Bee?

I thinkkkkkk i am busy with so many things want/need to do. At least

-Keep up with the study. GP & Psych have been entertaining and encouraging for me. oh la laaa, assignments are handful as well.
-Finish off the stack of story books that i borrowed from S before she returns from Msia.
-Syu's coming in less than a month. itinerary-in-the-making.
-Book my flight home.pls, mark down the price??
-Routine of brisk walk and yoga-pilates.
-Socialise and enjoy my time with the girlfriends ;)
-Watch all most of the movies/drama series available in this house.
-Make some phone calls . this, i must admit often forgotten. shesshhhh! ohhh, write/reply emails too.

Monolog
ok, now i need to read this book...search for this topic...type out this notes...

but i want to read the T!me Traveller's Wife now...

laaa di daaaa...

Oh my...

i am MISSING malaysia so much that everything that shows or talks about it wrenches my heart... tak tipuuuu =(

I know...

..even when i was writing the earlier entry, it wont happen.

no matter how much i want to stop , i couldnt because all this while, i've been imagining myself sharing every step of my life here and looking forward to it.

no matter how much i disgraced myself here in the past, i can only shook my head in shame.i know i can always fix things up but sometimes, i need to learn things the hard way. so, i choose to play with time...

enough of that, here i start again...

earlier, the thought of doing psychiatry freaked me out. I couldnt see myself talking to these people, it must've been weary and frightening . but as i am into my 3rd week, i no longer thought the same. despite the difficulty to understand the technical jargon and all, i am enjoying this rotation to a greater deal. what i see in this field of medicine is life. amused.

' i just wanna enjoy this rotation, learn as much as i can and hopefully do fine in the exam..'

Sebenarnye...

aku ingin berhenti menulis. dulu-dulu, blog ini jadi tempat aku berkongsi cerita dan berhubung dgn kawan2. rasa gembira dan puas hati. tapi skarang, lebih kepada punca salah faham dan sampai satu masa, hilang kawan. rasa terkilan dan serik sedih.

tapi mungkin aku takkan dan tak dapat berhenti menulis.tak tahu.

Tulisan kosong...

rasa lega bila masa berlalu dgn sgt cepat. tak sempat nak buat ape2 basically. sekejap je dah nak weekend balik. study, tak. buat benda lain, ye.

pencarian tiket mcm menghampakan je. semua agent kasi quotation mahal2. arghh! rasa macam tak nak balik pun ade (ok, aku tahu....takde org nak pecaya=p)

cakap pasal balik & tiket flight, sampai termimpi2. mimpi dah ada kat msia tp bile masa nak balik sini, ntah cemana boleh terlupa. some sort baru teringat ada flight and kalut2 kena tukar date. hmm, penatla asik mimpi mcm nih. last time mimpi, dah siap2 nak pegi airport utk balik msia tp tak jumpa passport. haihh, manela takde gangguan tidur....niesa, hani-salim and nisa dah selamat kat msia. pastu peah and hani-izhar plak nak balik msia..ya Allah, tabahkanlahhhhhh hati akuuuu :(

tapi takpeee, bulan depan ada org nak dtg visit *dance dance*. ehemm, sgt tak sabarrrr...terima kasih kawan kerana buat aku rasa happy dan kembali excited..

masih kembali tak sihat. demam dan selsema. rasa tak bertenaga. ikutkan hati, nak berehat tanpa buat ape2 tp masih ada kelas perlu hadiri, masih ada kerja perlu dibuat. bila macam nih, byk benda terbengkalai. tambah risau dan susah hati. aduhh...

cukup2lah nih. sudah penat.

