8am-5pm

hmmm, never thot that time could fly thisss fast.. i kept losing track of time, i.e i thought today's thursday instead of tuesday and i hardly have time to sit down and do nothing (not to say that i dont do leisure stuff, heapsss;p) in a way, this is to compensate the 'gala time' i had last week but i'm not complaining at all, in fact i enjoy every bit of the day..workhaholic? maybe maybe not. the self-worthiness and satisfaction is just too rewarding, plus i found myself less guilty over my slack in managing time. tiredness is a sure thing but i'll live with it.

its a blessing that i dont get much pressure from the superior colleagues in the hospital to perform like a genius cos i AM NOT, and they acknowledge the fact. most of them expect mistakes and want us to learn through the mistakes, which is so reality-check. another reason that keeps me contented with my clinical experiences.

also, i took a simple approach to ignore ppl's words about the worst-has-yet-to-happen-this year..i've had enough of that in the past that this time around i just snap back whenever ppl started on it. not smugly but exasperately. pls, spare me the whine and let me experience it myself, for whatever stressful-crazy-time-you-claim-it'll-be-for-this-year. i'm trying to be positive here and all i ask for is either some 'you can do it too' or shut up say nothing at all.

this might do for this week..

7 WEIRD habits

ok, i'll do this one first...

1. kalau sebut 'alamak', mesti tangan letak kat tepi kepala...gaya seseorang yg pelupa=D

2. i LOVE to tag along with my parents in the car when i'm back home..doesnt matter where and for how long, i'll be more than happy to be at the backseat and enjoy my solitude.

3. as i mostly occupy the co-pilot/passenger seat, i often lost in my own thought during car trip. thats why ppl shuldnt ask me for direction or assistance in tracking the road..i'm hopeless due to the above mentioned.

4. enjoyed bersila atas kerusi, tak kisahla tgh makan ke, tgk movie ke, buat kerja ke..kaki mesti atas kerusi, err bukan atas meja yer=p

5. kalu tido, mesti selubung sampai ke kepala...worst come to worst kalu takde selimut, akan guna bantal..it runs in the family

6.suka makan pedas tp tak tahan pedas..hehehe, macam kalau masak ramai2 akan pesan 'masak pedas2 tau'...pastu mesti kena balik 'elehhhh, nti sape yg tak tahan pedas???dia jugakk'..ngaaaaa

7. i have this ability to sing a song with a new lyric. composed spontaneously. usually it comes about when im in the middle of humming the song and something happened...hahaha

having said all this, pls dont give me that weird look=p

i wanna tag...............................7 lucky link-ees ( as in those in my link list, ok;p) who havent done this. feel free=)

Love means knowing when to let go....
' Even when the relations between us had been strained, he had always been my shield, my guardian, my greatest ally. Even when we bickered and fought, even when i had dissapointed him or let him down, i had always been secure in the knowledge that we would still do anything for me. now all that was gone'- Man and Boy.

damn, i got tears in my eyes when reading the last few chapters..

Nothing significant...

so i'll just ramble, ok. lets see, i declined two invitation for today...one was to play badminton and another one was to watch movie. sorry mates, i just wanna stay home today and enjoy the last day of SUKOZ(hahaha, i culpritly changes the abbreviation to show my much Annoyance (notice the capital A??) with the tv station and sports commentator). plus i've had too much fun these past few days up until yesterday, so maybe i need to settle down a bit and get back to study..tho i hardly finish a chapter for today due to err hot weather and usual laziness..

few days ago, F asked me this caught-me-off-guard-question, i bet she'd been asking the same question around and got diff views and ideas. as honest as i can be, i still thought that the answer was pretty LAME.hohohohoho.. . we talked a bit more about it ..so she said for my case, its the perseverance . dictionary defines it as to continue trying to achieve a particular aim in spite of difficulties ...mind u, she's been listening to me for all this while to come up with that big word *nodding*.. may that kind of person still exist;)

finally, i completed the template..

sms...

biasa je. tadi danish cry masa dia tgk kartun. dia pun g kat danish buat ssshhh ngan jari dia. bising kot. tapi tak boleh dia 2 org tu. takut dia kiss adiknya...

alahaii, rindunyaaa=(

Howdy Mate: Tabik pelajar kita sanggup ikat perut untuk beri sokongan(source: Berita Harian)

