haunted
of seeing is believing. of betrayal and losing trust. of hatred and hurtful. of blood and sacrifices. of denial versus reality. of strength and grip. of cry and deep cut. of turn to versus burden.
on another note, thanks for all the birthday-wishes. may Allah bless u all too. this year, i wish and pray for my loved ones.Solace.Strength.Happiness.
ya Allah, janganlah Kau duga kami dengan dugaan yang tak tertanggung oleh kami..
sampai jumpa lagi.
Friday, December 30, 2005
Thursday, December 29, 2005
now, window shopping or movies are no longer my ideas of hanging out with frens...cos for me these two so-called-girls-thingy can wait for some other time, with ppl that i meet everyday (read: i live with)..but for those that i meet eyes to eyes only once a year (twice if lucky), i'd rather get some decent meals and chat about anything and nothing over it....or weird enough just sit next to each other without saying a thing..sometimes ppl just need the company not words...
i'm so enjoying my comfort zone at home that i subconsciously errr turn back into the old-bossy-tantrum-laden-girl..i bet no one would wanna see what i turn into when there's only 'nasi berlauk' for breakfast or i simply didnt get what i wished for..few times i had my families laughing at me,hurm!! and for the past few days, both my sis are home so i've been bullied endlessly..yes, i still quarrel with the younger and rebel with the elder at this age...and when i couldnt bear with their alliance, i turned to mum...
dilemma. i've got a month of hols left and somehow, i still couldnt fit in all the plan/trips into the calendar to satisfy all... hmmm, i sure have to give up my attachment this time and postpone it to next summer break...the thing is i really wanna spend some time with families and close frens who are living in the other parts of m'sia but at the same time, ihavent never have enough of my parents and home.i've promised my loved ones to spend some time together and if possible, i would wanna make them all..thats why i always wish to halve myself everytime holiday comes..to be home and somewhere else at the same time..haihh
i'm so enjoying my comfort zone at home that i subconsciously errr turn back into the old-bossy-tantrum-laden-girl..i bet no one would wanna see what i turn into when there's only 'nasi berlauk' for breakfast or i simply didnt get what i wished for..few times i had my families laughing at me,hurm!! and for the past few days, both my sis are home so i've been bullied endlessly..yes, i still quarrel with the younger and rebel with the elder at this age...and when i couldnt bear with their alliance, i turned to mum...
dilemma. i've got a month of hols left and somehow, i still couldnt fit in all the plan/trips into the calendar to satisfy all... hmmm, i sure have to give up my attachment this time and postpone it to next summer break...the thing is i really wanna spend some time with families and close frens who are living in the other parts of m'sia but at the same time, i
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
hmmmmmmmm, should've known.a bit strange cos been quite some time...somehow i think i can figure now why..sigh..sigh..sigh..
one big lesson i learnt : do not blame others but myself..cos when the faults are mine, there's nothing to hold againts anyone.. knowing me, its easier to act that way...
i'm off.
one big lesson i learnt : do not blame others but myself..cos when the faults are mine, there's nothing to hold againts anyone.. knowing me, its easier to act that way...
i'm off.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
TRALALALA...
Chinese series, Survivor's Law dah habis semalam..hari nih ade cerita baru plak..tengok iklan smalam (teng!teng!teng!) ada Ah Kin...wheeee, best2...last time saw him on tv was in f3 kot..tapi taknakla cerita mcm mana taksub and usahanya aku nak tgk/tahu pasal cerita yg dia berlakon tuh... sebab masa kat hostel so takleh tgk sgt...kang buat malu sendri jeh..lagipun bile once dah bukak cerita psl tgk tv time kat skola dulu, one story will lead to another..tengok2, habis terbongkar 'rahsia gelap' aku..tak ke bahaya??
Chinese series, Survivor's Law dah habis semalam..hari nih ade cerita baru plak..tengok iklan smalam (teng!teng!teng!) ada Ah Kin...wheeee, best2...last time saw him on tv was in f3 kot..tapi taknakla cerita mcm mana taksub and usahanya aku nak tgk/tahu pasal cerita yg dia berlakon tuh... sebab masa kat hostel so takleh tgk sgt...kang buat malu sendri jeh..lagipun bile once dah bukak cerita psl tgk tv time kat skola dulu, one story will lead to another..tengok2, habis terbongkar 'rahsia gelap' aku..tak ke bahaya??
Sunday, December 25, 2005
ONE THING...
about meeting any of my girl frens, i laughed a lot..i mean you are not suppose to start giggling before anything, rite? be it on the phone or while hang out together, i can laugh till my head ache later..
yesss, i did meet up with hani b*suk (or is it k*pam, aku dah confuse which one is which:p)..called me up when i no longer think she would...i mean she only had 2 weeks to spend in msia rite?.. answered the phone..this and that..then
'yatt, apsal suara ko mcm pempuan?"
