Honesty hurts?

if you asked me, i would say yes.

i know how it feels to be left clueless, not knowing what went wrong and how to deal with it. i know how it feels to hold up, because we dont want to hurt and we dont want to carry the guilt after that. i know how hard it can be to admit the mistakes and start all over again.

so, i thought why dont i get things straight. just be honest and tell everything. because for me, its not about who's right or wrong. i am human and i make mistakes myself. correct me. it is about making things clear for the future. also, i know better that to assume and misunderstand is the easiest and worst thing to happen in any kinda communication, ppl just has no better idea what the other ppl is thinking.

so, if i am being honest, i could make things easier for both in the future because IF the same thing happens again, both would know what's expected from them. i save time to argue and fight. even if at present, things look sour and nothing's worse than listening to the words spoken in such bitterness. but i hope in the future, things are better and easier.

but it doesnt always come right.

i may slip away some harsh words along the lines, making ppl nonetheless offended and mad. i may be mean and selfish myself. i may forget to offer ppl the chance to defend themselves. i've committed all those and i chocked with guilt. but the worst thing is actually to have my intention taken the wrong way.

so, yeah. it hurts.