SEMANGAT sekumpulan pelajar negara yang sanggup mengeluarkan belanja sendiri untuk hadir di Melbourne untuk memberi sokongan kepada kontinjen negara di Sukan Komanwel, sememangnya sesuatu yang amat dibanggakan.
Pelajar ini bukan saja daripada kalangan pelajar di Melbourne tetapi di serata Australia termasuk Darwin, Sydney dan juga Perth, semuanya dengan hasrat yang sama - memberi sokongan kepada atlit negara.
Ada yang sanggup menaiki kereta api selama 12 jam dari Sydney ke Melbourne dan kemudian menumpang di rumah rakan. Tidak kurang juga yang terpaksa mengikat perut untuk perbelanjaan perjalanan jauh serta tiket pertandingan kerana sedar temasya sebegini bukan datang selalu.
Sudah tentu peluang untuk menyaksikan atlit bertaraf dunia beraksi tidak mahu dilepaskan apa lagi sesudah berada di negara Down Under ini. Apa lagi berpeluang untuk melihat pemain negara secara lebih dekat, tentunya ia sesuatu yang lebih menarik.
Pengorbanan pelajar sebegini wajar dihargai oleh kontinjen negara atau atlit yang bakal menyertai pertandingan di luar negara pada masa depan sama ada dibalas dengan keputusan terbaik atau sekadar menghabiskan sedikit masa untuk beramah mesra dengan mereka.
Kerana mereka inilah peminat sebenar yang sanggup berhabis dan berkorban masa demi sukan negara, tidak seperti sesetengah pihak sekadar hadir kerana syok sendiri menerusi tiket percuma.
Bagi penyokong yang bernasib baik, ada yang mendapat kemeja T Harimau Malaysia yang diagihkan kontinjen negara tetapi untuk penyokong sejati seperti mereka, ia bukannya keutamaan walaupun pasti bersyukur jika mendapatnya.
Seperti kebiasaan, masih ada VIP mahupun orang yang menganggap dirinya VIP serta anak-anak mereka yang hanya sanggup berhabis untuk membeli belah tetapi ‘menyusahkan’ pihak lain bagi mendapatkan mereka tiket percuma menyaksikan Sukan Komanwel ini.
Lebih pelik, kelompok ini hanya mahukan tiket acara yang menjanjikan emas seperti badminton – mungkin sekadar mahu kelihatan berada di sana kononnya merekalah peminat sejati.
Jika dilihat latar belakang kelompok ini, rasanya mereka berkemampuan untuk membeli tiket sendiri tetapi nyata lebih gemar menggunakan saluran tertentu bagi mendapatkan keistimewaan sedangkan pada masa sama menafikan hak orang lain yang terpaksa menyerahkan tiket bagi diserahkan kepada kelompok berkenaan.
Terpaksalah juga pengurus pasukan skuad badminton negara, Ahmad Mohd Idris terkejar-kejar menguruskan tiket dan menyerahkannya kepada ‘si-peminat’, sedangkan tugasnya adalah untuk menguruskan pemain negara.
Bagi penulis, kelompok seperti ini ‘sendiri mahu fikirlah’ sebelum terus menjadi bahan ketawa di kalangan media dan pegawai sukan.

...makan cili? rasa pedas?hehehe, nasiblaaa

click here for more pics & review on the game;)

and in NST..

The action didn't stop, and Kuhan gave the Malaysian fans plenty to shout about with another goal in the 58th minute to draw level, and suddenly, a victory over Pakistan looked possible....

Mum-daughter telepathy....

Last nite, i contemplated to make a direct call to my mum using handphone coz i ran out of calling card but knowing she wasnt home at that time, i cancelled the plan.

This morning, i felt a bit uneased and planned to sms her out but didnt....i simply forgot in the middle of rush.

This same morning, i received an sms from her..

'Rindunya lama tak dengar berita...'

oh my my, guilt almost numbed me...its actually less than 2 weeks since i last called her, a bit of record as compared to weekly doses of call last year..

MALAYSIA BOLEHH!!

look at the colourful background...

Malays!a started off with 1-0

Then Pak!stan scored to make it 1-4

Later the score was 2-5

We managed to catch up till 5-5

But they scored an extra goal not long after our 5th goal =(

Nevertheless, we made it to the semi-final, wohooo!!!

