*Can i skip the RaYa?*

...*SIGH* now its not about the placement for nx year anymore as Allah has shed us on this thing, Alhamdulillah..

...the feeling is getting worse from day to day. its 2 days b4 Eid but i couldnt find any single reason to be happy...i'll be missing Ramadhan so much :(( suasana bile bgn awal pagi n kejutkan org lain dlm rumah utk bgn sahur..well, more to temankan aku makan kat bawah actuallynye:p suasana masak ramai2 utk berbuka..eventho this time mknn x semeriah dulu2 and jarang sgt try buat kuih, aku puas hati sbb x membazir and aku enjoy riuh rendah time kat dapur..mane nak potong bawang..mane nak pegang mic utk nyanyi =) suasana masa terawikh..either kat beddoe mosque or kat rumah..syahdu rasanya...bertemukah aku dgn Ramadhan next year??...

...of course aku miss my family n suasana kat rumah di msia..riuh rendah time nak berbuka and balik dari terawikh..persiapan nak beraya maybe xdela sehebat mana...biasa2 jeh tapi aku seronok dok rumah...at least suasana nak beraya tuh tetap ada n aku x rasa sunyi :((

...tapi yg paling aku sedih bile tringat environment here..rasanya sedih aku mase 1st time raya kat sini x seteruk thn nih..time tuh still lagi beramai2 buat persiapan raya...memasing berpakat buat keje sesama.. tapi this year sume tuh dah xde...hmmmm, dunno what went wrong and i never thot that things will turn out this way ...i dont blame anyone as ppl have their own right to choose..i never know how to put it into words but this morning, a fren referred it as a peer pressure, is he right?? but after 2 years, my circle of frens is shrinking here and i dont feel belonged anymore...ppl cant accept my quietness but i dont have any other choice...maybe that's one of the reason why i'm fated to move away next year...to getaway maybe?

...aku x nak raya datang..aku nak biar Ramadhan jeh sampai bila2..aku x suke raya this yer!