*&#~^$# (huarghhhhhhhh, aku tak paham!)
my explanation: i didnt recognise the number so i was only trying to be polite..ggrrrrrr, next time i'll make sure i sound like a king kong or gorilla then lets see what ppl say,hahahahhah..
waited for her in kinokun!ya.. was about to replied to her sms and put the book back when
'yatttttttttt'
ok, she's here..hugged her there and then..spent next 3 hours laughing, gossiping and laughing..couldnt imagine if there were others of the crony to join us there...sure kena halau dgn pak guard..huhuhu..nway it was so nice to meet her again, great company and we sure shared lotsa past and future stories....ngehngehngeh!!
about meeting any of my girl frens, i laughed a lot..i mean you are not suppose to start giggling before anything, rite? be it on the phone or while hang out together, i can laugh till my head ache later..
yesss, i did meet up with hani b*suk (or is it k*pam, aku dah confuse which one is which:p)..called me up when i no longer think she would...i mean she only had 2 weeks to spend in msia rite?.. answered the phone..this and that..then
'yatt, apsal suara ko mcm pempuan?"
*&#~^$# (huarghhhhhhhh, aku tak paham!)
my explanation: i didnt recognise the number so i was only trying to be polite..ggrrrrrr, next time i'll make sure i sound like a king kong or gorilla then lets see what ppl say,hahahahhah..
waited for her in kinokun!ya.. was about to replied to her sms and put the book back when
'yatttttttttt'
ok, she's here..hugged her there and then..spent next 3 hours laughing, gossiping and laughing..couldnt imagine if there were others of the crony to join us there...sure kena halau dgn pak guard..huhuhu..nway it was so nice to meet her again, great company and we sure shared lotsa past and future stories....ngehngehngeh!!
HMMM...
Dear Student
On behalf of A/Prof T . Luff, Chair of Year 3 Board of Examiners, I write to inform you of the decisions arising from deliberations of the Yr 3 Board of Examiners held this week regarding your results.
Following review of your Semester 2 results, it has been determined that you have failed to meet satisfactory requirement for the Evidence Based Clinical Practice component of the course.
You are required to resubmit a response to the Therapy Critical Appraisal assessment task by 12.00 midday, Friday 13 January 2006.
Please submit your response by e-mail to kay.currie@med.monash.edu.au
Please include your name and Student ID number in the body of the email response and in the title of the message.
Late submissions will not be assessed.
If you have any difficulties, please contact Kay Currie by phone (Ph: +61 3 9594 7555) or email (see above).
Please acknowledge receipt of this message via return email ASAP.
Yours sincerely
Laura Salomone
First. Alhamdulillah, i did ok with my written exam and OSCE and need not to worry about going back early to sit for supp exam. Alhamdulillah.
Second. This. Served me right cos i took this assignment lightly. sigh. saki baki sikap melayu/M yg aku tak habis kikis lagi..suka ambil mudah kerja yang aku tak minat or tak reti,, malas pun boleh tahan..hmmm, lesson in hard way..
Basically for this asgn, i need to think of a clinical scenario and find an information gap..look up into the medical database for a relevant journal article and critically appraise it. so much so for my holiday..
Dear Student
On behalf of A/Prof T . Luff, Chair of Year 3 Board of Examiners, I write to inform you of the decisions arising from deliberations of the Yr 3 Board of Examiners held this week regarding your results.
Following review of your Semester 2 results, it has been determined that you have failed to meet satisfactory requirement for the Evidence Based Clinical Practice component of the course.
You are required to resubmit a response to the Therapy Critical Appraisal assessment task by 12.00 midday, Friday 13 January 2006.
Please submit your response by e-mail to kay.currie@med.monash.edu.au
Please include your name and Student ID number in the body of the email response and in the title of the message.
Late submissions will not be assessed.
If you have any difficulties, please contact Kay Currie by phone (Ph: +61 3 9594 7555) or email (see above).
Please acknowledge receipt of this message via return email ASAP.
Yours sincerely
Laura Salomone
First. Alhamdulillah, i did ok with my written exam and OSCE and need not to worry about going back early to sit for supp exam. Alhamdulillah.
Second. This. Served me right cos i took this assignment lightly. sigh. saki baki sikap melayu/M yg aku tak habis kikis lagi..suka ambil mudah kerja yang aku tak minat or tak reti,, malas pun boleh tahan..hmmm, lesson in hard way..
Basically for this asgn, i need to think of a clinical scenario and find an information gap..look up into the medical database for a relevant journal article and critically appraise it. so much so for my holiday..
WHEN 9599 ATTENDS A WEDDING RECEPTION...
i should say that i made a right decision to turn up to this wedding..was really overwhelmed seeing my good mates, some were long lost since we left school 6 years ago..damn, i wish i could be more expressive over how i felt and thought about this whole Aliza's wedding-who-turn-out-to-be-our-mini-gath..before that, i met up with ina, liyana and huda as they picked me up at LRT station and we headed to OU. We ended up 'bullying' each other(ok, i was actually the infamous victim:p) and trying (really hard) to talk sense over Peranakan meals...whee, thanks Liyana for the treat..then we bumped into chendol & kak mega..the latter was our headprefect when we were in F4 and believe me, she aint changed a bit..remembered each of us and we talked and joked like some good ol buddies..a living proof of a very-down-to-earth person..
back to the wedding..what can i say, out of 3 hours we spent there, only 30 mins that we really gave our attention to the food(suprise!suprise)..the rest of time= giggled, catched up with ppl, giggled again, cranky jokes, giggled again, posed for camera, giggled again, enjoyed the tv, giggled again...in fact we (or shall i say i personally) thought it's a wise decision to put our tables where they were cos errr hehehe, cant imagine if they were not...so so glad to meet a few that i never come into contact face-to-face or virtually since school life ended..but none of us changed..the same ol giggling bunches of 20-urmm-sumthing's..hahahah, i'll never grow old with these crowd..