It was a GREAT game..full of adrenaline rush and i'm mostly amazed by their fighting spirit, despite the blazing hot autmn.

As a result, i only have a photo of them in action. too busy cheering with the clan=)

Proudest moment after the match...

Going crazy?

It feels like i havent studied hard enough and yes, this thought can be quite stressful. Not that i fancy the idea of studying 24/7 but i think i shuld be doing a bit more. shoot. this doesnt make me feel any good.

crapp!

A QUICK ONE...

In the middle of this impossible schedule, i managed to get myself another hockey ticket for Melb'2006. Its Malays!a vs Pak!stan, tomorrow morning. Tutes/Clinic/Theatre? err what're all those?? nyehnyehnyeh...

In less than 24 hours, i've been tagged by her and her ...errrrrrr you ppl sure know how to dig in my deepest darkest secrets??=p

This is what weekend's all about...

for saturday,

before the match...

during the match...

Msia 8- 0 Tr!nidad & Tobago...C0mm0nwealth Games, Melb0urne 2006

after the match

...and for sunday

binge time at kak sajar's house;) my tummy must've stretched out for that day...hehehe

Elated...

i'm ecstatic about the upcoming events for this weekend. so much so, i feel lost amid the excitement,ngaaaaaa....

Melb0urne 2006

I'm so gonna enjoy this =D

Mumba Festival...


worst thing: i forgot my camera=( i guess, Dory is really my middle name..heheh

'Too Much Pride Can Kill A Man'- Daredev!l

Warm hearted

A: nasib baik la aku ada kawan macam ko ngan To*e..
A: apa korang cakap sangat make sense pada aku
A: thanks a lot yatt...
A: ko tak tau how much it means for me..

sometimes it doesnt take all the sweetest talk to make ppl feel appreciated. this one will do for me...

Little dreams

~> For my final year (insya Allah) it'll be great if i can do my selective block in UK/Eire and then spend my holiday block of 6 weeks to travel and visit my frens.. hmmm, so much for dream comes true =D The only things that make it a bit tricky now is to get permission from my parents and to find someone to be my company, otherwise i'm game.i know, the other tempting destination would be Msia but at the moment i feel like going places ...

~> I'd love to stay in melb for another year or two after the graduation. Its not that i dont miss Msia and the ppl (plus the FOOD) but again, i feel like doing something more over here..work experiences and watsnot. so Nisa, i feel you about making this decision (tho i might be lacking one individual to think/consider about =p)

~>I dont think practising medicine (insya Allah) in East Msia is a bad idea altogether. hehehe, i must've gone crazy to say this but i'd like to have a bit of feel living in sabah/sarawak for some time. its more to prove my survival skills i guess ( as if i havent spend enough time away=p ) and get to know other ppl...could've been influenced by some reading about ppl's adventures as well..

~> this one, i'd like to keep it to myself thank u=)

we'll see how i go about all these. doesnt matter if none comes true, at least i know i've lived to my dreams until then..

=D

wheee, i'm done with the Core Curriculum's notes *sigh in relief*

wheee, i borrowed another 4 storybooks from JM's library.

wheee, i slept for more than 8 hours last nite *gulp in guilt*

wheee, i'm gonna continue on reading Ten Teachers' book.

whee, i bicycled around the neighbourhood this evening.

wheee, i have these dreams i do not wish to let go just yet.

wheee, i'm happy.

=D

12:30 am

and i was wide awake, laughing and joking around with the housemates.

Z: nih apsal tak tido lagi nih..
aku: (tersenyap)
Z: ohhh, patutla dia takde kelas esokk..cett
aku: ohh, cakap dgn aku ke?? hahahaha

Saje-saje...


Down under collections, tho some are specially brought from msia;) but now all are safely kept in the wardrobe..takut habuk nanti;)


these two who often cilok my space to sleep..bak kata L, bear tuh lagi besar dari aku..hahaha, mmg penyibuk pun dua2 nih, penah jugak terfikir 'hmm, sape yg nak tido sebenarnye nih??..' =p



hehe, bunny choc nih aku dapat mase dekat2 easter last year which was around April from a tutor.. tapi aku sayang nak makan so ingat nak simpan dulu..simpan punye simpan, last week baru noticed balik and decided nak makan..so adela dekat setahun dia jadi hiasan kat study table aku..comei!

