk..kena letak ke?? ala, aku nak kurangkan minyak (konon!) malas nak tumis..masak jelah macam nih
anonymous 2: ape dia letak dalam periuk tuh?? ko nih, gaya macam marah kat sorang budak jeh... (so happen, tadi dlm keta mmg borak pasal bestnye pempuan yang reti masak, especially kelantanese=p)
me: hahaha, xde aaa (
so they started to talk like ibu-ibu-mertuaku *tutup telinga* adeihhhh...
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
SAYANG...
- kalau peluang untuk berterawikh dah ade tapi tak digunakan..janganla bagi alasan penat..ikutkan sape tak penat bulan puasa nih, kan? hmm, especially bile kat mesia x timbul soal takde masjid or surau jauh..kalau kwn2 boleh pegi, knape kite xleh? kuatkan semangat, best ape join org ramai meriahkan rumah Allah =)
- kalau kite boleh stay-up berjam2 tapi xleh bangun utk solat subuh..hmm, x salah nak tido lewat tp make sure tak terlepas subuh...sbb rasanya dlm byk2 waktu solat, yang nih paling susah nak jaga..
- kalau dah elok2 pakai tudung, pastu decide xnak pakai...lagi menyedihkan kalu pakai on selective occasions..hah?? peer pressure x masuk dlm list laaa..sume dah besar, dah tahu mane salah mane betul..honestly, this on-and-off trend is confusing (read: pakai ke tak ?)
wallahua'lam...
...after a week, we've decided to take a break from daily travelling..sgt2 memenatkan..bangun pukul 3 utk sahur, tido balik pukul 4, (terpaksa) bangun pukul 630 utk naik bas pukul 7..sambung tido dlm bas utk setengah jam..sampai frankston dlm 730, either sambung tido balik or siap2 pegi tute's or ward round..klas habis by pukul 4 or kalu abis awal tgu sampai pukul 4 utk naik bas..tido lagi setengah jam dlm bas..sampai rumah, masak n get ready utk bukak puasa..habis solat dlm pukul 9,terpaksa buat keje tp mata dah x larat nak bukak..kekadang by 11 10 dah tido=(
ikut hati mmg nak stay clayt0n utk bulan puasa nih tp mmg tak larat..dgn keje yg banyak, penat travel lagi =(
...esok: bukak puasa 2 org..makan ala kadar jelah..(read: rempah2 dah bawak balik n mmg xde stok makanan pun kat sana*sigh)
- kalau peluang untuk berterawikh dah ade tapi tak digunakan..janganla bagi alasan penat..ikutkan sape tak penat bulan puasa nih, kan? hmm, especially bile kat mesia x timbul soal takde masjid or surau jauh..kalau kwn2 boleh pegi, knape kite xleh? kuatkan semangat, best ape join org ramai meriahkan rumah Allah =)
- kalau kite boleh stay-up berjam2 tapi xleh bangun utk solat subuh..hmm, x salah nak tido lewat tp make sure tak terlepas subuh...sbb rasanya dlm byk2 waktu solat, yang nih paling susah nak jaga..
- kalau dah elok2 pakai tudung, pastu decide xnak pakai...lagi menyedihkan kalu pakai on selective occasions..hah?? peer pressure x masuk dlm list laaa..sume dah besar, dah tahu mane salah mane betul..honestly, this on-and-off trend is confusing (read: pakai ke tak ?)
wallahua'lam...
...after a week, we've decided to take a break from daily travelling..sgt2 memenatkan..bangun pukul 3 utk sahur, tido balik pukul 4, (terpaksa) bangun pukul 630 utk naik bas pukul 7..sambung tido dlm bas utk setengah jam..sampai frankston dlm 730, either sambung tido balik or siap2 pegi tute's or ward round..klas habis by pukul 4 or kalu abis awal tgu sampai pukul 4 utk naik bas..tido lagi setengah jam dlm bas..sampai rumah, masak n get ready utk bukak puasa..habis solat dlm pukul 9,
ikut hati mmg nak stay clayt0n utk bulan puasa nih tp mmg tak larat..dgn keje yg banyak, penat travel lagi =(
...esok: bukak puasa 2 org..makan ala kadar jelah..(read: rempah2 dah bawak balik n mmg xde stok makanan pun kat sana*sigh)
Sunday, October 09, 2005
in the middle of...