Top 15 best-quoted dialoques..err anonymous simply means i cant remembered who said it and not to de-identify...
1.
Yatt: wehhhh hanin, tak sangka gila aku bleh jumpe ko kat sini (gaya excited)
Hanin: hahahaha, memang. aku pun..(excited jugak:p)
Yatt: ko nak tau, mase aku tgk nama ko kat list tuh aku pk 'isk, iyelah sgt hanin nak ade kat sini..takkan punye..hampeh budak tu, kasi nama mcm ye ye jeh nak dtg'..hahahah
Hanin: hahahaha, eleh ko tuh lagi tak logik nak ade kat sini..apsal ko kat sini nih??? pelik aku..hah hah??
Yatt:aku cuti aaa..eleh ko tuh..isk serius aku tak sangka bleh jumpe ko kat sini..
2.
Ina: hmm, Aliza nampak lain bile tgk..
Hanin: haahla, nmpk mcm muka ko..
LOL...
Yatt: haa ape ape?? (again i misses the jokes and they unhappily-but-just-have-to repeat the conversation).
3.
Mase Khai and Rosma nyanyi
Anonymous 1:wahh....mesti byk spend..
Anonymous 2: tuhla...tp Raml! MS ade tuh, so maybe sedara dia..then dptla invite diorg tu..
Then M!sha Omar plak..
Anonymous: ok, kaya kaya..
4.
Melati: ok nx year mase 1st anniversary dinner, aku nak ckp ' i want this table and i want this place'.
5.
Ina: Seri, boleh tak nak request lepas mkn nanti ko sendawa kuat2..utk ktrg..hehehe
Seri: wahhh, terharunye aku..ade permintaan..boleh boleh
6.
Ina: korang ingat tak mase f5 dulu ade skali masa prep mlm..org2 yg naik awal kat 5J. then ade org dtg kat depan and ckp "haaa, ade sape sape sakit kat rumah"(tuh dialog fevret ustazah)..padahal ustazah ade kat blakang mase tuh..
Whole SSPians at the table: LOL (chen sampe berair2 mata)..
Melati: sape la tuh??? hahah, kalu aku dah keluar skolah dah..
Anonymous: kalu aku, mmg letak jawatan aa...
7.
Again, mase Khai and Rosma tgh nyanyi..
Melati: ok korang, lepas nih jgn lupa...vote sms..
Yatt: haa ape dia ko ckp melat? (excuse:aku selang 3 kerusi dari dia:p)
8.
Ezleen introduced her other half to me...
Ezleen: haa yatt, dia pun org klantan jugak..(turned to him and said the same thing)
Yatt: ohh ye ke..duk mane?
Him: kota bharu..
Yatt:(out of nowhere)..hmm apelah korang nih..asal jumpe org n tanye duduk mane jeh, mesti kota bharu..kota bharu..takde tempat lain dah ke???haiihhh..
9.
Yatt: bla bla bla..hehehe..
Ifi: ko nih yatt, takde beza macam dulu gak..
Yatt: ape dia?? alamak ye ke..nih yg nak segan nih..tak berubah tang mane? *muka konon malu2*
Ifi: huh!! menyesalnye aku..why did i say all those things??
Yatt: hahahahahaha, amik ko!
10.
Meja 56 (us)
Ina: wehhh, meja kita nih bisingnye..tgk meja tuh, senyap jehh..
Hanin: haahla....ala meja tuh asal librarian.meja kita nih dining hall..
Ina: eh Hanin..sorang jeh librarian kat situ..yg meja kita nih, ko n melati tuh prefect..
Hanin: eh Ina, ko lupe ke ko pun prefect???
LOL..
Ina: eh, haahla..lupa aku..hahahah..eh chen ko makan tak? pinjam fork and spoon:p
11.
Peon: haah, aku penah kena tinggal ngan ayah aku sebab lambat..ko penah melat?
Melati: takk, aku tak penah kena tinggal dgn ayah aku mahupun ayah ko...
12.
guy-yang-sesat-kat-meja-kitorang: wehh, korang nih bisingla..macam pasar! (gaya melawak selepas asik dibuli dah diperli:p)
semua org: elehhhhh!!! cakap org...macam ko takk..sama jehh
13.
that-guy-again: bla bla dia nyanyi..bla bla sedap
Huda: haah, ko penyanyi kolej 2 kan?
that-guy-again: eh,hahaha (muka kalut)..cemana ko tahu??
Huda: alaaaaa, aku pun kolej 2 jugak..
14.
That-guy-again: korang nih satu skolah dgn Aliza ke?
Anonymous1: haah..sekolah dot dot dot
Anonymous2:(whisper)eh apsal ko ckp skola tuh?