Reflection..

today, slept thru for 4 hours and woke up around 1130pm. started on the unfinished plan for the weekend: spring-cleaning my study table..errr, wasnt messy but i still got stuff from last semester to put away and havent done anything with this semester. well, got a bit excited with better organised (and slacking,shessshh) rotation this semester.. highlighted the deadlines, sorted out the old notes and skimmed thru the requirement for this semester. at the same time, chatted away with the girlfriends and surfed the net for (hardly) interesting read.

to start the story with, i am getting worried with my ehemm, weight. not to say i couldnt fit in my clothes or anything similar, but i wishfully wished i didnt gain any EXTRA kg-s over this winter either . i deliberately avoid THE scale so i cant really tell,hehehehe. eventho i havent done anything sinful to my eating pattern (err, ok ..apart from some unwilling binge or superlicious meal we finished =D), i havent done anything helful to shed the extra fat either. in fact, i stopped doing so about 3 months ago after life got so hectic to handle??? heh, so much so for buying a yoga mat then :p

back to the earlier story, came across this yoga instructor's blog (sorry, no link ) and read this mind-relieving REAL LIFE STORY, about the POUNDS that dont count and how unreliable THE scale. you may look slimmer/smaller/leaner and yet, gain some weight.

errrr, skejap..ape aku nak tulis sebenarnye nih *confused*

anyway, u got my points here

-shouldnt bother about THE scale anymore. instead, go with the size of ur clothes and some positive remarks from others??LOL
-i may not be motivated to start working out this sejuk-sejuk weather, stingy to fork my money out for gym membership and not in perfect health BUT i'm thinking of some yoga-pilates, basketball and brisk walk once the obstacles mentioned above are over. i will, i must;)

wait!!!

i havent told you that my appetite go double-tripled once i started to exercise, have i????

aiya...*scratch my head*

Rindu...

Malaysia.

hmm, tahun nih kira tahun kedua aku tak balik winter. ehem, aku balik winter ada valid reason ok:p anyway, aku perasan jugak everytime aku duduk sini more than 5 months, dugaan macam bertimpa-timpa. tak kisahla tuh. bila lagi nak belajar kalau tak skarang kan?

cumanya skarang nih, aku selalu terbayang malaysia. rindu nak jalan-jalan kat KL. rindu nak duduk tenang kat rumah. rindu nak bergelak ketawa dgn org yang terdekat. bila tengok fotopages nih, baca blog nih dan nih , tak dapat tidak aku rasa jealous. aku ada lebih kurang 4 bulan lagi untuk hilangkan rindu nih. mampu ke ?

kisah yang lain . aku dijemput jadi pembaca pertama tentang kisah KURUS2 PUTIH2 PAKAI TUDUNG? (sorry, tak dapat nak directly link the entry so carikla kat sini .) . aku minta utk komen.

well, not a suprise. *smirk* totally acknowledge the shallow criteria. heh. i'd say its a pity that such attitude exists and remains out there. *shook head* please, think of something better??
i could say more about this but it'll be an outright act. shouldnt and wouldnt.

Compilations

Why do i enjoy watching wedding so much?

because it has a lottttt of pink and heart in it..

'aaaa z!laaa, aku nak yang nihhh..'
'heeee, bahaya la dia nih tgk cerita tuh...semua benda nak'
'errr, hahahaha..jahat aa ko'

Funny incidents?

1. cubaan utk panaskan enjin kereta kwn yg ditinggalkan kat garage rumah.

'haa, tgk nih. enjin dia mati balikk..arituh pun mcm nih jugakk'
'ko dah freekan gear tuh ke??'
'dahhlaaa...'
'ye ke dah freekan? ko check betul2'
'DAHHH..aku dah freekan..tgk nih??
(pegi check sendri gear tuh) "haaaa, free apenye.. tak free pun nih..cuba ko try balik'
'erkkkkk ehh???hahahha(malu malu malu)...jap, haah laaa tak mati...(sengihhhh)
'hahahahhah yatt, ko nih...bla bla bla'
'haaaa ye ye :p'

ohh tidakkk, hancur reputasi aku lepas nih....maluuuuuuuuu!!! sesedap rasa aku kena gelak dgn adl! ..taktau mane nak letak muka wehhh. confident pulak tuh lawan cakap. g&^%#$!~

2. tgh pesta memasak kat dapur. masak nasi lemak and rendang ayam. sambil2 tuh aku tgh tunggu laundry siap..

' eh, tuala kat dalam dryer tuh dah masak ke??

wargghhh, cakap ape tuh yatt???

Syak!r

baru lepas borak.. smalam call tgh main bola. pagi tadi call (ter)tido sbb tgh study. hahahaha, terukkk!!

borak2 psl world cup.