- Ramadhan..alhamdulillahh, tried to make it as meaningful as possible..as quoted from peah, biar sederhana tapi sempurna...and thats how my Ramadhan would be, insya Allah. let us spare some time to reflect on the past and pray for the future...
- finishing (not too soon=p) two textbooks before the exam..done with the yellow-surgical-aid yesterday..aiming for the red-clinical-exam and orangeish-pathology...menggaris oh menggaris!
- working on my BIG-5 challenge...asked zura to dare me into this, coz that way it'll be more motivational ;) otherwise, i'll simply relapse in a day or two... *did i see some curious frowns??hehe..
- steeling my heart =).. any manual to differentiate between good reality vs dreamy illusion?? pathetic, not!
and soon...
- starts on the portfolio..reflective essays, year review..blablabla...never gonna enjoy this=(
- raya mood..ok, living with baking freaks (with 's' for more than one:p) makes life a lot easier,hahaha..jom sama2 bakardapur biskut dan kek..
- writes that i've-been-tagged-entry....*guilty grin to peah and hani-izhar*
- oppss, secret....dancing away*
- Ramadhan..alhamdulillahh, tried to make it as meaningful as possible..as quoted from peah, biar sederhana tapi sempurna...and thats how my Ramadhan would be, insya Allah. let us spare some time to reflect on the past and pray for the future...
- finishing (not too soon=p) two textbooks before the exam..done with the yellow-surgical-aid yesterday..aiming for the red-clinical-exam and orangeish-pathology...menggaris oh menggaris!
- working on my BIG-5 challenge...asked zura to dare me into this, coz that way it'll be more motivational ;) otherwise, i'll simply relapse in a day or two... *did i see some curious frowns??hehe..
- steeling my heart =).. any manual to differentiate between good reality vs dreamy illusion?? pathetic, not!
and soon...
- starts on the portfolio..reflective essays, year review..blablabla...never gonna enjoy this=(
- raya mood..ok, living with baking freaks (with 's' for more than one:p) makes life a lot easier,hahaha..jom sama2 bakar
- writes that i've-been-tagged-entry....*guilty grin to peah and hani-izhar*
- oppss, secret....dancing away*
Saturday, October 08, 2005
A RANDOM TESTIMONIAL ( credit to frenster, not mine tho =D)
Always Remember
When things are down
And you are out of your mind
Remember just remember
Allah is The Kind.
When your life is in darkness
And nothing is right
Remember just remember
Through the darkness,
Allah is The Light.
When nothing makes sense
And your heading for demise
Remember just remember
It doesn't make sense,
but Allah is The
Wise.
When times are troubled
And no one seems to care
Remember just remember
Allah won't hurt you, He is The Fair.
When your heart is breaking
And your pain makes you fall
Remember just remember
Allah Sees it all.
When you are weak
And the road seems long
Remember just remember
Seek strength from The Strong.
When life is a burden
And everything is unstable !
Remember just remember
Allah is The Able.
When the way is cloudy
And there is no one by your side
Remember just remember
Allah is The Only Guide.
When no one wants to listen
Or is willing to lend an ear
Remember just remember
Allah is always ready to hear
very well said, rite??
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
alhamdulillah, i thank Allah for this serenity..berkat Ramadhan kot=) when He took away this nikmat some time ago, everything seems wrong and self-pitying was unavoidable ..only He knows how i survive the trying times...in the end, i realised that i just have to accept things as they are NOW..and never risk anything for some uncertain future...
have a meaningful Ramadhan ppl. God bless..
have a meaningful Ramadhan ppl. God bless..
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