Anonymous1: alaa...aku taknak menjatuhkan nama skola kita(muka konspirasi)
then when he knew our actual school's name..
That-guy-again: ohh, Aliza penah eh skola situ??
Anonymous: haah, penah..sekejap
That-guy-again: ohh, korang nih kire kawan sekejap la eh?
All of us: heyyyyy, kurang asam la ko...
15.
Hanin: ko nak tau, aku mase before sampai sini dah risau sbb dah lama tak jumpe korang..taktau cemana nak bckp kalau2 dah berubah ke.
Ina: heheh, so cemana??
Hanin: hahaha, tak berubah langsung...sama jeh korang..
to my dearest College Friend, you looked lovely in ur wedding dress. May Allah bless both of u and lead a happy married life..
to the rest of 9599's, meet u guys again in our next wedding-gath...
i should say that i made a right decision to turn up to this wedding..was really overwhelmed seeing my good mates, some were long lost since we left school 6 years ago..damn, i wish i could be more expressive over how i felt and thought about this whole Aliza's wedding-who-turn-out-to-be-our-mini-gath..before that, i met up with ina, liyana and huda as they picked me up at LRT station and we headed to OU. We ended up 'bullying' each other(ok, i was actually the infamous victim:p) and trying (really hard) to talk sense over Peranakan meals...whee, thanks Liyana for the treat..then we bumped into chendol & kak mega..the latter was our headprefect when we were in F4 and believe me, she aint changed a bit..remembered each of us and we talked and joked like some good ol buddies..a living proof of a very-down-to-earth person..
back to the wedding..what can i say, out of 3 hours we spent there, only 30 mins that we really gave our attention to the food(suprise!suprise)..the rest of time= giggled, catched up with ppl, giggled again, cranky jokes, giggled again, posed for camera, giggled again, enjoyed the tv, giggled again...in fact we (or shall i say i personally) thought it's a wise decision to put our tables where they were cos errr hehehe, cant imagine if they were not...so so glad to meet a few that i never come into contact face-to-face or virtually since school life ended..but none of us changed..the same ol giggling bunches of 20-urmm-sumthing's..hahahah, i'll never grow old with these crowd..
Top 15 best-quoted dialoques..err anonymous simply means i cant remembered who said it and not to de-identify...
1.
Yatt: wehhhh hanin, tak sangka gila aku bleh jumpe ko kat sini (gaya excited)
Hanin: hahahaha, memang. aku pun..(excited jugak:p)
Yatt: ko nak tau, mase aku tgk nama ko kat list tuh aku pk 'isk, iyelah sgt hanin nak ade kat sini..takkan punye..hampeh budak tu, kasi nama mcm ye ye jeh nak dtg'..hahahah
Hanin: hahahaha, eleh ko tuh lagi tak logik nak ade kat sini..apsal ko kat sini nih??? pelik aku..hah hah??
Yatt:aku cuti aaa..eleh ko tuh..isk serius aku tak sangka bleh jumpe ko kat sini..
2.
Ina: hmm, Aliza nampak lain bile tgk..
Hanin: haahla, nmpk mcm muka ko..
LOL...
Yatt: haa ape ape?? (again i misses the jokes and they unhappily-but-just-have-to repeat the conversation).
3.
Mase Khai and Rosma nyanyi
Anonymous 1:wahh....mesti byk spend..
Anonymous 2: tuhla...tp Raml! MS ade tuh, so maybe sedara dia..then dptla invite diorg tu..
Then M!sha Omar plak..
Anonymous: ok, kaya kaya..
4.
Melati: ok nx year mase 1st anniversary dinner, aku nak ckp ' i want this table and i want this place'.
5.
Ina: Seri, boleh tak nak request lepas mkn nanti ko sendawa kuat2..utk ktrg..hehehe
Seri: wahhh, terharunye aku..ade permintaan..boleh boleh
6.
Ina: korang ingat tak mase f5 dulu ade skali masa prep mlm..org2 yg naik awal kat 5J. then ade org dtg kat depan and ckp "haaa, ade sape sape sakit kat rumah"(tuh dialog fevret ustazah)..padahal ustazah ade kat blakang mase tuh..
Whole SSPians at the table: LOL (chen sampe berair2 mata)..
Melati: sape la tuh??? hahah, kalu aku dah keluar skolah dah..
Anonymous: kalu aku, mmg letak jawatan aa...
7.
Again, mase Khai and Rosma tgh nyanyi..
Melati: ok korang, lepas nih jgn lupa...vote sms..
Yatt: haa ape dia ko ckp melat? (excuse:aku selang 3 kerusi dari dia:p)
8.
Ezleen introduced her other half to me...
Ezleen: haa yatt, dia pun org klantan jugak..(turned to him and said the same thing)
Yatt: ohh ye ke..duk mane?
Him: kota bharu..
Yatt:(out of nowhere)..hmm apelah korang nih..asal jumpe org n tanye duduk mane jeh, mesti kota bharu..kota bharu..takde tempat lain dah ke???haiihhh..
9.
Yatt: bla bla bla..hehehe..
Ifi: ko nih yatt, takde beza macam dulu gak..