' haah, tengokkk. syakir nangisss"
'hehehe, bile?
'masa England kalah hari tuh dengan P0rtugal'
(agak dahhh)

'haaa, nak tahu...panggil dia..Teletubbies colour kuning sebab dia gemuk...hehhee'
"iyeeee?? hihihihihihi ..."
"haah, nanti syakir bolehla teka teki dgn kawan sape Teletubbies colour kuning..mesti diorg tak dpt nak jawab".
"hihihihihi.."


"haaaa, Zidane tuhkan..dia Islammmm"
(wahh, pakcik nih banyak jugak dia tahu)"haaahhh, terer la syakir..mane tahu nih?'
"tengok tv laaa.."

For a change...

how's this one??

answering hani-izhar's latest shout:

hahahaha, sebusuk-busuk aku pun takdela balik msia everytime cutiiiii..i repeat, everytime cutii...huiihhh, dasyat dasyat:p

the phone call i received just now confirmed that she's comingggggggggggg...wehooo!!*jumps up-and-down...gedebukk jatuh tergolek* OMG, i'm so excited. come august quick!

PINK is in the air again;)

Week 1 of 4071

GP & psyh. i was grateful to have one of the coordinators to be my GP placement(alhamdulillah) and i'm not psyched to do psych, to be honest. nevertheless, i predict GP to be enriching and psych to be interesting. i hope so, at least.

decided to go easy for the past 4 days because of my failing health. cant wait for the weekend. i need a rest.

i should've known that thursday is my bad day and today's no diff. again, i got myself into trouble by stupidly make the initiative. heh, nak cakap honestla konon. hotak la aku! bodoh adela. rasa mcm ape tau?? aku yang perasan bagus, miss forever-snobbish. exactly. as sugessted, the confrontation didnt go well and sorry to say, i am nothing but dissapointed. i ran out of things to keep up. but dont worry folks, this will be the last of its kind. PROMISE. if i havent learn my biggest lesson with this one, i never will.

He said..

" because...call me old-fashioned, but when u love someone, i believe u should be unselfish enough to give them whatever they want."
~Laws of attracti0n~

aaaaawwww!! hehehe... am i the last person in this world to watch this movie???

Mem0ir of a...

i read the book more than 2 years ago.

i decided to watch the movie yesterday.

for both, i felt DISGUSTED.


p/s. sakit tekak dan demam balik=( sebabnya?? terlebih makan maruku...huhuhu

Ab0ut a Boy...

'I tried not to think about that. It happened and i wish it hadnt, but its just life, isnt it? 12-years-old.

'Listen. I'm touched that u asked. But i cant think of anything worse. Seriously. Its just not my sort of thing' 36-year-old.

heh.

Kisah 8 hari 7 malam

Day 1


-departed from Tullamar!ne. it was a boring & overheated flight, but have good scenery down below.
-woh, NZ custom officers are way friendlier and betterrrrr than OZ. at least they dont bring around dogs, muahahaha..
-we stayed at students' house(junior SSP 3 years'younger) and treated with laksam that nite. kutertidurrrr pulasss;)

Day 2


-Cathedral square. that's when my camera batteries decided to go kongg on me. hampeh!
-Museum & Old University. remember Earnest Rudford?
-Punting at Botanical Garden. hoh, tak romantikk la naik ramai2. ikut hati nak berkayak jehh tp sbb ramai nak naik punting, join jelahh.. adela pulak yg tertidur tuhhh.
-Gondola. mak aihhh, gayat la jugakkk..hehe. lps tuh buat expedisi sendri dgn attire yg sgtla tak sesuai. dahla slippery, nasib baikk tak tergolek jatuh gaung jeh. tapi sgt worth the journey bila dah nak dekat matahari terbenam tuh. subhanallahhh..
-BBQ for dinner. hehe, sempat main basketball skejap kat luar rumah diorg. yeay yeay!! skill aku tak rusty lagi rupanya. bila Chr!s & Samy join, diorg ajar main this particular game that tested ur shooting skills, and i won the 2nd game..hahahah, mmg nak riak! lps makan, join main game card. ini mmg susah, ala2 charade tp instead of act out u have to describe it. satu card tuh aku kena describe 'buzz'. d'ohh!

