alhamdulillah, i thank Allah for this serenity..berkat Ramadhan kot=) when He took away this nikmat some time ago, everything seems wrong and self-pitying was unavoidable ..only He knows how i survive the trying times...in the end, i realised that i just have to accept things as they are NOW..and never risk anything for some uncertain future...

have a meaningful Ramadhan ppl. God bless..