Yatt: ape dia?? alamak ye ke..nih yg nak segan nih..tak berubah tang mane? *muka konon malu2*
Ifi: huh!! menyesalnye aku..why did i say all those things??
Yatt: hahahahahaha, amik ko!
10.
Meja 56 (us)
Ina: wehhh, meja kita nih bisingnye..tgk meja tuh, senyap jehh..
Hanin: haahla....ala meja tuh asal librarian.meja kita nih dining hall..
Ina: eh Hanin..sorang jeh librarian kat situ..yg meja kita nih, ko n melati tuh prefect..
Hanin: eh Ina, ko lupe ke ko pun prefect???
LOL..
Ina: eh, haahla..lupa aku..hahahah..eh chen ko makan tak? pinjam fork and spoon:p
11.
Peon: haah, aku penah kena tinggal ngan ayah aku sebab lambat..ko penah melat?
Melati: takk, aku tak penah kena tinggal dgn ayah aku mahupun ayah ko...
12.
guy-yang-sesat-kat-meja-kitorang: wehh, korang nih bisingla..macam pasar! (gaya melawak selepas asik dibuli dah diperli:p)
semua org: elehhhhh!!! cakap org...macam ko takk..sama jehh
13.
that-guy-again: bla bla dia nyanyi..bla bla sedap
Huda: haah, ko penyanyi kolej 2 kan?
that-guy-again: eh,hahaha (muka kalut)..cemana ko tahu??
Huda: alaaaaa, aku pun kolej 2 jugak..
14.
That-guy-again: korang nih satu skolah dgn Aliza ke?
Anonymous1: haah..sekolah dot dot dot
Anonymous2:(whisper)eh apsal ko ckp skola tuh?
Anonymous1: alaa...aku taknak menjatuhkan nama skola kita(muka konspirasi)
then when he knew our actual school's name..
That-guy-again: ohh, Aliza penah eh skola situ??
Anonymous: haah, penah..sekejap
That-guy-again: ohh, korang nih kire kawan sekejap la eh?
All of us: heyyyyy, kurang asam la ko...
15.
Hanin: ko nak tau, aku mase before sampai sini dah risau sbb dah lama tak jumpe korang..taktau cemana nak bckp kalau2 dah berubah ke.
Ina: heheh, so cemana??
Hanin: hahaha, tak berubah langsung...sama jeh korang..
to my dearest College Friend, you looked lovely in ur wedding dress. May Allah bless both of u and lead a happy married life..
to the rest of 9599's, meet u guys again in our next wedding-gath...
Friday, December 16, 2005
INPUT
mase turun untuk breakfast...
ma: N nak ikut ma pegi dgr org ngajar?
me: boleh..pukul brape?
ma: tak lama nih...org tgh baca Quran..kejap lagi start la..
me: ohh N pegi mandi la eh...
mase nak turun dari keta kat masjid, nmpk a few kanak2 berjubah putih..baya sekolah rendah semua...tengah amik wudhuk..
me: alaahai comelnye budak2 tuh..
abah: anak2 murid dia la tuh...datang nak dengar
me: anak murid sape?
abah: ustaz nih la...bersih muka..
me: ooo...
tak rugi aku pergi..rasa puas hati..personally ceramah/kelas agama yg aku enjoy utk pergi:
1.TIADA UNSUR POLITIK.
2.tak lebih dari 1 jam cos after that aku dah takleh or susah nak concentrate.
3.similar to no 2, tak draggy..tak meleret2 sampe tak tahu mane hujung pangkal..last2 aku pun tak paham ape point nak disampaikan.
4.NON-JUDGEMENTAL to those who attend the class..semua org boleh pergi n insya Allah akan dpt ilmu sedikit sebanyak..so takdela tahap tinggi sangat sampaikan aku pun ternganga2 jeh tak paham..
5. kata2 yg revolve around Al-Quran and hadis..takde main ikut sedap mulut jeh..atau cakap boros kata org.
6. TIADA 'SICK/DIRTY JOKES'. urghhhh!!
alhamdulillah, ape yg aku dpt ingat/observe/faham:
- selawat itu mcm doa utk apa yang terlupa..sebab ustaz tuh evrytime nak recall ayat/nama yg dia tak ingat or terlupa akan selawat then dapat recite the ayat/nama.selalu kan kalu tgh cari2 barang hilang kita selawat sambil2.
- zaman Rasulullah, masjid sangat serba-guna. so boleh nmpk ke'gah'han rumah Allah in term of its functions and cemana org2 dulu appreciate masjid.
- jangan kita berpaling daripada 'org buta'..tak boleh nak act as in 'org buta' nih tak tahu ape2 so tak payah nak layan or kita buat derk jeh..in other words, jgn judge org samada setaraf ke tak dgn kita sebelum kita decide how to treat them...
- bukan setakat manusia jeh sayangkan Rasulullah, hatta benda yg tak bernyawa pun ade yang menangis sebab Rasulullah dan beri salam pada Rasulullah..so kita cemana??