Suprise suprise!!

yesterday was full of fun. N and i proceed with our plan to watch the very longgggg overdue movie of lion-witch-wardrobe..shessshh, i know it's very very long overdue but does it matter?hehe...anyway, N came up with this idea last weekend so i thought why not. Off we went to The Village together with A,M,Z who had their fair share of shopping spree while we spend the 2 hours fascinated and moved by the story.

Later was the weekly doses of women making waves. with the blistering hot weather for the past 3 days, this one was definitely heaven. Came back home with a pack of grilled Nando's chicken and chips. The household was getting ready for movie time as i started my dinner. Yes, i noticed they were hissing and 'kalut-ing' over God-knows-what but couldnt bother to ask. was about to go downstairs and upon seeing me, they looked pretty 'upset' and 'gelabah', so i simply turn back and said

'sorry, tak kacau..'

all i can guess was that they might be planning on some suprise but again, i kept my nose out of it. they urged me to go to S' room for the movie, came upstairs with food and smiled from ears to ear. Then when they sang the song for me & S, i looked at them blankly and the 1st thing that came out from my mouth:

'tak fahamm... kenapa korang buat nih?'

ok, this was suppose to be a suprise belated birthday for me & S =D they should be thankful for my nature of LPU-lambat pick up that i didnt suspect anything, not even noticed the cake they were about to take out from the oven when i went downstairs earlier. hahahaha.


to Z, M, A,B,I: loads of thanks for this sweet thought..who would've guessed that i'll be having my birthday cake 2 months post the date? the bestest hand-made prune cake ever (courtesy of I) and sushi treat ;)

Continued

I actually read Hani's when i 1st know about the news. i feel so hopeless being at the other end of the world, not knowing what's gonna happen next and how she's doing at the moment. lucky there's this strong circle of sisterhood we managed to keep up despite the distances. sms-ed and IM-ed around to get the updates. a bit relieved to know that she's recovering well.

as far as aneesa's concern, i've always admired her strong will and determination. she's one hell of a tough lass, hardly give up on anything and never put herself down. Girl,i pray for ur speedy recovery and wish to be there for u..*hugs*

Deep scar...

We both agree that no matter how good things are now, the scar will remain there. 'walaupun semua dah ok, parutnye masih ada'. to see how much she's affected by this and how much he has/might have changed devastated me. personally, nothing will ever be the same for me again. pain and anguish lingers, so does the voice at the back of my head. i was also being told about the happenings in my absence, much to my suprise and relief. i'm entitled to be sad and dissapointed over this, but i decided not to. instead, i wanna move on with life together with her and try my best to be good to all. i need strength so He gives me strength..

p/s: n!esa, i just read about ur admittance to the hospital in han!'s blog. i'm so sorry to hear and pray for ur speedy recovery. take a good care of urself , please=)

p/s: im not the best person to say this but try not to lose hope, mr robot. even if all fails u, turn to HIM. prayers is as worth as ur effort, i'd say. be it fyp or anything. to annoy u a bit: u shuldnt settle the migraine with other's meds. its much much better and safer to get urself a prescription. no coercion though.

Tough=)

its not easy to stand tall and keep up the spirit.

all this while, i seems to put myself in a difficult situation where i assume a lot and risk nothing. yes, ppl who knows me well will understand what i'm trying to say here. maybe i've listen to more than enough stories that in the end, i just wanna protect myself from those experiences. a bit of coward u might say. but as time goes by, i figured that i aint gain anything from the self-built shield. not to say that i've thrown away completely the shield though.

i hope no one has misread my writings. nothing is really happening. i'm still the old me who laughs more and sleep even more. sheshh!

How's that?

i was in the library to print out some notes while waiting for my O&G mate to go to the ward. Something went wrong with the thumbdrive and i was busy asking around when my phone rang the sms tone.

there's this guy at my back who turned to me and said
'thats the coolest ringtone eva..'

i had to laugh.i did. it sort of tickled me cos all this while, there have other ppl who commented on the tone and 'romantic' seemed to be the popular one*d'ohh*

hmm, lantak korangla nak kata ape pun....