Day 3


-Settlekan bus ticket.
-Ferrymead Her!tage & Park..hahaha, hanya sbb nak ngelakkan anjing ktrg sesat sekejap. nothing much at that place actually. tmpt pun nmpk cam spooky jeh. balik tuh lama btul tunggu bus. boring sgt, aku saje2 tanya crite hantu kat B, tup2 terus dtg bus..hahaha, selamatttt!
-Souvenirs hunting began,nyehnyehnyehh
-Balik tuh diorg ada simpankan laksa utk ktrg
-Malam tuh jalan pegi rumah another students utk makan nasi lemak, karipap n apple crumb. ohhh, lazattt!! dah penat makan, bukak kopitiam. pasal ape??? adelahh...

Day 4



-Bras!l lost that morning. ohhhh, sangat sedihh =( spoil betulla..
-Revisited some places to capture some pics. remember my camera batteries went konggg the other day??.
-Souvernier hunting again. the best gift of all would be for my parents, unlike before when my siblings' often drained my money before i got to decide for both of them. not this time tho...
-This time tandori masala pulakk, kenyanggg!
-We hopped onto the bus to go to Dunedin again, stayed at students's house who happened to be our schoolmates.

Day 5


-cadbury world. cehhhh, rasa tertipu sbb masa kat Tassie dpt tour n bargain yg lagi best...
-Seafood's. hehe,nice deco and good variety of meals.
-Larnach castle tour. the only castle in NZ owned by this family with tragic storyline. biasala dah nama pun castle, mmgla lawa n usually one of its kind.
-dinner kat rumah kawan A, makan spaghetti. ohh, read this dialogue

'eehhh, dulu SSP kan?'
'errr alamakk, haah. mane tau?'
'sy junior kak Y'
'opss, ye ke. batch mana eh? alamak sorryla, tak cam'
'takpee biasala junior yang kenal.sy f1 masa kak Y f5. rumah sapph1re jugak'
'ohhh, heheheh'

alemakk korang, aku jumpa CS ude. ntah apelahh aku buat masa skola dulu sampai tak kenal org..

Day 6


-breakfast dgn roti canai???yup yup..hahaha. haii, beranganlaa nak dpt jiran yg jual roti canai, siap ada delivery boy yg sgt cuteeee..geram tgk budak kecik tuh..
-ops menjejak the world's steepest street, Baldw!n st yg ntah kat mana2. tgh jalan, jumpa seorang melayu yg pelikk..malas nak elaborate kisah dgn dia..nway only 3 decided to walk up the street, termasuk aku ok! hahaha, mengah tak mengah blakang kira. janji dpt beli cert lepas tuh.
-tour Otago Uni with its famous central library.
-balik christchurch.

Day 7


-Transzalp!ne to Greym0uth. ini org kata P.J naik n dpt ilham for LOTR. lalu jugak setting for Narn!a & LOTR. tapikan after some time, semua org dah mabukkk gunung sbb byk sgt..hahhaa!! nasibbbb..

Day 8
-Dressmart for some personal shopping;)
-Christchurch airport.

lastly, perasan tak ktrg makan sama banyak dgn jalan, maybe lebih skett pun ada...so takyahla buat2 tekejut kalu tgk pics towards the end of the trip, muka sorang2 ala ala nak meletup..bukan ilusi optikk!

Correct me if i'm wrong...

i dont know others but when i decided to share, i dont expect BIG words. i only seek for some assurance, if its not too much to ask. i know better that nothing may seems right to say at that time. one might never had similar experiences or am i right to assume, actually couldnt care less. so when the person changed the subject of discussion, i often take that as a cue..

why am i telling all this? because next time, if you feel that i havent share much or talk less try not to take it personally. not that i dont trust anymore, i just dont wanna waste your time and to avoid feeling crappy myself.

cheers.

Tomorrow..

i'll be starting the new rotation and i'm still down with cold.havent been sick for quite a long time and i'm done with half of the medication. not getting any better, sadly.

till then, dont expect anything from here.

Pergi muka gajah, balik muka tikus..

Sampai Melb petang tadi dan dari semalam dah start demam selsema..temperature & blocked nose =(

ohhh, tak selesaaaa..

sampai2 rumah, dapat surat and pics of my heroes...hensemmm!