- org tegur/nasihat selalunya sebab sayang.
mase turun untuk breakfast...
ma: N nak ikut ma pegi dgr org ngajar?
me: boleh..pukul brape?
ma: tak lama nih...org tgh baca Quran..kejap lagi start la..
me: ohh N pegi mandi la eh...
mase nak turun dari keta kat masjid, nmpk a few kanak2 berjubah putih..baya sekolah rendah semua...tengah amik wudhuk..
me: alaahai comelnye budak2 tuh..
abah: anak2 murid dia la tuh...datang nak dengar
me: anak murid sape?
abah: ustaz nih la...bersih muka..
me: ooo...
tak rugi aku pergi..rasa puas hati..personally ceramah/kelas agama yg aku enjoy utk pergi:
1.TIADA UNSUR POLITIK.
2.tak lebih dari 1 jam cos after that aku dah takleh or susah nak concentrate.
3.similar to no 2, tak draggy..tak meleret2 sampe tak tahu mane hujung pangkal..last2 aku pun tak paham ape point nak disampaikan.
4.NON-JUDGEMENTAL to those who attend the class..semua org boleh pergi n insya Allah akan dpt ilmu sedikit sebanyak..so takdela tahap tinggi sangat sampaikan aku pun ternganga2 jeh tak paham..
5. kata2 yg revolve around Al-Quran and hadis..takde main ikut sedap mulut jeh..atau cakap boros kata org.
6. TIADA 'SICK/DIRTY JOKES'. urghhhh!!
alhamdulillah, ape yg aku dpt ingat/observe/faham:
- selawat itu mcm doa utk apa yang terlupa..sebab ustaz tuh evrytime nak recall ayat/nama yg dia tak ingat or terlupa akan selawat then dapat recite the ayat/nama.selalu kan kalu tgh cari2 barang hilang kita selawat sambil2.
- zaman Rasulullah, masjid sangat serba-guna. so boleh nmpk ke'gah'han rumah Allah in term of its functions and cemana org2 dulu appreciate masjid.
- jangan kita berpaling daripada 'org buta'..tak boleh nak act as in 'org buta' nih tak tahu ape2 so tak payah nak layan or kita buat derk jeh..in other words, jgn judge org samada setaraf ke tak dgn kita sebelum kita decide how to treat them...
- bukan setakat manusia jeh sayangkan Rasulullah, hatta benda yg tak bernyawa pun ade yang menangis sebab Rasulullah dan beri salam pada Rasulullah..so kita cemana??
- org tegur/nasihat selalunya sebab sayang.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Perfect Stranger..
Browsed through the channel when i saw it was coming up next in HBO..quickly took my shower and settled in front of the tv. I've read the book but couldnt remember much about the story..so i thought why not watch the movie instead..after all, i'm alone again at home=(
So to speak, i enjoyed the movie very much..the similar contentment i got with Love Actually..there's something about these movie that i love watching..not the cliche' fling-and-flirt but more to chemistry and complimentary..shoot, i'm talking crap now!!*zip the mouth*
Hooked to the 6pm Chinese series on TV3..Survivor's Law..Ben vs Vincent, i go for Ben..aint that good looking but again, something about his character and the way he lead his life..errkk can i puke at my own words?? iyek!
Question: Am i being pampered at the moment? cos thats what i feel everybody's doing to me.. Ma no longer nag/scold me whenever i laze around in the morning not doing the chores and attend to all my cravings...adik's been complaining that i no longer get scolded by ma/abah but she still does,hehehe..brother who's being extra nice and thoughtful ...and Ayah Mie bought me this nice perfume. he said he bought it in june and kept it for me since so i decided to called it as an early birthday present.
err of course i'm not complaining =)
Browsed through the channel when i saw it was coming up next in HBO..quickly took my shower and settled in front of the tv. I've read the book but couldnt remember much about the story..so i thought why not watch the movie instead..after all, i'm alone again at home=(
So to speak, i enjoyed the movie very much..the similar contentment i got with Love Actually..there's something about these movie that i love watching..not the cliche' fling-and-flirt but more to chemistry and complimentary..shoot, i'm talking crap now!!*zip the mouth*
Hooked to the 6pm Chinese series on TV3..Survivor's Law..Ben vs Vincent, i go for Ben..aint that good looking but again, something about his character and the way he lead his life..errkk can i puke at my own words?? iyek!
Question: Am i being pampered at the moment? cos thats what i feel everybody's doing to me.. Ma no longer nag/scold me whenever i laze around in the morning not doing the chores and attend to all my cravings...adik's been complaining that i no longer get scolded by ma/abah but she still does,hehehe..brother who's being extra nice and thoughtful ...and Ayah Mie bought me this nice perfume. he said he bought it in june and kept it for me since so i decided to called it as an early birthday present.
err of course i'm not complaining =)
Monday, December 12, 2005
MEMO...
Never ever leave me alone at home...look what happen today when nobody's home by 9am and its raining outside...
12 pm
1.Bfast-done(not yet? ur kidding,hehehe)
2.Shower- errr aaaa hehehe (told ya:p)
3.Houhehold duties- half (quarter to be more accurate) way
4.TV-hours
5.Internet-hours
6.Cooking- erkk
and i'm feeling very sleepy after finishing my daily doses of nasi kerabu...
so mum, pls dont complain if u see me in my pyjama at this hour and the house isnt the way it is suppose to be cos i cant funtion alone..told u before rite? =D
i'm off to the living room to watch some tv (read:doze off) while waiting for others to come home...
Never ever leave me alone at home...look what happen today when nobody's home by 9am and its raining outside...
12 pm
1.Bfast-done(not yet? ur kidding,hehehe)
2.Shower- errr aaaa hehehe (told ya:p)
3.Houhehold duties- half (quarter to be more accurate) way
4.TV-hours
5.Internet-hours
6.Cooking- erkk
and i'm feeling very sleepy after finishing my daily doses of nasi kerabu...
so mum, pls dont complain if u see me in my pyjama at this hour and the house isnt the way it is suppose to be cos i cant funtion alone..told u before rite? =D
i'm off to the living room to watch some tv (read:doze off) while waiting for others to come home...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
LIFE IS GOOD
he kept me occupied for a week..tasks included kejut suruh bangun subuh..nagged suruh stop main games utk smayang n mandi..temankan tgk vcd cerita2 hantu..layan dgr lagu jiwang dia tuh n suapkan makan...yep, malas nak ber'perang' utk suruh mkn, susah sgttt..in between, sukela kacau2 dia main games, layan kelentong n loyar buruk dia..and buat dia merajuk..hahaha, ala senang jeh nak pujuk..mesti aku akan nyanyi lagu nih
kik kik koo..
nukub berah...
sikit nak suko(sikit nak suka/gelak)
suko deghah(suka/gelak kuat2)
gerenti dia akan sorok muka sbb nak hide his grin..then he complained "slalu nyanyi lagu ni..." another trick is to pretend to sulk n buat x layan..sure lps tuh dia akan datang ngendeng n buat2 baik..hahahah
oh my, i missed him so so muchhh...trase mcm ade little brother..sgt best..
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nukub berah...
sikit nak suko(sikit nak suka/gelak)
suko deghah(suka/gelak kuat2)
gerenti dia akan sorok muka sbb nak hide his grin..then he complained "slalu nyanyi lagu ni..." another trick is to pretend to sulk n buat x layan..sure lps tuh dia akan datang ngendeng n buat2 baik..hahahah
oh my, i missed him so so muchhh...trase mcm ade little brother..sgt best..
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cuti kali nih byk jumpe/terjumpa kawan lama as in kawan skola rendah..smalam pun pegi rumah kwn merangkap sedara jauh for her engagement day...rezki dapat jumpe sorang lagi kwn lama...so x payahla nak penat2 plan nak jumpe,hehehe... kwn sorang lg nih study medic kat HUSM n been keeping in touch with her once in a while..catched up with things n planned to meet up again...haih, duduk umah nih mmg patah kaki..nak kuar malas unless dgn parents or betul2 ade hal...ikutkan ade la sorang dua kwn kat sini yg nak jumpe tp ntah tak terplan2 lagi..mase b4 balik mmgla bukan main lg ckp nak jumpe tp bile kat rumah nih, occupied dgn household chores campur malas..heheh
kedah's trip was good...spent time with my sooo-pampered-preggy sister..since abg K keje so xdela jln2 sgt..tp mkn sgt byk...x sempat lapar dah makan balik..hahah..lawak abah yg paling best
"hmm kalu panggil abg K jadik kuda la"
"eh, bakpo(apsal) pulak abah?"
"yelah, abg D dah ade..abg U dah ade..abg ngah dulu2 org panggil E"
"lol"
pastu tgk cite indon nih, kiamat sudah dekat...best jugakk cos klakar tp ade mesej yg sgt bagus...
i'm expecting more fun nx week..2 weddings of seri puter!'s CF (college fren) and junior m0nash..ikutkan ade 2 invitation for the same date..M(housemate) punye akak n Al!za, my CF mase kat skola...at first mmg ingatkan akan miss Al!za's wedding cos dpt invitation from M lagi awal n wedding akak dia pun kat klantan so senangla...tp pk2 balik, this is the only chance to meet up my other SSP frens cos skang sume dah bz n ade commitment lain..last2 decided to go to Aliza's, last mins confirmed and really looking forward for that..plus insya Allah will be staying over at L!yana's place after the function..wheeeeeeee!! another one is Ana, my Monash junior..hopefully dpt pegi and jumpe other ppl jugak..sure byk gossip aaa=p..sume2 nih insya Allahhhhh kalu xde halangan...hmm, dua2 yg nak kawen nih ade Yasm!n kat blakang nama diiorg..errr relevant tak nak tulis kat sini,hehehe...
alhamdulillah, i thank HIM for all this
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
i dunno..maybe i'm living in denial...maybe its all rumours and nothing's actually gonna happen..at this point, ignorance is a bliss for me...i cant take it for any reason, even to think of the possibilities for it to happen make me feel sick..the only strength i have now are my little prayers and those who's been there for me...otherwise,God knows what would happen to me..
needless to say, at the same time i learnt the invaluable hikmahs behind it...tho i might be living in insecurities and fear for all my life thinking and worrying about this, i'll keep on praying for the good thing..silent prayers sent to me, very much appreciated=)
on another note, i'll be visiting my preggie sis in kedah tomorrow..spend a few days there...then back home before going to kl ..so peon, see u at the wedding reception(syhhhh tau!!) and hani-izhar, msgkan contact no in msia so that we can plan up something..anything, i'm using the old 017...
needless to say, at the same time i learnt the invaluable hikmahs behind it...tho i might be living in insecurities and fear for all my life thinking and worrying about this, i'll keep on praying for the good thing..silent prayers sent to me, very much appreciated=)
on another note, i'll be visiting my preggie sis in kedah tomorrow..spend a few days there...then back home before going to kl ..so peon, see u at the wedding reception(syhhhh tau!!) and hani-izhar, msgkan contact no in msia so that we can plan up something..anything, i'm using the old 017...
Sunday, December 04, 2005
cos of the news/rumours this morning, my hols came to its end.damn sad and confused. tears couldnt find their way and i couldnt bring myself to look into the eyes. not hatred but i wish i never got asked about it. SIGH. i hate to be noble and i hate to pretend..i am one hell of selfish and if this news is to be true, i am damned for life.
life has been really really good to me for the past week. wish i've written the experiences earlier so that it'll be full of joy and contentment. staying home and caring for the 3 lil boys of nephew and cousins...balik kg, met the old folks, played with lil cousins and ate my fav dish...reunited with my childhood fren whom i last saw in form 3 and just got married last saturday, catched up with things.all breeze for me. life was soooooo perfect that last nite, i thot it couldnt be true. life couldnt be this smooth and there need to be something bad. just when i thot, it then happened..
i soo wanna erase the conversation. i soooo wanna be invisible. i soooo wanna pour it all. but the decision isnt mine tho. no matter how much i hate it, it still can happen and i'll be damned for life.
quiet.
life has been really really good to me for the past week. wish i've written the experiences earlier so that it'll be full of joy and contentment. staying home and caring for the 3 lil boys of nephew and cousins...balik kg, met the old folks, played with lil cousins and ate my fav dish...reunited with my childhood fren whom i last saw in form 3 and just got married last saturday, catched up with things.all breeze for me. life was soooooo perfect that last nite, i thot it couldnt be true. life couldnt be this smooth and there need to be something bad. just when i thot, it then happened..
i soo wanna erase the conversation. i soooo wanna be invisible. i soooo wanna pour it all. but the decision isnt mine tho. no matter how much i hate it, it still can happen and i'll be damned for life.
quiet.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Captured...
'syakir nak ape cik N balik nih?'
'gambar steven gerrard ade?'
'erkkk, adui'
twice i got the same reply..printing the pics from internet wasnt so appealing so i ended up buying a football mags with gerrard mini poster..he's at the airport when i arrived and the next day, i gave him the mags..pleased to see the happy face and how excitedly he flipped thru the pages, shared his idea about soccer with his Tok Ayah (my Ayah Mie)..later he came up to me
'thank you'
'eh for what?'
'for this'*sheepish smile*
heeeee...
'syakir nak ape cik N balik nih?'
'gambar steven gerrard ade?'
'erkkk, adui'
twice i got the same reply..printing the pics from internet wasnt so appealing so i ended up buying a football mags with gerrard mini poster..he's at the airport when i arrived and the next day, i gave him the mags..pleased to see the happy face and how excitedly he flipped thru the pages, shared his idea about soccer with his Tok Ayah (my Ayah Mie)..later he came up to me
'thank you'
'eh for what?'
'for this'*sheepish smile*
heeeee...
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uptown girl..she's been living in an uptown world...
as far as i can remember, he' been into this song since 4 years old. at that time, he would bug me to play the song on the computer and hum along. this summer, its this same song he excitedly asked me about and play it again and again on the computer.
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'jom syakir, esok kite lawan main games''
heheh, nak main game ape?''
hmmm, football la''reti ke??' *chehh*
'eeee retilaaa..nti cik N kalahkan syakir,haaaaaa;p'
'okk'
after 1 mins and he's leading by 1 goal, he asked my cousin to take over me..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
*******
'murah je nih ma..'
'nih berapa nih kalu duit kite?'
'hmmm, **rm..'
'uhhhh, mahalnye..comel, knapa beli satu jeh?'
'aikk ma, tadi kata mahal pastu tanye apsal beli satu..haahhaaha, mane satu nih?'
*******
'ape dia ma?'
'esok ma abah raya, dah habis pose...kita celebratelaa masak laksa penang..pagi tuh nasi lemak'
'YEAYYYYYYYY!!'
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11 am...
'cik N, syakir nak tgk cite hantu'
'cite ape? cite hantu hindustan nak?'
'hmmm, x kisahla..'
aku belek2 vcd
'haaa, syakir cite hantu jepun nak? Ju-On..'
'takut ke?'
'hehe, x tahu..cik N pun x tgk lg''
bolehlaa, mane selimut?''
'hahahahaahahh, takutla tuhh..tuh ade selimut..amik cik N satu'
later,
'haaa cik N x tgk,takutla tuhh!!'
'mmgla cik N takut...nak tgk sebelah mata jeh'
i would trade the world to be home...
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